"Thesechildrenwillbethedeathofmeatlast!"saidMrs。
Tetterby,afterbanishingtheculprit。"Andthesoonerthebetter,Ithink。"
"Poorpeople,"saidMr。Tetterby,"oughtnottohavechildrenatall。TheygiveUSnopleasure。"
HewasatthatmomenttakingupthecupwhichMrs。Tetterbyhadrudelypushedtowardshim,andMrs。Tetterbywasliftingherowncuptoherlips,whentheybothstopped,asiftheyweretransfixed。
"Here!Mother!Father!"criedJohnny,runningintotheroom。
"Here’sMrs。Williamcomingdownthestreet!"
Andifever,sincetheworldbegan,ayoungboytookababyfromacradlewiththecareofanoldnurse,andhushedandsoothedittenderly,andtotteredawaywithitcheerfully,Johnnywasthatboy,andMolochwasthatbaby,astheywentouttogether!
Mr。Tetterbyputdownhiscup;Mrs。Tetterbyputdownhercup。Mr。
Tetterbyrubbedhisforehead;Mrs。Tetterbyrubbedhers。Mr。
Tetterby’sfacebegantosmoothandbrighten;Mrs。Tetterby’sbegantosmoothandbrighten。
"Why,Lordforgiveme,"saidMr。Tetterbytohimself,"whateviltempershaveIbeengivingwayto?Whathasbeenthematterhere!"
"HowcouldIevertreathimillagain,afterallIsaidandfeltlastnight!"sobbedMrs。Tetterby,withheraprontohereyes。
"AmIabrute,"saidMr。Tetterby,"oristhereanygoodinmeatall?Sophia!Mylittlewoman!"
"’Dolphusdear,"returnedhiswife。
"I—I’vebeeninastateofmind,"saidMr。Tetterby,"thatI
can’tabeartothinkof,Sophy。"
"Oh!It’snothingtowhatI’vebeenin,Dolf,"criedhiswifeinagreatburstofgrief。
"MySophia,"saidMr。Tetterby,"don’ttakeon。Inevershallforgivemyself。Imusthavenearlybrokeyourheart,Iknow。"
"No,Dolf,no。Itwasme!Me!"criedMrs。Tetterby。
"Mylittlewoman,"saidherhusband,"don’t。Youmakemereproachmyselfdreadful,whenyoushowsuchanoblespirit。Sophia,mydear,youdon’tknowwhatIthought。Ishoweditbadenough,nodoubt;butwhatIthought,mylittlewoman!—"
"Oh,dearDolf,don’t!Don’t!"criedhiswife。
"Sophia,"saidMr。Tetterby,"Imustrevealit。Icouldn’trestinmyconscienceunlessImentionedit。Mylittlewoman—"
"Mrs。William’sverynearlyhere!"screamedJohnnyatthedoor。
"Mylittlewoman,Iwonderedhow,"gaspedMr。Tetterby,supportinghimselfbyhischair,"IwonderedhowIhadeveradmiredyou—I
forgotthepreciouschildrenyouhavebroughtaboutme,andthoughtyoudidn’tlookasslimasIcouldwish。I—Inevergavearecollection,"saidMr。Tetterby,withsevereself—accusation,"tothecaresyou’vehadasmywife,andalongofmeandmine,whenyoumighthavehadhardlyanywithanotherman,whogotonbetterandwasluckierthanme(anybodymighthavefoundsuchamaneasilyI
amsure);andIquarrelledwithyouforhavingagedalittleintheroughyearsyouhavelightenedforme。Canyoubelieveit,mylittlewoman?Ihardlycanmyself。"
Mrs。Tetterby,inawhirlwindoflaughingandcrying,caughthisfacewithinherhands,andhelditthere。
"Oh,Dolf!"shecried。"Iamsohappythatyouthoughtso;Iamsogratefulthatyouthoughtso!ForIthoughtthatyouwerecommon—
looking,Dolf;andsoyouare,mydear,andmayyoubethecommonestofallsightsinmyeyes,tillyouclosethemwithyourowngoodhands。Ithoughtthatyouweresmall;andsoyouare,andI’llmakemuchofyoubecauseyouare,andmoreofyoubecauseI
lovemyhusband。Ithoughtthatyoubegantostoop;andsoyoudo,andyoushallleanonme,andI’lldoallIcantokeepyouup。I
thoughttherewasnoairaboutyou;butthereis,andit’stheairofhome,andthat’sthepurestandthebestthereis,andGodblesshomeoncemore,andallbelongingtoit,Dolf!"
