Sam,loudandoverbearingashewas,sheratherregrettedwhenhewent,forhewascleverandintelligent,andgladtobeemployedinanyerrandinthetown;andthoughspurningtheremonstrancesofSusan,givenastheywere,thoughveryreasonableinthemselves,withill-timedandpowerlesswarmth,wasbeginningtobeinfluencedbyFanny’sservicesandgentlepersuasions;andshefoundthatthebestofthethreeyoungeroneswasgoneinhim:
TomandCharlesbeingatleastasmanyyearsastheywerehisjuniorsdistantfromthatageoffeelingandreason,whichmightsuggesttheexpediencyofmakingfriends,andofendeavouringtobelessdisagreeable。Theirsistersoondespairedofmakingthesmallestimpressionon_them_;
theywerequiteuntameablebyanymeansofaddresswhichshehadspiritsortimetoattempt。Everyafternoonbroughtareturnoftheirriotousgamesalloverthehouse;andsheveryearlylearnedtosighattheapproachofSaturday’sconstanthalf-holiday。
Betsey,too,aspoiledchild,traineduptothinkthealphabethergreatestenemy,lefttobewiththeservantsatherpleasure,andthenencouragedtoreportanyevilofthem,shewasalmostasreadytodespairofbeingabletoloveorassist;andofSusan’stempershehadmanydoubts。Hercontinualdisagreementswithhermother,herrashsquabbleswithTomandCharles,andpetulancewithBetsey,wereatleastsodistressingtoFannythat,thoughadmittingtheywerebynomeanswithoutprovocation,shefearedthedispositionthatcouldpushthemtosuchlengthmustbefarfromamiable,andfromaffordinganyreposetoherself。
SuchwasthehomewhichwastoputMansfieldoutofherhead,andteachhertothinkofhercousinEdmundwithmoderatedfeelings。Onthecontrary,shecouldthinkofnothingbutMansfield,itsbelovedinmates,itshappyways。
Everythingwhereshenowwasinfullcontrasttoit。
Theelegance,propriety,regularity,harmony,andperhaps,aboveall,thepeaceandtranquillityofMansfield,werebroughttoherremembranceeveryhouroftheday,bytheprevalenceofeverythingoppositetothem_here_。
Thelivinginincessantnoisewas,toaframeandtemperdelicateandnervouslikeFanny’s,anevilwhichnosuperaddedeleganceorharmonycouldhaveentirelyatonedfor。Itwasthegreatestmiseryofall。
AtMansfield,nosoundsofcontention,noraisedvoice,noabruptbursts,notreadofviolence,waseverheard;
allproceededinaregularcourseofcheerfulorderliness;
everybodyhadtheirdueimportance;everybody’sfeelingswereconsulted。Iftendernesscouldbeeversupposedwanting,goodsenseandgoodbreedingsupplieditsplace;andastothelittleirritationssometimesintroducedbyauntNorris,theywereshort,theyweretrifling,theywereasadropofwatertotheocean,comparedwiththeceaselesstumultofherpresentabode。Hereeverybodywasnoisy,everyvoicewasloudexcepting,perhaps,hermother’s,whichresembledthesoftmonotonyofLadyBertram’s,onlywornintofretfulness。Whateverwaswantedwashallooedfor,andtheservantshallooedouttheirexcusesfromthekitchen。Thedoorswereinconstantbanging,thestairswereneveratrest,nothingwasdonewithoutaclatter,nobodysatstill,andnobodycouldcommandattentionwhentheyspoke。
Inareviewofthetwohouses,astheyappearedtoherbeforetheendofaweek,FannywastemptedtoapplytothemDr。Johnson’scelebratedjudgmentastomatrimonyandcelibacy,andsay,thatthoughMansfieldParkmighthavesomepains,Portsmouthcouldhavenopleasures。
FannywasrightenoughinnotexpectingtohearfromMissCrawfordnowattherapidrateinwhichtheircorrespondencehadbegun;Mary’snextletterwasafteradecidedlylongerintervalthanthelast,butshewasnotrightinsupposingthatsuchanintervalwouldbefeltagreatrelieftoherself。Herewasanotherstrangerevolutionofmind!
Shewasreallygladtoreceivetheletterwhenitdidcome。
Inherpresentexilefromgoodsociety,anddistancefromeverythingthathadbeenwonttointeresther,aletterfromonebelongingtothesetwhereherheartlived,writtenwithaffection,andsomedegreeofelegance,wasthoroughlyacceptable。Theusualpleaofincreasingengagementswasmadeinexcusefornothavingwrittentoherearlier;“AndnowthatIhavebegun,“
shecontinued,“myletterwillnotbeworthyourreading,fortherewillbenolittleofferingofloveattheend,nothreeorfourlines_passionnees_fromthemostdevotedH。C。intheworld,forHenryisinNorfolk;
businesscalledhimtoEveringhamtendaysago,orperhapsheonlypretendedtocall,forthesakeofbeingtravellingatthesametimethatyouwere。Butthereheis,and,bythebye,hisabsencemaysufficientlyaccountforanyremissnessofhissister’sinwriting,fortherehasbeenno’Well,Mary,whendoyouwritetoFanny?
