Rigaudtookhiscigarettefromhismouth,andeyedhimwithamomentaryrevelationofsurprise。Butheputitbetweenhislipsagain,asheansweredwithcoolness:
’Isellanythingthatcommandsaprice。Howdoyourlawyerslive,yourpoliticians,yourintriguers,yourmenoftheExchange?Howdoyoulive?Howdoyoucomehere?Haveyousoldnofriend?Ladyofmine!Iratherthink,yes!’
Clennamturnedawayfromhimtowardsthewindow,andsatlookingoutatthewall。
’Effectively,sir,’saidRigaud,’Societysellsitselfandsellsme:andIsellSociety。Iperceiveyouhaveacquaintancewithanotherlady。Alsohandsome。Astrongspirit。Letussee。Howdotheycallher?Wade。’
Hereceivednoanswer,butcouldeasilydiscernthathehadhitthemark。
’Yes,’hewenton,’thathandsomeladyandstrongspiritaddressesmeinthestreet,andIamnotinsensible。Irespond。Thathandsomeladyandstrongspiritdoesmethefavourtoremark,infullconfidence,“Ihavemycuriosity,andIhavemychagrins。Youarenotmorethanordinarilyhonourable,perhaps?“Iannouncemyself,“Madame,agentlemanfromthebirth,andagentlemantothedeath;butNOTmorethanordinarilyhonourable。Idespisesuchaweakfantasy。“Thereuponsheispleasedtocompliment。“Thedifferencebetweenyouandtherestis,“sheanswers,“thatyousayso。“ForsheknowsSociety。Iaccepthercongratulationswithgallantryandpoliteness。Politenessandlittlegallantriesareinseparablefrommycharacter。Shethenmakesaproposition,whichis,ineffect,thatshehasseenusmuchtogether;thatitappearstoherthatIamforthepassingtimethecatofthehouse,thefriendofthefamily;thathercuriosityandherchagrinsawakenthefancytobeacquaintedwiththeirmovements,toknowthemanneroftheirlife,howthefairGowanaisbeloved,howthefairGowanaischerished,andsoon。Sheisnotrich,butofferssuchandsuchlittlerecompensesforthelittlecaresandderangementsofsuchservices;andIgraciously——todoeverythinggraciouslyisapartofmycharacter——consenttoacceptthem。Oyes!Sogoestheworld。Itisthemode。’
ThoughClennam’sbackwasturnedwhilehespoke,andthenceforthtotheendoftheinterview,hekeptthoseglitteringeyesofhisthatweretooneartogether,uponhim,andevidentlysawintheverycarriageofthehead,ashepassedwithhisbraggartrecklessnessfromclausetoclauseofwhathesaid,thathewassayingnothingwhichClennamdidnotalreadyknow。
’Whoof!ThefairGowana!’hesaid,lightingathirdcigarettewithasoundasifhislightestbreathcouldblowheraway。’Charming,butimprudent!ForitwasnotwellofthefairGowanatomakemysteriesoflettersfromoldlovers,inherbedchamberonthemountain,thatherhusbandmightnotseethem。No,no。Thatwasnotwell。Whoof!TheGowanawasmistakenthere。’
’Iearnestlyhope,’criedArthuraloud,’thatPancksmaynotbelonggone,forthisman’spresencepollutestheroom。’
’Ah!Buthe’llflourishhere,andeverywhere,’saidRigaud,withanexultinglookandsnapofhisfingers。’Healwayshas;healwayswill!’StretchinghisbodyoutontheonlythreechairsintheroombesidesthatonwhichClennamsat,hesang,smitinghimselfonthebreastasthegallantpersonageofthesong。
’Whopassesbythisroadsolate?
CompagnondelaMajolaine!
Whopassesbythisroadsolate?
Alwaysgay!
’SingtheRefrain,pig!Youcouldsingitonce,inanotherjail。
Singit!Or,byeverySaintwhowasstonedtodeath,I’llbeaffrontedandcompromising;andthensomepeoplewhoarenotdeadyet,hadbetterhavebeenstonedalongwiththem!’