"Hurrah!Here’sMrs。William!"criedJohnny。
Soshewas,andallthechildrenwithher;andsoshecamein,theykissedher,andkissedoneanother,andkissedthebaby,andkissedtheirfatherandmother,andthenranbackandflockedanddancedabouther,troopingonwithherintriumph。
Mr。andMrs。Tetterbywerenotabitbehind—handinthewarmthoftheirreception。Theywereasmuchattractedtoherasthechildrenwere;theyrantowardsher,kissedherhands,pressedroundher,couldnotreceiveherardentlyorenthusiasticallyenough。Shecameamongthemlikethespiritofallgoodness,affection,gentleconsideration,love,anddomesticity。
"What!areYOUallsogladtoseeme,too,thisbrightChristmasmorning?"saidMilly,clappingherhandsinapleasantwonder。"Ohdear,howdelightfulthisis!"
Moreshoutingfromthechildren,morekissing,moretroopingroundher,morehappiness,morelove,morejoy,morehonour,onallsides,thanshecouldbear。
"Ohdear!"saidMilly,"whatdelicioustearsyoumakemeshed。HowcanIeverhavedeservedthis!WhathaveIdonetobesoloved?"
"Whocanhelpit!"criedMr。Tetterby。
"Whocanhelpit!"criedMrs。Tetterby。
"Whocanhelpit!"echoedthechildren,inajoyfulchorus。Andtheydancedandtroopedaboutheragain,andclungtoher,andlaidtheirrosyfacesagainstherdress,andkissedandfondledit,andcouldnotfondleit,orher,enough。
"Ineverwassomoved,"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,"asIhavebeenthismorning。Imusttellyou,assoonasIcanspeak。—Mr。
Redlawcametomeatsunrise,andwithatendernessinhismanner,moreasifIhadbeenhisdarlingdaughterthanmyself,imploredmetogowithhimtowhereWilliam’sbrotherGeorgeislyingill。Wewenttogether,andallthewayalonghewassokind,andsosubdued,andseemedtoputsuchtrustandhopeinme,thatIcouldnothelptryingwithpleasure。Whenwegottothehouse,wemetawomanatthedoor(somebodyhadbruisedandhurther,Iamafraid),whocaughtmebythehand,andblessedmeasIpassed。"
"Shewasright!"saidMr。Tetterby。Mrs。Tetterbysaidshewasright。Allthechildrencriedoutthatshewasright。
"Ah,butthere’smorethanthat,"saidMilly。"Whenwegotupstairs,intotheroom,thesickmanwhohadlainforhoursinastatefromwhichnoeffortcouldrousehim,roseupinhisbed,and,burstingintotears,stretchedouthisarmstome,andsaidthathehadledamis—spentlife,butthathewastrulyrepentantnow,inhissorrowforthepast,whichwasallasplaintohimasagreatprospect,fromwhichadenseblackcloudhadclearedaway,andthatheentreatedmetoaskhispooroldfatherforhispardonandhisblessing,andtosayaprayerbesidehisbed。AndwhenI
didso,Mr。Redlawjoinedinitsofervently,andthensothankedandthankedme,andthankedHeaven,thatmyheartquiteoverflowed,andIcouldhavedonenothingbutsobandcry,ifthesickmanhadnotbeggedmetositdownbyhim,—whichmademequietofcourse。
AsIsatthere,heheldmyhandinhisuntilhesankinadoze;andeventhen,whenIwithdrewmyhandtoleavehimtocomehere(whichMr。Redlawwasveryearnestindeedinwishingmetodo),hishandfeltformine,sothatsomeoneelsewasobligedtotakemyplaceandmakebelievetogivehimmyhandback。Ohdear,ohdear,"saidMilly,sobbing。"HowthankfulandhowhappyIshouldfeel,anddofeel,forallthis!"
Whileshewasspeaking,Redlawhadcomein,and,afterpausingforamomenttoobservethegroupofwhichshewasthecentre,hadsilentlyascendedthestairs。Uponthosestairshenowappearedagain;remainingthere,whiletheyoungstudentpassedhim,andcamerunningdown。
"Kindnurse,gentlest,bestofcreatures,"hesaid,fallingonhiskneetoher,andcatchingatherhand,"forgivemycruelingratitude!"
"Ohdear,ohdear!"criedMillyinnocently,"here’sanotherofthem!Ohdear,here’ssomebodyelsewholikesme。WhatshallI
everdo!"
