`Y-youmustforgiveme,littleJude!’shepleaded,herbosomheavingnowasmuchastheboy’s。`Ican’texplain-Iwillwhenyouareolder。
  Itdoesseem-asifIhaddoneitonpurpose,nowweareinthesedifficulties!
  Ican’texplain,dear!Butit-isnotquiteonpurpose-Ican’thelpit!’
  `Yesitis-itmustbe!Fornobodywouldinterferewithus,likethat,unlessyouagreed!Iwon’tforgiveyou,ever,ever!I’llneverbelieveyoucareforme,orFather,oranyofusanymore!’
  Hegotup,andwentawayintotheclosetadjoiningherroom,inwhichabedhadbeenspreadonthefloor。Theresheheardhimsay:`Ifwechildrenwasgonethere’dbenotroubleatall!’
  `Don’tthinkthat,dear,’shecried,ratherperemptorily。`Butgotosleep!’
  Thefollowingmorningsheawokeatalittlepastsix,anddecidedtogetupandrunacrossbeforebreakfasttotheinnwhichJudehadinformedhertobehisquarters,totellhimwhathadhappenedbeforehewentout。
  Shearosesoftly,toavoiddisturbingthechildren,who,assheknew,mustbefatiguedbytheirexertionsofyesterday。
  ShefoundJudeatbreakfastintheobscuretavernhehadchosenasacounterpoisetotheexpenseofherlodging:andsheexplainedtohimherhomelessness。Hehadbeensoanxiousaboutherallnight,hesaid。
  Somehow,nowitwasmorning,therequesttoleavethelodgingsdidnotseemsuchadepressingincidentasithadseemedthenightbefore,nordidevenherfailuretofindanotherplaceaffecthersodeeplyasatfirst。
  Judeagreedwithherthatitwouldnotbeworthwhiletoinsistuponherrighttostayaweek,buttotakeimmediatestepsforremoval。
  `Youmustallcometothisinnforadayortwo,’hesaid。`Itisaroughplace,anditwillnotbesoniceforthechildren,butweshallhavemoretimetolookround。Thereareplentyoflodgingsinthesuburbs-inmyoldquarterofBeersheba。Havebreakfastwithmenowyouarehere,mybird。Youaresureyouarewell?Therewillbeplentyoftimetogetbackandpreparethechildren’smealbeforetheywake。Infact,I’llgowithyou。’
  ShejoinedJudeinahastymeal,andinaquarterofanhourtheystartedtogether,resolvingtoclearoutfromSue’stoorespectablelodgingimmediately。Onreachingtheplaceandgoingupstairsshefoundthatallwasquietinthechildren’sroom,andcalledtothelandladyintimoroustonestopleasebringupthetea-kettleandsomethingfortheirbreakfast。
  Thiswasperfunctorilydone,andproducingacoupleofeggswhichshehadbroughtwithhersheputthemintotheboilingkettle,andsummonedJudetowatchthemfortheyoungsters,whileshewenttocallthem,itbeingnowabouthalf-pasteighto’clock。
  Judestoodbendingoverthekettle,withhiswatchinhishand,timingtheeggs,sothathisbackwasturnedtothelittleinnerchamberwherethechildrenlay。AshriekfromSuesuddenlycausedhimtostartround。Hesawthatthedooroftheroom,orrathercloset-whichhadseemedtogoheavilyuponitshingesasshepusheditback-wasopen,andthatSuehadsunktothefloorjustwithinit。Hasteningforwardtopickherupheturnedhiseyestothelittlebedspreadontheboards;nochildrenwerethere。Helookedinbewildermentroundtheroom。Atthebackofthedoorwerefixedtwohooksforhanginggarments,andfromthesetheformsofthetwoyoungestchildrenweresuspended,byapieceofbox-cordroundeachoftheirnecks,whilefromanailafewyardsoffthebodyoflittleJudewashanginginasimilarmanner。Anoverturnedchairwasneartheelderboy,andhisglazedeyeswereslantedintotheroom;butthoseofthegirlandthebabyboywereclosed。
