Theystoodpossessedbythesamethought,uglyenough,evenasanassumption:thataunionbetweenthem,hadsuchbeenpossible,wouldhavemeantaterribleintensificationofunfitness-twobittersinonedish。
  `Oh,buttherecan’tbeanythinginit!’shesaidwithnervouslightness。`Ourfamilyhavebeenunluckyoflateyearsinchoosingmates-that’sall。’
  Andthentheypretendedtopersuadethemselvesthatallthathadhappenedwasofnoconsequence,andthattheycouldstillbecousinsandfriendsandwarmcorrespondents,andhavehappygenialtimeswhentheymet,eveniftheymetlessfrequentlythanbefore。Theirpartingwasingoodfriendship,andyetJude’slastlookintohereyeswastingedwithinquiry,forhefeltthathedidnotevennowquiteknowhermind。
  JudetheObscureChapter25III-viiTidingsfromSueadayortwoafterpassedacrossJudelikeawitheringblast。
  Beforereadingtheletterhewasledtosuspectthatitscontentswereofasomewhatseriouskindbycatchingsightofthesignature-whichwasinherfullname,neverusedinhercorrespondencewithhimsinceherfirstnote:
  MydearJude,-Ihavesomethingtotellyouwhichperhapsyouwillnotbesurprisedtohear,thoughcertainlyitmaystrikeyouasbeingacceleratedastherailwaycompaniessayoftheirtrains。Mr。PhillotsonandIaretobemarriedquitesoon-inthreeorfourweeks。Wehadintended,asyouknow,towaittillIhadgonethroughmycourseoftrainingandobtainedmycertificate,soastoassisthim,ifnecessary,intheteaching。
  Buthegenerouslysayshedoesnotseeanyobjectinwaiting,nowIamnotatthetrainingschool。Itissogoodofhim,becausetheawkwardnessofmysituationhasreallycomeaboutbymyfaultingettingexpelled。
  Wishmejoy。RememberIsayyouareto,andyoumustn’trefuse!-
  Youraffectionatecousin,SusannaFlorenceMaryBridehead。Judestaggeredunderthenews;couldeatnobreakfast;andkeptondrinkingteabecausehismouthwassodry。Thenpresentlyhewentbacktohisworkandlaughedtheusualbitterlaughofamansoconfronted。Everythingseemedturningtosatire。Andyet,whatcouldthepoorgirldo?heaskedhimself:
  andfeltworsethansheddingtears。
  `OSusannaFlorenceMary!’hesaidasheworked。`Youdon’tknowwhatmarriagemeans!’
  Coulditbepossiblethathisannouncementofhisownmarriagehadprickedherontothis,justashisvisittoherwheninliquormayhaveprickedherontoherengagement?Tobesure,thereseemedtoexisttheseotherandsufficientreasons,practicalandsocial,forherdecision;
  butSuewasnotaverypracticalorcalculatingperson;andhewascompelledtothinkthatapiqueathavinghissecretsprunguponherhadmovedhertogivewaytoPhillotson’sprobablerepresentations,thatthebestcoursetoprovehowunfoundedwerethesuspicionsoftheschoolauthoritieswouldbetomarryhimoff-hand,asinfulfilmentofanordinaryengagement。Suehad,infact,beenplacedinanawkwardcorner。PoorSue!
  HedeterminedtoplaytheSpartan;tomakethebestofit,andsupporther;buthecouldnotwritetherequestedgoodwishesforadayortwo。Meanwhiletherecameanothernotefromhisimpatientlittledear:
  Jude,willyougivemeaway?Ihavenobodyelsewhocoulddoitsoconvenientlyasyou,beingtheonlymarriedrelationIhavehereonthespot,evenifmyfatherwerefriendlyenoughtobewilling,whichheisn’t。Ihopeyouwon’tthinkitatrouble?Ihavebeenlookingatthemarriageserviceintheprayer-book,anditseemstomeveryhumiliatingthatagiver-awayshouldberequiredatall。Accordingtotheceremonyasthereprinted,mybridegroomchoosesmeofhisownwillandpleasure;
  butIdon’tchoosehim。Somebodygivesmetohim,likeashe-assorshe-goat,oranyotherdomesticanimal。Blessyourexaltedviewsofwoman,Ochurchman!ButIforget:Iamnolongerprivilegedtoteaseyou-
  Ever,SusannaFlorenceMaryBridehead。Judescrewedhimselfuptoheroickey;andreplied:
  MydearSue,-OfcourseIwishyoujoy!AndalsoofcourseIwillgiveyouaway。WhatIsuggestisthat,asyouhavenohouseofyourown,youdonotmarryfromyourschoolfriend’s,butfrommine。Itwouldbemoreproper,Ithink,sinceIam,asyousay,thepersonnearestrelatedtoyouinthispartoftheworld。
  Idon’tseewhyyousignyourletterinsuchanewandterriblyformalway?Surelyyoucareabitaboutmestill!-Everyouraffectionate,Jude。Whathadjarredonhimevenmorethanthesignaturewasalittlestinghehadbeensilenton-thephrase`marriedrelation’-Whatanidiotitmadehimseemasherlover!IfSuehadwrittenthatinsatire,hecouldhardlyforgiveher;ifinsuffering-ah,thatwasanotherthing!
