HehadhonourablyacquiescedinSue’sannouncedwishthathewasnotoftentovisitheratthetrainingschool;butatlength,hispatiencebeingsorelytried,hesetoutoneSaturdayafternoontopayheranunexpectedcall。Therethenewsofherdeparture-expulsionasitmightalmosthavebeenconsidered-wasflasheduponhimwithoutwarningormitigationashestoodatthedoorexpectinginafewminutestobeholdherface;andwhenheturnedawayhecouldhardlyseetheroadbeforehim。
  Suehad,infact,neverwrittenalinetohersuitoronthesubject,althoughitwasfourteendaysold。Ashortreflectiontoldhimthatthisprovednothing,anaturaldelicacybeingasampleareasonforsilenceasanydegreeofblameworthiness。
  Theyhadinformedhimattheschoolwhereshewasliving,andhavingnoimmediateanxietyabouthercomforthisthoughtstookthedirectionofaburningindignationagainstthetrainingschoolcommittee。InhisbewildermentPhillotsonenteredtheadjacentcathedral,justnowinadirelydismantledstatebyreasonoftherepairs。Hesatdownonablockoffreestone,regardlessofthedustyimprintitmadeonhisbreeches;andhislistlesseyesfollowingthemovementsoftheworkmenhepresentlybecameawarethatthereputedculprit,Sue’sloverJude,wasoneamongstthem。
  JudehadneverspokentohisformerherosincethemeetingbythemodelofJerusalem。HavinginadvertentlywitnessedPhillotson’stentativecourtshipofSueinthelanetherehadgrownupintheyoungerman’smindacuriousdisliketothinkoftheelder,tomeethim,tocommunicateinanywaywithhim;andsincePhillotson’ssuccessinobtainingatleastherpromisehadbecomeknowntoJude,hehadfranklyrecognizedthathedidnotwishtoseeorhearofhissenioranymore,learnanythingofhispursuits,orevenimagineagainwhatexcellenciesmightappertaintohischaracter。Onthisverydayoftheschoolmaster’svisitJudewasexpectingSue,asshehadpromised;andwhenthereforehesawtheschoolmasterinthenaveofthebuilding,saw,moreover,thathewascomingtospeaktohim,hefeltnolittleembarrassment;whichPhillotson’sownembarrassmentpreventedhisobserving。
  Judejoinedhim,andtheybothwithdrewfromtheotherworkmentothespotwherePhillotsonhadbeensitting。Judeofferedhimapieceofsackclothforacushion,andtoldhimitwasdangeroustositonthebareblock。
  `Yes;yes,’saidPhillotsonabstractedly,ashereseatedhimself,hiseyesrestingonthegroundasifheweretryingtorememberwherehewas。`Iwon’tkeepyoulong。ItwasmerelythatIhaveheardthatyouhaveseenmylittlefriendSuerecently。Itoccurredtometospeaktoyouonthataccount。Imerelywanttoaskabouther。’
  `IthinkIknowwhat!’Judehurriedlysaid。`Aboutherescapingfromthetrainingschool,andhercomingtome?’
  `Yes。’
  `Well’-Judeforamomentfeltanunprincipledandfiendishwishtoannihilatehisrivalatallcost。Bytheexerciseofthattreacherywhichloveforthesamewomanrenderspossibletomenthemosthonourableineveryotherrelationoflife,hecouldsendoffPhillotsoninagonyanddefeatbysayingthatthescandalwastrue,andthatSuehadirretrievablycommittedherselfwithhim。Buthisactiondidnotrespondforamomenttohisanimalinstinct;andwhathesaidwas,`Iamgladofyourkindnessincomingtotalkplainlytomeaboutit。Youknowwhattheysay?-thatIoughttomarryher。’
  `What!’
  `AndIwishwithallmysoulIcould!’
  Phillotsontrembled,andhisnaturallypalefaceacquiredacorpselikesharpnessinitslines。`Ihadnoideathatitwasofthisnature!Godforbid!’
  `No,no!’saidJudeaghast。`Ithoughtyouunderstood?ImeanthatwereIinapositiontomarryher,orsomeone,andsettledown,insteadoflivinginlodgingshereandthere,Ishouldbeglad!’
  Whathehadreallymeantwassimplythathelovedher。
  `But-sincethispainfulmatterhasbeenopenedup-whatreallyhappened?’askedPhillotson,withthefirmnessofamanwhofeltthatasharpsmartnowwasbetterthanalongagonyofsuspensehereafter。`Casesarise,andthisisone,whenevenungenerousquestionsmustbeputtomakefalseassumptionsimpossible,andtokillscandal。’
  Judeexplainedreadily;givingthewholeseriesofadventures,includingthenightattheshepherd’s,herwetarrivalathislodging,herindispositionfromherimmersion,theirvigilofdiscussion,andhisseeingheroffnextmorning。
  `Wellnow,’saidPhillotsonattheconclusion,`Itakeitasyourfinalword,andIknowIcanbelieveyou,thatthesuspicionwhichledtoherrusticationisanabsolutelybaselessone?’
