PARTIItisagreatthingforaladwhenheisfirstturnedintotheindependenceoflodgings。IdonotthinkIeverwassosatisfiedandproudinmylifeaswhen,atseventeen,Isatedowninalittlethree-corneredroomaboveapastry-cook’sshopinthecountytownofEltham。Myfatherhadleftmethatafternoon,afterdeliveringhimselfofafewplainprecepts,stronglyexpressed,formyguidanceinthenewcourseoflifeonwhichIwasentering。
IwastobeaclerkundertheengineerwhohadundertakentomakethelittlebranchlinefromElthamtoHornby。Myfatherhadgotmethissituation,whichwasinapositionratherabovehisowninlife;orperhapsIshouldsay,abovethestationinwhichhewasbornandbred;forhewasraisinghimselfeveryyearinmen’sconsiderationandrespect。Hewasamechanicbytrade,buthehadsomeinventivegenius,andagreatdealofperseverance,andhaddevisedseveralvaluableimprovementsinrailwaymachinery。Hedidnotdothisforprofit,though,aswasreasonable,whatcameinthenaturalcourseofthingswasacceptable;heworkedouthisideas,because,ashesaid,’untilhecouldputthemintoshape,theyplaguedhimbynightandbyday。’Butthisisenoughaboutmydearfather;itisagoodthingforacountrywheretherearemanylikehim。HewasasturdyIndependentbydescentandconviction;andthisitwas,Ibelieve,whichmadehimplacemeinthelodgingsatthepastry-cook’s。Theshopwaskeptbythetwosistersofourministerathome;andthiswasconsideredasasortofsafeguardtomymorals,whenIwasturnedlooseuponthetemptationsofthecountytown,withasalaryofthirtypoundsayear。
Myfatherhadgivenuptwopreciousdays,andputonhisSundayclothes,inordertobringmetoEltham,andaccompanymefirsttotheoffice,tointroducemetomynewmaster(whowasundersomeobligationstomyfatherforasuggestion),andnexttotakemetocallontheIndependentministerofthelittlecongregationatEltham。Andthenheleftme;andthoughsorrytopartwithhim,Inowbegantotastewithrelishthepleasureofbeingmyownmaster。Iunpackedthehamperthatmymotherhadprovidedmewith,andsmeltthepotsofpreservewithallthedelightofapossessorwhomightbreakintotheircontentsatanytimehepleased。Ihandledandweighedinmyfancythehome-curedham,whichseemedtopromisemeinterminablefeasts;and,aboveall,therewasthefinesavourofknowingthatImighteatofthesedaintieswhenIliked,atmysolewill,notdependentonthepleasureofanyoneelse,howeverindulgent。Istowedmyeatablesawayinthelittlecornercupboard——thatroomwasallcorners,andeverythingwasplacedinacorner,thefire-place,thewindow,thecupboard;Imyselfseemedtobetheonlythinginthemiddle,andtherewashardlyroomforme。Thetablewasmadeofafoldingleafunderthewindow,andthewindowlookedoutuponthemarket-place;sothestudiesfortheprosecutionofwhichmyfatherhadbroughthimselftopayextraforasitting-roomforme,ranaconsiderablechanceofbeingdivertedfrombookstomenandwomen。
IwastohavemymealswiththetwoelderlyMissDawsonsinthelittleparlourbehindthethree-corneredshopdownstairs;mybreakfastsanddinnersatleast,for,asmyhoursinaneveningwerelikelytobeuncertain,myteaorsupperwastobeanindependentmeal。
Then,afterthisprideandsatisfaction,cameasenseofdesolation。
