’Don’tsayso,’saidMrMeagles;’youdoyourselfaninjustice。
However,tocometothepoint。’Forhewassensibleofhavinggainednothingbyapproachingitinaroundaboutway。’IhaveheardfrommyfriendClennam,who,youwillbesorrytohear,hasbeenandstillisveryill——’
Hepausedagain,andagainshewassilent。
’——thatyouhadsomeknowledgeofoneBlandois,latelykilledinLondonbyaviolentaccident。Now,don’tmistakeme!Iknowitwasaslightknowledge,’saidMrMeagles,dexterouslyforestallinganangryinterruptionwhichhesawabouttobreak。’Iamfullyawareofthat。Itwasaslightknowledge,Iknow。Butthequestionis,’MrMeagles’svoiceherebecamecomfortableagain,’didhe,onhiswaytoEnglandlasttime,leaveaboxofpapers,orabundleofpapers,orsomepapersorotherinsomereceptacleorother——anypapers——withyou:beggingyoutoallowhimtoleavethemhereforashorttime,untilhewantedthem?’
’Thequestionis?’sherepeated。’Whosequestionis?’
’Mine,’saidMrMeagles。’AndnotonlyminebutClennam’squestion,andotherpeople’squestion。Now,Iamsure,’continuedMrMeagles,whoseheartwasoverflowingwithPet,’thatyoucan’thaveanyunkindfeelingtowardsmydaughter;it’simpossible。
Well!It’sherquestion,too;beingoneinwhichaparticularfriendofhersisnearlyinterested。SohereIam,franklytosaythatisthequestion,andtoask,Now,didhe?’
’Uponmyword,’shereturned,’IseemtobeamarkforeverybodywhoknewanythingofamanIonceinmylifehired,andpaid,anddismissed,toaimtheirquestionsat!’
’Now,don’t,’remonstratedMrMeagles,’don’t!Don’ttakeoffence,becauseit’stheplainestquestionintheworld,andmightbeaskedofanyone。ThedocumentsIrefertowerenothisown,werewrongfullyobtained,mightatsometimeorotherbetroublesometoaninnocentpersontohaveinkeeping,andaresoughtbythepeopletowhomtheyreallybelong。HepassedthroughCalaisgoingtoLondon,andtherewerereasonswhyheshouldnottakethemwithhimthen,whyheshouldwishtobeabletoputhishanduponthemreadily,andwhyheshoulddistrustleavingthemwithpeopleofhisownsort。Didheleavethemhere?IdeclareifIknewhowtoavoidgivingyouoffence,Iwouldtakeanypainstodoit。Iputthequestionpersonally,butthere’snothingpersonalinit。I
mightputittoanyone;Ihaveputitalreadytomanypeople。Didheleavethemhere?Didheleaveanythinghere?’
’No。’
’Thenunfortunately,MissWade,youknownothingaboutthem?’
’Iknownothingaboutthem。Ihavenowansweredyourunaccountablequestion。Hedidnotleavethemhere,andIknownothingaboutthem。’
’There!’saidMrMeaglesrising。’Iamsorryforit;that’sover;
andIhopethereisnotmuchharmdone——Tattycoramwell,MissWade?’
’Harrietwell?Oyes!’
’Ihaveputmyfootinitagain,’saidMrMeagles,thuscorrected。
’Ican’tkeepmyfootoutofithere,itseems。Perhaps,ifIhadthoughttwiceaboutit,Imightneverhavegivenherthejinglingname。But,whenonemeanstobegood-naturedandsportivewithyoungpeople,onedoesn’tthinktwice。Heroldfriendleavesakindwordforher,MissWade,ifyoushouldthinkpropertodeliverit。’
Shesaidnothingastothat;andMrMeagles,takinghishonestfaceoutofthedullroom,whereitshonelikeasun,tookittotheHotelwherehehadleftMrsMeagles,andwherehemadetheReport:
’Beaten,Mother;noeffects!’HetookitnexttotheLondonSteamPacket,whichsailedinthenight;andnexttotheMarshalsea。
ThefaithfulJohnwasondutywhenFatherandMotherMeaglespresentedthemselvesatthewickettowardsnightfall。MissDorritwasnottherethen,hesaid;butshehadbeenthereinthemorning,andinvariablycameintheevening。MrClennamwasslowlymending;
andMaggyandMrsPlornishandMrBaptisttookcareofhimbyturns。MissDorritwassuretocomebackthateveningbeforethebellrang。TherewastheroomtheMarshalhadlenther,up-stairs,inwhichtheycouldwaitforher,iftheypleased。MistrustfulthatitmightbehazardoustoArthurtoseehimwithoutpreparation,MrMeaglesacceptedtheoffer;andtheywereleftshutupintheroom,lookingdownthroughitsbarredwindowintothejail。
ThecrampedareaoftheprisonhadsuchaneffectonMrsMeaglesthatshebegantoweep,andsuchaneffectonMrMeaglesthathebegantogaspforair。Hewaswalkingupanddowntheroom,panting,andmakinghimselfworsebylaboriouslyfanninghimselfwithherhandkerchief,whenheturnedtowardstheopeningdoor。
’Eh?Goodgracious!’saidMrMeagles,’thisisnotMissDorrit!
