Oppositethewharftherewasstuckinthewidegableofatwo-storiedbuildingalanternwhich,flickering,diffusedbutadull,anaemiclightfromitsdirtypanes,whileoverthelongstripofthebrokensignboardofthebuildingtherecouldbeseenstraggling,andexecutedinlargeyellowletters,thewords,“Tavernand-“Nomoreofthelegendthanthiswasvisible。
Lanternswerehangingintwoorthreeotherspotsinthedrowsylittletown;andwherevertheirmurkystainsoflighthungsuspendedintheairtherestoodoutinreliefamedleyofgables,drab-tintedtrees,andfalsewindowsinwhitepaint,onwallsofadullslatecolour。
SomehowIfoundcontemplationofthescenedepressing。
Meanwhilethevesselcontinuedtoemitsteamassherockedtoandfrowithacreakingofwood,aslap-slappingofwater,andascrubbingofhersidesagainstthewharf。Atlengthsomeoneejaculatedsurlily:
“Fool,youmustbeasleep!Thewinch,yousay?Why,thewinchisatthestern,damnyou!“
“Offagain,thanktheLord!“addedtheraspingvoicealreadyheardfrombehindthebales,whiletoitanequallyfamiliarvoicerejoinedwithayawn:
“It’stimeweWEREoff!“
Saidahoarsevoice:
“Lookhere,youngfellow。Whatwasitheshouted?“
Hastilyandinarticulately,withagreatdealofsmackingofthelipsandstuttering,someonereplied:
“Heshouted:’Kinsmen,donotkillme!Havesomemercy,forChrist’ssake,andIwillmakeovertoyoueverything——yes,everythingintoyourgoodhandsforever!Onlyletmegoaway,andexpiatemysins,andsavemysoulthroughprayer。Aye,I
willgoonapilgrimage,andremainhiddenmylifelong,totheveryend。Nevershallyouhearofmeagain,norseeme。’ThenUnclePetercaughthimablowonthehead,andhisbloodsplashedoutuponme。AshefellI——well,Iranaway,andmadeforthetavern,whereIknockedatthedoorandshouted:
’Sister,theyhavekilledourfather!’Uponthat,sheputherheadoutofthewindow,butonlysaid:’Thatmerelymeansthattherascalismakinganexcuseforvodka。’……Aye,aterribletimeitwas——wasthatnight!AndhowfrightenedIfelt!Atfirst,Imadeforthegarret,butpresentlythoughttomyself:’No;
theywouldsoonfindmethere,andputmetoanendaswell,forIamtheheirdirect,andshouldbethefirsttosucceedtotheproperty。’SoIcrawledontotheroof,andtherelayhiddenbehindthechimney-stack,holdingonwitharmsandlegs,whileunabletospeakforsheerterror。“
“Whatwereyouafraidof?“abrusquevoiceinterrupted。
“WhatwasIafraidof?“
“Atallevents,youjoinedyouruncleinkillingyourfather,didn’tyou?“
“Insuchanhouronehasnottimetothink——onejustkillsamanbecauseonecan’thelponeself,orbecauseitseemssoeasytokill。“
“True,“thehoarservoicecommentedindullandponderousaccents。“Whenoncebloodhasflowedthefactleadstomoreblood,andifamanhasstartedouttokill,hecaresnothingforanyreason——hefindsgoodenoughthereasonwhichcomesfirsttohishand。“
“Butifthisyoungfellowisspeakingthetruth,hehadaBUSINESSreason——though,properlyspeaking,evenpropertyoughtnottoprovokequarrels。“
“Similarlyoneoughtnottokilljustwhenonechooses。Folkwhocommitsuchcrimesshouldhavejusticemetedouttothem。“
“Yes,butitisdifficultalwaystoobtainsuchjustice。Forinstance,thisyoungfellowseemstohavespentoverayearinprisonfornothing。“
“’Fornothing’?Why,didhenotenticehisfatherintothehut,andthenshutthedooruponhim,andthrowacoatoverhishead?Hehassaidsohimself。’Fornothing,’indeed!“
Uponthistherapidstreamofsobbed,disconnectedwords,whichI
hadheardbeforefromsomespeakerpouredforthanew。Somehow,I
