Passingoutintothestreetsonthiserrandhefoundthatthecollegeshadtreacherouslychangedtheirsympatheticcountenances:somewerepompous;somehadputonthelookoffamilyvaultsaboveground;somethingbarbaricloomedinthemasonriesofall。Thespiritsofthegreatmenhaddisappeared。
  Thenumberlessarchitecturalpagesaroundhimheread,naturally,lessasanartist-criticoftheirformsthanasanartizanandcomradeofthedeadhandicraftsmenwhosemuscleshadactuallyexecutedthoseforms。
  Heexaminedthemouldings,strokedthemasonewhoknewtheirbeginning,saidtheyweredifficultoreasyintheworking,hadtakenlittleormuchtime,weretryingtothearm,orconvenienttothetool。
  Whatatnighthadbeenperfectandidealwasbydaythemoreorlessdefectivereal。Cruelties,insults,had,heperceived,beeninflictedontheagederections。Theconditionofseveralmovedhimashewouldhavebeenmovedbymaimedsentientbeings。Theywerewounded,broken,sloughingofftheiroutershapeinthedeadlystruggleagainstyears,weather,andman。
  Therottennessofthesehistoricaldocumentsremindedhimthathewasnot,afterall,hasteningontobeginthemorningpracticallyashehadintended。Hehadcometowork,andtolivebywork,andthemorninghadnearlygone。Itwas,inonesense,encouragingtothinkthatinaplaceofcrumblingstonestheremustbeplentyforoneofhistradetodointhebusinessofrenovation。Heaskedhiswaytotheworkyardofthestone-masonwhosenamehadbeengivenhimatAlfredston;andsoonheardthefamiliarsoundoftherubbersandchisels。
  Theyardwasalittlecentreofregeneration。Here,withkeenedgesandsmoothcurves,wereformsintheexactlikenessofthosehehadseenabradedandtime-eatenonthewalls。Theseweretheideasinmodernprosewhichthelichenedcollegespresentedinoldpoetry。Evensomeofthoseantiquesmighthavebeencalledprosewhentheywerenew。Theyhaddonenothingbutwait,andhadbecomepoetical。Howeasytothesmallestbuilding;howimpossibletomostmen。
  Heaskedfortheforeman,andlookedroundamongthenewtraceries,mullions,transoms,shafts,pinnacles,andbattlementsstandingonthebankershalfworked,orwaitingtoberemoved。Theyweremarkedbyprecision,mathematicalstraightness,smoothness,exactitude:thereintheoldwallswerethebrokenlinesoftheoriginalidea;jaggedcurves,disdainofprecision,irregularity,disarray。
  ForamomenttherefellonJudeatrueillumination;thathereinthestoneyardwasacentreofeffortasworthyasthatdignifiedbythenameofscholarlystudywithinthenoblestofthecolleges。Buthelostitunderstressofhisoldidea。Hewouldacceptanyemploymentwhichmightbeofferedhimonthestrengthofhislateemployer’srecommendation;
  buthewouldacceptitasaprovisionalthingonly。Thiswashisformofthemodernviceofunrest。
  Moreoverheperceivedthatatbestonlycopying,patchingandimitatingwentonhere;whichhefanciedtobeowingtosometemporaryandlocalcause。Hedidnotatthattimeseethatmediaevalismwasasdeadasafern-leafinalumpofcoal;thatotherdevelopmentswereshapingintheworldaroundhim,inwhichGothicarchitectureanditsassociationshadnoplace。Thedeadlyanimosityofcontemporarylogicandvisiontowardssomuchofwhatheheldinreverencewasnotyetrevealedtohim。
  Havingfailedtoobtainworkhereasyethewentaway,andthoughtagainofhiscousin,whosepresencesomewhereathandheseemedtofeelinwaveletsofinterest,ifnotofemotion。Howhewishedhehadthatprettyportraitofher!Atlasthewrotetohisaunttosendit。Shedidso,witharequest,however,thathewasnottobringdisturbanceintothefamilybygoingtoseethegirlorherrelations。Jude,aridiculouslyaffectionatefellow,promisednothing,putthephotographonthemantel-piece,kissedit-hedidnotknowwhy-andfeltmoreathome。Sheseemedtolookdownandpresideoverhistea。Itwascheering-theonethingunitinghimtotheemotionsofthelivingcity。
  Thereremainedtheschoolmaster-probablynowareverendparson。
