Somefewdayslater,intheduskofthesummerevening,theyweresittinginthesamesmallroomdown-stairs,whenaknockcametothefrontdoorofthecarpenter’shousewheretheywerelodging,andinafewmomentstherewasatapatthedooroftheirroom。Beforetheycouldopenitthecomerdidso,andawoman’sformappeared。
  `IsMr。Fawleyhere?’
  JudeandSuestartedashemechanicallyrepliedintheaffirmative,forthevoicewasArabella’s。
  Heformallyrequestedhertocomein,andshesatdowninthewindowbench,wheretheycoulddistinctlyseeheroutlineagainstthelight;
  butnocharacteristicthatenabledthemtoestimatehergeneralaspectandair。Yetsomethingseemedtodenotethatshewasnotquitesocomfortablycircumstanced,norsobouncinglyattired,asshehadbeenduringCartlett’slifetime。
  Thethreeattemptedanawkwardconversationaboutthetragedy,ofwhichJudehadfeltittobehisdutytoinformherimmediately,thoughshehadneverrepliedtohisletter。
  `Ihavejustcomefromthecemetery,’shesaid。`Iinquiredandfoundthechild’sgrave。Icouldn’tcometothefuneral-thankyouforinvitingmeallthesame。Ireadallaboutitinthepapers,andIfeltIwasn’twanted……No-Icouldn’tcometothefuneral,’repeatedArabella,who,seemingutterlyunabletoreachtheidealofacatastrophicmanner,fumbledwithiterations。`ButIamgladIfoundthegrave。As’tisyourtrade,Jude,you’llbeabletoputupahandsomestoneto’em。’
  `Ishallputupaheadstone,’saidJudedrearily。
  `Hewasmychild,andnaturallyIfeelforhim。’
  `Ihopeso。Wealldid。’
  `Theothersthatweren’tmineIdidn’tfeelsomuchfor,aswasnatural。’
  `Ofcourse。’
  AsighcamefromthedarkcornerwhereSuesat。
  `IhadoftenwishedIhadminewithme,’continuedMrs。Cartlett。
  `Perhaps’twouldn’thavehappenedthen!ButofcourseIdidn’twishtotakehimawayfromyourwife。’
  `Iamnothiswife,’camefromSue。
  TheunexpectednessofherwordsstruckJudesilent。
  `Oh,Ibegyourpardon,I’msure,’saidArabella。`Ithoughtyouwere!’
  JudehadknownfromthequalityofSue’stonethathernewandtranscendentalviewslurkedinherwords;butallexcepttheirobviousmeaningwas,naturally,missedbyArabella。Thelatter,afterevincingthatshewa"m.kanbaapp点com"sstruckbySue’savowal,recoveredherself,andwentontotalkwithplacidbluntnessabout`her’boy,forwhom,thoughinhislifetimeshehadshownnocareatall,shenowexhibitedaceremonialmournfulnessthatwasapparentlysustainingtotheconscience。Shealludedtothepast,andinmakingsomeremarkappealedagaintoSue。Therewasnoanswer:Suehadinvisiblylefttheroom。
  `Shesaidshewasnotyourwife?’resumedArabellainanothervoice。`Whyshouldshedothat?’
  `Icannotinformyou,’saidJudeshortly。
  `Sheis,isn’tshe?Sheoncetoldmeso。’
  `Idon’tcriticizewhatshesays。’
  `Ah-Isee!Well,mytimeisup。Iamstayinghereto-night,andthoughtIcoulddonolessthancall,afterourmutualaffliction。
  IamsleepingattheplacewhereIusedtobebarmaid,andto-morrowI
  gobacktoAlfredston。Fatheriscomehomeagain,andIamlivingwithhim。’
  `HehasreturnedfromAustralia?’saidJudewithlanguidcuriosity。
  `Yes。Couldn’tgetonthere。Hadaroughtimeofit。Motherdiedofdys-whatdoyoucallit-inthehotweather,andFatherandtwooftheyoungoneshavejustgotback。Hehasgotacottageneartheoldplace,andforthepresentIamkeepinghouseforhim。’
  Jude’sformerwifehadmaintainedastereotypedmannerofstrictgoodbreedingevennowthatSuewasgone,andlimitedherstaytoanumberofminutesthatshouldaccordwiththehighestrespectability。WhenshehaddepartedJude,muchrelieved,wenttothestairsandcalledSue-feelinganxiousastowhathadbecomeofher。
  Therewasnoanswer,andthecarpenterwhokeptthelodgingssaidshehadnotcomein。Judewaspuzzled,andbecamequitealarmedatherabsence,forthehourwasgrowinglate。Thecarpentercalledhiswife,whoconjecturedthatSuemighthavegonetoSt。Silas’church,assheoftenwentthere。
  `Surelynotatthistimeo’night?’saidJude。`Itisshut。’
  `Sheknowssomebodywhokeepsthekey,andshehasitwhenevershewantsit。’
  `Howlonghasshebeengoingonwiththis?’
