wouldcomeintohissister’sroom,andhismother’sroom,
andsitdown,andtalkathousandkindthingsofme,andto
me,evenbeforetheirfaces,andwhentheywereallthere。
Thisgrewsopublicthatthewholehousetalkedofit,andhis
motherreprovedhimforit,andtheircarriagetomeappeared
quitealtered。
Inshort,hismotherhadletfallsomespeeches,
asifsheintendedtoputmeoutofthefamily;thatis,in
English,toturnmeoutofdoors。
NowIwassurethiscould
notbeasecrettohisbrother,onlythathemightnotthink,as
indeednobodyelseyetdid,thattheyoungestbrotherhadmade
anyproposaltomeaboutit;butasIeasilycouldseethatit
wouldgofarther,soIsawlikewisetherewasanabsolute
necessitytospeakofittohim,orthathewouldspeakofitto
me,andwhichtodofirstIknewnot;thatis,whetherIshould
breakittohimorletitalonetillheshouldbreakittome。
Uponseriousconsideration,forindeednowIbegantoconsider
thingsveryseriously,andnevertillnow;Isay,uponserious
consideration,Iresolvedtotellhimofitfirst;anditwasnot
longbeforeIhadanopportunity,fortheverynextdayhis
brotherwenttoLondonuponsomebusiness,andthefamily
beingouta-visiting,justasithadhappenedbefore,andas
indeedwasoftenthecase,hecameaccordingtohiscustom,
tospendanhourortwowithMrs。Betty。
Whenhecamehadhadsatdownawhile,heeasilyperceived
therewasanalterationinmycountenance,thatIwasnotso
freeandpleasantwithhimasIusedtobe,andparticularly,
thatIhadbeena-crying;hewasnotlongbeforehetooknotice
ofit,andaskedmeinverykindtermswhatwasthematter,
andif
anythingtroubledme。
IwouldhaveputitoffifIcould,
butitwasnottobeconcealed;soaftersufferingmany
importunitiestodrawthatoutofmewhichIlongedasmuch
aspossibletodisclose,Itoldhimthatitwastruesomething
didtroubleme,andsomethingofsuchanaturethatIcould
notconcealfromhim,andyetthatIcouldnottellhowtotell
himofitneither;thatitwasathingthatnotonlysurprisedme,
butgreatlyperplexedme,andthatIknewnotwhatcourseto
take,unlesshewoulddirectme。
Hetoldmewithgreat
tenderness,thatletitbewhatitwould,Ishouldnotletit
troubleme,forhewouldprotectmefromalltheworld。
Ithenbeganatadistance,andtoldhimIwasafraidtheladies
hadgotsomesecretinformationofourcorrespondence;for
thatitwaseasytoseethattheirconductwasverymuch
changedtowardsmeforagreatwhile,andthatnowitwas
cometothatpassthattheyfrequentlyfoundfaultwithme,
andsometimesfellquiteoutwithme,thoughInevergave
themtheleastoccasion;thatwhereasIusedalwaystolie
withtheeldestsister,Iwaslatelyputtoliebymyself,orwith
oneofthemaids;andthatIhadoverheardthemseveraltimes
talkingveryunkindlyaboutme;butthatwhichconfirmedit
allwas,thatoneoftheservantshadtoldmethatshehadheard
wastobeturnedout,andthatitwasnotsafeforthefamily
thatIshouldbeanylongerinthehouse。
Hesmiledwhenheherdallthis,andIaskedhimhowhe
couldmakesolightofit,whenhemustneedsknowthatif
therewasanydiscoveryIwasundoneforever,andthateven
itwouldhurthim,thoughnotruinhimasitwouldme。
upbraidedhim,thathewaslikealltherestofthesex,that,
whentheyhadthecharacterandhonourofawomanattheir
mercy,oftentimesmadeittheirjest,andatleastlookedupon
itasatrifle,andcountedtheruinofthosetheyhadhadtheir
willofasathingofnovalue。
Hesawmewarmandserious,andhechangedhisstyle
immediately;hetoldmehewassorryIshouldhavesucha
thoughtofhim;thathehadnevergivenmetheleastoccasion
forit,buthadbeenastenderofmyreputationashecouldbe
ofhisown;thathewassureourcorrespondencehadbeen
managedwithsomuchaddress,thatnotonecreatureinthe
familyhadsomuchasasuspicionofit;thatifhesmiledwhen
Itoldhimmythoughts,itwasattheassurancehelately
received,thatourunderstandingoneanotherwasnotsomuch
asknownorguessedat;andthatwhenhehadtoldmehow
muchreasonhehadtobeeasy,Ishouldsmileashedid,for
hewasverycertainitwouldgivemeafullsatisfaction。
’ThisisamysteryIcannotunderstand,’saysI,’orhowit
shouldbetomysatisfactionthatIamtobeturnedoutof
doors;forifourcorrespondenceisnotdiscovered,Iknow
notwhatelseIhavedonetochangethecountenancesofthe
wholefamilytome,ortohavethemtreatmeastheydonow,
whoformerlyusedmewithsomuchtenderness,asifIhad
beenoneoftheirownchildren。’
’Why,lookyou,child,’sayshe,’thattheyareuneasyabout
you,thatistrue;butthattheyhavetheleastsuspicionofthe
