Henowreturnedwithfeverishdesperationtohisstudyforthepriesthood-intherecognitionthatthesingle-mindednessofhisaims,andhisfidelitytothecause,hadbeenmorethanquestionableoflate。
HispassionforSuetroubledhissoul;yethislawfulabandonmenttothesocietyofArabellafortwelvehoursseemedinstinctivelyaworsething-eventhoughshehadnottoldhimofherSydneyhusbandtillafterwards。
Hehad,heverilybelieved,overcomealltendencytoflytoliquor-which,indeed,hehadneverdonefromtaste,butmerelyasanescapefromintolerablemiseryofmind。Yetheperceivedwithdespondencythat,takenallround,hewasamanoftoomanypassionstomakeagoodclergyman;theutmosthecouldhopeforwasthatinalifeofconstantinternalwarfarebetweenfleshandspirittheformermightnotalwaysbevictorious。
Asahobby,auxiliarytohisreadingsinDivinity,hedevelopedhisslightskillinchurch-musicandthorough-bass,tillhecouldjoininpart-singingfromnotationwithsomeaccuracy。AmileortwofromMelchestertherewasarestoredvillagechurch,towhichJudehadoriginallygonetofixthenewcolumnsandcapitals。Bythismeanshehadbecomeacquaintedwiththeorganist,andtheultimateresultwasthathejoinedthechoirasabassvoice。
HewalkedouttothisparishtwiceeverySunday,andsometimesintheweek。OneeveningaboutEasterthechoirmetforpractice,andanewhymnwhichJudehadheardofasbeingbyaWessexcomposerwastobetriedandpreparedforthefollowingweek。Itturnedouttobeastrangelyemotionalcomposition。AstheyallsangitoverandoveragainitsharmoniesgrewuponJude,andmovedhimexceedingly。
Whentheyhadfinishedhewentroundtotheorganisttomakeinquiries。
Thescorewasinmanuscript,thenameofthecomposerbeingatthehead,togetherwiththetitleofthehymn:`TheFootoftheCross。’
`Yes,’saidtheorganist。`Heisalocalman。HeisaprofessionalmusicianatKennetbridge-betweenhereandChristminster。Thevicarknowshim。HewasbroughtupandeducatedinChristminstertraditions,whichaccountsforthequalityofthepiece。Ithinkheplaysinthelargechurchthere,andhasasurplicedchoir。HecomestoMelchestersometimes,andoncetriedtogetthecathedralorganwhenthepostwasvacant。ThehymnisgettingabouteverywherethisEaster。’
Ashewalkedhummingtheaironhiswayhome,Judefelltomusingonitscomposer,andthereasonswhyhecomposedit。Whatamanofsympathieshemustbe!PerplexedandharassedashehimselfwasaboutSueandArabella,andtroubledaswashisconsciencebythecomplicationofhisposition,howhewouldliketoknowthatman!’Heofallmenwouldunderstandmydifficulties,’saidtheimpulsiveJude。Iftherewereanypersonintheworldtochooseasaconfidant,thiscomposerwouldbetheone,forhemusthavesuffered,andthrobbed,andyearned。
Inbrief,illashecouldaffordthetimeandmoneyforthejourney,Fawleyresolved,likethechildthathewas,togotoKennetbridgetheverynextSunday。Hedulystarted,earlyinthemorning,foritwasonlybyaseriesofcrookedrailwaysthathecouldgettothetown。Aboutmid-dayhereachedit,andcrossingthebridgeintothequaintoldboroughheinquiredforthehouseofthecomposer。
Theytoldhimitwasaredbrickbuildingsomelittlewayfurtheron。Alsothatthegentlemanhimselfhadjustpassedalongthestreetnotfiveminutesbefore。
`Whichway?’askedJudewithalacrity。
`Straightalonghomewardfromchurch。’
Judehastenedon,andsoonhadthepleasureofobservingamaninablackcoatandablackslouchedfelthatnoconsiderabledistanceahead。Stretchingouthislegsyetmorewidelyhestalkedafter。`Ahungrysoulinpursuitofafullsoul!’hesaid。`Imustspeaktothatman!’
