`She’sbeenwantingmetodigoutthegraveagain，andlethergettothecoffins，’saidthemanwiththespade。`Sheoughttobetookhome，bythelooko’her。Sheishardlyresponsible，poorthing，seemingly。
　　Can’tdig’emupagainnow，ma’am。Doyegohomewithyourhusband，andtakeitquiet，andthankGodthatthere’llbeanothersoontoswageyergrief。’
　　ButSuekeptaskingpiteously：`Can’tIseethemoncemore-justonce！Can’tI？Onlyjustonelittleminute，Jude？Itwouldnottakelong！
　　AndIshouldbesoglad，Jude！Iwillbesogood，andnotdisobeyyoueveranymore，Jude，ifyouwillletme？Iwouldgohomequietlyafterwards，andnotwanttoseethemanymore！Can’tI？Whycan’tI？’
　　Thusshewenton。Judewasthrownintosuchacutesorrowthathealmostfelthewouldtrytogetthemantoaccede。Butitcoulddonogood，andmightmakeherstillworse；andhesawthatitwasimperativetogetherhomeatonce。Sohecoaxedher，andwhisperedtenderly，andputhisarmroundhertosupporther；tillshehelplesslygavein，andwasinducedtoleavethecemetery。
　　Hewishedtoobtainaflytotakeherbackin，buteconomybeingsoimperativeshedeprecatedhisdoingso，andtheywalkedalongslowly，Judeinblackcrape，sheinbrownandredclothing。Theyweretohavegonetoanewlodgingthatafternoon，butJudesawthatitwasnotpracticable，andincourseoftimetheyenteredthenowhatedhouse。Suewasatoncegottobed，andthedoctorsentfor。
　　Judewaitedalltheeveningdownstairs。Ataverylatehourtheintelligencewasbroughttohimthatachildhadbeenprematurelyborn，andthatit，liketheothers，wasacorpse。
　　JudetheObscureChapter45VI-iiiSuewasconvalescent，thoughshehadhopedfordeath，andJudehadagainobtainedworkathisoldtrade。Theywereinotherlodgingsnow，inthedirectionofBeersheba，andnotfarfromtheChurchofCeremonies-SaintSilas。
　　Theywouldsitsilent，morebodefulofthedirectantagonismofthingsthanoftheirinsensateandstolidobstructiveness。VagueandquaintimaginingshadhauntedSueinthedayswhenherintellectscintillatedlikeastar，thattheworldresembledastanzaormelodycomposedinadream；itwaswonderfullyexcellenttothehalf-arousedintelligence，buthopelesslyabsurdatthefullwaking；thatthefirstcauseworkedautomaticallylikeasomnambulist，andnotreflectivelylikeasage；thatattheframingoftheterrestrialconditionsthereseemednevertohavebeencontemplatedsuchadevelopmentofemotionalperceptivenessamongthecreaturessubjecttothoseconditionsasthatreachedbythinkingandeducatedhumanity。
　　Butafflictionmakesopposingforcesloomanthropomorphous；andthoseideaswerenowexchangedforasenseofJudeandherselffleeingfromapersecutor。
　　`Wemustconform！’shesaidmournfully。`AlltheancientwrathofthePoweraboveushasbeenventeduponus。Hispoorcreatures，andwemustsubmit。Thereisnochoice。Wemust。ItisnousefightingagainstGod！’
　　`Itisonlyagainstmanandsenselesscircumstance，’saidJude。
　　`True！’shemurmured。`WhathaveIbeenthinkingof！Iamgettingassuperstitiousasasavage！……Butwhoeverorwhateverourfoemaybe，Iamcowedintosubmission。Ihavenomorefightingstrengthleft；nomoreenterprise。Iambeaten，beaten！……`Wearemadeaspectacleuntotheworld，andtoangels，andtomen！’Iamalwayssayingthatnow。’
　　`Ifeelthesame！’
　　`Whatshallwedo？Youareinworknow；butremember，itmayonlybebecauseourhistoryandrelationsarenotabsolutelyknown……Possibly，iftheyknewourmarriagehadnotbeenformalizedtheywouldturnyououtofyourjobastheydidatAldbrickham！’
　　`Ihardlyknow。Perhapstheywouldhardlydothat。However，I
　　thinkthatweoughttomakeitlegalnow-assoonasyouareabletogoout。’
　　`Youthinkweought？’
　　`Certainly。’
　　AndJudefellintothought。`Ihaveseemedtomyselflately，’