Theguileless,simplewayinwhichshesaidit,andinwhichsheputherhandsbeforehereyesandweptforveryhappiness,wasastouchingasitwasdelightful。
"Iwasnotmyself,"hesaid。"Idon’tknowwhatitwas—itwassomeconsequenceofmydisorderperhaps—Iwasmad。ButIamsonolonger。AlmostasIspeak,Iamrestored。Iheardthechildrencryingoutyourname,andtheshadepassedfrommeattheverysoundofit。Oh,don’tweep!DearMilly,ifyoucouldreadmyheart,andonlyknewwithwhataffectionandwhatgratefulhomageitisglowing,youwouldnotletmeseeyouweep。Itissuchdeepreproach。"
"No,no,"saidMilly,"it’snotthat。It’snotindeed。It’sjoy。
It’swonderthatyoushouldthinkitnecessarytoaskmetoforgivesolittle,andyetit’spleasurethatyoudo。"
"Andwillyoucomeagain?andwillyoufinishthelittlecurtain?"
"No,"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,andshakingherhead。"Youwon’tcareformyneedleworknow。"
"Isitforgivingme,tosaythat?"
Shebeckonedhimaside,andwhisperedinhisear。
"Thereisnewsfromyourhome,Mr。Edmund。"
"News?How?"
"Eitheryournotwritingwhenyouwereveryill,orthechangeinyourhandwritingwhenyoubegantobebetter,createdsomesuspicionofthetruth;howeverthatis—butyou’resureyou’llnotbetheworseforanynews,ifit’snotbadnews?"
"Sure。"
"Thenthere’ssomeonecome!"saidMilly。
"Mymother?"askedthestudent,glancingroundinvoluntarilytowardsRedlaw,whohadcomedownfromthestairs。
"Hush!No,"saidMilly。
"Itcanbenooneelse。"
"Indeed?"saidMilly,"areyousure?"
"Itisnot—"Beforehecouldsaymore,sheputherhanduponhismouth。
"Yesitis!"saidMilly。"Theyounglady(sheisveryliketheminiature,Mr。Edmund,butsheisprettier)wastoounhappytorestwithoutsatisfyingherdoubts,andcameup,lastnight,withalittleservant—maid。Asyoualwaysdatedyourlettersfromthecollege,shecamethere;andbeforeIsawMr。Redlawthismorning,Isawher。SHElikesmetoo!"saidMilly。"Ohdear,that’sanother!"
"Thismorning!Whereisshenow?"
"Why,sheisnow,"saidMilly,advancingherlipstohisear,"inmylittleparlourintheLodge,andwaitingtoseeyou。"
Hepressedherhand,andwasdartingoff,butshedetainedhim。
"Mr。Redlawismuchaltered,andhastoldmethismorningthathismemoryisimpaired。Beveryconsideratetohim,Mr。Edmund;heneedsthatfromusall。"
Theyoungmanassuredher,byalook,thathercautionwasnotill—
bestowed;andashepassedtheChemistonhiswayout,bentrespectfullyandwithanobviousinterestbeforehim。
Redlawreturnedthesalutationcourteouslyandevenhumbly,andlookedafterhimashepassedon。Hedroppedhisheaduponhishandtoo,astryingtoreawakensomethinghehadlost。Butitwasgone。
Theabidingchangethathadcomeuponhimsincetheinfluenceofthemusic,andthePhantom’sreappearance,was,thatnowhetrulyfelthowmuchhehadlost,andcouldcompassionatehisowncondition,andcontrastit,clearly,withthenaturalstateofthosewhowerearoundhim。Inthis,aninterestinthosewhowerearoundhimwasrevived,andameek,submissivesenseofhiscalamitywasbred,resemblingthatwhichsometimesobtainsinage,whenitsmentalpowersareweakened,withoutinsensibilityorsullennessbeingaddedtothelistofitsinfirmities。
Hewasconsciousthat,asheredeemed,throughMilly,moreandmoreoftheevilhehaddone,andashewasmoreandmorewithher,thischangeripeneditselfwithinhim。Therefore,andbecauseoftheattachmentsheinspiredhimwith(butwithoutotherhope),hefeltthathewasquitedependentonher,andthatshewashisstaffinhisaffliction。
So,whensheaskedhimwhethertheyshouldgohomenow,towheretheoldmanandherhusbandwere,andhereadilyreplied"yes"—
beinganxiousinthatregard—heputhisarmthroughhers,andwalkedbesideher;notasifhewerethewiseandlearnedmantowhomthewondersofNaturewereanopenbook,andhersweretheuninstructedmind,butasiftheirtwopositionswerereversed,andheknewnothing,andsheall。
Hesawthechildrenthrongabouther,andcaressher,asheandshewentawaytogetherthus,outofthehouse;heheardtheringingoftheirlaughter,andtheirmerryvoices;hesawtheirbrightfaces,clusteringaroundhimlikeflowers;hewitnessedtherenewedcontentmentandaffectionoftheirparents;hebreathedthesimpleairoftheirpoorhome,restoredtoitstranquillity;hethoughtoftheunwholesomeblighthehadsheduponit,andmight,butforher,havebeendiffusingthen;andperhapsitisnowonderthathewalkedsubmissivelybesideher,anddrewhergentlebosomnearertohisown。
WhentheyarrivedattheLodge,theoldmanwassittinginhischairinthechimney—corner,withhiseyesfixedontheground,andhissonwasleaningagainsttheoppositesideofthefire—place,lookingathim。Asshecameinatthedoor,bothstarted,andturnedroundtowardsher,andaradiantchangecameupontheirfaces。
"Ohdear,dear,dear,theyareallpleasedtoseemeliketherest!"criedMilly,clappingherhandsinanecstasy,andstoppingshort。"Herearetwomore!"