  `Itis,’saidJudesolemnly。`Absolutely。SohelpmeGod!’
  Theschoolmasterrose。Eachofthetwainfeltthattheinterviewcouldnotcomfortablymergeinafriendlydiscussionoftheirrecentexperiences,afterthemanneroffriends;andwhenJudehadtakenhimround,andshownhimsomefeaturesoftherenovationwhichtheoldcathedralwasundergoing,Phillotsonbadetheyoungmangood-dayandwentaway。
  Thisvisittookplaceabouteleveno’clockinthemorning;butnoSueappeared。WhenJudewenttohisdinneratonehesawhisbelovedaheadofhiminthestreetleadingupfromtheNorthGate,walkingasifnowaylookingforhim。Speedilyovertakingherheremarkedthathehadaskedhertocometohimatthecathedral,andshehadpromised。
  `Ihavebeentogetmythingsfromthecollege,’shesaid-anobservationwhichhewasexpectedtotakeasananswer,thoughitwasnotone。Findinghertobeinthisevasivemoodhefeltinclinedtogivehertheinformationsolongwithheld。
  `YouhavenotseenMr。Phillotsonto-day?’heventuredtoinquire。
  `Ihavenot。ButIamnotgoingtobecross-examinedabouthim;
  andifyouaskanythingmoreIwon’tanswer!’
  `Itisveryoddthat-`Hestopped,regardingher。
  `What?’
  `Thatyouareoftennotsoniceinyourrealpresenceasyouareinyourletters!’
  `Doesitreallyseemsotoyou?’saidshe,smilingwithquickcuriosity。`Well,that’sstrange;butIfeeljustthesameaboutyou,Jude。
  WhenyouaregoneawayIseemsuchacoldhearted——’
  AssheknewhissentimenttowardsherJudesawthattheyweregettingupondangerousground。Itwasnow,hethought,thathemustspeakasanhonestman。
  Buthedidnotspeak,andshecontinued:`Itwasthatwhichmademewriteandsay-Ididn’tmindyourlovingme-ifyouwantedto,much!’
  Theexultationhemighthavefeltatwhatthatimplied,orseemedtoimply,wasnullifiedbyhisintention,andherestedrigidtillhebegan:
  `Ihavenevertoldyou——’
  `Yesyouhave,’murmuredshe。
  `Imean,Ihavenevertoldyoumyhistory-allofit。’
  `ButIguessit。lknownearly。’
  Judelookedup。CouldshepossiblyknowofthatmorningperformanceofhiswithArabella;whichinafewmonthshadceasedtobeamarriagemorecompletelythanbydeath?Hesawthatshedidnot。
  `Ican’tquitetellyouhereinthestreet,’hewentonwithagloomytongue。`Andyouhadbetternotcometomylodgings。Letusgoinhere。’
  Thebuildingbywhichtheystoodwasthemarket-house,itwastheonlyplaceavailable;andtheyentered,themarketbeingover,andthestallsandareasempty。Hewouldhavepreferredamorecongenialspot,but,asusuallyhappens,inplaceofaromanticfieldorsolemnaisleforhistale,itwastoldwhiletheywalkedupanddownoverafloorlitteredwithrottencabbage-leaves,andamidalltheusualsqualorsofdecayedvegetablematterandunsaleablerefuse。Hebeganandfinishedhisbriefnarrative,whichmerelyleduptotheinformationthathehadmarriedawifesomeyearsearlier,andthathiswifewaslivingstill。Almostbeforehercountenancehadtimetochangeshehurriedoutthewords,`Whydidn’tyoutellmebefore!’
  `Icouldn’t。Itseemedsocrueltotellit。’
  `Toyourself,Jude。Soitwasbettertobecrueltome!’
  `No,deardarling!’criedJudepassionately。Hetriedtotakeherhand,butshewithdrewit。Theiroldrelationsofconfidenceseemedsuddenlytohaveended,andtheantagonismsofsextosexwereleftwithoutanycounter-poisingpredilections。Shewashiscomrade,friend,unconscioussweetheartnolonger;andhereyesregardedhiminestrangedsilence。
  `Iwasashamedoftheepisodeinmylifewhichbroughtaboutthemarriage,’hecontinued。`Ican’texplainitpreciselynow。Icouldhavedoneitifyouhadtakenitdifferently!’
