Shewasinlightspringclothing,andheradventseemedghostly-liketheflittinginofamoth。Heturnedhiseyesuponher,andflushed;
butappearedtocheckhisprimaryimpulsetospeak。
`Ihavenobusinesshere,’shesaid,bendingherfrightenedfacetohim。`ButIheardyouwereill-veryill;and-andasIknowthatyourecognizeotherfeelingsbetweenmanandwomanthanphysicallove,Ihavecome。’
`Iamnotveryill,mydearfriend。Onlyunwell。’
`Ididn’tknowthat;andIamafraidthatonlyasevereillnesswouldhavejustifiedmycoming!’
`Yes……yes。AndIalmostwishyouhadnotcome!Itisalittletoosoon-that’sallImean。Still,letusmakethebestofit。Youhaven’theardabouttheschool,Isuppose?’
`No-whataboutit?’
`OnlythatIamgoingawayfromheretoanotherplace。ThemanagersandIdon’tagree,andwearegoingtopart-that’sall。’
Suedidnotforamoment,eithernoworlater,suspectwhattroubleshadresultedtohimfromlettinghergo;itneveronceseemedtocrosshermind,andshehadreceivednonewswhateverfromShaston。Theytalkedonslightandephemeralsubjects,andwhenhisteawasbroughtuphetoldtheamazedlittleservantthatacupwastobesetforSue。Thatyoungpersonwasmuchmoreinterestedintheirhistorythantheysupposed,andasshedescendedthestairssheliftedhereyesandhandsingrotesqueamazement。WhiletheysippedSuewenttothewindowandthoughtfullysaid,`Itissuchabeautifulsunset,Richard。’
`Theyaremostlybeautifulfromhere,owingtotherayscrossingthemistofthevale。ButIlosethemall,astheydon’tshineintothisgloomycornerwhereIlie。’
`Wouldn’tyouliketoseethisparticularone?Itislikeheavenopened。’
`Ahyes!ButIcan’t。’
`I’llhelpyouto。’
`No-thebedsteadcan’tbeshifted。’
`ButseehowImean。’
Shewenttowhereaswing-glassstood,andtakingitinherhandscarriedittoaspotbythewindowwhereitcouldcatchthesunshine,movingtheglasstillthebeamswerereflectedintoPhillotson’sface。
`There-youcanseethegreatredsunnow!’shesaid。`AndI
amsureitwillcheeryou-Idosohopeitwill!’Shespokewithachildlike,repentantkindness,asifshecouldnotdotoomuchforhim。
Phillotsonsmiledsadly。`Youareanoddcreature!’hemurmuredasthesunglowedinhiseyes。`Theideaofyourcomingtoseemeafterwhathaspassed!’
`Don’tletusgobackuponthat!’shesaidquickly。`Ihavetocatchtheomnibusforthetrain,asJudedoesn’tknowIhavecome;hewasoutwhenIstarted;soImustreturnhomealmostdirectly。Richard,Iamsoverygladyouarebetter。Youdon’thateme,doyou?Youhavebeensuchakindfriendtome!’
`Iamgladtoknowyouthinkso,’saidPhillotsonhuskily。`No。
Idon’thateyou!’
Itgrewduskquicklyinthegloomyroomduringtheirintermittentchat,andwhencandleswerebroughtanditwastimetoleavesheputherhandinhisorratherallowedittoflitthroughhis;forshewassignificantlylightintouch。Shehadnearlyclosedthedoorwhenhesaid,`Sue!’Hehadnoticedthat,inturningawayfromhim,tearswereonherfaceandaquiverinherlip。
Itwasbadpolicytorecallher-heknewitwhilehepursuedit。Buthecouldnothelpit。Shecameback。
`Sue,’hemurmured,`doyouwishtomakeitup,andstay?I’llforgiveyouandcondoneeverything!’
`Ohyoucan’t,youcan’t!’shesaidhastily。`Youcan’tcondoneitnow!’
`Heisyourhusbandnow,ineffect,youmean,ofcourse?’
`Youmayassumeit。HeisobtainingadivorcefromhiswifeArabella。’
`Hiswife!Itisaltogethernewstomethathehasawife。’
`Itwasabadmarriage。’
`Likeyours。’
`Likemine。Heisnotdoingitsomuchonhisownaccountasonhers。Shewroteandtoldhimitwouldbeakindnesstoher,sincethenshecouldmarryandliverespectably。AndJudehasagreed。’
`Awife……Akindnesstoher。Ah,yes;akindnesstohertoreleaseheraltogether……ButIdon’tlikethesoundofit。Icanforgive,Sue。’
`No,no!Youcan’thavemebacknowIhavebeensowicked-astodowhatIhavedone!’