  Half-paralyzedbythestrangeandconsummatehorrorofthesceneheletSuelie,cutthecordswithhispocket-knifeandthrewthethreechildrenonthebed;butthefeeloftheirbodiesinthemomentaryhandlingseemedtosaythattheyweredead。HecaughtupSue,whowasinfaintingfits,andputheronthebedintheotherroom,afterwhichhebreathlesslysummonedthelandladyandranoutforadoctor。
  WhenhegotbackSuehadcometoherself,andthetwohelplesswomen,bendingoverthechildreninwildeffortstorestorethem,andthetripletoflittlecorpses,formedasightwhichoverthrewhisself-command。
  Thenearestsurgeoncamein,but,asJudehadinferred,hispresencewassuperfluous。Thechildrenwerepastsaving,forthoughtheirbodieswerestillbarelycolditwasconjecturedthattheyhadbeenhangingmorethananhour。Theprobabilityheldbytheparentslateron,whentheywereabletoreasononthecase,wasthattheelderboy,onwaking,lookedintotheouterroomforSue,and,findingherabsent,wasthrownintoafitofaggravateddespondencythattheeventsandinformationoftheeveningbeforehadinducedinhismorbidtemperament。Moreoverapieceofpaperwasfounduponthefloor,onwhichwaswritten,intheboy’shand,withthebitofleadpencilthathecarried:
  Donebecausewearetoomenny。AtsightofthisSue’snervesutterlygaveway,anawfulconvictionthatherdiscoursewiththeboyhadbeenthemaincauseofthetragedy,throwingherintoaconvulsiveagonywhichknewnoabatement。Theycarriedherawayagainstherwishtoaroomonthelowerfloor;andthereshelay,herslightfigureshakenwithhergasps,andhereyesstaringattheceiling,thewomanofthehousevainlytryingtosootheher。
  Theycouldhearfromthischamberthepeoplemovingaboutabove,andsheimploredtobeallowedtogoback,andwasonlykeptfromdoingsobytheassurancethat,iftherewereanyhope,herpresencemightdoharm,andthereminderthatitwasnecessarytotakecareofherselflestsheshouldendangeracominglife。Herinquirieswereincessant,andatlastJudecamedownandtoldhertherewasnohope。Assoonasshecouldspeaksheinformedhimwhatshehadsaidtotheboy,andhowshethoughtherselfthecauseofthis。
  `No,’saidJude。`Itwasinhisnaturetodoit。Thedoctorsaystherearesuchboysspringingupamongstus-boysofasortunknowninthelastgeneration-theoutcomeofnewviewsoflife。Theyseemtoseeallitsterrorsbeforetheyareoldenoughtohavestayingpowertoresistthem。Hesaysitisthebeginningofthecominguniversalwishnottolive。
  He’sanadvancedman,thedoctor:buthecangivenoconsolationto——
  ’
  Judehadkeptbackhisowngriefonaccountofher;buthenowbrokedown;andthisstimulatedSuetoeffortsofsympathywhichinsomedegreedistractedherfromherpoignantself-reproach。Wheneverybodywasgone,shewasallowedtoseethechildren。
  Theboy’sfaceexpressedthewholetaleoftheirsituation。OnthatlittleshapehadconvergedalltheinauspiciousnessandshadowwhichhaddarkenedthefirstunionofJude,andalltheaccidents,mistakes,fears,errorsofthelast。Hewastheirnodalpoint,theirfocus,theirexpressioninasingleterm。Fortherashnessofthoseparentshehadgroaned,fortheirillassortmenthehadquaked,andforthemisfortunesofthesehehaddied。
  Whenthehousewassilent,andtheycoulddonothingbutawaitthecoroner’sinquest,asubdued,large,lowvoicespreadintotheairoftheroomfrombehindtheheavywallsattheback。
  `Whatisit?’saidSue,herspasmodicbreathingsuspended。
  `Theorganofthecollegechapel。TheorganistpractisingIsuppose。
  It’stheanthemfromtheseventy-thirdPsalm;`TrulyGodislovinguntoIsrael。’’
  Shesobbedagain。`Oh,Ohmybabies!Theyhaddonenoharm!Whyshouldtheyhavebeentakenaway,andnotI!’
