Youmeanyouwereactuallyjealousofyourownbaby?’shegasped。Why,Bertram,howcould——Andwasthatwhyyou——yousoughtdistractionand——Oh,but,Bertram,thatwasallmyf-fault,’shequaveredremorsefully。I
  wouldn’tplay,norsing,norgotowalk,noranything;andIworehorridfrowzywrappersallthetime,and——’
  Oh,come,come,Billy,’expostulatedtheman。I’mnotgoingtohaveyoutalklikethatabout_mywife!_’
  ButIdid——thebooksaidIdid,’wailedBilly。
  Thebook?Goodheavens!Arethereanybooksinthis,too?’demandedBertram。
  Yes,thesameone;the——the`TalkstoYoungWives,’’noddedBilly。Andthen,becausesomethingshadgrownsmalltothem,andsomeothersgreat,theybothlaughedhappily。
  Buteventhiswasnotquiteall;foroneevening,veryshyly,Billybroughtoutthechessboard。
  OfcourseIcan’tplaywell,’shefaltered;
  andmaybeyoudon’twanttoplaywithmeatall。’
  ButBertram,whenhefoundoutwhyshehadlearned,wasverysurehedidwantverymuchtoplaywithher。
  Billydidnotbeat,ofcourse。Butshedidseveraltimesexperience——forafewblissfulminutes——thepleasureofseeingBertramsitmotionless,studyingtheboard,becauseofamoveshehadmade。Andthough,intheend,herkingwasignominiouslytrappedwithnotanunguardedsquareuponwhichtosethispoordistractedfoot,thememoryofthoseblissfulminuteswhenshehadmadeBertramstare’morethanpaidforthefinalcheckmate。
  BythemiddleofJunethebabywaswellenoughtobetakentothebeach,andBertramwassofortunateastosecurethesamehousetheyhadoccupiedbefore。OnceagainWilliamwentdowninMaineforhisfishingtrip,andtheStratawasclosed。InthebeachhouseBertramwaspaintingindustriously——withhislefthand。
  AlmosthewasbeginningtofeelBilly’senthusiasm。
  Almosthewasbelievingthathe_was_doinggoodwork。ItwasnottheFaceofaGirl,’now。
  Itwasthefaceofababy:smiling,laughing,evencrying,sometimes;atothertimesjustgazingstraightintoyoureyeswithadorablesoberness。
  BertramstillwentintoBostontwiceaweekfortreatment,thoughthetreatmentitselfhadchanged。Thegreatsurgeonhadsenthimtostillanotherspecialist。
  There’sachance——thoughperhapsasmallone,’hehadsaid。I’dlikeyoutotryit,anyway。’
  Asthesummeradvanced,Bertramthoughtsometimesthathecouldseeaslightimprovementinhisinjuredarm;buthetriednottothinktoomuchaboutthis。Hehadthoughtthesamethingbefore,onlytobedisappointedintheend。Besides,hewasundeniablyinterestedjustnowinseeingifhe_could_paintwithhislefthand。Billywassosure,andshehadsaidthatshewouldbeprouderthaneverofhim,ifhecould——andhewouldliketomakeBillyproud!Then,too,therewasthebaby——hehadnoideaababycouldbesointerestingtopaint。
  HewasnotsurebutthathewasgoingtoliketopaintbabiesevenbetterthanhehadlikedtopainthisFaceofaGirl’thathadbroughthimhisfirstfame。
  InSeptemberthefamilyreturnedtotheStrata。
  ThemovewasmadealittleearlierthisyearonaccountofAliceGreggory’swedding。
  Alicewastobemarriedintheprettyliving-
  roomattheAnnex,justwhereBillyherselfhadbeenmarriedafewshortyearsbefore;andBillyhadgreatplansforthewedding——notallofwhichshewasabletocarryout,forAlice,likeMariebeforeher,hadverystrongobjectionstobeingplacedundertoogreatobligations。
  Andyousee,really,anyway,’shetoldBilly,Iowethewholethingtoyou,tobeginwith——
  evenmyhusband。’
  Nonsense!Ofcourseyoudon’t,’disputedBilly。
  ButIdo。Ifithadn’tbeenforyouIshouldneverhavefoundhimagain,andof_course_I
  shouldn’thavehadthisdearlittlehometobemarriedin。AndInevercouldhaveleftmotherifshehadn’thadAuntHannahandtheAnnexwhichmeansyou。AndifIhadn’tfoundMr。
  Arkwright,Imightneverhaveknownhow——
  howIcouldgobacktomyoldhomeasIamgoingonmyhoneymoontrip,andjustknowthateveryoneofmyoldfriendswhoshakeshandswithmeisn’tpityingmenow,becauseI’mmyfather’sdaughter。Andthatmeansyou;foryouseeIneverwouldhaveknownthatmyfather’snamewasclearedifithadn’tbeenforyou。
  And——’
  Oh,Alice,please,please,’beggedBilly,laughinglyraisingtwoprotestinghands。Whydon’tyousaythatit’stomeyouowejustbreathing,andbedonewithit?’