Why,Mother,look!Tattycoram!’
Noother。AndinTattycoram’sarmswasanironboxsometwofeetsquare。SuchaboxhadAfferyFlintwinchseen,inthefirstofherdreams,goingoutoftheoldhouseinthedeadofthenightunderDouble’sarm。This,Tattycoramputonthegroundatheroldmaster’sfeet:this,Tattycoramfellonherkneesby,andbeatherhandsupon,cryinghalfinexultationandhalfindespair,halfinlaughterandhalfintears,’Pardon,dearMaster;takemeback,dearMistress;hereitis!’
’Tatty!’exclaimedMrMeagles。
’Whatyouwanted!’saidTattycoram。’Hereitis!Iwasputinthenextroomnottoseeyou。Iheardyouaskheraboutit,Iheardhersayshehadn’tgotit,Iwastherewhenheleftit,andItookitatbedtimeandbroughtitaway。Hereitis!’
’Why,mygirl,’criedMrMeagles,morebreathlessthanbefore,’howdidyoucomeover?’
’Icameintheboatwithyou。Iwassittingwrappedupattheotherend。Whenyoutookacoachatthewharf,Itookanothercoachandfollowedyouhere。Sheneverwouldhavegivenitupafterwhatyouhadsaidtoheraboutitsbeingwanted;shewouldsoonerhavesunkitinthesea,orburntit。But,hereitis!’
Theglowandrapturethatthegirlwasin,withher’Hereitis!’
’Sheneverwantedittobeleft,Imustsaythatforher;butheleftit,andIknewwellthatafterwhatyousaid,andafterherdenyingit,sheneverwouldhavegivenitup。Buthereitis!
DearMaster,dearMistress,takemebackagain,andgivemebackthedearoldname!Letthisintercedeforme。Hereitis!’
FatherandMotherMeaglesneverdeservedtheirnamesbetterthanwhentheytooktheheadstrongfoundling-girlintotheirprotectionagain。
’Oh!Ihavebeensowretched,’criedTattycoram,weepingmuchmore,’alwayssounhappy,andsorepentant!IwasafraidofherfromthefirsttimeIsawher。Iknewshehadgotapowerovermethroughunderstandingwhatwasbadinmesowell。Itwasamadnessinme,andshecouldraiseitwheneversheliked。Iusedtothink,whenIgotintothatstate,thatpeoplewereallagainstmebecauseofmyfirstbeginning;andthekindertheyweretome,theworsefaultIfoundinthem。Imadeitoutthattheytriumphedaboveme,andthattheywantedtomakemeenvythem,whenIknow——whenIevenknewthen——thattheyneverthoughtofsuchathing。Andmybeautifulyoungmistressnotsohappyassheoughttohavebeen,andIgoneawayfromher!Suchabruteandawretchasshemustthinkme!Butyou’llsayawordtoherforme,andaskhertobeasforgivingasyoutwoare?ForIamnotsobadasIwas,’
pleadedTattycoram;’Iambadenough,butnotsobadasIwas,indeed。IhavehadMissWadebeforemeallthistime,asifitwasmyownselfgrownripe——turningeverythingthewrongway,andtwistingallgoodintoevil。Ihavehadherbeforemeallthistime,findingnopleasureinanythingbutkeepingmeasmiserable,suspicious,andtormentingasherself。Notthatshehadmuchtodo,todothat,’criedTattycoram,inaclosinggreatburstofdistress,’forIwasasbadasbadcouldbe。Ionlymeantosay,that,afterwhatIhavegonethrough,IhopeIshallneverbequitesobadagain,andthatIshallgetbetterbyveryslowdegrees。
I’lltryveryhard。Iwon’tstopatfive-and-twenty,sir,I’llcountfive-and-twentyhundred,five-and-twentythousand!’
Anotheropeningofthedoor,andTattycoramsubsided,andLittleDorritcamein,andMrMeagleswithprideandjoyproducedthebox,andhergentlefacewaslightedupwithgratefulhappinessandjoy。
Thesecretwassafenow!Shecouldkeepherownpartofitfromhim;heshouldneverknowofherloss;intimetocomeheshouldknowallthatwasofimporttohimself;butheshouldneverknowwhatconcernedheronly。Thatwasallpassed,allforgiven,allforgotten。
’Now,mydearMissDorrit,’saidMrMeagles;’Iamamanofbusiness——oratleastwas——andIamgoingtotakemymeasurespromptly,inthatcharacter。HadIbetterseeArthurto-night?’