Ihadneverbeenfromhomebefore,andIwasanonlychild;andthoughmyfather’sspokenmaximhadbeen,’Sparetherod,andspoilthechild’,yet,unconsciously,hishearthadyearnedafterme,andhiswaystowardsmeweremoretenderthanheknew,orwouldhaveapprovedofinhimselfcouldhehaveknown。Mymother,whoneverprofessedsternness,wasfarmoreseverethanmyfather:perhapsmyboyishfaultsannoyedhermore;
forIremember,nowthatIhavewrittentheabovewords,howshepleadedformeonceinmyriperyears,whenIhadreallyoffendedagainstmyfather’ssenseofright。
ButIhavenothingtodowiththatnow。ItisaboutcousinPhillisthatIamgoingtowrite,andasyetIamfarenoughfromevensayingwhocousinPhilliswas。
ForsomemonthsafterIwassettledinEltham,thenewemploymentinwhichIwasengaged——thenewindependenceofmylife——occupiedallmythoughts。
Iwasatmydeskbyeighto’clock,hometodinneratone,backattheofficebytwo。Theafternoonworkwasmoreuncertainthanthemorning’s;itmightbethesame,oritmightbethatIhadtoaccompanyMrHoldsworth,themanagingengineer,tosomepointonthelinebetweenElthamandHornby。
ThisIalwaysenjoyed,becauseofthevariety,andbecauseofthecountrywetraversed(whichwasverywildandpretty),andbecauseIwasthrownintocompanionshipwithMrHoldsworth,whoheldthepositionofheroinmyboyishmind。Hewasayoungmanoffive-and-twentyorso,andwasinastationabovemine,bothbybirthandeducation;andhehadtravelledontheContinent,andworemustachiosandwhiskersofasomewhatforeignfashion。Iwasproudofbeingseenwithhim。Hewasreallyafinefellowinagoodnumberofways,andImighthavefallenintomuchworsehands。
EverySaturdayIwrotehome,tellingofmyweeklydoings——myfatherhadinsisteduponthis;buttherewassolittlevarietyinmylifethatIoftenfoundithardworktofillaletter。OnSundaysIwenttwicetochapel,upadarknarrowentry,toheardroninghymns,andlongprayers,andastilllongersermon,preachedtoasmallcongregation,ofwhichI
was,bynearlyascoreofyears,theyoungestmember。Occasionally,MrPeters,theminister,wouldaskmehometoteaafterthesecondservice。
Idreadedthehonour,forIusuallysateontheedgeofmychairalltheevening,andansweredsolemnquestions,putinadeepbassvoice,untilhouseholdprayer-timecame,ateighto’clock,whenMrsPeterscamein,smoothingdownherapron,andthemaid-of-all-workfollowed,andfirstasermon,andthenachapterwasread,andalongimpromptuprayerfollowed,tillsomeinstincttoldMrPetersthatsupper-timehadcome,andwerosefromourkneeswithhungerforourpredominantfeeling。Oversuppertheministerdidunbendalittleintooneortwoponderousjokes,asiftoshowmethatministersweremen,afterall。Andthenatteno’clockIwenthome,andenjoyedmylong-repressedyawnsinthethree-corneredroombeforegoingtobed。
DinahandHannahDawson,sotheirnameswereputontheboardabovetheshop-door——IalwayscalledthemMissDawsonandMissHannah——consideredthesevisitsofminetoMrPetersasthegreatesthonourayoungmancouldhave;andevidentlythoughtthatifaftersuchprivileges,Ididnotworkoutmysalvation,IwasasortofmodernJudasIscariot。Onthecontrary,theyshooktheirheadsovermyintercoursewithMrHoldsworth。Hehadbeensokindtomeinmanyways,thatwhenIcutintomyham,Ihoveredoverthethoughtofaskinghimtoteainmyroom,moreespeciallyastheannualfairwasbeingheldinElthammarket-place,andthesightofthebooths,themerry-go-rounds,thewild-beastshows,andsuchcountrypomps,was(asIthoughtatseventeen)veryattractive。