Pleasedtoseeher!Pleasurewasnowordforit。Sheranintoherhusband’sarms,thrownwideopentoreceiveher,andhewouldhavebeengladtohaveherthere,withherheadlyingonhisshoulder,throughtheshortwinter’sday。Buttheoldmancouldn’tspareher。Hehadarmsforhertoo,andhelockedherinthem。
"Why,wherehasmyquietMousebeenallthistime?"saidtheoldman。"Shehasbeenalongwhileaway。Ifindthatit’simpossibleformetogetonwithoutMouse。I—where’smysonWilliam?—I
fancyIhavebeendreaming,William。"
"That’swhatIsaymyself,father,"returnedhisson。"Ihavebeeninanuglysortofdream,Ithink。—Howareyou,father?Areyouprettywell?"
"Strongandbrave,myboy,"returnedtheoldman。
ItwasquiteasighttoseeMr。Williamshakinghandswithhisfather,andpattinghimontheback,andrubbinghimgentlydownwithhishand,asifhecouldnotpossiblydoenoughtoshowaninterestinhim。
"Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettyhearty,though?"saidWilliam,shakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimgentlydownagain。
"Ineverwasfresherorstouterinmylife,myboy。"
"Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!Butthat’sexactlywhereitis,"saidMr。William,withenthusiasm。"WhenIthinkofallthatmyfather’sgonethrough,andallthechancesandchanges,andsorrowsandtroubles,thathavehappenedtohiminthecourseofhislonglife,andunderwhichhisheadhasgrowngrey,andyearsuponyearshavegatheredonit,Ifeelasifwecouldn’tdoenoughtohonourtheoldgentleman,andmakehisoldageeasy。—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettywell,though?"
Mr。Williammightneverhaveleftoffrepeatingthisinquiry,andshakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimdownagain,iftheoldmanhadnotespiedtheChemist,whomuntilnowhehadnotseen。
"Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,"saidPhilip,"butdidn’tknowyouwerehere,sir,orshouldhavemadelessfree。Itremindsme,Mr。
Redlaw,seeingyouhereonaChristmasmorning,ofthetimewhenyouwasastudentyourself,andworkedsohardthatyouwerebackwardsandforwardsinourLibraryevenatChristmastime。Ha!
ha!I’moldenoughtorememberthat;andIrememberitrightwell,Ido,thoughIameight—seven。Itwasafteryouleftherethatmypoorwifedied。Youremembermypoorwife,Mr。Redlaw?"
TheChemistansweredyes。
"Yes,"saidtheoldman。"Shewasadearcreetur。—IrecollectyoucomehereoneChristmasmorningwithayounglady—Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,butIthinkitwasasisteryouwasverymuchattachedto?"
TheChemistlookedathim,andshookhishead。"Ihadasister,"
hesaidvacantly。Heknewnomore。
"OneChristmasmorning,"pursuedtheoldman,"thatyoucomeherewithher—anditbegantosnow,andmywifeinvitedtheladytowalkin,andsitbythefirethatisalwaysaburningonChristmasDayinwhatusedtobe,beforeourtenpoorgentlemencommuted,ourgreatDinnerHall。Iwasthere;andIrecollect,asIwasstirringuptheblazefortheyoungladytowarmherprettyfeetby,shereadthescrolloutloud,thatisunderneaththatpictur,’Lord,keepmymemorygreen!’Sheandmypoorwifefellatalkingaboutit;andit’sastrangethingtothinkof,now,thattheybothsaid(bothbeingsounliketodie)thatitwasagoodprayer,andthatitwasonetheywouldputupveryearnestly,iftheywerecalledawayyoung,withreferencetothosewhoweredearesttothem。’Mybrother,’saystheyounglady—’Myhusband,’saysmypoorwife。—
’Lord,keephismemoryofme,green,anddonotletmebeforgotten!’"
