Mrs。Chapmanhadjustreachedtheatticfloor,whenMissPricecameoutofherroomcompletelydressed,andonlycivilitieswerenecessary;butFannyfeltheraunt’sattentionalmostasmuchasLadyBertramorMrs。Chapmancoulddothemselves。
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Heruncleandbothherauntswereinthedrawing-roomwhenFannywentdown。Totheformershewasaninterestingobject,andhesawwithpleasurethegeneraleleganceofherappearance,andherbeinginremarkablygoodlooks。
Theneatnessandproprietyofherdresswasallthathewouldallowhimselftocommendinherpresence,butuponherleavingtheroomagainsoonafterwards,hespokeofherbeautywithverydecidedpraise。
“Yes,“saidLadyBertram,“shelooksverywell。
IsentChapmantoher。“
“Lookwell!Oh,yes!“criedMrs。Norris,“shehasgoodreasontolookwellwithallheradvantages:
broughtupinthisfamilyasshehasbeen,withallthebenefitofhercousins’mannersbeforeher。
Onlythink,mydearSirThomas,whatextraordinaryadvantagesyouandIhavebeenthemeansofgivingher。
TheverygownyouhavebeentakingnoticeofisyourowngenerouspresenttoherwhendearMrs。Rushworthmarried。
Whatwouldshehavebeenifwehadnottakenherbythehand?“
SirThomassaidnomore;butwhentheysatdowntotabletheeyesofthetwoyoungmenassuredhimthatthesubjectmightbegentlytouchedagain,whentheladieswithdrew,withmoresuccess。Fannysawthatshewasapproved;
andtheconsciousnessoflookingwellmadeherlookstillbetter。Fromavarietyofcausesshewashappy,andshewassoonmadestillhappier;forinfollowingherauntsoutoftheroom,Edmund,whowasholdingopenthedoor,said,asshepassedhim,“Youmustdancewithme,Fanny;
youmustkeeptwodancesforme;anytwothatyoulike,exceptthefirst。“Shehadnothingmoretowishfor。
Shehadhardlyeverbeeninastatesonearlyapproachinghighspiritsinherlife。Hercousins’formergaietyonthedayofaballwasnolongersurprisingtoher;
shefeltittobeindeedverycharming,andwasactuallypractisingherstepsaboutthedrawing-roomaslongasshecouldbesafefromthenoticeofherauntNorris,whowasentirelytakenupatfirstinfresharrangingandinjuringthenoblefirewhichthebutlerhadprepared。
Halfanhourfollowedthatwouldhavebeenatleastlanguidunderanyothercircumstances,butFanny’shappinessstillprevailed。ItwasbuttothinkofherconversationwithEdmund,andwhatwastherestlessnessofMrs。Norris?
WhatweretheyawnsofLadyBertram?
Thegentlemenjoinedthem;andsoonafterbeganthesweetexpectationofacarriage,whenageneralspiritofeaseandenjoymentseemeddiffused,andtheyallstoodaboutandtalkedandlaughed,andeverymomenthaditspleasureanditshope。FannyfeltthattheremustbeastruggleinEdmund’scheerfulness,butitwasdelightfultoseetheeffortsosuccessfullymade。
Whenthecarriageswerereallyheard,whentheguestsbeganreallytoassemble,herowngaietyofheartwasmuchsubdued:
thesightofsomanystrangersthrewherbackintoherself;
andbesidesthegravityandformalityofthefirstgreatcircle,whichthemannersofneitherSirThomasnorLadyBertramwereofakindtodoaway,shefoundherselfoccasionallycalledontoenduresomethingworse。Shewasintroducedhereandtherebyheruncle,andforcedtobespokento,andtocurtsey,andspeakagain。Thiswasahardduty,andshewasneversummonedtoitwithoutlookingatWilliam,ashewalkedaboutathiseaseinthebackgroundofthescene,andlongingtobewithhim。
TheentranceoftheGrantsandCrawfordswasafavourableepoch。
Thestiffnessofthemeetingsoongavewaybeforetheirpopularmannersandmorediffusedintimacies:littlegroupswereformed,andeverybodygrewcomfortable。Fannyfelttheadvantage;and,drawingbackfromthetoilsofcivility,wouldhavebeenagainmosthappy,couldshehavekepthereyesfromwanderingbetweenEdmundandMaryCrawford。
_She_lookedallloveliness——andwhatmightnotbetheendofit?HerownmusingswerebroughttoanendonperceivingMr。Crawfordbeforeher,andherthoughtswereputintoanotherchannelbyhisengagingheralmostinstantlyforthefirsttwodances。Herhappinessonthisoccasionwasverymuch_a__la__mortal_,finelychequered。
Tobesecureofapartneratfirstwasamostessentialgood——
forthemomentofbeginningwasnowgrowingseriouslynear;
andshesolittleunderstoodherownclaimsastothinkthatifMr。Crawfordhadnotaskedher,shemusthavebeenthelasttobesoughtafter,andshouldhavereceivedapartneronlythroughaseriesofinquiry,andbustle,andinterference,whichwouldhavebeenterrible;butatthesametimetherewasapointednessinhismannerofaskingherwhichshedidnotlike,andshesawhiseyeglancingforamomentathernecklace,withasmile——shethoughttherewasasmile——whichmadeherblushandfeelwretched。
Andthoughtherewasnosecondglancetodisturbher,thoughhisobjectseemedthentobeonlyquietlyagreeable,shecouldnotgetthebetterofherembarrassment,heightenedasitwasbytheideaofhisperceivingit,andhadnocomposuretillheturnedawaytosomeoneelse。
Thenshecouldgraduallyriseuptothegenuinesatisfactionofhavingapartner,avoluntarypartner,securedagainstthedancingbegan。
Whenthecompanyweremovingintotheballroom,shefoundherselfforthefirsttimenearMissCrawford,whoseeyesandsmileswereimmediatelyandmoreunequivocallydirectedasherbrother’shadbeen,andwhowasbeginningtospeakonthesubject,whenFanny,anxioustogetthestoryover,hastenedtogivetheexplanationofthesecondnecklace:
therealchain。MissCrawfordlistened;andallherintendedcomplimentsandinsinuationstoFannywereforgotten:
shefeltonlyonething;andhereyes,brightastheyhadbeenbefore,shewingtheycouldyetbebrighter,sheexclaimedwitheagerpleasure,“Didhe?DidEdmund?