ButwhenIventuredtoalludetomywishinevendistantterms,MissHannahcaughtmeup,andspokeofthesinfulnessofsuchsights,andsomethingaboutwallowinginthemire,andthenvaultedintoFrance,andspokeevilofthenation,andallwhohadeversetfoottherein,till,seeingthatherangerwasconcentratingitselfintoapoint,andthatthatpointwasMrHoldsworth,Ithoughtitwouldbebettertofinishmybreakfast,andmakewhathasteIcouldoutofthesoundofhervoice。IratherwonderedafterwardstohearherandMissDawsoncountinguptheirweeklyprofitswithglee,andsayingthatapastry-cook’sshopinthecornerofthemarket-place,inElthamfairweek,wasnosuchbadthing。However,IneverventuredtoaskMrHoldsworthtomylodgings。
ThereisnotmuchtotellaboutthisfirstyearofmineatEltham。ButwhenIwasnearlynineteen,andbeginningtothinkofwhiskersonmyownaccount,IcametoknowcousinPhillis,whoseveryexistencehadbeenunknowntometillthen。MrHoldsworthandIhadbeenouttoHeathbridgeforaday,workinghard。HeathbridgewasnearHornby,forourlineofrailwaywasabovehalffinished。Ofcourse,aday’soutingwasagreatthingtotellaboutinmyweeklyletters;andIfelltodescribingthecountry——afaultIwasnotoftenguiltyof。Itoldmyfatherofthebogs,alloverwildmyrtleandsoftmoss,andshakinggroundoverwhichwehadtocarryourline;andhowMrHoldsworthandIhadgoneforourmid-daymeals——forwehadtostayherefortwodaysandanight——toaprettyvillagehardby,Heathbridgeproper;andhowIhopedweshouldoftenhavetogothere,fortheshaking,uncertaingroundwaspuzzlingourengineers——oneendofthelinegoingupassoonastheotherwasweighteddown。(Ihadnothoughtfortheshareholders’interests,asmaybeseen;wehadtomakeanewlineonfirmergroundbeforethejunctionrailwaywascompleted。)Itoldallthisatgreatlength,thankfultofillupmypaper。Byreturnletter,I
heardthatasecond-cousinofmymother’swasmarriedtotheIndependentministerofHornby,EbenezerHolmanbyname,andlivedatHeathbridgeproper;
theveryHeathbridgeIhaddescribed,orsomymotherbelieved,forshehadneverseenhercousinPhillisGreen,whowassomethingofanheiress(myfatherbelieved),beingherfather’sonlychild,andoldThomasGreenhadownedanestateofnearuponfiftyacres,whichmusthavecometohisdaughter。Mymother’sfeelingofkinshipseemedtohavebeenstronglystirredbythementionofHeathbridge;formyfathersaidshedesiredme,ifeverIwentthitheragain,tomakeinquiryfortheReverendEbenezerHolman;
andifindeedhelivedthere,IwasfurthertoaskifhehadnotmarriedonePhillisGreen;andifboththesequestionswereansweredintheaffirmative,IwastogoandintroducemyselfastheonlychildofMargaretManning,bornMoneypenny。IwasenragedatmyselfforhavingnamedHeathbridgeatall,whenIfoundwhatitwasdrawingdownuponme。OneIndependentminister,asIsaidtomyself,wasenoughforanyman;andhereIknew(thatistosay,IhadbeencatechizedonSabbathmorningsby)MrDawson,ourministerathome;andIhadhadtobeciviltooldPetersatEltham,andbehavemyselfforfivehoursrunningwheneverheaskedmetoteaathishouse;
andnow,justasIfeltthefreeairblowingaboutmeupatHeathbridge,Iwastoferretoutanotherminister,andIshouldperhapshavetobecatechizedbyhim,orelseaskedtoteaathishouse。Besides,Ididnotlikepushingmyselfuponstrangers,whoperhapshadneverheardofmymother’sname,andsuchanoddnameasitwas——Moneypenny;andiftheyhad,hadnevercaredmoreforherthanshehadforthem,apparently,untilthisunluckymentionofHeathbridge。