’Ofalltheking’sknights’tistheflower,CompagnondelaMajolaine!
Ofalltheking’sknights’tistheflower,Alwaysgay!’
Partlyinhisoldhabitofsubmission,partlybecausehisnotdoingitmightinjurehisbenefactor,andpartlybecausehewouldassoondoitasanythingelse,CavallettotookuptheRefrainthistime。
Rigaudlaughed,andfelltosmokingwithhiseyesshut。
PossiblyanotherquarterofanhourelapsedbeforeMrPancks’sstepwashearduponthestairs,buttheintervalseemedtoClennaminsupportablylong。Hisstepwasattendedbyanotherstep;andwhenCavallettoopenedthedoor,headmittedMrPancksandMrFlintwinch。Thelatterwasnosoonervisible,thanRigaudrushedathimandembracedhimboisterously。
’Howdoyoufindyourself,sir?’saidMrFlintwinch,assoonashecoulddisengagehimself,whichhestruggledtodowithverylittleceremony。’Thankyou,no;Idon’twantanymore。’Thiswasinreferencetoanothermenaceofattentionfromhisrecoveredfriend。
’Well,Arthur。YourememberwhatIsaidtoyouaboutsleepingdogsandmissingones。It’scometrue,yousee。’
Hewasasimperturbableasever,toallappearance,andnoddedhisheadinamoralisingwayashelookedroundtheroom。
’AndthisistheMarshalseaprisonfordebt!’saidMrFlintwinch。
’Hah!youhavebroughtyourpigstoaveryindifferentmarket,Arthur。’
IfArthurhadpatience,Rigaudhadnot。HetookhislittleFlintwinch,withfierceplayfulness,bythetwolapelsofhiscoat,andcried:
’TotheDevilwiththeMarket,totheDevilwiththePigs,andtotheDevilwiththePig-Driver!Now!Givemetheanswertomyletter。’
’Ifyoucanmakeitconvenienttoletgoamoment,sir,’returnedMrFlintwinch,’I’llfirsthandMrArthuralittlenotethatIhaveforhim。’
Hedidso。Itwasinhismother’smaimedwriting,onaslipofpaper,andcontainedonlythesewords:
’Ihopeitisenoughthatyouhaveruinedyourself。Restcontentedwithoutmoreruin。JeremiahFlintwinchismymessengerandrepresentative。YouraffectionateM。C。’
Clennamreadthistwice,insilence,andthentoreittopieces。
Rigaudinthemeanwhilesteppedintoachair,andsathimselfonthebackwithhisfeetupontheseat。
’Now,BeauFlintwinch,’hesaid,whenhehadcloselywatchedthenotetoitsdestruction,’theanswertomyletter?’
’MrsClennamdidnotwrite,MrBlandois,herhandsbeingcramped,andshethinkingitaswelltosenditverballybyme。’MrFlintwinchscrewedthisoutofhimself,unwillinglyandrustily。
’Shesendshercompliments,andsaysshedoesn’tonthewholewishtotermyouunreasonable,andthatsheagrees。Butwithoutprejudicingtheappointmentthatstandsforthisdayweek。’
MonsieurRigaud,afterindulginginafitoflaughter,descendedfromhisthrone,saying,’Good!Igotoseekanhotel!’But,therehiseyesencounteredCavalletto,whowasstillathispost。
’Come,Pig,’headded,’Ihavehadyouforafolloweragainstmywill;now,I’llhaveyouagainstyours。Itellyou,mylittlereptiles,Iamborntobeserved。Idemandtheserviceofthiscontrabandistasmydomesticuntilthisdayweek。’
InanswertoCavalletto’slookofinquiry,Clennammadehimasigntogo;butheaddedaloud,’unlessyouareafraidofhim。’
Cavallettorepliedwithaveryemphaticfinger-negative。’No,master,Iamnotafraidofhim,whenInomorekeepitsecrettementallythathewasoncemycomrade。’Rigaudtooknonoticeofeitherremarkuntilhehadlightedhislastcigaretteandwasquitereadyforwalking。
’Afraidofhim,’hesaidthen,lookingrounduponthemall。
’Whoof!Mychildren,mybabies,mylittledolls,youareallafraidofhim。Yougivehimhisbottleofwinehere;yougivehimmeat,drink,andlodgingthere;youdarenottouchhimwithafingeroranepithet。No。Itishischaractertotriumph!Whoof!