Tearsmorepainful,andmorebitterthanhehadevershedinallhislife,courseddownRedlaw’sface。Philip,fullyoccupiedinrecallinghisstory,hadnotobservedhimuntilnow,norMilly’sanxietythatheshouldnotproceed。
"Philip!"saidRedlaw,layinghishanduponhisarm,"Iamastrickenman,onwhomthehandofProvidencehasfallenheavily,althoughdeservedly。Youspeaktome,myfriend,ofwhatIcannotfollow;mymemoryisgone。"
"Mercifulpower!"criedtheoldman。
"Ihavelostmymemoryofsorrow,wrong,andtrouble,"saidtheChemist,"andwiththatIhavelostallmanwouldremember!"
ToseeoldPhilip’spityforhim,toseehimwheelhisowngreatchairforhimtorestin,andlookdownuponhimwithasolemnsenseofhisbereavement,wastoknow,insomedegree,howprecioustooldagesuchrecollectionsare。
Theboycamerunningin,andrantoMilly。
"Here’stheman,"hesaid,"intheotherroom。Idon’twantHIM。"
"Whatmandoeshemean?"askedMr。William。
"Hush!"saidMilly。
Obedienttoasignfromher,heandhisoldfathersoftlywithdrew。
Astheywentout,unnoticed,Redlawbeckonedtotheboytocometohim。
"Ilikethewomanbest,"heanswered,holdingtoherskirts。
"Youareright,"saidRedlaw,withafaintsmile。"Butyouneedn’tfeartocometome。IamgentlerthanIwas。Ofalltheworld,toyou,poorchild!"
Theboystillheldbackatfirst,butyieldinglittlebylittletoherurging,heconsentedtoapproach,andeventositdownathisfeet。AsRedlawlaidhishandupontheshoulderofthechild,lookingonhimwithcompassionandafellow—feeling,heputouthisotherhandtoMilly。Shestoopeddownonthatsideofhim,sothatshecouldlookintohisface,andaftersilence,said:
"Mr。Redlaw,mayIspeaktoyou?"
"Yes,"heanswered,fixinghiseyesuponher。"Yourvoiceandmusicarethesametome。"
"MayIaskyousomething?"
"Whatyouwill。"
"DoyourememberwhatIsaid,whenIknockedatyourdoorlastnight?Aboutonewhowasyourfriendonce,andwhostoodonthevergeofdestruction?"
"Yes。Iremember,"hesaid,withsomehesitation。
"Doyouunderstandit?"
Hesmoothedtheboy’shair—lookingatherfixedlythewhile,andshookhishead。
"Thisperson,"saidMilly,inherclear,softvoice,whichhermildeyes,lookingathim,madeclearerandsofter,"Ifoundsoonafterwards。Iwentbacktothehouse,and,withHeaven’shelp,tracedhim。Iwasnottoosoon。AverylittleandIshouldhavebeentoolate。"
Hetookhishandfromtheboy,andlayingitonthebackofthathandofhers,whosetimidandyetearnesttouchaddressedhimnolessappealinglythanhervoiceandeyes,lookedmoreintentlyonher。
"HeISthefatherofMr。Edmund,theyounggentlemanwesawjustnow。HisrealnameisLongford。—Yourecollectthename?"
"Irecollectthename。"
"Andtheman?"
"No,nottheman。Didheeverwrongme?"
"Yes!"
"Ah!Thenit’shopeless—hopeless。"
Heshookhishead,andsoftlybeatuponthehandheheld,asthoughmutelyaskinghercommiseration。
"IdidnotgotoMr。Edmundlastnight,"saidMilly,—"Youwilllistentomejustthesameasifyoudidrememberall?"
"Toeverysyllableyousay。"
"Both,becauseIdidnotknow,then,thatthisreallywashisfather,andbecauseIwasfearfuloftheeffectofsuchintelligenceuponhim,afterhisillness,ifitshouldbe。SinceI
haveknownwhothispersonis,Ihavenotgoneeither;butthatisforanotherreason。Hehaslongbeenseparatedfromhiswifeandson—hasbeenastrangertohishomealmostfromthisson’sinfancy,Ilearnfromhim—andhasabandonedanddesertedwhatheshouldhaveheldmostdear。Inallthattimehehasbeenfallingfromthestateofagentleman,moreandmore,until—"sheroseup,hastily,andgoingoutforamoment,returned,accompaniedbythewreckthatRedlawhadbeheldlastnight。
"Doyouknowme?"askedtheChemist。
"Ishouldbeglad,"returnedtheother,"andthatisanunwontedwordformetouse,ifIcouldanswerno。"
TheChemistlookedattheman,standinginself—abasementanddegradationbeforehim,andwouldhavelookedlonger,inanineffectualstruggleforenlightenment,butthatMillyresumedherlatepositionbyhisside,andattractedhisattentivegazetoherownface。
"Seehowlowheissunk,howlostheis!"shewhispered,stretchingoutherarmtowardshim,withoutlookingfromtheChemist’sface。
"Ifyoucouldrememberallthatisconnectedwithhim,doyounotthinkitwouldmoveyourpitytoreflectthatoneyoueverloved(donotletusmindhowlongago,orinwhatbeliefthathehasforfeited),shouldcometothis?"