Still,Iwouldnotdisobeymyparentsinsuchatrifle,howeverirksomeitmightbe。SothenexttimeourbusinesstookmetoHeathbridge,andweweredininginthelittlesandedinn-parlour,ItooktheopportunityofMrHoldsworth’sbeingoutoftheroom,andaskedthequestionswhichIwasbiddentoaskoftherosy-cheekedmaid。Iwaseitherunintelligibleorshewasstupid;forshesaidshedidnotknow,butwouldaskmaster;
andofcoursethelandlordcameintounderstandwhatitwasIwantedtoknow;andIhadtobringoutallmystammeringinquiriesbeforeMrHoldsworth,whowouldneverhaveattendedtothem,Idaresay,ifIhadnotblushed,andblundered,andmadesuchafoolofmyself。
’Yes,’thelandlordsaid,’theHopeFarmwasinHeathbridgeproper,andtheowner’snamewasHolman,andhewasanIndependentminister,and,asfarasthelandlordcouldtell,hiswife’sChristiannamewasPhillis,anyhowhermaidennamewasGreen。’
’Relationsofyours?’askedMrHoldsworth。
’No,sir——onlymymother’ssecond-cousins。Yes,Isupposetheyarerelations。
ButIneversawtheminmylife。’
’TheHopeFarmisnotastone’sthrowfromhere,’saidtheofficiouslandlord,goingtothewindow。’Ifyoucarryyoureyeoveryonbedofhollyhocks,overthedamson-treesintheorchardyonder,youmayseeastackofqueer-likestonechimneys。ThemistheHopeFarmchimneys;it’sanoldplace,thoughHolmankeepsitingoodorder。’
MrHoldsworthhadrisenfromthetablewithmorepromptitudethanI
had,andwasstandingbythewindow,looking。Atthelandlord’slastwords,heturnedround,smiling,——’Itisnotoftenthatparsonsknowhowtokeeplandinorder,isit?’
’Begpardon,sir,butImustspeakasIfind;andMinisterHolman——wecalltheChurchclergymanhere"parson,"sir;hewouldbeabitjealousifheheardaDissentercalledparson——MinisterHolmanknowswhathe’saboutaswellase’erafarmerintheneighbourhood。Hegivesupfivedaysaweektohisownwork,andtwototheLord’s;anditisdifficulttosaywhichheworkshardestat。HespendsSaturdayandSundaya-writingsermonsanda-visitinghisflockatHornby;andatfiveo’clockonMondaymorninghe’llbeguidinghisploughintheHopeFarmyonderjustaswellasifhecouldneitherreadnorwrite。Butyourdinnerwillbegettingcold,gentlemen。’
Sowewentbacktotable。Afterawhile,MrHoldsworthbrokethesilence:——’IfIwereyou,Manning,I’dlookuptheserelationsofyours。Youcangoandseewhatthey’relikewhilewerewaitingforDobson’sestimates,andI’llsmokeacigarinthegardenmeanwhile。’
’Thankyou,sir。ButIdon’tknowthem,andIdon’tthinkIwanttoknowthem。’
’Whatdidyouaskallthosequestionsfor,then?’saidhe,lookingquicklyupatme。Hehadnonotionofdoingorsayingthingswithoutapurpose。
Ididnotanswer,sohecontinued,——’Makeupyourmind,andgooffandseewhatthisfarmer-ministerislike,andcomebackandtellme——Ishouldliketohear。’
Iwassointhehabitofyieldingtohisauthority,orinfluence,thatIneverthoughtofresisting,butwentonmyerrand,thoughIrememberfeelingasifIwouldratherhavehadmyheadcutoff。Thelandlord,whohadevidentlytakenaninterestintheeventofourdiscussioninawaythatcountrylandlordshave,accompaniedmetothehouse-door,andgavemerepeateddirections,asifIwaslikelytomissmywayintwohundredyards。ButIlistenedtohim,forIwasgladofthedelay,toscrewupmycouragefortheeffortoffacingunknownpeopleandintroducingmyself。