Hecouldnot,however,overtakethemusicianbeforehehadenteredhisownhouse,andthenarosethequestionifthiswereanexpedienttimetocall。Whetherornothedecidedtodosothereandthen,nowthathehadgothere,thedistancehomebeingtoogreatforhimtowaittilllateintheafternoon。Thismanofsoulwouldunderstandscantceremony,andmightbequiteaperfectadviserinacaseinwhichanearthlyandillegitimatepassionhadcunninglyobtainedentranceintohisheartthroughtheopeningaffordedforreligion。
Judeaccordinglyrangthebell,andwasadmitted。
Themusiciancametohiminamoment,andbeingrespectablydressed,good-looking,andfrankinmanner,Judeobtainedafavourablereception。
Hewasneverthelessconsciousthattherewouldbeacertainawkwardnessinexplaininghiserrand。
`IhavebeensinginginthechoirofalittlechurchnearMelchester,’
hesaid。`Andwehavethisweekpractised`TheFootoftheCross,’whichIunderstand,sir,thatyoucomposed?’
`Idid-ayearorsoago。’
`I-likeit。Ithinkitsupremelybeautiful!’
`Ahwell-otherpeoplehavesaidsotoo。Yes,there’smoneyinit,ifIcouldonlyseeaboutgettingitpublished。Ihaveothercompositionstogowithit,too;IwishIcouldbringthemout;forIhaven’tmadeafive-poundnoteoutofanyofthemyet。Thesepublishingpeople-theywantthecopyrightofanobscurecomposer’swork,suchasmineis,foralmostlessthanIshouldhavetopayapersonformaking,afairmanuscriptcopyofthescore。TheoneyouspeakofIhavelenttovariousfriendsabouthereandMelchester,andsoithasgottobesungalittle。Butmusicisapoorstafftoleanon-Iamgivingitupentirely。Youmustgointotradeifyouwanttomakemoneynowadays。ThewinebusinessiswhatIamthinkingof。Thisismyforthcominglist-itisnotissuedyet-butyoucantakeone。’
HehandedJudeanadvertisementlistofseveralpagesinbookletshape,ornamentallymarginedwitharedline,inwhichweresetforththevariousclarets,champagnes,ports,sherries,andotherwineswithwhichhepurposedtoinitiatehisnewventure。IttookJudemorethanbysurprisethatthemanwiththesoulwasthusandthus;andhefeltthathecouldnotopenuphisconfidences。
Theytalkedalittlelonger,butconstrainedly,forwhenthemusicianfoundthatJudewasapoormanhismannerchangedfromwhatithadbeenwhileJude’sappearanceandaddressdeceivedhimastohispositionandpursuits。Judestammeredoutsomethingabouthisfeelingsinwishingtocongratulatetheauthoronsuchanexaltedcomposition,andtookanembarrassedleave。
AllthewayhomebytheslowSundaytrain,sittinginthefirelesswaiting-roomsonthiscoldspringday,hewasdepressedenoughathissimplicityintakingsuchajourney。ButnosoonerdidhereachhisMelchesterlodgingthanhefoundawaitinghimaletterwhichhadarrivedthatmorningafewminutesafterhehadleftthehouse。ItwasacontritelittlenotefromSue,inwhichshesaid,withsweethumility,thatshefeltshehadbeenhorridintellinghimhewasnottocometoseeher,thatshedespisedherselfforhavingbeensoconventional;andthathewastobesuretocomebytheeleven-forty-fivetrainthatverySunday,andhavedinnerwiththemathalf-pastone。
Judealmosttorehishairathavingmissedthislettertillitwastoolatetoactuponitscontents;buthehadchastenedhimselfconsiderablyoflate,andatlasthischimericalexpeditiontoKennetbridgereallydidseemtohavebeenanotherspecialinterventionofProvidencetokeephimawayfromtemptation。Butagrowingimpatienceoffaith,whichhehadnoticedinhimselfmorethanonceoflate,madehimpassoverinridiculetheideathatGodsentpeopleonfools’errands。Helongedtoseeher;hewasangryathavingmissedher:andhewroteinstantly,tellingherwhathadhappened,andsayinghehadnotenoughpatiencetowaittillthefollowingSunday,butwouldcomeanydayintheweekthatshelikedtoname。
Sincehewrotealittleover-ardently,Sue,ashermannerwas,delayedherreplytillThursdaybeforeGoodFriday,whenshesaidhemightcomethatafternoonifhewished,thisbeingtheearliestdayonwhichshecouldwelcomehim,forshewasnowassistant-teacherinherhusband’sschool。Judethereforegotleavefromthecathedralworksatthetriflingexpenseofastoppageofpay,andwent。