TherehadariseninSue’sfacethatincipientfrightwhichshoweditselfwheneverhechangedfromfriendtohusband,andwhichmadeheradoptanylineofdefenceagainstmaritalfeelinginhim。`Imustgonow。
I’llcomeagain-mayI?’
`Idon’taskyoutogo,evennow。Iaskyoutostay。’
`Ithankyou,Richard;butImust。AsyouarenotsoillasI
thought,Icannotstay!’
`She’shis-hisfromlipstoheel!’saidPhillotson;butsofaintlythatinclosingthedoorshedidnothearit。Thedreadofareactionarychangeintheschoolmaster’ssentiments,coupled,perhaps,withafaintshamefacednessatlettingevenhimknowwhataslipshodlackofthoroughness,fromaman’spointofview,characterizedhertransferredallegiance,preventedhertellinghimofher,thusfar,incompleterelationswithJude;andPhillotsonlaywrithinglikeamaninhellashepicturedtheprettilydressed,maddeningcompoundofsympathyandaversenesswhoborehisname,returningimpatientlytothehomeofherlover。
GillinghamwassointerestedinPhillotson’saffairs,andsoseriouslyconcernedabouthim,thathewalkedupthehill-sidetoShastontwoorthreetimesaweek,although,thereandback,itwasajourneyofninemiles,whichhadtobeperformedbetweenteaandsupper,afterahardday’sworkinschool。WhenhecalledonthenextoccasionafterSue’svisithisfriendwasdownstairs,andGillinghamnoticedthathisrestlessmoodhadbeensupplantedbyamorefixedandcomposedone。
`She’sbeenheresinceyoucalledlast,’saidPhillotson。
`NotMrs。Phillotson?’
`Yes。’
`Ah!Youhavemadeitup?’
`No……Shejustcame,pattedmypillowwithherlittlewhitehand,playedthethoughtfulnurseforhalfanhour,andwentaway。’
`Well-I’mhanged!Alittlehussy!’
`Whatdoyousay?’
`Oh-nothing!’
`Whatdoyoumean?’
`Imean,whatatantalizing,capriciouslittlewoman!Ifshewerenotyourwife’
`Sheisnot;she’sanotherman’sexceptinnameandlaw。AndI
havebeenthinking-itwassuggestedtomebyaconversationIhadwithher-that,inkindnesstoher,Ioughttodissolvethelegaltiealtogether;
which,singularlyenough,IthinkIcando,nowshehasbeenback,andrefusedmyrequesttostayafterIsaidIhadforgivenher。Ibelievethatfactwouldaffordmeopportunityofdoingit,thoughIdidnotseeitatthemoment。What’stheuseofkeepingherchainedontomeifshedoesn’tbelongtome?Iknow-Ifeelabsolutelycertain-thatshewouldwelcomemytakingsuchastepasthegreatestcharitytoher。Forthoughasafellow-creatureshesympathizeswith,andpitiesme,andevenweepsforme,asahusbandshecannotendureme-sheloathesme-there’snouseinmincingwords-sheloathesme,andmyonlymanly,anddignified,andmercifulcourseistocompletewhatIhavebegun……Andforworldlyreasons,too,itwillbebetterforhertobeindependent。Ihavehopelesslyruinedmyprospectsbecauseofmydecisionastowhatwasbestforus,thoughshedoesnotknowit;Iseeonlydirepovertyaheadfrommyfeettothegrave;forI
canbeacceptedasteachernomore。Ishallprobablyhaveenoughtodotomakebothendsmeetduringtheremainderofmylife,nowmyoccupation’sgone;andIshallbebetterabletobearitalone。Imayaswelltellyouthatwhathassuggestedmylettinghergoissomenewsshebroughtme-
thenewsthatFawleyisdoingthesame。’
`Oh-hehadaspouse,too?Aqueercouple,theselovers!’
