Theresheis。’
’Why,sister,’saysthegentlemanvery
gravely,’whatdoyoumean?
Ionlydesirehertodointothe
HighStreet’andthenhepullsoutaturnover,’tosuchashop’;
andthenhetellsthemalongstoryoftwofineneckclothshe
hadbidmoneyfor,andhewantedtohavemegoandmakean
errandtobuyanecktotheturnoverthatheshowed,toseeif
theywouldtakemymoneyfortheneckcloths;tobidashilling
more,andhagglewiththem;andthenhemademoreerrands,
andsocontinuedtohavesuchpettybusinesstodo,thatIshould
besuretostayagoodwhile。
Whenhehadgivenmemyerrands,hetoldthemalongstory
ofavisithewasgoingtomaketoafamilytheyallknew,and
wherewastobesuch-and-suchgentlemen,andhowmerry
theyweretobe,andveryformallyaskshissisterstogowith
him,andtheyasformallyexcusedthemselves,becauseof
companythattheyhadnoticewastocomeandvisitthemthat
afternoon;which,bytheway,hehadcontrivedonpurpose。
Hehadscarcedonespeakingtothem,andgivingmemy
errand,buthismancameuptotellhimthatSirW——H——’s
coachstoppedatthedoor;soherunsdown,andcomesup
againimmediately。
’Alas!’sayshealoud,’there’sallmy
mirthspoiledatonce;sirW——hassenthiscoachforme,
anddesirestospeakwithmeuponsomeearnestbusiness。’
ItseemsthisSirW——wasagentlemanwholivedaboutthree
milesoutoftown,towhomhehadspokenonpurposetheday
before,tolendhimhischariotforaparticularoccasion,and
hadappointedittocallforhim,asitdid,aboutthreeo’clock。
Immediatelyhecallsforhisbestwig,hat,andsword,and
orderinghismantogototheotherplacetomakehisexcuse——
thatwastosay,hemadeanexcusetosendhismanaway——he
preparestogointothecoach。
Ashewasgoing,hestoppeda
while,andspeaksmightyearnestlytomeabouthisbusiness,
andfindsanopportunitytosayverysoftlytome,’Comeaway,
mydear,assoonaseveryoucan。’
Isaidnothing,butmadea
curtsy,asifIhaddonesotowhathesaidinpublic。
Inabout
aquarterofanhourIwentouttoo;Ihadnodressotherthan
before,exceptthatIhadahood,amask,afan,andapairof
glovesinmypocket;sothattherewasnottheleastsuspicion
inthehouse。
Hewaitedformeinthecoachinaback-lane,
whichheknewImustpassby,andhaddirectedthecoachman
whithertogo,whichwastoacertainplace,calledMileEnd,
wherelivedaconfidantofhis,wherewewentin,andwhere
wasalltheconvenienceintheworldtobeaswickedaswe
pleased。
Whenweweretogetherhebegantotalkverygravelytome,
andtotellmehedidnotbringmetheretobetrayme;thathis
passionformewouldnotsufferhimtoabuseme;thathe
resolvedtomarrymeassoonashecametohisestate;thatin
themeantime,ifIwouldgranthisrequest,hewouldmaintain
meveryhonourably;andmademeathousandprotestations
ofhissincerityandofhisaffectiontome;andthathewould
neverabandonme,andasImaysay,madeathousandmore
preamblesthanheneedtohavedone。
However,ashepressedmetospeak,ItoldhimIhadno
reasontoquestionthesincerityofhislovetomeaftersomany
protestations,but——andthereIstopped,asifIlefthimto
guesstherest。
’Butwhat,mydear?’sayshe。
’Iguesswhat
youmean:
whatifyoushouldbewithchild?
Isnotthatit?