guessedthatitcamefromthemaninthedirtyboots,asoncemoreherecountedthestoryofthemurder。
“Idonotwishtojustifymyself,“hesaid。“Isaymerelythat,inasmuchasIwaspromisedareprieveatthetrial,Itoldeverything,andwasthereforeallowedtogofree,whilemyuncleandmybrotherweresentencedtopenalservitude。“
“ButyouKNEWthattheyhadagreedtokillhim?“
“Well,itismyideathatatfirsttheyintendedonlytogivehimagoodfright。Neverdidmyfatherrecognisemeashisson——alwayshecalledmeaJesuit。“
Thegrufferofthetwovoicespulledupthespeaker。
“Tothink,“itsaid,“thatyoucanactuallytalkaboutitall!“
“Whyshouldn’tI?Myfatherbroughttearstotheeyesofmanyaninnocentperson。“
“Afigforpeople’stears!Ifourcausesoftearswereoneandalltobemurdered,whatwouldthestateofthingsbecome?Shedtears,butneverblood;forbloodisnotyourstoshed。Andevenifyoushouldbelieveyourownbloodtobeyourown,knowthatitisnotso,thatyourblooddoesnotbelongtoyou,buttoSomeoneElse。“
“Thepointinquestionwasmyfather’sproperty。Itallshowshowamanmayliveawhile,andearnhisliving,andthensuddenlygoamiss,andlosehiswits,andevenconceiveagrudgeagainsthisownfather……NowImustgetsomesleep。“
Behindthebalesallgrewquiet。PresentlyIrosetopeerinthatdirection。Thepassengerinthebuffpea-jacketwassittinghuddledupagainstacoilofrope,withhishandsthrustintohissleeves,andhischinrestinguponhisarms。Asthemoonwasshiningstraightintohisface,Icouldseethatthelatterwasaslividasthatofacorpse,andhaditsbrowsdrawndownoveritsnarrow,insignificanteyes。
Besidehim,andclosetomyhead,therewaslyingstretchedonthetopofthecoilofropeabroad-shoulderedpeasantinashortsmockandapairofpatchedbootsofwhitefelt。Theringletsofthewearer’scurlybeardwerethrustupwards,andhishandsclaspedbehindhishead,andwithox-likeeyeshestaredatthezenithwhereafewstarswereshining,andthemoonwasbeginningtosink。
Atlength,inatrumpet-likevoicethoughheseemedtodohisbesttosoftenitthepeasantasked:
“Youruncleisonthatbarge,Isuppose?“
“Heis。Andsoismybrother。“
“Yetyouarehere!Howstrange!“
Thedarkbarge,towedagainstthesteamer’sblue-silverwashoffoam,wascleavingitlikeaplough,whileunderthemoontheligh(丁香书院小说)tsofthebargeshowedwhite,andthehullandtheprisoners’cagestoodraisedhighoutofthewaterastoourrighttheblack,indentatedbankglidedpastinsinuousconvolutions。
Fromthewhole,soft,liquescentfluidscene,theimpressionwhichIderivedwasmelancholy。
Itevokedinmyspiritasenseofinstability,alackofrestfulness。
“Whyareyoutravelling?“
“BecauseIwishtohaveawordwithhim。“
“Withyouruncle?“
“Yes。“
“Abouttheproperty?“
“Whatelse?“
“Thenlookhere,myyoungfellow。Dropitall——bothyouruncleandtheproperty,andbetakeyourselftoamonastery,andthereliveandpray。Forifyouhaveshedblood,andespeciallyifyouhaveshedthebloodofakinsman,youwillstandforeverestrangedfromall,while,moreover,bloodshedisadangerousthing——itmayatanytimecomebackuponyou。“
“Buttheproperty?“theyoungfellowaskedwithaliftofhishead。
“Letitgo,“thepeasantvouchsafedasheclosedhiseyes。
Ontheyoungerman’sfacethedowntwitchedasthoughawindhadstirredit。Heyawned,andlookedabouthimforamoment。Then,descryingmyself,hecriedinatoneofresentment:
“Whatareyoulookingat?Andwhydoyoukeepfollowingmeabout?“
Herethebigpeasantopenedhiseyes,and,withaglancefirstattheman,andthenatmyself,growled:
“Lessnoisethere,youmitten-face!“