  Well,Iwill,then,’avowedAlice,doggedly。
  Andit’strue,too,for,honestly,mydear,I
  don’tbelieveIwouldhavebeenbreathingto-day,normother,either,ifyouhadn’tfoundusthatmorning,andtakenusoutofthoseawfulrooms。’
  I?Never!Youwouldn’tletmetakeyouout,’laughedBilly。Youproudlittlething!
  Maybe_you’ve_forgottenhowyouturnedpoorUncleWilliamandmeoutintothecold,coldworldthatmorning,justbecausewedaredtoaspiretoyourLowestoftteapot;butIhaven’t!’
  Oh,Billy,please,_don’t_,’beggedAlice,thepainfulcolorstainingherface。IfyouknewhowI’vehatedmyselfsinceforthewayIactedthatday——and,really,youdidtakeusawayfromthere,youknow。’
  No,Ididn’t。ImerelyfoundtwogoodtenantsforMr。andMrs。Delano,’correctedBilly,withasoberface。
  Oh,yes,Iknowallaboutthat,’smiledAlice,affectionately;andyougotmotherandmeheretokeepAuntHannahcompanyandteachTommyDunn;andyougotAuntHannahheretokeepuscompanyandtakecareofTommyDunn;andyougotTommyDunnheresoAuntHannahandwecouldhavesomebodytoteachandtakecareof;and,asfortheothers,——’
  ButBillyputherhandstoherearsandfled。
  Theweddingwastobeonthefifteenth。FromtheWestKatewrotethatofcourseitwasnoneofheraffairs,particularlyasneitheroftheinterestedpartieswasarelation,butstillsheshouldthinkthatforamaninMr。Arkwright’sposition,nothingbutachurchweddingwoulddoatall,as,ofcourse,hedid,inaway,belongtothepublic。Alice,however,declaredthatperhapshedidbelongtothepublic,whenhewasDonSomebody-
  or-otherindoubletandhose;butwhenhewasjustplainMichaelJeremiahArkwrightinafrockcoathewashers,andshedidnotproposetomakeaGrandOperashowofherwedding。
  AndasArkwright,too,verymuchdisapprovedofthechurch-weddingidea,thetwoweremarriedintheAnnexliving-roomatnoononthefifteenthasoriginallyplanned,inspiteofMrs。KateHartwell’sletter。
  ItwassoonaftertheweddingthatBertramtoldBillyhewishedshewouldsitforhimwithBertram,Jr。
  Iwanttotrymyhandatyoubothtogether,’
  hecoaxed。
  Why,ofcourse,ifyoulike,dear,’agreedBilly,promptly,thoughIthinkBabyisjustasnice,andevennicer,alone。’
  OnceagainalloverBertram’sstudiobegantoappearsketchesofBilly,thistimeaglorified,tenderBilly,withthewonderfulmother-loveinhereyes。Then,afterseveralsketchesoftrialposes,BertrambeganhispictureofBillyandthebabytogether。
  EvennowBertramwasnotsureofhiswork。
  Heknewthathecouldnotyetpaintwithhisoldfreedomandease;heknewthathisstrokewasnotsosure,sountrammeled。Butheknew,too,thathehadgainedwonderfully,duringthesummer,andthathewasgainingnow,everyday。
  ToBillyhesaidnothingofallthis。Eventohimselfhescarcelyputhishopeintowords;butinhisheartheknewthatwhathewasreallypaintinghisMotherandChild’pictureforwastheBohemianTenClubExhibitioninMarch——ifhecouldbutputuponcanvasthevisionthatwasspurringhimon。
  AndsoBertramworkedallthroughthoseshortwinterdays,notalwaysupontheonepicture,ofcourse,butuponsomepictureorsketchthatwouldhelptogivehisstilluncertainlefthandtheskillthathadbelongedtoitsmate。
  Andalways,cheering,encouraging,insistingonvictory,wasBilly,sothatevenhadBertrambeentempted,sometimes,togiveup,hecouldnothavedoneso——andfacedBilly’sgrieved,disappointedeyes。Andwhenatlasthisworkwascompleted,andthepicturedmotherandchildinalltheirmarvelouslifeandbeautyseemedreadytostepfromthecanvas,Billydrewalongecstaticbreath。
  Oh,Bertram,it_is_,itisthebestworkyouhaveeverdone。’Billywaslookingatthebaby。
  Alwaysshehadignoredherselfaspartofthepicture。Andwon’titbefinefortheExhibition!’
  Bertram’shandtightenedonthechair-backinfrontofhim。Foramomenthecouldnotspeak。Then,abithuskily,heasked:
  Wouldyoudare——riskit?’
