`Abitofabedcouldbemadeonthefloor。Itwouldbegoodenoughforme。’
Unabletobeharshwithher,andnotknowingwhattodo,Judecalledthemanwholetthelodgings,andsaidthiswasanacquaintanceofhisingreatdistressforwantoftemporaryshelter。
`YoumayremembermeasbarmaidattheLambandFlagformerly?’
spokeupArabella。`Myfatherhasinsultedmethisafternoon,andI’velefthim,thoughwithoutapenny!’
Thehouseholdersaidhecouldnotrecallherfeatures。`Butstill,ifyouareafriendofMr。Fawley’swe’lldowhatwecanforadayortwo-ifhe’llmakehimselfanswerable?’
`Yes,yes,’saidJude。`Shehasreallytakenmequiteunawares;
butIshouldwishtohelpheroutofherdifficulty。’AndanarrangementwasultimatelycometounderwhichabedwastobethrowndowninJude’slumber-room,tomakeitcomfortableforArabellatillshecouldgetoutofthestraitshewasin-notbyherownfault,asshedeclared-andreturntoherfather’sagain。
WhiletheywerewaitingforthistobedoneArabellasaid:`Youknowthenews,Isuppose?’
`Iguesswhatyoumean;butIknownothing。’
`IhadaletterfromAnnyatAlfredstonto-day。Shehadjustheardthattheweddingwastobeyesterday:butshedidn’tknowifithadcomeoff。’
`Idon’twishtotalkofit。’
`No,no:ofcourseyoudon’t。Onlyitshowswhatkindofwoman——’
`Don’tspeakofherIsay!She’safool!Andshe’sanangel,too,poordear!’
`Ifit’sdone,he’llhaveachanceofgettingbacktohisoldposition,byeverybody’saccount,soAnnysays。Allhiswell-wisherswillbepleased,includingthebishophimself。’
`Dospareme,Arabella。’
Arabellawasdulyinstalledinthelittleattic,andatfirstshedidnotcomenearJudeatall。Shewenttoandfroaboutherownbusiness,which,whentheymetforamomentonthestairsorinthepassage,sheinformedhimwasthatofobtaininganotherplaceintheoccupationsheunderstoodbest。WhenJudesuggestedLondonasaffordingthemostlikelyopeningintheliquortrade,sheshookherhead。`No-thetemptationsaretoomany,’shesaid。`Anyhumbletaverninthecountrybeforethatforme。’
OntheSundaymorningfollowing,whenhebreakfastedlaterthanonotherdays,shemeeklyaskedhimifshemightcomeintobreakfastwithhim,asshehadbrokenherteapot,andcouldnotreplaceitimmediately,theshopsbeingshut。
`Yes,ifyoulike,’hesaidindifferently。
Whiletheysatwithoutspeakingshesuddenlyobserved:`Youseemallinabrood,oldman。I’msorryforyou。’
`Iamallinabrood。’
`Itisabouther,Iknow。It’snobusinessofmine,butIcouldfindoutallaboutthewedding-ifitreallydidtakeplace-ifyouwantedtoknow。’
`Howcouldyou?’
`IwantedtogotoAlfredstontogetafewthingsIleftthere。
AndIcouldseeAnny,who’llbesuretohaveheardallaboutit,asshehasfriendsatMarygreen。’
Judecouldnotbeartoacquiesceinthisproposal;buthissuspensepitteditselfagainsthisdiscretion,andwoninthestruggle。`Youcanaskaboutitifyoulike,’hesaid。`I’venotheardasoundfromthere。
Itmusthavebeenveryprivate,if-theyhavemarried。’
`IamafraidIhaven’tenoughcashtotakemethereandback,orIshouldhavegonebefore。ImustwaittillIhaveearnedsome。’
`Oh-Icanpaythejourneyforyou,’hesaidimpatiently。AndthushissuspenseastoSue’swelfare,andthepossiblemarriage,movedhimtodispatchforintelligencethelastemissaryhewouldhavethoughtofchoosingdeliberately。
Arabellawent,Juderequestinghertobehomenotlaterthanbytheseveno’clocktrain。Whenshehadgonehesaid:`WhyshouldIhavechargedhertobebackbyaparticulartime!She’snothingtome-northeotherneither!’
ButhavingfinishedworkhecouldnothelpgoingtothestationtomeetArabella,draggedthitherbyfeverishhastetogetthenewsshemightbring,andknowtheworst。Arabellahadmadedimplesmostsuccessfullyallthewayhome,andwhenshesteppedoutoftherailwaycarriageshesmiled。Hemerelysaid`Well?’withtheveryreverseofasmile。
`Theyaremarried。’
`Yes-ofcoursetheyare!’hereturned。Sheobserved,however,thehardstrainuponhislipashespoke。
`AnnysaysshehasheardfromBelinda,herrelationoutatMarygreen,thatitwasverysad,andcurious!’