Why,then,’sayshe,’I’lltakecareofyouandprovideforyou,
andthechildtoo;andthatyoumayseeIamnotinjest,’says
he,’here’sanearnestforyou,’andwiththathepullsoutasilk
purse,withanhundredguineasinit,andgaveitme。
’AndI’ll
giveyousuchanother,’sayshe,’everyyeartillImarryyou。’
Mycolourcameandwent,atthesightofthepurseandwith
thefireofhisproposaltogether,sothatIcouldnotsayaword,
andheeasilyperceivedit;soputtingthepurseintomybosom,
Imadenomoreresistancetohim,butlethimdojustwhathe
pleased,andasoftenashepleased;andthusIfinishedmy
owndestructionatonce,forfromthisday,beingforsakenof
myvirtueandmymodesty,Ihadnothingofvalueleftto
recommendme,eithertoGod’sblessingorman’sassistance。
Butthingsdidnotendhere。
Iwentbacktothetown,didthe
businesshepubliclydirectedmeto,andwasathomebefore
anybodythoughtmelong。
Asformygentleman,hestayed
out,ashetoldmehewould,tilllateatnight,andtherewas
nottheleastsuspicioninthefamilyeitheronhisaccountor
onmine。
Wehad,afterthis,frequentopportunitiestorepeatourcrime——
chieflybyhiscontrivance——especiallyathome,whenhis
motherandtheyoungladieswentabroada-visiting,whichhe
watchedsonarrowlyasnevertomiss;knowingalways
beforehandwhentheywentout,andthenfailednottocatch
meallalone,andsecurelyenough;sothatwetookourfillof
ourwickedpleasurefornearhalfayear;andyet,whichwas
themosttomysatisfaction,Iwasnotwithchild。
Butbeforethishalf-yearwasexpired,hisyoungerbrother,of
whomIhavemadesomementioninthebeginningofthestory,
fallstoworkwithme;andhe,findingmealonginthegarden
oneevening,beginsastoryofthesamekindtome,made
goodhonestprofessionsofbeinginlovewithme,andinshort,
proposesfairlyandhonourablytomarryme,andthatbefore
hemadeanyotheroffertomeatall。
Iwasnowconfounded,anddriventosuchanextremityas
thelikewasneverknown;atleastnottome。
Iresistedthe
proposalwithobstinacy;andnowIbegantoarmmyselfwith
arguments。
Ilaidbeforehimtheinequalityofthematch;the
treatmentIshouldmeetwithinthefamily;theingratitudeit
wouldbetohisgoodfatherandmother,whohadtakenme
intotheirhouseuponsuchgenerousprinciples,andwhenI
wasinsuchalowcondition;and,inshort,Isaideverything
todissuadehimfromhisdesignthatIcouldimagine,except
tellinghimthetruth,whichwouldindeedhaveputanendto
Itall,butthatIdurstnotthinkofmentioning。
ButherehappenedacircumstancethatIdidnotexpect
indeed,whichputmetomyshifts;forthisyounggentleman,
ashewasplainandhonest,sohepretendedtonothingwith
mebutwhatwassotoo;and,knowinghisowninnocence,he
wasnotsocarefultomakehishavingakindnessforMrs。Betty
asecretIthehouse,ashisbrotherwas。
Andthoughhedid
notletthemknowthathehadtalkedtomeaboutit,yethe
saidenoughtolethissistersperceivehelovedme,andhis
mothersawittoo,which,thoughtheytooknonoticeofitto
me,yettheydidtohim,animmediatelyIfoundtheircarriage
tomealtered,morethaneverbefore。
Isawthecloud,thoughIdidnotforeseethestorm。
Itwas
easy,Isay,toseethattheircarriagetomewasaltered,and
thatitgrewworseandworseeveryday;tillatlastIgot
informationamongtheservantsthatIshould,inaverylittle
while,bedesiredtoremove。
Iwasnotalarmedatthenews,havingafullsatisfactionthat
Ishouldbeotherwiseprovidedfor;andespeciallyconsidering
thatIhadreasoneverydaytoexpectIshouldbewithchild,
andthatthenIshouldbeobligedtoremovewithoutany
pretencesforit。
Aftersometimetheyoungergentlemantookanopportunity
totellmethatthekindnesshehadformehadgotventinthe
family。
Hedidnotchargemewithit,hesaid,forheknow
wellenoughwhichwayitcameout。
Hetoldmehisplainway
of
talkinghadbeentheoccasionofit,forthathedidnotmake
hisrespectformesomuchasecretashemighthavedone,
andthereasonwas,thathewasatapoint,thatifIwould
consenttohavehim,hewouldtellthemallopenlythathe
lovedme,andthatheintendedtomarryme;thatitwastrue
hisfatherandmothermightresentit,andbeunkind,butthat
hewasnowinawaytolive,beingbredtothelaw,andhedid
notfearmaintainingmeagreeabletowhatIshouldexpect;
andthat,inshort,ashebelievedIwouldnotbeashamedof
him,sohewasresolvednottobeashamedofme,andthathe
scornedtobeafraidtoownmenow,whomheresolvedto
ownafterIwashiswife,andthereforeIhadnothingtodobut
togivehimmyhand,andhewouldanswerforalltherest。
Iwasnowinadreadfulconditionindeed,andnowIrepented
heartilymyeasinesswiththeeldestbrother;notfromany
reflectionofconscience,butfromaviewofthehappinessI
mighthaveenjoyed,andhadnowmadeimpossible;forthough
Ihadnogreatscruplesofconscience,asIhavesaid,tostruggle
with,yetIcouldnotthinkofbeingawhoretoonebrotherand
awifetotheother。
Butthenitcameintomythoughtsthatthe
firstbrotherhadpromisedtomademehiswifewhenhecame
tohisestate;butIpresentlyrememberedwhatIhadoften
thoughtof,thathehadneverspokenawordofhavingmefor
awifeafterhehadconqueredmeforamistress;andindeed,
tillnow,thoughIsaidIthoughtofitoften,yetitgavemeno
disturbanceatall,forashedidnotseemintheleasttolessen
hisaffectiontome,soneitherdidhelessenhisbounty,though
hehadthediscretionhimselftodesiremenottolayouta
pennyofwhathegavemeinclothes,ortomaketheleastshow
extraordinary,becauseitwouldnecessarilygivejealousyin
thefamily,sinceeverybodyknowIcouldcomeatsuchthings
nomannerofordinaryway,butbysomeprivatefriendship,
whichtheywouldpresentlyhavesuspected。
ButIwasnowinagreatstrait,andknewnotwhatto
do。
Themaindifficultywasthis:
theyoungerbrothernot
onlylaidclosesiegetome,butsufferedittobeseen。