  Therewasanotherstillness-brokenatlastbytwopersonsinconversationsomewherewithout。
  `Theyaretalkingaboutus,nodoubt!’moanedSue。`’Wearemadeaspectacleuntotheworld,andtoangels,andtomen!’’
  Judelistened-`No-theyarenottalkingofus,’hesaid。`Theyaretwoclergymenofdifferentviews,arguingabouttheeastwardposition。
  GoodGod-theeastwardposition,andallcreationgroaning!’
  Thenanothersilence,tillshewasseizedwithanotheruncontrollablefitofgrief。`Thereissomethingexternaltouswhichsays,`Youshan’t!’
  Firstitsaid,`Youshan’tlearn!’Thenitsaid,`Youshan’tlabour!’Nowitsays,`Youshan’tlove!’’
  Hetriedtosootheherbysaying,`That’sbitterofyou,darling。’
  `Butit’strue!’
  Thustheywaited,andshewentbackagaintoherroom。Thebaby’sfrock,shoes,andsocks,whichhadbeenlyingonachairatthetimeofhisdeath,shewouldnotnowhaveremoved,thoughJudewouldfainhavegotthemoutofhersight。Butwheneverhetouchedthemsheimploredhimtoletthemlie,andburstoutalmostsavagelyatthewomanofthehousewhenshealsoattemptedtoputthemaway。
  Judedreadedherdullapatheticsilencesalmostmorethanherparoxysms。`Whydon’tyouspeaktome,Jude?’shecriedout,afteroneofthese。`Don’tturnawayfromme!Ican’tbearthelonelinessofbeingoutofyourlooks!’
  `There,dear;hereIam,’hesaid,puttinghisfaceclosetohers。
  `Yes……Oh,mycomrade,ourperfectunion-ourtwo-in-oneness-isnowstainedwithblood!’
  `Shadowedbydeath-that’sall。’
  `Ah;butitwasIwhoincitedhimreally,thoughIdidn’tknowIwasdoingit!Italkedtothechildasoneshouldonlytalktopeopleofmatureage。Isaidtheworldwasagainstus,thatitwasbettertobeoutoflifethaninitatthisprice;andhetookitliterally。AndItoldhimIwasgoingtohaveanotherchild。Itupsethim。Ohhowbitterlyheupbraidedme!’
  `Whydidyoudoit,Sue?’
  `Ican’ttell。ItwasthatIwantedtobetruthful。Icouldn’tbeardeceivinghimastothefactsoflife。AndyetIwasn’ttruthful,forwithafalsedelicacyItoldhimtooobscurely-WhywasIhalf-wiserthanmyfellow-women?Andnotentirelywiser!Whydidn’tItellhimpleasantuntruths,insteadofhalf-realities?Itwasmywantofself-control,sothatIcouldneitherconcealthingsnorrevealthem!’
  `Yourplanmighthavebeenagoodoneforthemajorityofcases;
  onlyinourpeculiarcaseitchancedtoworkbadlyperhaps。Hemusthaveknownsoonerorlater。’
  `AndIwasjustmakingmybabydarlinganewfrock;andnowI
  shallneverseehiminit,andnevertalktohimanymore!……MyeyesaresoswollenthatIcanscarcelysee;andyetlittlemorethanayearagoIcalledmyselfhappy!Wewentaboutlovingeachothertoomuch-indulgingourselvestoutterselfishnesswitheachother!Wesaid-doyouremember?-
  thatwewouldmakeavirtueofjoy。IsaiditwasNature’sintention,Nature’slawandraisond’ê;trethatweshouldbejoyfulinwhatinstinctssheaffordedus-instinctswhichcivilizationhadtakenuponitselftothwart。WhatdreadfulthingsIsaid!AndnowFatehasgivenusthisstabinthebackforbeingsuchfoolsastotakeNatureatherword!’
  Shesankintoaquietcontemplation,tillshesaid,`Itisbest,perhaps,thattheyshouldbegone-Yes-Iseeitis!Betterthattheyshouldbepluckedfreshthanstaytowitherawaymiserably!’