  HisofferofhislodgingmusthavecommendeditselftoPhillotsonatanyrate,fortheschoolmastersenthimalineofwarmthanks,acceptingtheconvenience。Suealsothankedhim。Judeimmediatelymovedintomorecommodiousquarters,asmuchtoescapetheespionageofthesuspiciouslandladywhohadbeenonecauseofSue’sunpleasantexperienceasforthesakeofroom。
  ThenSuewrotetotellhimthedayfixedforthewedding;andJudedecided,afterinquiry,thatsheshouldcomeintoresidenceonthefollowingSaturday,whichwouldallowofatendays’stayinthecitypriortotheceremony,sufficientlyrepresentinganominalresidenceoffifteen。
  Shearrivedbytheteno’clocktrainonthedayaforesaid,Judenotgoingtomeetheratthestation,byherspecialrequest,thatheshouldnotloseamorning’sworkandpay,shesaidifthiswerehertruereason。
  ButsowellbythistimedidheknowSuethattheremembranceoftheirmutualsensitivenessatemotionalcrisesmight,hethought,haveweighedwithherinthis。Whenhecamehometodinnershehadtakenpossessionofherapartment。
  Shelivedinthesamehousewithhim,butonadifferentfloor,andtheysaweachotherlittle,anoccasionalsupperbeingtheonlymealtheytooktogether,whenSue’smannerwassomethinglikethatofascaredchild。Whatshefelthedidnotknow;theirconversationwasmechanical,thoughshedidnotlookpaleorill。Phillotsoncamefrequently,butmostlywhenJudewasabsent。Onthemorningofthewedding,whenJudehadgivenhimselfaholiday,Sueandhercousinhadbreakfasttogetherforthefirstandlasttimeduringthiscuriousinterval;inhisroom-theparlour-
  whichhehadhiredfortheperiodofSue’sresidence。Seeing,aswomendo,howhelplesshewasinmakingtheplacecomfortable,shebustledabout。
  `What’sthematter,Jude?’shesaidsuddenly。
  Hewasleaningwithhiselbowsonthetableandhischinonhishands,lookingintoafuturitywhichseemedtobesketchedoutonthetablecloth。
  `Oh-nothing!’
  `Youare`father’,youknow。That’swhattheycallthemanwhogivesyouaway。’
  Judecouldhavesaid`Phillotson’sageentitleshimtobecalledthat!’Buthewouldnotannoyherbysuchacheapretort。
  Shetalkedincessantly,asifshedreadedhisindulgenceinreflection,andbeforethemealwasoverbothheandshewishedtheyhadnotputsuchconfidenceintheirnewviewofthings,andhadtakenbreakfastapart。
  WhatoppressedJudewasthethoughtthat,havingdoneawrongthingofthissorthimself,hewasaidingandabettingthewomanhelovedindoingalikewrongthing,insteadofimploringandwarningheragainstit。Itwasonhistonguetosay,`Youhavequitemadeupyourmind?’
  Afterbreakfasttheywentoutonanerrandtogethermovedbyamutualthoughtthatitwasthelastopportunitytheywouldhaveofindulginginunceremoniouscompanionship。Bytheironyoffate,andthecurioustrickinSue’snatureoftemptingProvidenceatcriticaltimes,shetookhisarmastheywalkedthroughthemuddystreet-athingshehadneverdonebeforeinherlife-andonturningthecornertheyfoundthemselvesclosetoagreyperpendicularchurchwithalow-pitchedroof-thechurchofSt。Thomas。
  `That’sthechurch,’saidJude。
  `WhereIamgoingtobemarried?’
  `Yes。’
  `Indeed!’sheexclaimedwithcuriosity。`HowIshouldliketogoinandseewhatthespotislikewhereIamsosoontokneelanddoit。’
  Againhesaidtohimself,`Shedoesnotrealizewhatmarriagemeans!’