’Ofalltheking’sknightshe’stheflower,Andhe’salwaysgay!’
WiththisadaptationoftheRefraintohimself,hestalkedoutoftheroomcloselyfollowedbyCavalletto,whomperhapshehadpressedintohisservicebecausehetolerablywellknewitwouldnotbeeasytogetridofhim。MrFlintwinch,afterscrapinghischin,andlookingaboutwithcausticdisparagementofthePig-
Market,noddedtoArthur,andfollowed。MrPancks,stillpenitentanddepressed,followedtoo;afterreceivingwithgreatattentionasecretwordortwoofinstructionsfromArthur,andwhisperingbackthathewouldseethisaffairout,andstandbyittotheend。
Theprisoner,withthefeelingthathewasmoredespised,morescornedandrepudiated,morehelpless,altogethermoremiserableandfallenthanbefore,wasleftaloneagain。
CHAPTER29
APleaintheMarshalseaHaggardanxietyandremorsearebadcompanionstobebarredupwith。Broodingallday,andrestingverylittleindeedatnight,twillnotarmamanagainstmisery。Nextmorning,Clennamfeltthathishealthwassinking,ashisspiritshadalreadysunkandthattheweightunderwhichhebentwasbearinghimdown。
Nightafternighthehadrisenfromhisbedofwretchednessattwelveoroneo’clock,andhadsatathiswindowwatchingthesicklylampsintheyard,andlookingupwardforthefirstwantraceofday,hoursbeforeitwaspossiblethattheskycouldshowittohim。Nowwhenthenightcame,hecouldnotevenpersuadehimselftoundress。
Foraburningrestlessnesssetin,anagonisedimpatienceoftheprison,andaconvictionthathewasgoingtobreakhisheartanddiethere,whichcausedhimindescribablesuffering。Hisdreadandhatredoftheplacebecamesointensethathefeltitalabourtodrawhisbreathinit。Thesensationofbeingstifledsometimessooverpoweredhim,thathewouldstandatthewindowholdinghisthroatandgasping。Atthesametimealongingforotherair,andayearningtobebeyondtheblindblankwall,madehimfeelasifhemustgomadwiththeardourofthedesire。
Manyotherprisonershadhadexperienceofthisconditionbeforehim,anditsviolenceandcontinuityhadwornthemselvesoutintheircases,astheydidinhis。Twonightsandadayexhaustedit。Itcamebackbyfits,butthosegrewfainterandreturnedatlengtheningintervals。Adesolatecalmsucceeded;andthemiddleoftheweekfoundhimsettleddowninthedespondencyoflow,slowfever。
WithCavallettoandPancksaway,hehadnovisitorstofearbutMrandMrsPlornish。Hisanxiety,inreferencetothatworthypair,wasthattheyshouldnotcomenearhim;for,inthemorbidstateofhisnerves,hesoughttobeleftalone,andsparedthebeingseensosubduedandweak。HewroteanotetoMrsPlornishrepresentinghimselfasoccupiedwithhisaffairs,andboundbythenecessityofdevotinghimselftothem,toremainforatimeevenwithoutthepleasantinterruptionofasightofherkindface。AstoYoungJohn,wholookedindailyatacertainhour,whentheturnkeyswererelieved,toaskifhecoulddoanythingforhim;healwaysmadeapretenceofbeingengagedinwriting,andtoanswercheerfullyinthenegative。Thesubjectoftheironlylongconversationhadneverbeenrevivedbetweenthem。Throughallthesechangesofunhappiness,however,ithadneverlostitsholdonClennam’smind。
Thesixthdayoftheappointedweekwasamoist,hot,mistyday。