  `Oh,somefewweeks,Ithink。’
  Judewentvaguelyinthedirectionofthechurch,whichhehadneveronceapproachedsincehelivedoutthatwayyearsbefore,whenhisyoungopinionsweremoremysticalthantheywerenow。Thespotwasdeserted,butthedoorwascertainlyunfastened;heliftedthelatchwithoutnoise,andpushingtothedoorbehindhim,stoodabsolutelystillinside。Theprevalentsilenceseemedtocontainafaintsound,explicableasabreathing,orasobbing,whichcamefromtheotherendofthebuilding。Thefloor-clothdeadenedhisfootstepsashemovedinthatdirectionthroughtheobscurity,whichwasbrokenonlybythefaintestreflectednight-lightfromwithout。
  Highoverhead,abovethechancelsteps,Judecoulddiscernahuge,solidlyconstructedLatincross-aslarge,probably,astheoriginalitwasdesignedtocommemorate。Itseemedtobesuspendedintheairbyinvisiblewires;itwassetwithlargejewels,whichfaintlyglimmeredinsomeweakraycaughtfromoutside,asthecrossswayedtoandfroinasilentandscarcelyperceptiblemotion。Underneath,uponthefloor,laywhatappearedtobeaheapofblackclothes,andfromthiswasrepeatedthesobbingthathehadheardbefore。ItwashisSue’sform,prostrateonthepaving。
  `Sue!’hewhispered。
  Somethingwhitediscloseditself;shehadturnedupherface。
  `What-doyouwantwithmehere,Jude?’shesaidalmostsharply。
  `Youshouldn’tcome!Iwantedtobealone!Whydidyouintrudehere?’
  `Howcanyouask!’heretortedinquickreproach,forhisfullheartwaswoundedtoitscentreatthisattitudeofherstowardshim。`WhydoIcome?Whohasarighttocome,Ishouldliketoknow,ifIhavenot!
  I,wholoveyoubetterthanmyownself-better-farbetter-thanyouhavelovedme!Whatmadeyouleavemetocomeherealone?’
  `Don’tcriticizeme,Jude-Ican’tbearit!-Ihaveoftentoldyouso。YoumusttakemeasIam。Iamawretch-brokenbymydistractions!
  Icouldn’tbearitwhenArabellacame-IfeltsoutterlymiserableIhadtocomeaway。Sheseemstobeyourwifestill,andRichardtobemyhusband!’
  `Buttheyarenothingtous!’
  `Yes,dearfriend,theyare。Iseemarriagedifferentlynow。Mybabieshavebeentakenfrommetoshowmethis!Arabella’schildkillingminewasajudgement-therightslayingthewrong。What,whatshallIdo!Iamsuchavilecreature-tooworthlesstomixwithordinaryhumanbeings!’
  `Thisisterrible!’saidJude,vergingontears。`Itismonstrousandunnaturalforyoutobesoremorsefulwhenyouhavedonenowrong!’
  `Ah-youdon’tknowmybadness!’
  Hereturnedvehemently:`Ido!Everyatomanddregofit!YoumakemehateChristianity,ormysticism,orSacerdotalism,orwhateveritmaybecalled,ifit’sthatwhichhascausedthisdeteriorationinyou。
  Thatawoman-poet,awoman-seer,awomanwhosesoulshonelikeadiamond-whomallthewiseoftheworldwouldhavebeenproudof,iftheycouldhaveknownyou-shoulddegradeherselflikethis!IamgladIhadnothingtodowithDivinity-damnglad-ifit’sgoingtoruinyouinthisway!’
  `Youareangry,Jude,andunkindtome,anddon’tseehowthingsare。’
  `Thencomealonghomewithme,dearest,andperhapsIshall。I
  amoverburdened-andyou,too,areunhingedjustnow。’Heputhisarmroundherandliftedher;butthoughshecame,shepreferredtowalkwithouthissupport。
  `Idon’tdislikeyou,Jude,’shesaidinasweetandimploringvoice。`Iloveyouasmuchasever!Only-Ioughtnottoloveyou-anymore。OhImustnotanymore!’
  `Ican’townit。’
  `ButIhavemadeupmymindthatIamnotyourwife!Ibelongtohim-Isacramentallyjoinedmyselftohimforlife。Nothingcanalterit!’