`Howdoyoumeansad?Shewantedtomarryhimagain,didn’tshe?
Andheher!’
`Yes-thatwasit。Shewantedtoinonesense,butnotintheother。Mrs。Edlinwasmuchupsetbyitall,andspokeouthermindatPhillotson。
ButSuewasthatexcitedaboutitthatsheburntherbestembroiderythatshe’dwornwithyou,toblotyououtentirely。Well-ifawomanfeelslikeit,sheoughttodoit。Icommendherforit,thoughothersdon’t。’
Arabellasighed。`Shefelthewasheronlyhusband,andthatshebelongedtonobodyelseinthesightofGodA’mightywhilehelived。Perhapsanotherwomanfeelsthesameaboutherself,too!’Arabellasighedagain。
`Idon’twantanycant!’exclaimedJude。
`Itisn’tcant,’saidArabella。`Ifeelexactlythesameasshe!’
Heclosedthatissuebyremarkingabruptly:`Well-nowIknowallIwantedtoknow。Manythanksforyourinformation。Iamnotgoingbacktomylodgingsjustyet。’Andheleftherstraightway。
InhismiseryanddepressionJudewalkedtowell-nigheveryspotinthecitythathehadvisitedwithSue;thencehedidnotknowwhither,andthenthoughtofgoinghometohisusualeveningmeal。Buthavingallthevicesofhisvirtues,andsometospare,heturnedintoapublichouse,forthefirsttimeduringmanymonths。AmongthepossibleconsequencesofhermarriageSuehadnotdweltonthis。
Arabella,meanwhile,hadgoneback。Theeveningpassed,andJudedidnotreturn。Athalf-pastnineArabellaherselfwentout,firstproceedingtoanoutlyingdistrictneartheriverwhereherfatherlived,andhadopenedasmallandprecariouspork-shoplately。
`Well,’shesaidtohim,`forallyourrowingmethatnight,I’vecalledin,forIhavesomethingtotellyou。IthinkIshallgetmarriedandsettledagain。Onlyyoumusthelpme:andyoucandonoless,afterwhatI’vestood’ee。’
`I’lldoanythingtogettheeoffmyhands!’
`Verywell。Iamnowgoingtolookformyyoungman。He’sonthelooseI’mafraid,andImustgethimhome。AllIwantyoutodoto-nightisnottofastenthedoor,incaseIshouldwanttosleephere,andshouldbelate。’
`Ithoughtyou’dsoongettiredofgivingyourselfairsandkeepingaway!’
`Well-don’tdothedoor。That’sallIsay。’
Shethensalliedoutagain,andfirsthasteningbacktoJude’stomakesurethathehadnotreturned,beganhersearchforhim。AshrewdguessastohisprobablecoursetookherstraighttothetavernwhichJudehadformerlyfrequented,andwhereshehadbeenbarmaidforabriefterm。
Shehadnosooneropenedthedoorofthe`PrivateBar’thanhereyesfelluponhim-sittingintheshadeatthebackofthecompartment,withhiseyesfixedonthefloorinablankstare。Hewasdrinkingnothingstrongerthanalejustthen。Hedidnotobserveher,andsheenteredandsatbesidehim。
Judelookedup,andsaidwithoutsurprise:`You’vecometohavesomething,Arabella?……I’mtryingtoforgether:that’sall!ButIcan’t;
andIamgoinghome。’Shesawthathewasalittlewayoninliquor,butonlyalittleasyet。
`I’vecomeentirelytolookforyou,dearboy。Youarenotwell。
Nowyoumusthavesomethingbetterthanthat。’Arabellaheldupherfingertothebarmaid。`Youshallhavealiqueur-that’sbetterfitforamanofeducationthanbeer。Youshallhavemaraschino,orcuracaodryorsweet,orcherrybrandy。I’lltreatyou,poorchap!’
`Idon’tcarewhich!Saycherrybrandy……Suehasservedmebadly,verybadly。Ididn’texpectitofSue!Istucktoher,andsheoughttohavestucktome。I’dhavesoldmysoulforhersake,butshewouldn’triskhersajotforme。Tosaveherownsoulsheletsminegodamn!……
Butitisn’therfault,poorlittlegirl-Iamsureitisn’t!’