  Hepassivelyacquiescedinherwishtogoin,andtheyenteredbythewesterndoor。Theonlypersoninsidethegloomybuildingwasacharwomancleaning。SuestillheldJude’sarm,almostasifshelovedhim。Cruellysweet,indeed,shehadbeentohimthatmorning;buthisthoughtsofapenanceinstoreforherweretemperedbyanache:
  `……IcanfindnowayHowablowshouldfall,suchasfallsonmen,Norprovetoomuchforyourwomanhood!’Theystrolledundemonstrativelyupthenavetowardsthealtarrailing,whichtheystoodagainstinsilence,turningthenandwalkingdownthenaveagain,herhandstillonhisarm,preciselylikeacouplejustmarried。
  Thetoosuggestiveincident,entirelyofhermaking,nearlybrokedownJude。
  `Iliketodothingslikethis,’shesaidinthedelicatevoiceofanepicureinemotions,whichleftnodoubtthatshespokethetruth。
  `Iknowyoudo!’saidJude。
  `Theyareinteresting,becausetheyhaveprobablyneverbeendonebefore。Ishallwalkdownthechurchlikethiswithmyhusbandinabouttwohours,shan’tI!’
  `Nodoubtyouwill!’
  `Wasitlikethiswhenyouweremarried?’
  `GoodGod,Sue-don’tbesoawfullymerciless!……There,dearone,Ididn’tmeanit!’
  `Ah-youarevexed!’shesaidregretfully,assheblinkedawayanaccessofeyemoisture。`AndIpromisednevertovexyou!……IsupposeIoughtnottohaveaskedyoutobringmeinhere。Oh,Ioughtn’t!Iseeitnow。Mycuriositytohuntupanewsensationalwaysleadsmeintothesescrapes。Forgiveme!……Youwill,won’tyou,Jude?’
  TheappealwassoremorsefulthatJude’seyeswereevenwetterthanhersashepressedherhandforYes。
  `Nowwe’llhurryaway,andIwon’tdoitanymore!’shecontinuedhumbly;andtheycameoutofthebuilding,SueintendingtogoontothestationtomeetPhillotson。Butthefirstpersontheyencounteredonenteringthemainstreetwastheschoolmasterhimself,whosetrainhadarrivedsoonerthanSueexpected。TherewasnothingreallytodemurtoinherleaningonJude’sarm;butshewithdrewherhand,andJudethoughtthatPhillotsonhadlookedsurprised。
  `Wehavebeendoingsuchafunnything!’saidshe,smilingcandidly。
  `We’vebeentothechurch,rehearsingasitwere。Haven’twe,Jude?’
  `How?’saidPhillotsoncuriously。
  Judeinwardlydeploredwhathethoughttobeunnecessaryfrankness;
  butshehadgonetoofarnottoexplainall,whichsheaccordinglydid,tellinghimhowtheyhadmarcheduptothealtar。
  SeeinghowpuzzledPhillotsonseemed,Judesaidascheerfullyashecould,`Iamgoingtobuyheranotherlittlepresent。Willyoubothcometotheshopwithme?’
  `No,’saidSue,`I’llgoontothehousewithhim’;andrequestingherlovernottobealongtimeshedepartedwiththeschoolmaster。
  Judesoonjoinedthemathisrooms,andshortlyaftertheypreparedfortheceremony。Phillotson’shairwasbrushedtoapainfulextent,andhisshirtcollarappearedstifferthanithadbeenfortheprevioustwentyyears。Beyondthishelookeddignifiedandthoughtful,andaltogetheramanofwhomitwasnotunsafetopredictthathewouldmakeakindandconsideratehusband。ThatheadoredSuewasobvious;andshecouldalmostbeseentofeelthatshewasundeservinghisadoration。
  AlthoughthedistancewassoshorthehadhiredaflyfromtheRedLion,andsixorsevenwomenandchildrenhadgatheredbythedoorwhentheycameout。TheschoolmasterandSuewereunknown,thoughJudewasgettingtoberecognizedasacitizen;andthecouplewerejudgedtobesomerelationsofhisfromadistance,nobodysupposingSuetohavebeenarecentpupilatthetrainingschool。
  InthecarriageJudetookfromhispockethisextralittlewedding-present,whichturnedouttobetwoorthreeyardsofwhitetulle,whichhethrewoverherbonnetandall,asaveil。
  `Itlookssooddoverabonnet,’shesaid。`I’lltakethebonnetoff。’
  `Ohno-letitstay,’saidPhillotson。Andsheobeyed。
  WhentheyhadpassedupthechurchandwerestandingintheirplacesJudefoundthattheantecedentvisithadcertainlytakenofftheedgeofthisperformance,butbythetimetheywerehalf-wayonwiththeservicehewishedfromhisheartthathehadnotundertakenthebusinessofgivingheraway。HowcouldSuehavehadthetemeritytoaskhimtodoit-acrueltypossiblytoherselfaswellastohim?Womenweredifferentfrommeninsuchmatters。Wasitthattheywere,insteadofmoresensitive,asreputed,morecallous,andlessromantic;orweretheymoreheroic?