  `ButhowcanI?’sheburstout。`HereIhavebeensaying,orwriting,that-thatyoumightloveme,orsomethingofthesort!-justoutofcharity-andallthetime-oh,itisperfectlydamnablehowthingsare!’
  shesaid,stampingherfootinanervousquiver。
  `Youtakemewrong,Sue!Ineverthoughtyoucaredformeatall,tillquitelately;soIfeltitdidnotmatter!Doyoucareforme,Sue?-
  youknowhowImean?-Idon’tlike`outofcharity’atall!’
  ItwasaquestionwhichinthecircumstancesSuedidnotchoosetoanswer。
  `Isupposeshe-yourwife-is-averyprettywomanevenifshe’swicked?’sheaskedquickly。
  `She’sprettyenough,asfarasthatgoes。’
  `PrettierthanIam,nodoubt!’
  `Youarenottheleastalike。AndIhaveneverseenherforyears……
  Butshe’ssuretocomeback-theyalwaysdo!’
  `Howstrangeofyoutostayapartfromherlikethis!’saidSue,hertremblinglipandlumpythroatbelyingherirony。`You,suchareligiousman。Howwillthedemi-godsinyourPantheon-Imeanthoselegendarypersonsyoucallsaints-intercedeforyouafterthis?NowifIhaddonesuchathingitwouldhavebeendifferent,andnotremarkable,forIatleastdon’tregardmarriageasasacrament。Yourtheoriesarenotsoadvancedasyourpractice!’
  `Sue,youareterriblycuttingwhenyouliketobe-aperfectVoltaire!Butyoumusttreatmeasyouwill!’
  Whenshesawhowwretchedhewasshesoftened,andtryingtoblinkawayhersympathetictearssaidwithallthewinningreproachfulnessofaheart-hurtwoman:`Ah-youshouldhavetoldmebeforeyougavemethatideathatyouwantedtobeallowedtoloveme!Ihadnofeelingbeforethatmomentattherailway-station,except-`ForonceSuewasasmiserableashe,inherattemptstokeepherselffreefromemotion,andherlessthanhalf-success。
  `Don’tcry,dear!’heimplored。
  `Iam-notcrying-becauseImeantto-loveyou;butbecauseofyourwantof-confidence!’
  Theywerequitescreenedfromthemarket-squarewithout,andhecouldnothelpputtingouthisarmtowardsherwaist。Hismomentarydesirewasthemeansofherrallying。`No,no!’shesaid,drawingbackstringently,andwipinghereyes。`Ofcoursenot!Itwouldbehypocrisytopretendthatitwouldbemeantasfrommycousin;anditcan’tbeinanyotherway。’
  Theymovedonadozenpaces,andsheshowedherselfrecovered。
  ItwasdistractingtoJude,andhisheartwouldhaveachedlesshadsheappearedanyhowbutasshedidappear;essentiallylarge-mindedandgenerousonreflection,despiteapreviousexerciseofthosenarrowwomanlyhumoursonimpulsethatwerenecessarytogivehersex。
  `Idon’tblameyouforwhatyoucouldn’thelp,’shesaid,smiling。
  `HowshouldIbesofoolish?Idoblameyoualittlebitfornottellingmebefore。But,afterall,itdoesn’tmatter。Weshouldhavehadtokeepapart,yousee,evenifthishadnotbeeninyourlife。’
  `No,weshouldn’t,Sue!Thisistheonlyobstacle。’
  `YouforgetthatImusthavelovedyou,andwantedtobeyourwife,eveniftherehadbeennoobstacle,’saidSue,withagentleseriousnesswhichdidnotrevealhermind。`Andthenwearecousins,anditisbadforcousinstomarry。And-Iamengagedtosomebodyelse。Astoourgoingontogetherasweweregoing,inasortoffriendlyway,thepeoplerounduswouldhavemadeitunabletocontinue。Theirviewsoftherelationsofmanandwomanarelimited,asisprovedbytheirexpellingmefromtheschool。Theirphilosophyonlyrecognizesrelationsbasedonanimaldesire。
  Thewidefieldofstrongattachmentwheredesireplays,atleast,onlyasecondarypart,isignoredbythem-thepartof-whoisit?-VenusUrania。’
  Herbeingabletotalklearnedlyshowedthatshewasmistressofherselfagain;andbeforetheypartedshehadalmostregainedhervivaciousglance,herreciprocityoftone,hergaymanner,andhersecond-thoughtattitudeofcriticallargenesstowardsothersofherageandsex。
  Hecouldspeakmorefreelynow。`Therewereseveralreasonsagainstmytellingyourashly。OnewaswhatIhavesaid;another,thatitwasalwaysimpresseduponmethatIoughtnottomarry-thatIbelongedtoanoddandpeculiarfamily-thewrongbreedformarriage。’
  `Ah-whousedtosaythattoyou?’
  `Mygreat-aunt。ShesaiditalwaysendedbadlywithusFawleys。’
  `That’sstrange。Myfatherusedtosaythesametome!’