Iwentalongthelane,Irecollect,switchingatallthetallerroadsideweeds,till,afteraturnortwo,IfoundmyselfcloseinfrontoftheHopeFarm。Therewasagardenbetweenthehouseandtheshady,grassylane;
Iafterwardsfoundthatthisgardenwascalledthecourt;perhapsbecausetherewasalowwallroundit,withanironrailingonthetopofthewall,andtwogreatgatesbetweenpillarscrownedwithstoneballsforastateentrancetotheflaggedpathleadinguptothefrontdoor。Itwasnotthehabitoftheplacetogoineitherbythesegreatgatesorbythefrontdoor;thegates,indeed,werelocked,asIfound,thoughthedoorstoodwideopen。Ihadtogoroundbyaside-pathlightlywornonabroadgrassyway,whichledpastthecourt-wall,pastahorse-mount,halfcoveredwithstone-cropandthelittlewildyellowfumitory,toanotherdoor——’thecurate’,asIfounditwastermedbythemasterofthehouse,whilethefrontdoor,’handsomeandallforshow’,wastermedthe’rector’。Iknockedwithmyhanduponthe’curate’door;atallgirl,aboutmyownage,asIthought,cameandopenedit,andstoodtheresilent,waitingtoknowmyerrand。
Iseehernow——cousinPhillis。Thewesteringsunshonefulluponher,andmadeaslantingstreamoflightintotheroomwithin。Shewasdressedindarkbluecottonofsomekind;uptoherthroat,downtoherwrists,withalittlefrillofthesamewhereverittouchedherwhiteskin。Andsuchawhiteskinasitwas!Ihaveneverseenthelike。Shehadlighthair,neareryellowthananyothercolour。Shelookedmesteadilyinthefacewithlarge,quieteyes,wondering,butuntroubledbythesightofastranger。
Ithoughtitoddthatsoold,sofull-grownasshewas,sheshouldwearapinaforeoverhergown。
BeforeIhadquitemadeupmymindwhattosayinreplytohermuteinquiryofwhatIwantedthere,awoman’svoicecalledout,’Whoisit,Phillis?Ifitisanyoneforbutter-milksendthemroundtothebackdoor。’
IthoughtIcouldratherspeaktotheownerofthatvoicethantothegirlbeforeme;soIpassedher,andstoodattheentranceofaroomhatinhand,forthisside-dooropenedstraightintothehallorhouse-placewherethefamilysatewhenworkwasdone。Therewasabrisklittlewomanoffortyorsoironingsomehugemuslincravatsunderthelightofalongvine-shadedcasementwindow。ShelookedatmedistrustfullytillIbegantospeak。’MynameisPaulManning,’saidI;butIsawshedidnotknowthename。’Mymother’snamewasMoneypenny,’saidI,——’MargaretMoneypenny。’
’AndshemarriedoneJohnManning,ofBirmingham,’saidMrsHolman,eagerly。’Andyou’llbeherson。Sitdown!Iamrightgladtoseeyou。
TothinkofyourbeingMargaret’sson!Why,shewasalmostachildnotsolongago。Well,tobesure,itisfive-and-twentyyearsago。Andwhatbringsyouintotheseparts?’
Shesatedownherself,asifoppressedbyhercuriosityastoallthefive-and-twentyyearsthathadpassedbysinceshehadseenmymother。
HerdaughterPhillistookupherknitting——alonggreyworstedman’sstocking,Iremember——andknittedawaywithoutlookingatherwork。Ifeltthatthesteadygazeofthosedeepgreyeyeswasuponme,thoughonce,whenIstealthilyraisedminetohers,shewasexaminingsomethingonthewallabovemyhead。
WhenIhadansweredallmycousinHolman’squestions,sheheavedalongbreath,andsaid,’TothinkofMargaretMoneypenny’sboybeinginourhouse!
Iwishtheministerwashere。Phillis,inwhatfieldisthyfatherto-day?’