"Ihopeitwould,"heanswered。"Ibelieveitwould。"
Hiseyeswanderedtothefigurestandingnearthedoor,butcamebackspeedilytoher,onwhomhegazedintently,asifhestrovetolearnsomelessonfromeverytoneofhervoice,andeverybeamofhereyes。
"Ihavenolearning,andyouhavemuch,"saidMilly;"Iamnotusedtothink,andyouarealwaysthinking。MayItellyouwhyitseemstomeagoodthingforus,torememberwrongthathasbeendoneus?"
"Yes。"
"Thatwemayforgiveit。"
"Pardonme,greatHeaven!"saidRedlaw,liftinguphiseyes,"forhavingthrownawaythineownhighattribute!"
"Andif,"saidMilly,"ifyourmemoryshouldonedayberestored,aswewillhopeandprayitmaybe,woulditnotbeablessingtoyoutorecallatonceawronganditsforgiveness?"
Helookedatthefigurebythedoor,andfastenedhisattentiveeyesonheragain;arayofclearerlightappearedtohimtoshineintohismind,fromherbrightface。
"Hecannotgotohisabandonedhome。Hedoesnotseektogothere。
Heknowsthathecouldonlycarryshameandtroubletothosehehassocruellyneglected;andthatthebestreparationhecanmakethemnow,istoavoidthem。Averylittlemoneycarefullybestowed,wouldremovehimtosomedistantplace,wherehemightliveanddonowrong,andmakesuchatonementasisleftwithinhispowerforthewronghehasdone。Totheunfortunateladywhoishiswife,andtohisson,thiswouldbethebestandkindestboonthattheirbestfriendcouldgivethem—onetoothattheyneedneverknowof;
andtohim,shatteredinreputation,mind,andbody,itmightbesalvation。"
Hetookherheadbetweenherhands,andkissedit,andsaid:"Itshallbedone。Itrusttoyoutodoitforme,nowandsecretly;
andtotellhimthatIwouldforgivehim,ifIweresohappyastoknowforwhat。"
Assherose,andturnedherbeamingfacetowardsthefallenman,implyingthathermediationhadbeensuccessful,headvancedastep,andwithoutraisinghiseyes,addressedhimselftoRedlaw。
"Youaresogenerous,"hesaid,"—youeverwere—thatyouwilltrytobanishyourrisingsenseofretributioninthespectaclethatisbeforeyou。Idonottrytobanishitfrommyself,Redlaw。
Ifyoucan,believeme。"
TheChemistentreatedMilly,byagesture,tocomenearertohim;
and,ashelistenedlookedinherface,asiftofindinitthecluetowhatheheard。
"Iamtoodecayedawretchtomakeprofessions;Irecollectmyowncareertoowell,toarrayanysuchbeforeyou。ButfromthedayonwhichImademyfirststepdownward,indealingfalselybyyou,I
havegonedownwithacertain,steady,doomedprogression。That,I
say。"
Redlaw,keepinghercloseathisside,turnedhisfacetowardsthespeaker,andtherewassorrowinit。Somethinglikemournfulrecognitiontoo。
"Imighthavebeenanotherman,mylifemighthavebeenanotherlife,ifIhadavoidedthatfirstfatalstep。Idon’tknowthatitwouldhavebeen。Iclaimnothingforthepossibility。Yoursisterisatrest,andbetterthanshecouldhavebeenwithme,ifIhadcontinuedevenwhatyouthoughtme:evenwhatIoncesupposedmyselftobe。"
Redlawmadeahastymotionwithhishand,asifhewouldhaveputthatsubjectononeside。
"Ispeak,"theotherwenton,"likeamantakenfromthegrave。I
shouldhavemademyowngrave,lastnight,haditnotbeenforthisblessedhand。"
"Ohdear,helikesmetoo!"sobbedMilly,underherbreath。
"That’sanother!"