’Ithinknotto-night。Iwillgotohisroomandascertainhowheis。ButIthinkitwillbebetternottoseehimto-night。’
’Iammuchofyouropinion,mydear,’saidMrMeagles,’andthereforeIhavenotbeenanynearertohimthanthisdismalroom。
ThenIshallprobablynotseehimforsomelittletimetocome。
ButI’llexplainwhatImeanwhenyoucomeback。’
Shelefttheroom。MrMeagles,lookingthroughthebarsofthewindow,sawherpassoutoftheLodgebelowhimintotheprison-
yard。Hesaidgently,’Tattycoram,cometomeamoment,mygoodgirl。’
Shewentuptothewindow。
’Youseethatyoungladywhowasherejustnow——thatlittle,quiet,fragilefigurepassingalongthere,Tatty?Look。Thepeoplestandoutofthewaytolethergoby。Themen——seethepoor,shabbyfellows——pullofftheirhatstoherquitepolitely,andnowsheglidesinatthatdoorway。Seeher,Tattycoram?’
’Yes,sir。’
’Ihaveheardtell,Tatty,thatshewasonceregularlycalledthechildofthisplace。Shewasbornhere,andlivedheremanyyears。
Ican’tbreathehere。Adolefulplacetobebornandbredin,Tattycoram?’
’Yesindeed,sir!’
’Ifshehadconstantlythoughtofherself,andsettledwithherselfthateverybodyvisitedthisplaceuponher,turneditagainsther,andcastitather,shewouldhaveledanirritableandprobablyanuselessexistence。YetIhaveheardtell,Tattycoram,thatheryounglifehasbeenoneofactiveresignation,goodness,andnobleservice。ShallItellyouwhatIconsiderthoseeyesofhers,thatwereherejustnow,tohavealwayslookedat,togetthatexpression?’
’Yes,ifyouplease,sir。’
’Duty,Tattycoram。Beginitearly,anddoitwell;andthereisnoantecedenttoit,inanyoriginorstation,thatwilltellagainstuswiththeAlmighty,orwithourselves。’
Theyremainedatthewindow,Motherjoiningthemandpityingtheprisoners,untilshewasseencomingback。Shewassoonintheroom,andrecommendedthatArthur,whomshehadleftcalmandcomposed,shouldnotbevisitedthatnight。
’Good!’saidMrMeagles,cheerily。’Ihavenotadoubtthat’sbest。Ishalltrustmyremembrancesthen,mysweetnurse,inyourhands,andIwellknowtheycouldn’tbeinbetter。Iamoffagainto-morrowmorning。’
LittleDorrit,surprised,askedhimwhere?
’Mydear,’saidMrMeagles,’Ican’tlivewithoutbreathing。Thisplacehastakenmybreathaway,andIshallnevergetitbackagainuntilArthurisoutofthisplace。’
’Howisthatareasonforgoingoffagainto-morrowmorning?’
’Youshallunderstand,’saidMrMeagles。’To-nightwethreewillputupataCityHotel。To-morrowmorning,MotherandTattycoramwillgodowntoTwickenham,whereMrsTickit,sittingattendedbyDrBuchanintheparlour-window,willthinkthemacoupleofghosts;andIshallgoabroadagainforDoyce。WemusthaveDanhere。Now,Itellyou,mylove,it’sofnousewritingandplanningandconditionallyspeculatinguponthisandthatandtheother,atuncertainintervalsanddistances;wemusthaveDoycehere。Idevotemyselfatdaybreakto-morrowmorning,tobringingDoycehere。It’snothingtometogoandfindhim。I’manoldtraveller,andallforeignlanguagesandcustomsarealiketome——I
neverunderstandanythingaboutanyof’em。ThereforeIcan’tbeputtoanyinconvenience。GoatonceImust,itstandstoreason;
becauseIcan’tlivewithoutbreathingfreely;andIcan’tbreathefreelyuntilArthurisoutofthisMarshalsea。Iamstifledatthepresentmoment,andhavescarcelybreathenoughtosaythismuch,andtocarrythispreciousboxdown-stairsforyou。’
Theygotintothestreetasthebellbegantoring,MrMeaglescarryingthebox。LittleDorrithadnoconveyancethere:whichrathersurprisedhim。Hecalledacoachforherandshegotintoit,andheplacedtheboxbesideherwhenshewasseated。Inherjoyandgratitudeshekissedhishand。
’Idon’tlikethat,mydear,’saidMrMeagles。’Itgoesagainstmyfeelingofwhat’sright,thatYOUshoulddohomagetoME——attheMarshalseaGate。’
Shebentforward,andkissedhischeek。
’Youremindmeofthedays,’saidMrMeagles,suddenlydrooping——
’butshe’sveryfondofhim,andhideshisfaults,andthinksthatnooneseesthem——andhecertainlyiswellconnectedandofaverygoodfamily!’
Itwastheonlycomforthehadinthelossofhisdaughter,andifhemadethemostofit,whocouldblamehim?