’Inthefive-acre;theyarebeginningtocutthecorn。’
’He’llnotlikebeingsentfor,then,elseIshouldhavelikedyoutohaveseentheminister。Butthefive-acreisagoodstepoff。Youshallhaveaglassofwineandabitofcakebeforeyoustirfromthishouse,though。You’reboundtogo,yousay,orelsetheministercomesinmostlywhenthemenhavetheirfouro’clock。’
’Imustgo——Ioughttohavebeenoffbeforenow。’
’Here,then,Phillis,takethekeys。’Shegaveherdaughtersomewhispereddirections,andPhillislefttheroom。
’Sheismycousin,isshenot?’Iasked。Iknewshewas,butsomehowIwantedtotalkofher,anddidnotknowhowtobegin。
’Yes——PhillisHolman。Sheisouronlychild——now。’
Eitherfromthat’now’,orfromastrangemomentarywistfulnessinhereyes,Iknewthattherehadbeenmorechildren,whowerenowdead。
’HowoldiscousinPhillis?’saidI,scarcelyventuringonthenewname,itseemedtooprettilyfamiliarformetocallherbyit;butcousinHolmantooknonoticeofit,answeringstraighttothepurpose。
’SeventeenlastMay-day;buttheministerdoesnotliketohearmecallingitMay-day,’saidshe,checkingherselfwithalittleawe。’PhilliswasseventeenonthefirstdayofMaylast,’sherepeatedinanemendededition。
’AndIamnineteeninanothermonth,’thoughtI,tomyself;Idon’tknowwhy。
ThenPhilliscamein,carryingatraywithwineandcakeuponit。
’Wekeepahouse-servant,’saidcousinHolman,’butitischurningday,andsheisbusy。’Itwasmeantasalittleproudapologyforherdaughter’sbeingthehandmaiden。
’Ilikedoingit,mother,’saidPhillis,inhergrave,fullvoice。
IfeltasifIweresomebodyintheOldTestament——who,Icouldnotrecollect——beingservedandwaiteduponbythedaughterofthehost。WasIlikeAbraham’sservant,whenRebekahgavehimtodrinkatthewell?I
thoughtIsaachadnotgonethepleasantestwaytoworkinwinninghimawife。ButPhillisneverthoughtaboutsuchthings。Shewasastately,graciousyoungwoman,inthedressandwiththesimplicityofachild。
AsIhadbeentaught,Idranktothehealthofmynewfoundcousinandherhusband;andthenIventuredtonamemycousinPhilliswithalittlebowofmyheadtowardsher;butIwastooawkwardtolookandseehowshetookmycompliment。’Imustgonow,’saidI,rising。
Neitherofthewomenhadthoughtofsharinginthewine;cousinHolmanhadbrokenabitofcakeforform’ssake。
’Iwishtheministerhadbeenwithin,’saidhiswife,risingtoo。SecretlyIwasverygladhewasnot。Ididnottakekindlytoministersinthosedays,andIthoughthemustbeaparticularkindofman,byhisobjectingtothetermMay-day。ButbeforeIwent,cousinHolmanmademepromisethatIwouldcomebackontheSaturdayfollowingandspendSundaywiththem;
whenIshouldseesomethingof’theminister’。
’ComeonFriday,ifyoucan,’wereherlastwordsasshestoodatthecurate-door,shadinghereyesfromthesinkingsunwithherhand。
InsidethehousesatecousinPhillis,hergoldenhair,herdazzlingcomplexion,lightingupthecornerofthevine-shadowedroom。ShehadnotrisenwhenIbadehergood-by;shehadlookedatmestraightasshesaidhertranquilwordsoffarewell。
IfoundMrHoldsworthdownattheline,hardatworksuperintending。
AsSoonashehadapause,hesaid,’Well,Manning,whatarethenewcousinslike?Howdopreachingandfarmingseemtogetontogether?Iftheministerturnsouttobepracticalaswellasreverend,Ishallbegintorespecthim。’
Buthehardlyattendedtomyanswer,hewassomuchmoreoccupiedwithdirectinghiswork-people。Indeed,myanswerdidnotcomeveryreadily;
andthemostdistinctpartofitwasthementionoftheinvitationthathadbeengivenme。
’Oh,ofcourseyoucango——andonFriday,too,ifyoulike;thereisnoreasonwhynotthisweek;andyou’vedonealongspellofworkthistime,oldfellow。’
IthoughtthatIdidnotwanttogoonFriday;butwhenthedaycame,IfoundthatIshouldprefergoingtostayingaway,soIavailedmyselfofMrHoldsworth’spermission,andwentovertoHopeFarmsometimeintheafternoon,alittlelaterthanmylastvisit。Ifoundthe’curate’
opentoadmitthesoftSeptemberair,sotemperedbythewarmthofthesun,thatitwaswarmeroutofdoorsthanin,althoughthewoodenloglaysmoulderinginfrontofaheapofhotashesonthehearth。Thevine-leavesoverthewindowhadatingemoreyellow,theiredgeswerehereandtherescorchedandbrowned;therewasnoironingabout,andcousinHolmansatejustoutsidethehouse,mendingashirt。Philliswasatherknittingindoors:
itseemedasifshehadbeenatitalltheweek。Themanyspeckledfowlswerepeckingaboutinthefarmyardbeyond,andthemilk-cansglitteredwithbrightness,hungouttosweeten。Thecourtwassofullofflowersthattheycreptoutuponthelow-coveredwallandhorse-mount,andwereeventobefoundself-sownupontheturfthatborderedthepathtothebackofthehouse。IfanciedthatmySundaycoatwasscentedfordaysafterwardsbythebushesofsweetbriarandthefraxinellathatperfumedtheair。FromtimetotimecousinHolmanputherhandintoacoveredbasketatherfeet,andthrewhandsfulofcorndownforthepigeonsthatcooedandflutteredintheairaround,inexpectationofthistreat。
Ihadathoroughwelcomeassoonasshesawme。’Nowthisiskind——thisisrightdownfriendly,’shakingmyhandwarmly。’Phillis,yourcousinManningiscome!’