　　hesaid，`tobelongtothatvastbandofmenshunnedbythevirtuous-
　　themencalledseducers。ItamazesmewhenIthinkofit！Ihavenotbeenconsciousofit，orofanywrongdoingtowardsyou，whomIlovemorethanmyself。YetIamoneofthosemen！Iwonderifanyotherofthemarethesamepurblind，simplecreaturesasI？……Yes，Sue-that’swhatIam。
　　Iseducedyou……Youwereadistincttype-arefinedcreature，intendedbyNaturetobeleftintact。ButIcouldn’tleaveyoualone！’
　　`No，no，Jude！’shesaidquickly。`Don’treproachyourselfwithbeingwhatyouarenot。IfanybodyistoblameitisI。’
　　`IsupportedyouinyourresolvetoleavePhillotson；andwithoutmeperhapsyouwouldn’thaveurgedhimtoletyougo。’
　　`Ishouldhave，justthesame。Astoourselves，thefactofournothavingenteredintoalegalcontractisthesavingfeatureinourunion。
　　Wehavetherebyavoidedinsulting，asitwere，thesolemnityofourfirstmarriages。’
　　`Solemnity？’Judelookedatherwithsomesurprise，andgrewconsciousthatshewasnottheSueoftheirearliertime。
　　`Yes，’shesaid，withalittlequiverinherwords，`Ihavehaddreadfulfears，adreadfulsenseofmyowninsolenceofaction。Ihavethought-thatIamstillhiswife！’
　　`Whose？’
　　`Richard’s。’
　　`GoodGod，dearest！-why？’
　　`OhIcan’texplain！Onlythethoughtcomestome。’
　　`Itisyourweakness-asickfancy，withoutreasonormeaning！
　　Don’tletittroubleyou。’
　　Suesigheduneasily。
　　Asaset-offagainstsuchdiscussionsasthesetherehadcomeanimprovementintheirpecuniaryposition，whichearlierintheirexperiencewouldhavemadethemcheerful。Judehadquiteunexpectedlyfoundgoodemploymentathisoldtradealmostdirectlyhearrived，thesummerweathersuitinghisfragileconstitution；andoutwardlyhisdayswentonwiththatmonotonousuniformitywhichisinitselfsogratefulaftervicissitude。Peopleseemedtohaveforgottenthathehadevershownanyawkwardaberrancies：andhedailymountedtotheparapetsandcopingsofcollegeshecouldneverenter，andrenewedthecrumblingfreestonesofmullionedwindowshewouldneverlookfrom，asifhehadknownnowishtodootherwise。
　　Therewasthischangeinhim；thathedidnotoftengotoanyserviceatthechurchesnow。Onethingtroubledhimmorethananyother；
　　thatSueandhimselfhadmentallytravelledinoppositedirectionssincethetragedy：eventswhichhadenlargedhisownviewsoflife，laws，customs，anddogmas，hadnotoperatedinthesamemanneronSue’s。Shewasnolongerthesameasintheindependentdays，whenherintellectplayedlikelambentlightningoverconventionsandformalitieswhichheatthattimerespected，thoughhedidnotnow。
　　OnaparticularSundayeveninghecameinratherlate。Shewasnotathome，butshesoonreturned，whenhefoundhersilentandmeditative。
　　`Whatareyouthinkingof，littlewoman？’heaskedcuriously。
　　`OhIcan’ttellclearly！Ihavethoughtthatwehavebeenselfish，careless，evenimpious，inourcourses，youandI。Ourlifehasbeenavainattemptatself-delight。Butself-abnegationisthehigherroad。Weshouldmortifytheflesh-theterribleflesh-thecurseofAdam！’
　　`Sue！’hemurmured。`Whathascomeoveryou？’
　　`Weoughttobecontinuallysacrificingourselvesonthealtarofduty！ButIhavealwaysstriventodowhathaspleasedme。IwelldeservedthescourgingIhavegot！Iwishsomethingwouldtaketheevilrightoutofme，andallmymonstrouserrors，andallmysinfulways！’
　　`Sue-myowntoosufferingdear！-there’snoevilwomaninyou。
　　Yournaturalinstinctsareperfectlyhealthy；notquitesoimpassioned，perhaps，asIcouldwish；butgood，anddear，andpure。AndasIhaveoftensaid，youareabsolutelythemostethereal，leastsensualwomanIeverknewtoexistwithoutinhumansexlessness。Whydoyoutalkinsuchachangedway？Wehavenotbeenselfish，exceptwhennoonecouldprofitbyourbeingotherwise。Youusedtosaythathumannaturewasnobleandlong-suffering，notvileandcorrupt，andatlastIthoughtyouspoketruly。Andnowyouseemtotakesuchamuchlowerview！’