Itseemedasthoughtheprison’spoverty,andshabbiness,anddirt,weregrowinginthesultryatmosphere。Withanachingheadandawearyheart,Clennamhadwatchedthemiserablenightout,listeningtothefallofrainontheyardpavement,thinkingofitssofterfalluponthecountryearth。Ablurredcircleofyellowhazehadrisenupintheskyinlieuofsun,andhehadwatchedthepatchitputuponhiswall,likeabitoftheprison’sraggedness。Hehadheardthegatesopen;andthebadlyshodfeetthatwaitedoutsideshufflein;andthesweeping,andpumping,andmovingabout,begin,whichcommencedtheprisonmorning。Soillandfaintthathewasobligedtorestmanytimesintheprocessofgettinghimselfwashed,hehadatlengthcrepttohischairbytheopenwindow。Inithesatdozing,whiletheoldwomanwhoarrangedhisroomwentthroughhermorning’swork。
Lightofheadwithwantofsleepandwantoffoodhisappetite,andevenhissenseoftaste,havingforsakenhim,hehadbeentwoorthreetimesconscious,inthenight,ofgoingastray。Hehadheardfragmentsoftunesandsongsinthewarmwind,whichheknewhadnoexistence。Nowthathebegantodozeinexhaustion,heheardthemagain;andvoicesseemedtoaddresshim,andheanswered,andstarted。
Dozinganddreaming,withoutthepowerofreckoningtime,sothataminutemighthavebeenanhourandanhouraminute,someabidingimpressionofagardenstoleoverhim——agardenofflowers,withadampwarmwindgentlystirringtheirscents。Itrequiredsuchapainfulefforttolifthisheadforthepurposeofinquiringintothis,orinquiringintoanything,thattheimpressionappearedtohavebecomequiteanoldandimportunateonewhenhelookedround。
Besidethetea-cuponhistablehesaw,then,abloomingnosegay:
awonderfulhandfulofthechoicestandmostlovelyflowers。
Nothinghadeverappearedsobeautifulinhissight。Hetookthemupandinhaledtheirfragrance,andheliftedthemtohishothead,andheputthemdownandopenedhisparchedhandstothem,ascoldhandsareopenedtoreceivethecheeringofafire。Itwasnotuntilhehaddelightedinthemforsometime,thathewonderedwhohadsentthem;andopenedhisdoortoaskthewomanwhomusthaveputthemthere,howtheyhadcomeintoherhands。Butshewasgone,andseemedtohavebeenlonggone;fortheteashehadleftforhimonthetablewascold。Hetriedtodrinksome,butcouldnotbeartheodourofit:sohecreptbacktohischairbytheopenwindow,andputtheflowersonthelittleroundtableofold。
Whenthefirstfaintnessconsequentonhavingmovedabouthadlefthim,hesubsidedintohisformerstate。Oneofthenight-tuneswasplayinginthewind,whenthedoorofhisroomseemedtoopentoalighttouch,and,afteramoment’spause,aquietfigureseemedtostandthere,withablackmantleonit。Itseemedtodrawthemantleoffanddropitontheground,andthenitseemedtobehisLittleDorritinherold,worndress。Itseemedtotremble,andtoclaspitshands,andtosmile,andtoburstintotears。
Herousedhimself,andcriedout。Andthenhesaw,intheloving,pitying,sorrowing,dearface,asinamirror,howchangedhewas;
andshecametowardshim;andwithherhandslaidonhisbreasttokeephiminhischair,andwithherkneesuponthefloorathisfeet,andwithherlipsraiseduptokisshim,andwithhertearsdroppingonhimastherainfromHeavenhaddroppedupontheflowers,LittleDorrit,alivingpresence,calledhimbyhisname。
’O,mybestfriend!DearMrClennam,don’tletmeseeyouweep!
Unlessyouweepwithpleasuretoseeme。Ihopeyoudo。Yourownpoorchildcomeback!’
Sofaithful,tender,andunspoiledbyFortune。Inthesoundofhervoice,inthelightofhereyes,inthetouchofherhands,soAngelicallycomfortingandtrue!