Theash-bucketsracketed,clankingupanddownthestokeholdventilators,andthistin-potclatterwarnedhimtheendofhiswatchwasnear。Hesighedwithcontent,withregretaswellathavingtopartfromthatserenitywhichfosteredtheadventurousfreedomofhisthoughts。Hewasalittlesleepy,too,andfeltapleasurablelanguorrunningthrougheverylimbasthoughallthebloodinhisbodyhadturnedtowarmmilk。Hisskipperhadcomeupnoiselessly,inpyjamasandwithhissleeping-jacketflungwideopen。Redofface,onlyhalfawake,thelefteyepartlyclosed,therightstaringstupidandglassy,hehunghisbigheadoverthechartandscratchedhisribssleepily。Therewassomethingobsceneinthesightofhisnakedflesh。Hisbaredbreastglistenedsoftandgreasyasthoughhehadsweatedouthisfatinhissleep。Hepronouncedaprofessionalremarkinavoiceharshanddead,resemblingtheraspingsoundofawood-fileontheedgeofaplank;thefoldofhisdoublechinhunglikeabagtricedupcloseunderthehingeofhisjaw。Jimstarted,andhisanswerwasfullofdeference;buttheodiousandfleshyfigure,asthoughseenforthefirsttimeinarevealingmoment,fixeditselfinhismemoryforeverastheincarnationofeverythingvileandbasethatlurksintheworldwelove:inourownheartswetrustforoursalvationinthementhatsurroundus,inthesightsthatfilloureyes,inthesoundsthatfillourears,andintheairthatfillsourlungs。
Thethingoldshavingofthemoonfloatingslowlydownwardshadlostitselfonthedarkenedsurfaceofthewaters,andtheeternitybeyondtheskyseemedtocomedownnearertotheearth,withtheaugmentedglitterofthestars,withthemoreprofoundsombrenessinthelustreofthehalf-transparentdomecoveringtheflatdiskofanopaquesea。Theshipmovedsosmoothlythatheronwardmotionwasimperceptibletothesensesofmen,asthoughshehadbeenacrowdedplanetspeedingthroughthedarkspacesofetherbehindtheswarmofsuns,intheappallingandcalmsolitudesawaitingthebreathoffuturecreations。`Hotisnonameforitdownbelow,’saidavoice。
Jimsmiledwithoutlookinground。Theskipperpresentedanunmovedbreadthofback:itwastherenegade’stricktoappearpointedlyunawareofyourexistenceunlessitsuitedhispurposetoturnatyouwithadevouringglarebeforeheletlooseatorrentoffoamy,abusivejargonthatcamelikeagushfromasewer。Nowheemittedonlyasulkygrunt;thesecondengineerattheheadofthebridge-ladder,kneadingwithdamppalmsadirtysweat-rag,unabashed,continuedthetaleofhiscomplaints。Thesailorshadagoodtimeofituphere,andwhatwastheuseofthemintheworldhewouldbeblowedifhecouldsee。Thepoordevilsofengineershadtogettheshipalonganyhow,andtheycouldverywelldotheresttoo;bygoshthey——`Shutup,’growledtheGermanstolidly。`Oh,yes!Shutup——andwhenanythinggoeswrongyouflytous,don’tyou?’wentontheother。
Hewasmorethanhalfcooked,heexpected;butanyway,now,hedidnotmindhowmuchhesinned,becausetheselastthreedayshehadpassedthroughafinecourseoftrainingfortheplacewherethebadboysgowhentheydie——b’gosh,hehad——besidesbeingmadejollywelldeafbytheblastedracketbelow。Thedurned,compound,surface-condensing,rottenscrap-heaprattledandbangeddowntherelikeanolddeck-winch,onlymoreso;andwhatmadehimriskhislifeeverynightanddaythatGodmadeamongsttherefuseofabreaking-upyardflyingroundatfifty-sevenrevolutions,wasmorethanhecouldtell。Hemusthavebeenbornreckless,b’gosh。
He……`Wheredidyougetdrink?’inquiredtheGerman,verysavage,butmotionlessinthelightofthebinnacle,likeaclumsyeffigyofamancutoutofablockoffat。Jimwentonsmilingattheretreatinghorizon;
hisheartwasfullofgenerousimpulses,andhisthoughtwascontemplatinghisownsuperiority。`Drink!’repeatedtheengineerwithamiablescorn:
hewashangingonwithbothhandstotherail,ashadowyfigurewithflexiblelegs。`Notfromyou,captain。You’refartoomean,b’gosh。Youwouldletagoodmandiesoonerthangivehimadropofshnaps。That’swhatyouGermanscalleconomy。Pennywise,poundfoolish。’Hebecamesentimental。Thechiefhadgivenhimafour-fingernipaboutteno’clock——`onlyone,s’elpme!’——goodoldchief;butastogettingtheoldfraudoutofhisbunk——afive-toncranecouldn’tdoit。Notit。Notto-nightanyhow。Hewassleepingsweetlylikealittlechild,withabottleofprimebrandyunderhispillow。FromthethickthroatofthecommanderofthePatnacamealowrumble,onwhichthesoundofthewordSchweinflutteredhighandlowlikeacapriciousfeatherinafaintstirofair。Heandthechiefengineerhadbeencroniesforagoodfewyears——servingthesamejovial,crafty,oldChinaman,withhorn-rimmedgogglesandstringsofredsilkplaitedintothevenerablegreyhairsofhispigtail。Thequay-sideopinioninthePatna’shome-portwasthatthesetwointhewayofbrazenpeculation`haddonetogetherprettywelleverythingyoucanthinkof。’Outwardlytheywerebadlymatched:onedull-eyed,malevolent,andofsoftfleshycurves;theotherlean,allhollows,withaheadlongandbonyliketheheadofanoldhorse,withsunkencheeks,withsunkentemples,withanindifferentglazedglanceofsunkeneyes。HehadbeenstrandedoutEastsomewhere——inCanton,inShanghai,orperhapsinYokohama;heprobablydidnotcaretorememberhimselftheexactlocality,noryetthecauseofhisshipwreck。Hehadbeen,inmercytohisyouth,kickedquietlyoutofhisshiptwentyyearsagoormore,anditmighthavebeensomuchworseforhimthatthememoryoftheepisodehadinithardlyatraceofmisfortune。
Then,steamnavigationexpandingintheseseasandmenofhiscraftbeingscarceatfirst,hehad`goton’afterasort。Hewaseagertoletstrangersknowinadismalmumblethathewas`anoldstagerouthere。’Whenhemovedaskeletonseemedtoswaylooseinhisclothes;hiswalkwasmerewandering,andhewasgiventowanderthusaroundtheengine-roomskylight,smoking,withoutrelish,doctoredtobaccoinabrassbowlattheendofacherrywoodstemfourfeetlong,withtheimbecilegravityofathinkerevolvingasystemofphilosophyfromthehazyglimpseofatruth。Hewasusuallyanythingbutfreewithhisprivatestoreofliquor;butonthatnighthehaddepartedfromhisprinciples,sothathissecond,aweak-headedchildofWapping,whatwiththeunexpectednessofthetreatandthestrengthofthestuff,hadbecomeveryhappy,cheeky,andtalkative。ThefuryoftheNewSouthWalesGermanwasextreme;hepuffedlikeanexhaust-pipe,andJim,faintlyamusedbythescene,wasimpatientforthetimewhenhecouldgetbelow:
thelasttenminutesofthewatchwereirritatinglikeagunthathangsfire;thosemendidnotbelongtotheworldofheroicadventure;theyweren’tbadchapsthough。Eventheskipperhimself……Hisgorgeroseatthemassofpantingfleshfromwhichissuedgurglingmutters,acloudytrickleoffilthyexpressions;buthewastoopleasurablylanguidtodislikeactivelythisoranyotherthing。Thequalityofthesemendidnotmatter;herubbedshoulderswiththem,buttheycouldnottouchhim;hesharedtheairtheybreathed,buthewasdifferent……Wouldtheskippergofortheengineer?
Thelifewaseasyandhewastoosureofhimself——toosureofhimselftoThelinedividinghismeditationfromasurreptitiousdozeonhisfeetwasthinnerthanathreadinaspider’sweb。
Thesecondengineerwascomingbyeasytransitionstotheconsiderationsofhisfinancesandofhiscourage。
`Who’sdrunk?I?No,no,captain!Thatwon’tdo。Yououghttoknowbythistimethechiefain’tfree-heartedenoughtomakeasparrowdrunk,b’gosh。I’veneverbeentheworseforliquorinmylife;thestuffain’tmadeyetthatwouldmakemedrunk。Icoulddrinkliquidfireagainstyourwhiskypegforpeg,b’gosh,andkeepascoolasacucumber。IfIthoughtIwasdrunkIwouldjumpoverboard——doawaywithmyself,b’gosh。Iwould!
Straight!AndIwon’tgooffthebridge。Wheredoyouexpectmetotaketheaironanightlikethis,eh?Ondeckamongstthatvermindownthere?