JudetheObscureChapter29PartFourthAtShaston`WhosopreferseitherMatrimonyorotherOrdinancebeforetheGoodofManandtheplainExigenceofCharity,lethimprofessPapist,orProtestant,orwhathewill,heisnobetterthanaPharisee。’-J。Milton。
IV-iShaston,theancientBritishPalladour,Fromwhosefoundationfirstsuchstrangereportsarise,asDraytonsangit,was,andis,initselfthecityofadream。Vagueimaginingsofitscastle,itsthreemints,itsmagnificentapsidalabbey,thechiefgloryofSouthWessex,itstwelvechurches,itsshrines,chantries,hospitals,itsgabledfreestonemansions-allnowruthlesslysweptaway-throwthevisitor,evenagainsthiswill,intoapensivemelancholy,whichthestimulatingatmosphereandlimitlesslandscapearoundhimcanscarcelydispel。Thespotwastheburial-placeofakingandaqueen,ofabbotsandabbesses,saintsandbishops,knightsandsquires。ThebonesofKingEdward`theMartyr,’carefullyremovedhitherforholypreservation,broughtShastonarenownwhichmadeittheresortofpilgrimsfromeverypartofEurope,andenabledittomaintainareputationextendingfarbeyondEnglishshores。TothisfaircreationofthegreatMiddle-AgetheDissolutionwas,ashistorianstellus,thedeath-knell。Withthedestructionoftheenormousabbeythewholeplacecollapsedinageneralruin:theMartyr’sbonesmetwiththefateofthesacredpilethatheldthem,andnotastoneisnowlefttotellwheretheylie。
Thenaturalpicturesquenessandsingularityofthetownstillremain;butstrangetosaythesequalities,whichwerenotedbymanywritersinageswhenscenicbeautyissaidtohavebeenunappreciated,arepassedoverinthis,andoneofthequeerestandquaintestspotsinEnglandstandsvirtuallyunvisitedto-day。
Ithasauniquepositiononthesummitofasteepandimposingscarp,risingonthenorth,south,andwestsidesoftheboroughoutofthedeepalluvialValeofBlackmoor,theviewfromtheCastleGreenoverthreecountiesofverdantpasture-South,Mid,andNetherWessex-beingassuddenasurprisetotheunexpectanttraveller’seyesasthemedicinalairistohislungs。Impossibletoarailway,itcanbestbereachedonfoot,nextbestbylightvehicles;anditishardlyaccessibletothesebutbyasortofisthmusonthenorth-east,thatconnectsitwiththehighchalktable-landonthatside。
Suchis,andsuchwas,thenowworld-forgottenShastonorPalladour。
Itssituationrenderedwaterthegreatwantofthetown;andwithinlivingmemory,horses,donkeysandmenmayhavebeenseentoilingupthewindingwaystothetopoftheheight,ladenwithtubsandbarrelsfilledfromthewellsbeneaththemountain,andhawkersretailingtheircontentsatthepriceofahalfpennyabucketful。
Thisdifficultyinthewatersupply,togetherwithtwootheroddfacts,namely,thatthechiefgraveyardslopesupassteeplyasaroofbehindthechurch,andthatinformertimesthetownpassedthroughacuriousperiodofcorruption,conventualanddomestic,gaverisetothesayingthatShastonwasremarkableforthreeconsolationstoman,suchastheworldaffordednotelsewhere。Itwasaplacewherethechurchyardlaynearerheaventhanthechurchsteeple,wherebeerwasmoreplentifulthanwater,andwherethereweremorewantonwomenthanhonestwivesandmaids。ItisalsosaidthataftertheMiddleAgestheinhabitantsweretoopoortopaytheirpriests,andhencewerecompelledtopulldowntheirchurches,andrefrainaltogetherfromthepublicworshipofGod;anecessitywhichtheybemoanedovertheircupsinthesettlesoftheirinnsonSundayafternoons。
InthosedaystheShastonianswereapparentlynotwithoutasenseofhumour。
Therewasanotherpeculiarity-thisamodernone-whichShastonappearedtoowetoitssite。Itwastheresting-placeandheadquartersoftheproprietorsofwanderingvans,shows,shooting-galleries,andotheritinerantconcerns,whosebusinesslaylargelyatfairsandmarkets。Asstrangewildbirdsareseenassembledonsomeloftypromontory,meditativelypausingforlongerflights,ortoreturnbythecoursetheyfollowedthither,sohere,inthiscliff-town,stoodinstultifiedsilencetheyellowandgreencaravansbearingnamesnotlocal,asifsurprisedbyachangeinthelandscapesoviolentastohindertheirfurtherprogress;andheretheyusuallyremainedallthewintertilltheyturnedtoseekagaintheiroldtracksinthefollowingspring。