caseasitis,andasitrespectsyouandI,issofarfrombeing
true,thattheysuspectmybrotherRobin;and,inshort,they
arefullypersuadedhemakeslovetoyou;nay,thefoolhas
putitintotheirheadstoohimself,forheiscontinuallybantering
themaboutit,andmakingajestofhimself。
IconfessIthink
heiswrongtodoso,becausehecannotbutseeitvexesthem,
andmakesthemunkindtoyou;but’tisasatisfactiontome,
becauseoftheassuranceitgivesme,thattheydonotsuspect
meintheleast,andIhopethiswillbetoyoursatisfactiontoo。’
’Soitis,’saysI,’oneway;butthisdoesnotreachmycaseat
all,noristhisthechiefthingthattroublesme,thoughIhave
beenconcernedaboutthattoo。’
’Whatisit,then?’sayshe。
WithwhichIfelltotears,andcouldsaynothingtohimatall。
Hestrovetopacifymeallhecould,butbeganatlasttobe
verypressinguponmetotellwhatitwas。
AtlastIanswered
thatIthoughtIoughttotellhimtoo,andthathehadsome
righttoknowit;besides,thatIwantedhisdirectioninthecase,
forIwasinsuchperplexitythatIknewnotwhatcoursetotake,
andthenIrelatedthewholeaffairtohim。
Itoldhimhow
imprudentlyhisbrotherhadmanagedhimself,inmaking
himselfsopublic;forthatifhehadkeptitasecret,assucha
thingouttohavebeen,Icouldbuthavedeniedhimpositively,
withoutgivinganyreasonforit,andhewouldintimehave
ceasedhissolicitations;butthathehadthevanity,first,to
dependuponitthatIwouldnotdenyhim,andthenhadtaken
thefreedomtotellhisresolutionofhavingmetothewholehouse。
ItoldhimhowfarIhadresistedhim,andtoldhimhowsincere
andhonourablehisofferswere。
’But,’saysI,’mycasewill
bedoublyhard;forastheycarryitilltomenow,becausehe
desirestohaveme,they’llcarryitworsewhentheyshallfind
Ihavedeniedhim;andtheywillpresentlysay,there’ssomething
elseinit,andthenoutitcomesthatIammarriedalreadyto
somebodyelse,orthatIwouldneverrefuseamatchsomuch
abovemeasthiswas。’
Thisdiscoursesurprisedhimindeedverymuch。
Hetoldme
thatitwasacriticalpointindeedformetomanage,andhe
didnotseewhichwayIshouldgetoutofit;buthewould
considerit,andletmeknownexttimewemet,whatresolution
hewascometoaboutit;andinthemeantimedesiredIwould
notgivemyconsenttohisbrother,noryetgivehimaflat
denial,butthatIwouldholdhiminsuspenseawhile。
IseemedtostartathissayingIshouldnotgivehimmy
consent。
ItoldhimheknewverywellIhadnoconsentto
give;thathehadengagedhimselftomarryme,andthatmy
consentwasthesametimeengagedtohim;thathehadall
alongtoldmeIwashiswife,andIlookeduponmyselfas
effectuallysoasiftheceremonyhadpassed;andthatitwas
fromhisownmouththatIdidso,hehavingallalongpersuaded
metocallmyselfhiswife。
’Well,mydear,’sayshe,’don’tbeconcernedatthatnow;
ifIamnotyourhusband,I’llbeasgoodasahusbandtoyou;
anddonotletthosethingstroubleyounow,butletmelook
alittlefartherintothisaffair,andIshallbeabletosaymore
nexttimewemeet。’
Hepacifiedmeaswellashecouldwiththis,butIfoundhe
wasverythoughtful,andthatthoughhewasverykindtome
and
kissedmeathousandtimes,andmoreIbelieve,andgave
memoneytoo,yetheofferednomoreallthewhilewewere
together,whichwasabovetwohours,andwhichImuch
wonderedatindeedatthattime,consideringhowitusedtobe,
andwhatopportunitywehad。
HisbrotherdidnotcomefromLondonforfiveorsixdays,
anditwastwodaysmorebeforehegotanopportunitytotalk
withhim;butthengettinghimbyhimselfhebegantotalk
veryclosetohimaboutit,andthesameeveninggotan
opportunityforwehadalongconferencetogethertorepeat
alltheirdiscoursetome,which,asnearasIcanremember,
wastothepurposefollowing。
Hetoldhimheheardstrange
newsofhimsincehewent,viz。thathemadelovetoMrs。
Betty。
’Well,sayshisbrotheralittleangrily,’andsoIdo。
Andwhatthen?
Whathasanybodytodowiththat?’
’Nay,’
sayshisbrother,’don’tbeangry,Robin;Idon’tpretendto
haveanythingtodowithit;nordoIpretendtobeangrywith
youaboutit。
ButIfindtheydoconcernthemselvesaboutit,
andthattheyhaveusedthepoorgirlillaboutit,whichIshould
takeasdonetomyself。’
’WhomdoyoumeanbyTHEY?’
saysRobin。
’Imeanmymotherandthegirls,’saystheelder
brother。
’Butharkye,’sayshisbrother,’areyouinearnest?
Doyoureallylovethisgirl?
Youmaybefreewithme,you
know。’
’Why,then,’saysRobin,’Iwillbefreewithyou;Ido
loveheraboveallthewomenintheworld,andIwillhaveher,
letthemsayanddowhattheywill。
Ibelievethegirlwillnot
denyme。’