　　`Iwantahumbleheart；andachastenedmind；andIhaveneverhadthemyet！’
　　`Youhavebeenfearless，bothasathinkerandasafeeler，andyoudeservedmoreadmirationthanIgave。Iwastoofullofnarrowdogmasatthattimetoseeit。’
　　`Don’tsaythat，Jude！Iwishmyeveryfearlesswordandthoughtcouldberootedoutofmyhistory。Self-renunciation-that’severything！
　　Icannothumiliatemyselftoomuch。Ishouldliketoprickmyselfalloverwithpinsandbleedoutthebadnessthat’sinme！’
　　`Hush！’hesaid，pressingherlittlefaceagainsthisbreastasifshewereaninfant。`Itisbereavementthathasbroughtyoutothis！
　　Suchremorseisnotforyou，mysensitiveplant，butforthewickedonesoftheearth-whoneverfeelit！’
　　`Ioughtnottostaylikethis，’shemurmured，whenshehadremainedinthepositionalongwhile。
　　`Whynot？’
　　`Itisindulgence。’
　　`Stillonthesametack！Butisthereanythingbetteronearththanthatweshouldloveoneanother？’
　　`Yes。Itdependsonthesortoflove；andyours-oursisthewrong。’
　　`Iwon’thaveit，Sue！Come，whendoyouwishourmarriagetobesignedinavestry？’
　　Shepaused，andlookedupuneasily。`Never，’shewhispered。
　　Notknowingthewholeofhermeaninghetooktheobjectionserenely，andsaidnothing。Severalminuteselapsed，andhethoughtshehadfallenasleep；buthespokesoftly，andfoundthatshewaswideawakeallthetime。Shesatuprightandsighed。
　　`Thereisastrange，indescribableperfumeoratmosphereaboutyouto-night，Sue，’hesaid。`Imeannotonlymentally，butaboutyourclothes，also。Asortofvegetablescent，whichIseemtoknow，yetcannotremember。’
　　`Itisincense。’
　　`Incense？’
　　`IhavebeentotheserviceatSt。Silas’，andIwasinthefumesofit。’
　　`Oh-St。Silas’。’
　　`Yes。Igotheresometimes。’
　　`Indeed。Yougothere！’
　　`Yousee，Jude，itislonelyhereintheweekdaymornings，whenyouareatwork，andIthinkandthinkof-ofmy-`Shestoppedtillshecouldcontrolthelumpinessofherthroat。`AndIhavetakentogointhere，asitissonear。’
　　`Ohwell-ofcourse，Isaynothingagainstit。Onlyitisodd，foryou。Theylittlethinkwhatsortofchielisamangthem！’
　　`Whatdoyoumean，Jude？’
　　`Well-asceptic，tobeplain。’
　　`Howcanyoupainmeso，dearJude，inmytrouble！YetIknowyoudidn’tmeanit。Butyououghtnottosaythat。’
　　`Iwon’t。ButIammuchsurprised！’
　　`Well-Iwanttotellyousomethingelse，Jude。Youwon’tbeangry，willyou？Ihavethoughtofitagooddealsincemybabiesdied。
　　Idon’tthinkIoughttobeyourwife-orasyourwife-anylonger。’
　　`What？……Butyouare！’
　　`Fromyourpointofview；but-’
　　`Ofcoursewewereafraidoftheceremony，andagoodmanyotherswouldhavebeeninourplaces，withsuchstrongreasonsforfears。Butexperiencehasprovedhowwemisjudgedourselves，andoverratedourinfirmities；
　　andifyouarebeginningtorespectritesandceremonies，asyouseemtobe，Iwonderyoudon’tsayitshallbecarriedoutinstantly？Youcertainlyaremywife，Sue，inallbutlaw。Whatdoyoumeanbywhatyousaid？’
　　`Idon’tthinkIam！’
　　`Not？Butsupposewehadgonethroughtheceremony？Wouldyoufeelthatyouwerethen？’
　　`No。IshouldnotfeeleventhenthatIwas。IshouldfeelworsethanIdonow。’
　　`Whyso-inthenameofallthat’sperverse，mydear？’
　　`BecauseIamRichard’s。’
　　`Ah-youhintedthatabsurdfancytomebefore！’
　　`Itwasonlyanimpressionwithmethen；Ifeelmoreandmoreconvincedastimegoesonthat-Ibelongtohim，ortonobody。’
　　`Mygoodheavens-howwearechangingplaces！’
　　`Yes。Perhapsso。’