HowArabellahadobtainedmoneydidnotappear,butsheorderedaliqueureach,andpaidforthem。WhentheyhaddrunktheseArabellasuggestedanother;andJudehadthepleasureofbeing,asitwere,personallyconductedthroughthevarietiesofspirituousdelectationbyonewhoknewthelandmarkswell。ArabellakeptveryconsiderablyintherearofJude;butthoughsheonlysippedwherehedrank,shetookasmuchasshecouldsafelytakewithoutlosingherhead-whichwasnotalittle,asthecrimsonuponhercountenanceshowed。
Hertonetowardshimto-nightwasuniformlysoothingandcajoling;
andwheneverhesaid`Idon’tcarewhathappenstome,’athinghedidcontinually,shereplied,`ButIdoverymuch!’Theclosinghourcame,andtheywerecompelledtoturnout;whereuponArabellaputherarmroundhiswaist,andguidedhisunsteadyfootsteps。
Whentheywereinthestreetsshesaid:`Idon’tknowwhatourlandlordwillsaytomybringingyouhomeinthisstate。Iexpectwearefastenedout,sothathe’llhavetocomedownandletusin。’
`Idon’tknow-Idon’tknow。’
`That’stheworstofnothavingahomeofyourown。Itellyou,Jude,whatwehadbestdo。Comeroundtomyfather’s-Imadeitupwithhimabitto-day。Icanletyouin,andnobodywillseeyouatall;andbyto-morrowmorningyou’llbeallright。’
`Anything-anywhere,’repliedJude。`Whatthedevildoesitmattertome?’
Theywentalongtogether,likeanyotherfuddlingcouple,herarmstillroundhiswaist,andhis,atlast,roundhers;thoughwithnoamatoryintent;butmerelybecausehewasweary,unstable,andinneedofsupport。
`This-isth’Martyrs’-burning-place,’hestammeredastheydraggedacrossabroadstreet。`Iremember-inoldFuller’sHolyState-andIamremindedofit-byourpassingbyhere-oldFullerinhisHolyStatesays,thatattheburningofRidley,DoctorSmith-preachedsermon,andtookashistext`ThoughIgivemybodytobeburned,andhavenotcharity,itprofitethmenothing。’-OftenthinkofitasIpasshere。Ridleywasa——’
`Yes。Exactly。Verythoughtfulofyou,deary,eventhoughithasn’tmuchtodowithourpresentbusiness。’
`Why,yesithas!I’mgivingmybodytobeburned!But-ah-
youdon’tunderstand!-itwantsSuetounderstandsuchthings!AndIwasherseducer-poorlittlegirl!Andshe’sgone-andIdon’tcareaboutmyself!Dowhatyoulikewithme!……Andyetshediditforconscience’
sake,poorlittleSue!’
`Hangher!-Imean,Ithinkshewasright,’hiccupedArabella。
`I’vemyfeelingstoo,likeher;andIfeelIbelongtoyouinHeaven’seye,andtonobodyelse,tilldeathusdopart!Itis-hic-nevertoolate-hictomend!’
Theyhadreachedherfather’shouse,andshesoftlyunfastenedthedoor,gropingaboutforalightwithin。
ThecircumstanceswerenotaltogetherunlikethoseoftheirentryintothecottageatCresscombe,suchalongtimebefore。NorwereperhapsArabella’smotives。ButJudedidnotthinkofthat,thoughshedid。
`Ican’tfindthematches,dear,’shesaidwhenshehadfastenedupthedoor。`Butnevermind-thisway。Asquietasyoucan,please。’
`Itisasdarkaspitch,’saidJude。
`Givemeyourhand,andI’llleadyou。That’sit。Justsitdownhere,andI’llpulloffyourboots。Idon’twanttowakehim。’
`Who?’
`Father。He’dmakearow,perhaps。’
Shepulledoffhisboots。`Now,’shewhispered,`takeholdofme-nevermindyourweight。Now-firststair,secondstair’
`But,-areweoutinouroldhousebyMarygreen?’askedthestupefiedJude。`Ihaven’tbeeninsideitforyearstillnow!Hey?Andwherearemybooks?That’swhatIwanttoknow?’
`Weareatmyhouse,dear,wherethere’snobodytospyouthowillyouare。Now-thirdstair,fourthstair-that’sit。Nowweshallgeton。’
JudetheObscureChapter49VI-viiArabellawaspreparingbreakfastinthedownstairsbackroomofthissmall,recentlyhiredtenementofherfather’s。Sheputherheadintothelittlepork-shopinfront,andtoldMr。Donnitwasready。Donn,endeavouringtolooklikeamasterpork-butcher,inagreasyblueblouse,andwithastraproundhiswaistfromwhichasteeldangled,cameinpromptly。