  Buthecouldnotpossiblyhuntupsucharespectablemanjustyet;sorawandunpolishedwashiscondition,soprecariouswerehisfortunes。Thushestillremainedinloneliness。Althoughpeoplemovedroundhimhevirtuallysawnone。Notasyethavingmingledwiththeactivelifeoftheplaceitwaslargelynon-existenttohim。Butthesaintsandprophetsinthewindow-tracery,thepaintingsinthegalleries,thestatues,thebusts,thegargoyles,thecorbel-heads-theseseemedtobreathehisatmosphere。Likeallnewcomerstoaspotonwhichthepastisdeeplygravenheheardthatpastannouncingitselfwithanemphasisaltogetherunsuspectedby,andevenincredibleto,thehabitualresidents。
  Formanydayshehauntedthecloistersandquadranglesofthecollegesatoddminutesinpassingthem,surprisedbyimpishechoesofhisownfootsteps,smartastheblowsofamallet。TheChristminster`sentiment,’
  asithadbeencalled,atefurtherandfurtherintohim;tillheprobablyknewmoreaboutthosebuildingsmaterially,artistically,andhistorically,thananyoneoftheirinmates。
  Itwasnottillnow,whenhefoundhimselfactuallyonthespotofhisenthusiasm,thatJudeperceivedhowfarawayfromtheobjectofthatenthusiasmhereallywas。Onlyawalldividedhimfromthosehappyyoungcontemporariesofhiswithwhomhesharedacommonmentallife;menwhohadnothingtodofrommorningtillnightbuttoread,mark,learn,andinwardlydigest。Onlyawall-butwhatawall!
  Everyday,everyhour,ashewentinsearchoflabour,hesawthemgoingandcomingalso,rubbedshoulderswiththem,heardtheirvoices,markedtheirmovements。Theconversationofsomeofthemorethoughtfulamongthemseemedoftentimes,owingtohislongandpersistentpreparationforthisplace,tobepeculiarlyakintohisownthoughts。Yethewasasfarfromthemasifhehadbeenattheantipodes。Ofcoursehewas。Hewasayoungworkmaninawhiteblouse,andwithstone-dustinthecreasesofhisclothes;andinpassinghimtheydidnotevenseehim,orhearhim,rathersawthroughhimasthroughapaneofglassattheirfamiliarsbeyond。
  Whatevertheyweretohim,hetothemwasnotonthespotatall;andyethehadfanciedhewouldbeclosetotheirlivesbycomingthere。
  Butthefuturelayaheadafterall;andifhecouldonlybesofortunateastogetintogoodemploymenthewouldputupwiththeinevitable。
  SohethankedGodforhishealthandstrength,andtookcourage。Forthepresenthewasoutsidethegatesofeverything,collegesincluded:perhapssomedayhewouldbeinside。Thosepalacesoflightandleading;hemightsomedaylookdownontheworldthroughtheirpanes。
  Atlengthhedidreceiveamessagefromthestone-mason’syard-thatajobwaswaitingforhim。Itwashisfirstencouragement,andheclosedwiththeofferpromptly。
  Hewasyoungandstrong,orhenevercouldhaveexecutedwithsuchzesttheundertakingstowhichhenowappliedhimself,sincetheyinvolvedreadingmostofthenightafterworkingalltheday。Firstheboughtashadedlampforfourandsix-pence,andobtainedagoodlight。
  Thenhegotpens,paper,andsuchothernecessarybooksashehadbeenunabletoobtainelsewhere。Then,totheconsternationofhislandlady,heshiftedallthefurnitureofhisroom-asingleoneforlivingandsleeping-riggedupacurtainonaropeacrossthemiddle,tomakeadoublechamberoutofone,hungupathickblindthatno-bodyshouldknowhowhewascurtailingthehoursofsleep,laidouthisbooks,andsatdown。
  Havingbeendeeplyencumberedbymarrying,gettingacottage,andbuyingthefurniturewhichhaddisappearedinthewakeofhiswife,hehadneverbeenabletosaveanymoneysincethetimeofthosedisastrousventures,andtillhiswagesbegantocomeinhewasobligedtoliveinthenarrowestway。Afterbuyingabookortwohecouldnotevenaffordhimselfafire;andwhenthenightsreekedwiththerawandcoldairfromtheMeadowshesatoverhislampinagreat-coat,hat,andwoollengloves。
  Fromhiswindowhecouldperceivethespireofthecathedral,andtheogeedomeunderwhichresoundedthegreatbellofthecity。Thetalltower,tallbelfrywindows,andtallpinnaclesofthecollegebythebridgehecouldalsogetaglimpseofbygoingtothestaircase。Theseobjectsheusedasstimulantswhenhisfaithinthefuturewasdim。