  `Butsurelywearemanandwife,ifevertwopeoplewereinthisworld?Nature’sownmarriageitis,unquestionably!’
  `ButnotHeaven’s。Anotherwasmadeformethere,andratifiedeternallyinthechurchatMelchester。’
  `Sue,Sue-afflictionhasbroughtyoutothisunreasonablestate!
  Afterconvertingmetoyourviewsonsomanythings,tofindyousuddenlyturntotheright-aboutlikethis-fornoreasonwhatever,confoundingallyouhaveformerlysaidthroughsentimentmerely!YourootoutofmewhatlittleaffectionandreverenceIhadleftinmefortheChurchasanoldacquaintance……WhatIcan’tunderstandinyouisyourextraordinaryblindnessnowtoyouroldlogic。Isitpeculiartoyou,orisitcommontowoman?Isawomanathinkingunitatall,orafractionalwayswantingitsinteger?Howyouarguedthatmarriagewasonlyaclumsycontract-
  whichitis-howyoushowedalltheobjectionstoit-alltheabsurdities!
  Iftwoandtwomadefourwhenwewerehappytogether,surelytheymakefournow?Ican’tunderstandit,Irepeat!’
  `Ah,dearJude;that’sbecauseyouarelikeatotallydeafmanobservingpeoplelisteningtomusic。Yousay`Whataretheyregarding?
  Nothingisthere。’Butsomethingis。’
  `Thatisahardsayingfromyou;andnotatrueparallel!Youthrewoffoldhusksofprejudices,andtaughtmetodoit;andnowyougobackuponyourself。IconfessIamutterlystultifiedinmyestimateofyou。’
  `Dearfriend,myonlyfriend,don’tbehardwithme!Ican’thelpbeingasIam,IamconvincedIamright-thatIseethelightatlast。
  Butoh,howtoprofitbyit!’
  Theywalkedalongafewmorestepstilltheywereoutsidethebuildingandshehadreturnedthekey。`Canthisbethegirl,’saidJudewhenshecameback,feelingaslightrenewalofelasticitynowthathewasintheopenstreet;`canthisbethegirlwhobroughtthepagandeitiesintothismostChristiancity?-whomimickedMissFontoverwhenshecrushedthemwithherheel?-quotedGibbon,andShelley,andMill?WherearedearApollo,anddearVenusnow!’
  `Ohdon’t,don’tbesocrueltome,Jude,andIsounhappy!’shesobbed。`Ican’tbearit!Iwasinerror-Icannotreasonwithyou。I
  waswrong-proudinmyownconceit!Arabella’scomingwasthefinish。
  Don’tsatirizeme:itcutslikeaknife!’
  Heflunghisarmsroundherandkissedherpassionatelythereinthesilentstreet,beforeshecouldhinderhim。Theywentontilltheycametoalittlecoffee-house。`Jude,’shesaidwithsuppressedtears,`wouldyoumindgettingalodginghere?’
  `Iwill-if,ifyoureallywish?Butdoyou?Letmegotoourdoorandunderstandyou。’
  Hewentandconductedherin。Shesaidshewantednosupper,andwentinthedarkupstairsandstruckalight。TurningshefoundthatJudehadfollowedher,andwasstandingatthechamberdoor。Shewenttohim,putherhandinhis,andsaid`Good-night。’
  `ButSue!Don’twelivehere?’
  `YousaidyouwoulddoasIwished!’
  `Yes。Verywell!……PerhapsitwaswrongofmetoarguedistastefullyasIhavedone!Perhapsaswecouldn’tconscientiouslymarryatfirstintheold-fashionedway,weoughttohaveparted。Perhapstheworldisnotilluminatedenoughforsuchexperimentsasours!Whowerewe,tothinkwecouldactaspioneers!’
  `Iamsogladyouseethatmuch,atanyrate。IneverdeliberatelymeanttodoasIdid。Islippedintomyfalsepositionthroughjealousyandagitation!’
  `Butsurelythroughlove-youlovedme?’
  `Yes。ButIwantedtoletitstopthere,andgoonalwaysasmerelovers;until——’
  `Butpeopleinlovecouldn’tliveforeverlikethat!’
  `Womencould:mencan’t,becausethey-won’t。Anaveragewomanisinthissuperiortoanaverageman-thatsheneverinstigates,onlyresponds。Weoughttohavelivedinmentalcommunion,andnomore。’
  `Iwastheunhappycauseofthechange,asIhavesaidbefore!……Well,asyouwill!……Buthumannaturecan’thelpbeingitself。’
  `Ohyes-that’sjustwhatithastolearn-self-mastery。’
  `Irepeat-ifeitherweretoblameitwasnotyoubutI。’