  `Yes,’repliedJude。`Somesaythattheeldersshouldrejoicewhentheirchildrendieininfancy。’
  `Buttheydon’tknow!……Ohmybabies,mybabies,couldyoubealivenow!Youmaysaytheboywishedtobeoutoflife,orhewouldn’thavedoneit。Itwasnotunreasonableforhimtodie:itwaspartofhisincurablysadnature,poorlittlefellow!Butthentheothers-myownchildrenandyours!’
  AgainSuelookedatthehanginglittlefrockandatthesocksandshoes;andherfigurequiveredlikeastring。`Iamapitiablecreature,’
  shesaid,`goodneitherforearthnorheavenanymore!Iamdrivenoutofmymindbythings!Whatoughttobedone?’ShestaredatJude,andtightlyheldhishand。
  `Nothingcanbedone,’hereplied。`Thingsareastheyare,andwillbebroughttotheirdestinedissue。’
  Shepaused。`Yes!Whosaidthat?’sheaskedheavily。
  `ItcomesinthechorusoftheAgamemnon。Ithasbeeninmymindcontinuallysincethishappened。’
  `MypoorJude-howyou’vemissedeverything!-youmorethanI,forIdidgetyou!Tothinkyoushouldknowthatbyyourunassistedreading,andyetbeinpovertyanddespair!’
  Aftersuchmomentarydiversionshergriefwouldreturninawave。
  Thejurydulycameandviewedthebodies,theinquestwasheld;
  andnextarrivedthemelancholymorningofthefuneral。Accountsinthenewspapershadbroughttothespotcuriousidlers,whostoodapparentlycountingthewindow-panesandthestonesofthewalls。Doubtoftherealrelationsofthecoupleaddedzesttotheircuriosity。Suehaddeclaredthatshewouldfollowthetwolittleonestothegrave,butatthelastmomentshegaveway,andthecoffinswerequietlycarriedoutofthehousewhileshewaslyingdown。Judegotintothevehicle,anditdroveaway,muchtothereliefofthelandlord,whonowhadonlySueandherluggageremainingonhishands,whichhehopedtobealsoclearoflateronintheday,andsotohavefreedhishousefromtheexasperatingnotorietyithadacquiredduringtheweekthroughhiswife’sunluckyadmissionofthesestrangers。Intheafternoonheprivatelyconsultedwiththeownerofthehouse,andtheyagreedthatifanyobjectiontoitarosefromthetragedywhichhadoccurredtheretheywouldtrytogetitsnumberchanged。
  WhenJudehadseenthetwolittleboxes-onecontaininglittleJude,andtheotherthetwosmallest-depositedintheearthhehastenedbacktoSue,whowasstillinherroom,andhethereforedidnotdisturbherjustthen。Feelinganxious,however,hewentagainaboutfouro’clock。
  Thewomanthoughtshewasstilllyingdown,butreturnedtohimtosaythatshewasnotinherbedroomafterall。Herhatandjacket,too,weremissing:shehadgoneout。Judehurriedofftothepublichousewherehewassleeping。Shehadnotbeenthere。Thenbethinkinghimselfofpossibilitieshewentalongtheroadtothecemetery,whichheentered,andcrossedtowheretheintermentshadrecentlytakenplace。Theidlerswhohadfollowedtothespotbyreasonofthetragedywereallgonenow。Amanwithashovelinhishandswasattemptingtoearthinthecommongraveofthethreechildren,buthisarmwasheldbackbyanexpostulatingwomanwhostoodinthehalf-filledhole。ItwasSue,whosecolouredclothing,whichshehadneverthoughtofchangingforthemourninghehadbought,suggestedtotheeyeadeepergriefthantheconventionalgarbofbereavementcouldexpress。
  `He’sfillingthemin,andheshan’ttillI’veseenmylittleonesagain!’shecriedwildlywhenshesawJude。`Iwanttoseethemoncemore。OhJude-pleaseJude-Iwanttoseethem!Ididn’tknowyouwouldletthembetakenawaywhileIwasasleep!YousaidperhapsIshouldseethemoncemorebeforetheywerescreweddown;andthenyoudidn’t,buttookthemaway!OhJude,youarecrueltometoo!’