Likely——ain’tit!AndIamnotafraidofanythingyoucando。’
TheGermanliftedtwoheavyfiststoheavenandshookthemalittlewithoutaword。
`Idon’tknowwhatfearis,’pursuedtheengineer,withtheenthusiasmofsincereconviction。`Iamnotafraidofdoingallthebloomin’workinthisrottenhooker,b’gosh!Andajollygoodthingforyouthattherearesomeofusabouttheworldthataren’tafraidoftheirlives,orwherewouldyoube——youandthisoldthingherewithherplateslikebrownpaper——brownpaper,s’elpme?It’sallveryfineforyou——yougetapowerofpiecesoutofheronewayandanother;butwhataboutme——whatdoIget?Ameaslyhundredandfiftydollarsamonthandfindyourself。Iwishtoaskyourespectfully——respectfully,mind——whowouldn’tchuckadrattedjoblikethis?`Tain’tsafe,s’elpme,itain’t!OnlyIamoneofthemfearlessfellows……’
Heletgotherailandmadeamplegesturesasifdemonstratingintheairtheshapeandextentofhisvalour;histhinvoicedartedinprolongedsqueaksuponthesea,hetiptoedbackandforthforthebetteremphasisofutterance,andsuddenlypitcheddownhead-firstasthoughhehadbeenclubbedfrombehind。Hesaid`Damn!’ashetumbled;aninstantofsilencefolloweduponhisscreeching:Jimandtheskipperstaggeredforwardbycommonaccord,andcatchingthemselvesup,stoodverystiffandstillgazing,amazed,attheundisturbedlevelofthesea。Thentheylookedupwardsatthestars。
Whathadhappened?Thewheezythumpoftheengineswenton。Hadtheearthbeencheckedinhercourse?Theycouldnotunderstand;andsuddenlythecalmsea,theskywithoutacloud,appearedformidablyinsecureintheirimmobility,asifpoisedonthebrowofyawningdestruction。Theengineerreboundedverticallyfulllengthandcollapsedagainintoavagueheap。Thisheapsaid:`What’sthat?’inthemuffledaccentsofprofoundgrief。Afaintnoiseasofthunderinfinitelyremote,lessthanasound,hardlymorethanavibration,passedslowly,andtheshipquiveredinresponse,asifthethunderhadgrowleddeepinthewater。TheeyesofthetwoMalaysatthewheelglitteredtowardsthewhitemen,buttheirdarkhandsremainedclosedonthespokes。Thesharphulldrivingonitswayseemedtoriseafewinchesinsuccessionthroughitswholelength,asthoughithadbecomepliable,andsettleddownagainrigidlytoitsworkofcleavingthesmoothsurfaceofthesea。Itsquiveringstopped,andthefaintnoiseofthunderceasedallatonce,asthoughtheshiphadsteamedacrossanarrowbeltofvibratingwaterandofhummingair。
LordJim:Chapter4CHAPTERIVAMONTHorsoafterwards,whenJim,inanswertopointedquestions,triedtotellhonestlythetruthofthisexperience,hesaid,speakingoftheship:`Shewentoverwhateveritwasaseasyasasnakecrawlingoverastick。’Theillustrationwasgood:thequestionswereaimingatfacts,andtheofficialinquirywasbeingheldinthepolicecourtofanEasternport。Hestoodelevatedinthewitness-box,withburningcheeksinacoolloftyroom:thebigframeworkofpunkahsmovedgentlytoandfrohighabovehishead,andfrombelowmanyeyeswerelookingathimoutofdarkfaces,outofwhitefaces,outofredfaces,outoffacesattentive,spellbound,asifallthesepeoplesittinginorderlyrowsuponnarrowbencheshadbeenenslavedbythefascinationofhisvoice。Itwasveryloud,itrangstartlinginhisownears,itwastheonlysoundaudibleintheworld,fortheterriblydistinctquestionsthatextortedhisanswersseemedtoshapethemselvesinanguishandpainwithinhisbreast——cametohimpoignantandsilentliketheterriblequestioningofone’sconscience。
Outsidethecourtthesunblazed——withinwasthewindofgreatpunkahsthatmadeyoushiver,theshamethatmadeyouburn,theattentiveeyeswhoseglancestabbed。Thefaceofthepresidingmagistrate,cleanshavedandimpassible,lookedathimdeadlypalebetweentheredfacesofthetwonauticalassessors。Thelightofabroadwindowundertheceilingfellfromaboveontheheadsandshouldersofthethreemen,andtheywerefiercelydistinctinthehalf-lightofthebigcourt-roomwheretheaudienceseemedcomposedofstaringshadows。Theywantedfacts。Facts!Theydemandedfactsfromhim,asiffactscouldexplainanything!
`Afteryouhadconcludedyouhadcollidedwithsomethingfloatingawash,sayawater-loggedwreck,youwereorderedbyyourcaptaintogoforwardandascertainiftherewasanydamagedone。Didyouthinkitlikelyfromtheforceoftheblow?’askedtheassessorsittingtotheleft。Hehadathinhorseshoebeard,salientcheek-bonesandwithbothelbowsonthedeskclaspedhisruggedhandsbeforehisface,lookingatJimwiththoughtfulblueeyes;theother,aheavy,scornfulman,thrownbackinhisseat,hisleftarmextendedfulllength,drummeddelicatelywithhisfinger-tipsonablotting-pad:inthemiddlethemagistrateuprightintheroomyarm-chair,hisheadinclinedslightlyontheshoulder,hadhisarmscrossedonhisbreastandafewflowersinaglassvasebythesideofhisinkstand。