IsnotittimeforyoutowritetoFanny?’tospurmeon。
Atlast,aftervariousattemptsatmeeting,Ihaveseenyourcousins,’dearJuliaanddearestMrs。Rushworth’;
theyfoundmeathomeyesterday,andweweregladtoseeeachotheragain。We_seemed__very_gladtoseeeachother,andIdoreallythinkwewerealittle。
Wehadavastdealtosay。ShallItellyouhowMrs。Rushworthlookedwhenyournamewasmentioned?
Ididnotusetothinkherwantinginself-possession,butshehadnotquiteenoughforthedemandsofyesterday。
Uponthewhole,Juliawasinthebestlooksofthetwo,atleastafteryouwerespokenof。TherewasnorecoveringthecomplexionfromthemomentthatIspokeof’Fanny,’andspokeofherasasistershould。
ButMrs。Rushworth’sdayofgoodlookswillcome;
wehavecardsforherfirstpartyonthe28th。Thenshewillbeinbeauty,forshewillopenoneofthebesthousesinWimpoleStreet。Iwasinittwoyearsago,whenitwasLadyLascelle’s,andpreferittoalmostanyIknowinLondon,andcertainlyshewillthenfeel,touseavulgarphrase,thatshehasgotherpennyworthforherpenny。Henrycouldnothaveaffordedhersuchahouse。Ihopeshewillrecollectit,andbesatisfied,aswellasshemay,withmovingthequeenofapalace,thoughthekingmayappearbestinthebackground;
andasIhavenodesiretoteaseher,Ishallnever_force_
yournameuponheragain。Shewillgrowsoberbydegrees。
FromallthatIhearandguess,BaronWildenheim’sattentionstoJuliacontinue,butIdonotknowthathehasanyseriousencouragement。Sheoughttodobetter。
Apoorhonourableisnocatch,andIcannotimagineanylikinginthecase,fortakeawayhisrants,andthepoorbaronhasnothing。Whatadifferenceavowelmakes!
Ifhisrentswerebutequaltohisrants!YourcousinEdmundmovesslowly;detained,perchance,byparishduties。
TheremaybesomeoldwomanatThorntonLaceytobeconverted。
Iamunwillingtofancymyselfneglectedfora_young_one。
Adieu!mydearsweetFanny,thisisalongletterfromLondon:
writemeaprettyoneinreplytogladdenHenry’seyes,whenhecomesback,andsendmeanaccountofallthedashingyoungcaptainswhomyoudisdainforhissake。“
Therewasgreatfoodformeditationinthisletter,andchieflyforunpleasantmeditation;andyet,withalltheuneasinessitsupplied,itconnectedherwiththeabsent,ittoldherofpeopleandthingsaboutwhomshehadneverfeltsomuchcuriosityasnow,andshewouldhavebeengladtohavebeensureofsuchalettereveryweek。
HercorrespondencewithherauntBertramwasheronlyconcernofhigherinterest。
AsforanysocietyinPortsmouth,thatcouldatallmakeamendsfordeficienciesathome,therewerenonewithinthecircleofherfather’sandmother’sacquaintancetoaffordherthesmallestsatisfaction:shesawnobodyinwhosefavourshecouldwishtoovercomeherownshynessandreserve。Themenappearedtoherallcoarse,thewomenallpert,everybodyunderbred;andshegaveaslittlecontentmentasshereceivedfromintroductionseithertooldornewacquaintance。Theyoungladieswhoapproachedheratfirstwithsomerespect,inconsiderationofhercomingfromabaronet’sfamily,weresoonoffendedbywhattheytermed“airs“;for,assheneitherplayedonthepianofortenorworefinepelisses,theycould,onfartherobservation,admitnorightofsuperiority。
ThefirstsolidconsolationwhichFannyreceivedfortheevilsofhome,thefirstwhichherjudgmentcouldentirelyapprove,andwhichgaveanypromiseofdurability,wasinabetterknowledgeofSusan,andahopeofbeingofservicetoher。Susanhadalwaysbehavedpleasantlytoherself,butthedeterminedcharacterofhergeneralmannershadastonishedandalarmedher,anditwasatleastafortnightbeforeshebegantounderstandadispositionsototallydifferentfromherown。Susansawthatmuchwaswrongathome,andwantedtosetitright。Thatagirloffourteen,actingonlyonherownunassistedreason,shoulderrinthemethodofreform,wasnotwonderful;
andFannysoonbecamemoredisposedtoadmirethenaturallightofthemindwhichcouldsoearlydistinguishjustly,thantocensureseverelythefaultsofconducttowhichitled。
Susanwasonlyactingonthesametruths,andpursuingthesamesystem,whichherownjudgmentacknowledged,butwhichhermoresupineandyieldingtemperwouldhaveshrunkfromasserting。Susantriedtobeuseful,where_she_couldonlyhavegoneawayandcried;andthatSusanwasusefulshecouldperceive;thatthings,badastheywere,wouldhavebeenworsebutforsuchinterposition,andthatbothhermotherandBetseywererestrainedfromsomeexcessesofveryoffensiveindulgenceandvulgarity。
Ineveryargumentwithhermother,Susanhadinpointofreasontheadvantage,andneverwasthereanymaternaltendernesstobuyheroff。Theblindfondnesswhichwasforeverproducingevilaroundhershehadneverknown。
Therewasnogratitudeforaffectionpastorpresenttomakeherbetterbearwithitsexcessestotheothers。