Sowiththisconsciousnessshehadearlydeterminedthatherbeautyshouldmakeheralady;therankshecovetedthemoreforherfather’sabusetheranktowhichshefirmlybelievedherlostAuntEstherhadarrived。Now,whileaservantmustoftendrudgeandbedirty,mustbeknownasherservantbyallwhovisitedathermaster’shouse,adressmaker’sapprenticemustorsoMarythoughtbealwaysdressedwithacertainregardtoappearance;
mustneversoilherhands,andneedneverreddenordirtyherfacewithhardlabour。BeforemytellingyousotrulywhatfollyMaryfeltorthought,injuresherwithoutredemptioninyouropinion,thinkwhatarethesillyfanciesofsixteenyearsofageineveryclass,andunderallcircumstances。
Theendofallthethoughtsoffatheranddaughterwas,asIsaidbefore,Marywastobeadressmaker;andherambitionpromptedherunwillingfathertoapplyatallthefirstestablishments,toknowonwhattermsofpainstakingandzealhisdaughtermightbeadmittedintoeversohumbleaworkwoman’ssituation。Buthighpremiumswereaskedatall;poorman!hemighthaveknownthatwithoutgivingupaday’sworktoascertainthefact。Hewouldhavebeenindignant,indeed,hadheknownthatifMaryhadaccompaniedhim,thecasemighthavebeenratherdifferent,asherbeautywouldhavemadeherdesirableasashow-woman。Thenhetriedsecond-rateplaces;atallthepaymentofasumofmoneywasnecessary,andmoneyhehadnone。
Disheartenedandangryhewenthomeatnight,declaringitwastimelost;
thatdressmakingwasatalleventsatroublesomebusiness,andnotworthlearning。Marysawthatthegrapesweresour,andthenextdayshesetoutherself,asherfathercouldnotaffordtoloseanotherday’swork;
andbeforenightasyesterday’sexperiencehadconsiderablyloweredherideasshehadengagedherselfasapprenticesocalled,thoughtherewerenodeedsorindenturestothebondtoacertainMissSimmonds,millineranddressmaker,inarespectablelittlestreetleadingoffArdwickGreen,whereherbusinesswasdulyannouncedingoldlettersonablackground,enclosedinabird’s-evemapleframe,andstuckinthefrontparlourwindow;
wheretheworkwomenwerecalled“heryoungladies“;andwhereMarywastoworkfortwoyearswithoutanyremuneration,onconsiderationofbeingtaughtthebusiness;andwhereafterwardsshewastodineandhavetea,withasmallquarterlysalarypaidquarterlybecausesomuchmoregenteelthanbyweek,averysmallone,divisibleintoaminuteweeklypittance。Insummershewastobetherebysix,bringingherday’smealsduringthefirsttwoyears;inwintershewasnottocometillafterbreakfast。
HertimeforreturninghomeatnightmustalwaysdependuponthequantityofworkMissSimmondshadtodo。AndMarywassatisfied;andseeingthis,herfatherwascontentedtoo,althoughhiswordsweregrumblingandmorose;butMaryknewhisways,andcoaxedandplannedforthefuturesocheerily,thatbothwenttobedwitheasyifnothappyhearts。
Toenvynoughtbeneaththeamplesky;Tomournnoevildeed,nohourmisspent;Andlikealivingviolet,silentlyReturninsweetstoHeavenwhatgoodnesslent,Thenbendbeneaththechasteningshowercontent。ELLIOTT。Anotheryearpassedon。ThewavesoftimeseemedlongsincetohavesweptawayalltraceofpoorMaryBarton。Butherhusbandstillthoughtofher,althoughwithacalmandquietgrief,inthesilentwatchesofthenight:
andMarywouldstartfromherhard-earnedsleep,andthink,inherhalf-dreamy,half-awakenedstate,shesawhermotherstandbyherbedside,assheusedtodo“inthedaysoflongago“;withashadedcandleandanexpressionofineffabletenderness,whileshelookedonhersleepingchild。ButMaryrubbedhereyesandsankbackonherpillow,awake,andknowingitwasadream;andstill,inallhertroublesandperplexities,herheartcalledonhermotherforaid,andshethought,“Ifmotherhadbutlived,shewouldhavehelpedme。“Forgettingthatthewoman’ssorrowsarefarmoredifficulttomitigatethanachild’s,evenbythemightypowerofamother’slove;