"Icouldnothaveputmyselfinyourway,lastnight,evenforbread。But,to—day,myrecollectionofwhathasbeenissostronglystirred,andispresentedtome,Idon’tknowhow,sovividly,thatIhavedaredtocomeathersuggestion,andtotakeyourbounty,andtothankyouforit,andtobegyou,Redlaw,inyourdyinghour,tobeasmercifultomeinyourthoughts,asyouareinyourdeeds。"
Heturnedtowardsthedoor,andstoppedamomentonhiswayforth。
"Ihopemysonmayinterestyou,forhismother’ssake。Ihopehemaydeservetodoso。Unlessmylifeshouldbepreservedalongtime,andIshouldknowthatIhavenotmisusedyouraid,Ishallneverlookuponhimmore。"
Goingout,heraisedhiseyestoRedlawforthefirsttime。
Redlaw,whosesteadfastgazewasfixeduponhim,dreamilyheldouthishand。Hereturnedandtouchedit—littlemore—withbothhisown;andbendingdownhishead,wentslowlyout。
Inthefewmomentsthatelapsed,whileMillysilentlytookhimtothegate,theChemistdroppedintohischair,andcoveredhisfacewithhishands。Seeinghimthus,whenshecameback,accompaniedbyherhusbandandhisfather(whowerebothgreatlyconcernedforhim),sheavoideddisturbinghim,orpermittinghimtobedisturbed;andkneeleddownnearthechairtoputsomewarmclothingontheboy。
"That’sexactlywhereitis。That’swhatIalwayssay,father!"
exclaimedheradmiringhusband。"There’samotherlyfeelinginMrs。William’sbreastthatmustandwillhavewent!"
"Ay,ay,"saidtheoldman;"you’reright。MysonWilliam’sright!"
"Ithappensallforthebest,Millydear,nodoubt,"saidMr。
William,tenderly,"thatwehavenochildrenofourown;andyetI
sometimeswishyouhadonetoloveandcherish。Ourlittledeadchildthatyoubuiltsuchhopesupon,andthatneverbreathedthebreathoflife—ithasmadeyouquiet—like,Milly。"
"Iamveryhappyintherecollectionofit,Williamdear,"sheanswered。"Ithinkofiteveryday。"
"Iwasafraidyouthoughtofitagooddeal。"
"Don’tsay,afraid;itisacomforttome;itspeakstomeinsomanyways。Theinnocentthingthatneverlivedonearth,islikeanangeltome,William。"
"Youarelikeanangeltofatherandme,"saidMr。William,softly。
"Iknowthat。"
"WhenIthinkofallthosehopesIbuiltuponit,andthemanytimesIsatandpicturedtomyselfthelittlesmilingfaceuponmybosomthatneverlaythere,andthesweeteyesturneduptominethatneveropenedtothelight,"saidMilly,"Icanfeelagreatertenderness,Ithink,forallthedisappointedhopesinwhichthereisnoharm。WhenIseeabeautifulchildinitsfondmother’sarms,Iloveitallthebetter,thinkingthatmychildmighthavebeenlikethat,andmighthavemademyheartasproudandhappy。"
Redlawraisedhishead,andlookedtowardsher。
"Allthroughlife,itseemsbyme,"shecontinued,"totellmesomething。Forpoorneglectedchildren,mylittlechildpleadsasifitwerealive,andhadavoiceIknew,withwhichtospeaktome。WhenIhearofyouthinsufferingorshame,Ithinkthatmychildmighthavecometothat,perhaps,andthatGodtookitfrommeinHismercy。Eveninageandgreyhair,suchasfather’s,itispresent:sayingthatittoomighthavelivedtobeold,longandlongafteryouandIweregone,andtohaveneededtherespectandloveofyoungerpeople。"
Herquietvoicewasquieterthanever,asshetookherhusband’sarm,andlaidherheadagainstit。
"Childrenlovemeso,thatsometimesIhalffancy—it’sasillyfancy,William—theyhavesomewayIdon’tknowof,offeelingformylittlechild,andme,andunderstandingwhytheirloveisprecioustome。IfIhavebeenquietsince,Ihavebeenmorehappy,William,inahundredways。Notleasthappy,dear,inthis—thatevenwhenmylittlechildwasbornanddeadbutafewdays,andIwasweakandsorrowful,andcouldnothelpgrievingalittle,thethoughtarose,thatifItriedtoleadagoodlife,IshouldmeetinHeavenabrightcreature,whowouldcallme,Mother!"
Redlawfelluponhisknees,withaloudcry。
"OThou,hesaid,"whothroughtheteachingofpurelove,hastgraciouslyrestoredmetothememorywhichwasthememoryofChristupontheCross,andofallthegoodwhoperishedinHiscause,receivemythanks,andblessher!"