  Riskit!Why,BertramHenshaw,I’vemeantthatpicturefortheExhibitionfromtheveryfirst——onlyIneverdreamedyoucouldgetitsoperfectlylovely。_Now_whatdoyousayaboutBabybeingnicerthananyold`FaceofaGirl’thatyoueverdid?’shetriumphed。
  AndBertram,who,eventohimself,hadnotdaredwhisperthewordexhibition,gaveatremulouslaughthatwasalmostasob,sooverwhelmingwashissuddenrealizationofwhatfaithandconfidencehadmeanttoBilly,hiswife。
  IftherewasstillalingeringdoubtinBertram’smind,itmusthavebeendispelledinlessthananhouraftertheBohemianTenClubExhibitionflungopenitsdoorsonitsopeningnight。OnceagainBertramfoundhispicturethecynosureofalladmiringeyes,andhimselfthecenterofanenthusiasticgroupoffriendsandfellow-artistswhoviedwitheachotherinheartywordsofcongratulation。Andwhen,later,thefearedcritics,whosenamesandopinionscountedforsomuchinhisworld,hadtheirsayinthedailypressandweeklyreviews,Bertramknewhowsurelyindeedhehadwon。AndwhenhereadthatHenshaw’sworkshowsnowapeculiarstrength,asortofreservepower,asitwere,which,beautifulaswashisformerwork,itnevershowedbefore,’hesmiledgrimly,andsaidtoBilly:
  Isuppose,now,thatwasthefightingIdidwithmygoodlefthand,eh,dear?’
  ButtherewasyetonemoredropthatwastomakeBertram’scupofjoybrimtooverflowing。
  ItcamejustonemonthaftertheExhibitionintheshapeofatersedozenwordsfromthedoctor。
  Bertramfairlyflewhomethatday。Hehadnoconsciousnessofanymeansoflocomotion。Hethoughthewasgoingtotellhiswifeatoncehisgreatgoodnews;butwhenhesawher,speechsuddenlyfled,andallthathecoulddowastodrawhercloselytohimwithhisleftarmandhidehisface。
  Why,Bertram,dearest,what——whatisit?’
  stammeredthethoroughlyfrightenedBilly。
  Hasanything-happened?’
  No,no——yes——yes,everythinghashappened。
  Imean,it’sgoingtohappen,’chokedtheman。Billy,thatoldchapsaysthatI’mgoingtohavemyarmagain。Thinkofit——mygoodrightarmthatI’velostsolong!’
  _Oh,Bertram!_’breathedBilly。Andshe,too,felltosobbing。
  Later,whenspeechwasmorecoherent,shefaltered:
  Well,anyway,itdoesn’tmakeanydifference_how_manybeautifulpicturesyoup-paint,afterthis,Bertram,I_can’t_beprouderofanythanI
  amoftheoneyourl——lefthanddid。’
  Oh,butIhaveyoutothankforallthat,dear。’
  No,youhaven’t,’disputedBilly,blinkingtearyeyes;but——’shepaused,thenwentonspiritedly,but,anyhow,I——Idon’tbelieveanyone——notevenKate——cansay_now_that——
  thatI’vebeenahindrancetoyouinyourc-career!’
  Hindrance!’scoffedBertram,inatonethatleftnoroomfordoubt,andwithakissthatleftevenless,ifpossible。
  Billy,forstillanotherminute,wassilent;then,withawistfulnessthatwashalfplayful,halfserious,shesighed:
  Bertram,Ibelievebeingmarriedissomethinglikeclocks,youknow,’speciallyatthefirst。’
  Clocks,dear?’
  Yes。IwasouttoAuntHannah’sto-day。
  Shewasfussingwithherclock——theonethatstrikeshalfanhourahead——andIsawallthosequantitiesofwheels,littleandbig,thathavetogojustso,withallthelittlecogsfittingintoalltheotherlittlecogsjustexactlyright。Well,that’slikemarriage。See?There’ssuchalotoflittlecogsineverydaylifethathavetobefittedsothey’llrunsmoothly——thathavetobeadjusted,’speciallyatthefirst。’
  Oh,Billy,whatanidea!’
  Butit’sso,really,Bertram。Anyhow,I
  knowmycogswerealwaysgettingoutofplaceatthefirst,’laughedBilly。AndIwaslikeAuntHannah’sclock,too,alwaysgoingoffhalfanhouraheadoftime。AndmaybeIshallbesoagain,sometimes。But,Bertram,’——hervoiceshookalittle——ifyou’lljustlookatmyfaceyou’llseethatItelltherighttimethere,justasAuntHannah’sclockdoes。I’msure,always,I’lltelltherighttimethere,evenifIdogooffhalfanhourahead!’
  AsifIdidn’tknowthat,’answeredBertram,verylowandtenderly。Besides,IreckonIhavesomecogsofmyownthatneedadjusting!’
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