andunconsciousofthefact,thatshewasfarsuperiorinsenseandspirittothemothershemourned。AuntEstherwasstillmysteriouslyabsent,andpeoplehadgrownwearyofwondering,andbegantoforget。Bartonstillattendedhisclub,andwasanactivememberofatrades’union;indeed,morefrequentlythanever,sincethetimeofMary’sreturnintheeveningwassouncertain;and,assheoccasionally,inverybusytimes,remainedallnight。HischiefestfriendwasstillGeorgeWilson,althoughhehadnogreatsympathyonthequestionsthatagitatedBarton’smind。Buttheirheartswereboundbyoldtiestooneanother,andtheremembranceofformerthingsgaveanunspokencharmtotheirmeetings。Ouroldfriend,thecub-likelad,JemWilson,hadshotupintothepowerful,well-madeyoungman,withasensiblefaceenough;nay,afacethatmighthavebeenhandsome,haditnotbeenhereandtheremarkedbythesmallpox。Heworkedwithoneofthegreatfirmsofengineers,whosendfromouttheirtownsofworkshopsenginesandmachinerytothedominionsoftheCzarandtheSultan。HisfatherandmotherwereneverwearyofpraisingJem,atallwhichcommendationprettyMaryBartonwouldtossherhead,seeingclearlyenoughthattheywishedhertounderstand’whatagoodhusbandhewouldmake,andtofavourhislove,aboutwhichheneverdaredtospeak,whatevereyesandlooksrevealed。Oneday,intheearlywintertime,whenpeoplewereprovidedwithwarmsubstantialgowns,notlikelysoontowearout,andwhen,accordingly,businesswasratherslackatMissSimmonds’,MarymetAliceWilson,cominghomefromherhalf-day’sworkatsometradesman’shouse。MaryandAlicehadalwayslikedeachother;indeed,Alicelookedwithparticularinterestonthemotherlessgirl,thedaughterofherwhoseforgivingkisshadcomfortedherinmanysleeplesshours。Sotherewasawarmgreetingbetweenthetidyoldwomanandthebloomingyoungwork-girl;andthenAliceventuredtoaskifshewouldcomeinandtakeherteawithherthatveryevening。“You’llthinkitdullenoughtocomejusttositwithanoldwomanlikeme,butthere’satidyyounglassaslivesinthefloorabove,whodoesplainwork,andnowandthenabitinyourownline,Mary;she’sgrand-daughtertooldJobLegh,aspinner,andagoodgirlsheis。Docome,Mary;I’veaterriblewishtomakeyouknowntoeachother。She’sagenteel-lookingass,too。“AtthebeginningofthisspeechMaryhadfearedtheintendedvisitorwastobenootherthanAlice’snephew;butAlicewastoodelicate-mindedtoplanameeting,evenforherdearJem,whenonewouldhavebeenanunwillingparty;andMary,relievedfromherapprehensionbytheconclusion,gladlyagreedtocome。HowbusyAlicefelt!itwasnotoftenshehadanyonetotea;andnowhersenseofthedutiesofahostesswerealmosttoomuchforher。Shemadehastehome,andlightedtheunwillingfire,borrowingapairofbellowstomakeitburnthefaster。Forherselfshewasalwayspatient;sheletthecoalstaketheirtime。Thensheputonherpattens,andwenttofillherkettleatthepumpinthenextcourt,andonthewaysheborrowedacup;ofoddsaucersshehadplenty,servingasplateswhenoccasionrequired。Halfanounceofteaandaquarterofapoundofbutterwentfartoabsorbhermorning’swages;butthiswasanunusualoccasion。
Ingeneral,sheusedherb-teaforherself,whenathome,unlesssomethoughtfulmistressmadeapresentoftea-leavesfromhermoreabundanthousehold。
Thetwochairsdrawnoutforvisitors,anddulysweptanddusted;anoldboardarrangedwithsomeskillupontwooldcandle-boxessetonendratherrickety,tobesure,butsheknewtheseatofold,andwhentositlightly;