Thatwaslikehimself。Noothermanwouldhavethoughtofit。
Ihonourhimbeyondexpression。“Andshelookedaroundasiflongingtotellhimso。Hewasnotnear,hewasattendingapartyofladiesoutoftheroom;andMrs。Grantcominguptothetwogirls,andtakinganarmofeach,theyfollowedwiththerest。
Fanny’sheartsunk,buttherewasnoleisureforthinkinglongevenofMissCrawford’sfeelings。
Theywereintheballroom,theviolinswereplaying,andhermindwasinaflutterthatforbadeitsfixingonanythingserious。Shemustwatchthegeneralarrangements,andseehoweverythingwasdone。
InafewminutesSirThomascametoher,andaskedifshewereengaged;andthe“Yes,sir;toMr。Crawford,“
wasexactlywhathehadintendedtohear。Mr。Crawfordwasnotfaroff;SirThomasbroughthimtoher,sayingsomethingwhichdiscoveredtoFanny,that_she_
wastoleadthewayandopentheball;anideathathadneveroccurredtoherbefore。Whenevershehadthoughtoftheminutiaeoftheevening,ithadbeenasamatterofcoursethatEdmundwouldbeginwithMissCrawford;
andtheimpressionwassostrong,thatthough_her__uncle_
spokethecontrary,shecouldnothelpanexclamationofsurprise,ahintofherunfitness,anentreatyeventobeexcused。TobeurgingheropinionagainstSirThomas’swasaproofoftheextremityofthecase;butsuchwasherhorroratthefirstsuggestion,thatshecouldactuallylookhiminthefaceandsaythatshehopeditmightbesettledotherwise;invain,however:SirThomassmiled,triedtoencourageher,andthenlookedtooserious,andsaidtoodecidedly,“Itmustbeso,mydear,“forhertohazardanotherword;andshefoundherselfthenextmomentconductedbyMr。Crawfordtothetopoftheroom,andstandingtheretobejoinedbytherestofthedancers,coupleaftercouple,astheywereformed。
Shecouldhardlybelieveit。Tobeplacedabovesomanyelegantyoungwomen!Thedistinctionwastoogreat。
Itwastreatingherlikehercousins!Andherthoughtsflewtothoseabsentcousinswithmostunfeignedandtrulytenderregret,thattheywerenotathometotaketheirownplaceintheroom,andhavetheirshareofapleasurewhichwouldhavebeensoverydelightfultothem。
Sooftenasshehadheardthemwishforaballathomeasthegreatestofallfelicities!Andtohavethemawaywhenitwasgiven——andfor_her_tobeopeningtheball——
andwithMr。Crawfordtoo!Shehopedtheywouldnotenvyherthatdistinction_now_;butwhenshelookedbacktothestateofthingsintheautumn,towhattheyhadallbeentoeachotherwhenoncedancinginthathousebefore,thepresentarrangementwasalmostmorethanshecouldunderstandherself。
Theballbegan。ItwasratherhonourthanhappinesstoFanny,forthefirstdanceatleast:herpartnerwasinexcellentspirits,andtriedtoimpartthemtoher;
butshewasagreatdealtoomuchfrightenedtohaveanyenjoymenttillshecouldsupposeherselfnolongerlookedat。Young,pretty,andgentle,however,shehadnoawkwardnessesthatwerenotasgoodasgraces,andtherewerefewpersonspresentthatwerenotdisposedtopraiseher。Shewasattractive,shewasmodest,shewasSirThomas’sniece,andshewassoonsaidtobeadmiredbyMr。Crawford。Itwasenoughtogivehergeneralfavour。SirThomashimselfwaswatchingherprogressdownthedancewithmuchcomplacency;