  Likeenthusiastsingeneralhemadenoinquiriesintodetailsofprocedure。Pickingupgeneralnotionsfromcasualacquaintance,heneverdweltuponthem。Forthepresent,hesaidtohimself,theonethingnecessarywastogetreadybyaccumulatingmoneyandknowledge,andawaitwhateverchanceswereaffordedtosuchanoneofbecomingasonoftheUniversity。
  `Forwisdomisadefence,andmoneyisadefence;buttheexcellencyofknowledgeis,thatwisdomgivethlifetothemthathaveit。’Hisdesireabsorbedhim,andleftnopartofhimtoweighitspracticability。
  Atthistimehereceivedanervouslyanxiousletterfromhispooroldaunt,onthesubjectwhichhadpreviouslydistressedher-afearthatJudewouldnotbestrong-mindedenoughtokeepawayfromhiscousinSueBrideheadandherrelations。Sue’sfather,hisauntbelieved,hadgonebacktoLondon,butthegirlremainedatChristminster。Tomakeherstillmoreobjectionableshewasanartistordesignerofsomesortinwhatwascalledanecclesiasticalwarehouse,whichwasaperfectseed-bedofidolatry,andshewasnodoubtabandonedtomummeriesonthataccount-ifnotquiteaPapist。MissDrusillaFawleywasofherdate,Evangelical。
  AsJudewasratheronanintellectualtrackthanatheological,thisnewsofSue’sprobableopinionsdidnotmuchinfluencehimonewayortheother,butthecluetoherwhereaboutswasdecidedlyinteresting。
  Withanaltogethersingularpleasurehewalkedathisearliestspareminutespasttheshopsansweringtohisgreat-aunt’sdescription;andbeheldinoneofthemayounggirlsittingbehindadesk,whowassuspiciouslyliketheoriginaloftheportrait。Heventuredtoenteronatrivialerrand,andhavingmadehispurchaselingeredonthescene。Theshopseemedtobekeptentirelybywomen。ItcontainedAnglicanbooks,stationery,texts,andfancygoods:littleplasterangelsonbrackets,Gothic-framedpicturesofsaints,ebonycrossesthatwerealmostcrucifixes,prayer-booksthatwerealmostmissals。Hefeltveryshyoflookingatthegirlinthedesk;
  shewassoprettythathecouldnotbelieveitpossiblethatsheshouldbelongtohim。Thenshespoketooneofthetwoolderwomenbehindthecounter;andherecognizedintheaccentscertainqualitiesofhisownvoice;softenedandsweetened,buthisown。Whatwasshedoing?Hestoleaglanceround。Beforeherlayapieceofzinc,cuttotheshapeofascrollthreeorfourfeetlong,andcoatedwithadead-surfacepaintononeside。
  Hereonshewasdesigningorilluminating,incharactersofChurchtext,thesinglewordALLELUJH`Asweet,saintly,Christianbusiness,hers!’thoughthe。
  Herpresenceherewasnowfairlyenoughexplained,herskillinworkofthissorthavingnodoubtbeenacquiredfromherfather’soccupationasanecclesiasticalworkerinmetal。Theletteringonwhichshewasengagedwasclearlyintendedtobefixedupinsomechanceltoassistdevotion。
  Hecameout。Itwouldhavebeeneasytospeaktoherthereandthen,butitseemedscarcelyhonourabletowardshisaunttodisregardherrequestsoincontinently。Shehadusedhimroughly,butshehadbroughthimup:andthefactofherbeingpowerlesstocontrolhimlentapatheticforcetoawishthatwouldhavebeeninoperativeasanargument。
  SoJudegavenosign。HewouldnotcalluponSuejustyet。Hehadotherreasonsagainstdoingsowhenhehadwalkedaway。Sheseemedsodaintybesidehimselfinhisroughworking-jacketanddustytrousersthathefelthewasasyetunreadytoencounterher,ashehadfeltaboutMr。Phillotson。Andhowpossibleitwasthatshehadinheritedtheantipathiesofherfamily,andwouldscornhim,asfarasaChristiancould,particularlywhenhehadtoldherthatunpleasantpartofhishistorywhichhadresultedinhisbecomingenchainedtooneofherownsexwhomshewouldcertainlynotadmire。
  Thushekeptwatchoverher,andlikedtofeelshewasthere。
  Theconsciousnessofherlivingpresencestimulatedhim。Butsheremainedmoreorlessanidealcharacter,aboutwhoseformhebegantoweavecuriousandfantasticday-dreams。