Then,hefoldedhertohisheart;andMilly,sobbingmorethanever,cried,asshelaughed,"Heiscomebacktohimself!Helikesmeverymuchindeed,too!Oh,dear,dear,dearme,here’sanother!"
Then,thestudententered,leadingbythehandalovelygirl,whowasafraidtocome。AndRedlawsochangedtowardshim,seeinginhimandhisyouthfulchoice,thesoftenedshadowofthatchasteningpassageinhisownlife,towhich,astoashadytree,thedovesolongimprisonedinhissolitaryarkmightflyforrestandcompany,felluponhisneck,entreatingthemtobehischildren。
Then,asChristmasisatimeinwhich,ofalltimesintheyear,thememoryofeveryremediablesorrow,wrong,andtroubleintheworldaroundus,shouldbeactivewithus,notlessthanourownexperiences,forallgood,helaidhishandupontheboy,and,silentlycallingHimtowitnesswholaidHishandonchildreninoldtime,rebuking,inthemajestyofHispropheticknowledge,thosewhokeptthemfromHim,vowedtoprotecthim,teachhim,andreclaimhim。
Then,hegavehisrighthandcheerilytoPhilip,andsaidthattheywouldthatdayholdaChristmasdinnerinwhatusedtobe,beforethetenpoorgentlemencommuted,theirgreatDinnerHall;andthattheywouldbidtoitasmanyofthatSwidgerfamily,who,hissonhadtoldhim,weresonumerousthattheymightjoinhandsandmakearingroundEngland,ascouldbebroughttogetheronsoshortanotice。
Anditwasthatdaydone。ThereweresomanySwidgersthere,grownupandchildren,thatanattempttostatetheminroundnumbersmightengenderdoubts,inthedistrustful,oftheveracityofthishistory。Thereforetheattemptshallnotbemade。Buttheretheywere,bydozensandscores—andtherewasgoodnewsandgoodhopethere,readyforthem,ofGeorge,whohadbeenvisitedagainbyhisfatherandbrother,andbyMilly,andagainleftinaquietsleep。
There,presentatthedinner,too,weretheTetterbys,includingyoungAdolphus,whoarrivedinhisprismaticcomforter,ingoodtimeforthebeef。Johnnyandthebabyweretoolate,ofcourse,andcameinallononeside,theoneexhausted,theotherinasupposedstateofdouble—tooth;butthatwascustomary,andnotalarming。
Itwassadtoseethechildwhohadnonameorlineage,watchingtheotherchildrenastheyplayed,notknowinghowtotalkwiththem,orsportwiththem,andmorestrangetothewaysofchildhoodthanaroughdog。Itwassad,thoughinadifferentway,toseewhataninstinctiveknowledgetheyoungestchildrentherehadofhisbeingdifferentfromalltherest,andhowtheymadetimidapproachestohimwithsoftwordsandtouches,andwithlittlepresents,thathemightnotbeunhappy。ButhekeptbyMilly,andbegantoloveher—thatwasanother,asshesaid!—and,astheyalllikedherdearly,theyweregladofthat,andwhentheysawhimpeepingatthemfrombehindherchair,theywerepleasedthathewassoclosetoit。
Allthis,theChemist,sittingwiththestudentandhisbridethatwastobe,Philip,andtherest,saw。
Somepeoplehavesaidsince,thatheonlythoughtwhathasbeenhereinsetdown;others,thathereaditinthefire,onewinternightaboutthetwilighttime;others,thattheGhostwasbuttherepresentationofhisgloomythoughts,andMillytheembodimentofhisbetterwisdom。Isaynothing。
—Exceptthis。ThatastheywereassembledintheoldHall,bynootherlightthanthatofagreatfire(havingdinedearly),theshadowsoncemorestoleoutoftheirhiding—places,anddancedabouttheroom,showingthechildrenmarvellousshapesandfacesonthewalls,andgraduallychangingwhatwasrealandfamiliarthere,towhatwaswildandmagical。ButthattherewasonethingintheHall,towhichtheeyesofRedlaw,andofMillyandherhusband,andoftheoldman,andofthestudent,andhisbridethatwastobe,wereoftenturned,whichtheshadowsdidnotobscureorchange。
Deepenedinitsgravitybythefire—light,andgazingfromthedarknessofthepanelledwalllikelife,thesedatefaceintheportrait,withthebeardandruff,lookeddownatthemfromunderitsverdantwreathofholly,astheylookedupatit;and,clearandplainbelow,asifavoicehadutteredthem,werethewords。
LordkeepmyMemorygreen。