indeedthewholeaffairwasmoreforapparentdignityofpositionthanforanyrealease;alittle,verylittleroundtable,putjustbeforethefire,whichbythistimewasblazingmerrily;herunlacquered,ancient,third-handtea-trayarrangedwithablacktea-pot,twocupswitharedandwhitepattern,andonewiththeoldfriendlywillowpattern,andsaucers,nottomatchononeoftheextrasupplythelumpofbutterflourishedaway;allthesepreparationscomplete,Alicebegantolookaboutherwithsatisfaction,andasortofwonderwhatmorecouldbedonetoaddtothecomfortoftheevening。Shetookoneofthechairsawayfromitsappropriateplacebythetable,andputtingitclosetothebroadlargehangingshelfItoldyouaboutwhenIfirstdescribedhercellar-dwelling,andmountingonit,shepulledtowardsheranolddealbox,andtookthenceaquantityoftheoatbreadofthenorth,theclap-breadofCumberlandandWestmoreland,anddescendingcarefullywiththethincakes,threateningtobreaktopiecesinherhand,sheplacedthemonthebaretable,withthebeliefthathervisitorswouldhaveanunusualtreatineatingthebreadofherchildhood。
Shebroughtoutagoodpieceofafour-poundloafofcommonhouseholdbreadaswell,andthensatdowntorest,reallytorest,andnottopretend,ononeoftherush-bottomedchairs。Thecandlewasreadytobelighted,thekettleboiled,theteawasawaitingitsdoominitspaperparcel;allwasready。Aknockatthedoor!ItwasMargaret,theyoungworkwomanwholivedintheroomsabove,whohavingheardthebustle,andthesubsequentquiet,begantothinkitwastimetopayhervisitbelow。Shewasasallow,unhealthy,sweet-lookingyoungwoman,withacarewornlook;herdresswashumbleandverysimple,consistingofsomekindofdarkstuffgown,herneckbeingcoveredbyadrabshawlorlargehandkerchief,pinneddownbehindandatthesidesinfront。Theoldwomangaveheraheartygreeting,andmadehersitdownonthechairshehadjustleft,whileshebalancedherselfontheboardseat,inorderthatMargaretmightthinkitwasquiteherfreeandindependentchoicetositthere。“IcannotthinkwhatkeepsMaryBarton。She’squitegrandwithherlatehours,“saidAlice,asMarystilldelayed。Thetruthwas,Marywasdressingherself;yes,tocometopooroldAlice’s——shethoughtitworthwhiletoconsiderwhatgownsheshouldputon。ItwasnotforAlice,however,youmaybeprettysure;no,theykneweachothertoowell。ButMarylikedmakinganimpression,andinthisitmustbeownedshewasprettyoftengratified——andtherewasthisstrangegirltoconsiderjustnow。Sosheputonherprettynewbluemerino,madetighttoherthroat,herlittlelinencollarandlinencuffs,andsalliedforthtoimpresspoorgentleMargaret。Shecertainlysucceeded。Alice,whoneverthoughtmuchaboutbeauty,hadnevertoldMargarethowprettyMarywas;and,asshecameinhalf-blushingatherownself-consciousness,Margaretcouldhardlytakehereyesoffher,andMaryputdownherlongblacklasheswithasortofdislikeoftheveryobservationshehadtakensuchpainstosecure。
CanyoufancythebustleofAlicetomaketheteatoouritout,andsweetenittotheirliking,tohelpandhelpagaintoclap-breadandbread-and-butter?
Canyoufancythedelightwithwhichshewatchedherpiled-upclap-breaddisappearbeforethehungrygirls,andlistenedtothepraisesofherhome-remembereddainty?“Mymotherusedtosendmesomeclap-breadbyanynorth-countryperson——blessher!Sheknewhowgoodsuchthingstastewhenfarawayfromhome。Notbutwhateveryonelikesit。WhenIwasinservicemyfellow-servantswerealwaysgladtosharewithme。Eh,it’salongtimeago,yon。““Dotellusaboutit,Alice,“saidMargaret。“Why,lass,there’snothingtotell。Therewasmoremouthsathomethancouldbefed。Tom,that’sWill’sfatheryoudon’tknowWill,buthe’sasailortoforeignparts,hadcometoManchester,andsentwordwhatterriblelotsofworkwastobehad,bothforladsandlasses。SofathersentGeorgefirstyouknowGeorge,wellenough,Mary,andthenworkwasscarceouttowardBurton,wherewelived,andfathersaidImauntryandgetaplace。AndGeorgewroteashowwageswerefarhigherinManchesterthanMilnthorpeorLancaster;and,lasses,Iwasyoungandthoughtless,andthoughtitwasafinethingtogosofarfromhome。So,oneday,th’