`Well-Idon’twantyouropiniononthat。WhatIwasgoingtosayisthatmyliberatinghercandohernopossibleharm,andwillopenupachanceofhappinessforherwhichshehasneverdreamtofhitherto。
Forthenthey’llbeabletomarry,astheyoughttohavedoneatfirst。’
Gillinghamdidnothurrytoreply。`Imaydisagreewithyourmotive,’
hesaidgently,forherespectedviewshecouldnotshare。`ButIthinkyouarerightinyourdetermination-ifyoucancarryitout。Idoubt,however,ifyoucan。’
JudetheObscureChapter35PartFifthAtAldbrickhamandElsewhere`Thyaerialpart,andallthefierypartswhicharemingledinthee,thoughbynaturetheyhaveanupwardtendency,stillinobediencetothedispositionoftheuniversetheyareover-poweredhereinthecompoundmassthebody。’-M。AntoninusLong。
V-iHowGillingham’sdoubtsweredisposedofwillmostquicklyappearbypassingovertheseriesofdrearymonthsandincidentsthatfollowedtheeventsofthelastchapter,andcomingontoaSundayintheFebruaryoftheyearfollowing。
SueandJudewerelivinginAldbrickham,inpreciselythesamerelationsthattheyhadestablishedbetweenthemselveswhensheleftShastontojoinhimtheyearbefore。Theproceedingsinthelaw-courtshadreachedtheirconsciousness,butasadistantsoundandanoccasionalmissivewhichtheyhardlyunderstood。
Theyhadmet,asusual,tobreakfasttogetherinthelittlehousewithJude’snameonit,thathehadtakenatfifteenpoundsayear,withthree-pounds-tenextraforratesandtaxes,andfurnishedwithhisaunt’sancientandlumberinggoods,whichhadcosthimabouttheirfullvaluetobringallthewayfromMarygreen。Suekepthouse,andmanagedeverything。
AsheenteredtheroomthismorningSueheldupalettershehadjustreceived。
`Well;andwhatisitabout?’hesaidafterkissingher。
`ThatthedecreenisiinthecaseofPhillotsonversusPhillotsonandFawley,pronouncedsixmonthsago,hasjustbeenmadeabsolute。’
`Ah,’saidJude,ashesatdown。
ThesameconcludingincidentinJude’ssuitagainstArabellahadoccurredaboutamonthortwoearlier。Bothcaseshadbeentooinsignificanttobereportedinthepapers,furtherthanbynameinalonglistofotherundefendedcases。
`Nowthen,Sue,atanyrate,youcandowhatyoulike!’Helookedathissweetheartcuriously。
`Arewe-youandI-justasfreenowasifwehadnevermarriedatall?’
`Justasfree-except,Ibelieve,thataclergymanmayobjectpersonallytoremarryyou,andhandthejobontosomebodyelse。’
`ButIwonder-doyouthinkitisreallysowithus?Iknowitisgenerally。ButIhaveanuncomfortablefeelingthatmyfreedomhasbeenobtainedunderfalsepretences!’
`How?’
`Well-ifthetruthaboutushadbeenknown,thedecreewouldn’thavebeenpronounced。Itisonly,isit,becausewehavemadenodefence,andhaveledthemintoafalsesupposition?Thereforeismyfreedomlawful,howeverproperitmaybe?’
`Well-whydidyouletitbeunderfalsepretences?Youhaveonlyyourselftoblame,’hesaidmischievously。
`Jude-don’t!Yououghtnottobetouchyaboutthatstill。YoumusttakemeasIam。’
`Verywell,darling:soIwill。Perhapsyouwereright。Astoyourquestion,wewerenotobligedtoproveanything。Thatwastheirbusiness。
Anyhowwearelivingtogether。’
`Yes。Thoughnotintheirsense。’
`Onethingiscertain,thathoweverthedecreemaybebroughtabout,amarriageisdissolvedwhenitisdissolved。Thereisthisadvantageinbeingpoorobscurepeoplelikeus-thatthesethingsaredoneforusinaroughandreadyfashion。ItwasthesamewithmeandArabella。Iwasafraidhercriminalsecondmarriagewouldhavebeendiscovered,andshepunished;butnobodytookanyinterestinher-nobodyinquired,nobodysuspectedit。Ifwe’dbeenpatentednobilitiesweshouldhavehadinfinitetrouble,anddaysandweekswouldhavebeenspentininvestigations。’
BydegreesSueacquiredherlover’scheerfulnessatthesenseoffreedom,andproposedthattheyshouldtakeawalkinthefields,eveniftheyhadtoputupwithacolddinneronaccountofit。Judeagreed,andSuewentup-stairsandpreparedtostart,puttingonajoyfulcolouredgowninobservanceofherliberty;seeingwhichJudeputonalightertie。