’CallmePaul,willyou?’saidI;’theycallmesoathome,andManningintheoffice。’
’Well,Paul,then。Yourroomisallreadyforyou,Paul,for,asIsaidtotheminister,"I’llhaveitreadywhetherhecomesonFridayornot。"
AndtheministersaidhemustgouptotheAshfieldwhetheryouweretocomeornot;buthewouldcomehomebetimestoseeifyouwerehere。I’llshowyoutoyourroom,andyoucanwashthedustoffabit。’
AfterIcamedown,Ithinkshedidnotquiteknowwhattodowithme;
orshemightthinkthatIwasdull;orshemighthaveworktodoinwhichIhinderedher;forshecalledPhillis,andbadeherputonherbonnet,andgowithmetotheAshfield,andfindfather。Sowesetoff,Iinalittleflutterofadesiretomakemyselfagreeable,butwishingthatmycompanionwerenotquitesotall;forshewasabovemeinheight。WhileIwaswonderinghowtobeginourconversation,shetookupthewords。
’Isuppose,cousinPaul,youhavetobeverybusyatyourworkalldaylongingeneral。’
’Yes,wehavetobeintheofficeathalf-pasteight;andwehaveanhourfordinner,andthenwegoatitagaintilleightornine。’
’Thenyouhavenotmuchtimeforreading。’
’No,’saidI,withasuddenconsciousnessthatIdidnotmakethemostofwhatleisureIhad。
’NomorehaveI。Fatheralwaysgetsanhourbeforegoinga-fieldinthemornings,butmotherdoesnotlikemetogetupsoearly。’
’MymotherisalwayswantingmetogetupearlierwhenIamathome。’
’Whattimedoyougetup?’
’Oh!——ah!——sometimeshalf-pastsix:notoftenthough;’forIrememberedonlytwicethatIhaddonesoduringthepastsummer。
Sheturnedherheadandlookedatme。
’Fatherisupatthree;andsowasmothertillshewasill。Ishouldliketobeupatfour。’
’Yourfatherupatthree!Why,whathashetodoatthathour?’
’Whathashenottodo?Hehashisprivateexerciseinhisownroom;
healwaysringsthegreatbellwhichcallsthementomilking;herousesupBetty,ourmaid;asoftenasnothegivesthehorsestheirfeedbeforethemanisup——forJem,whotakescareofthehorses,isanoldman;andfatherisalwayslothtodisturbhim;helooksatthecalves,andtheshoulders,heels,traces,chaff,andcornbeforethehorsesgoa-field;hehasoftentowhip-cordtheplough-whips;heseesthehogsfed;helooksintotheswill-tubs,andwriteshisordersforwhatiswantedforfoodformanandbeast;yes,andforfuel,too。Andthen,ifhehasabitoftimetospare,hecomesinandreadswithme——butonlyEnglish;wekeepLatinfortheevenings,thatwemayhavetimetoenjoyit;andthenhecallsinthementobreakfast,andcutstheboys’breadandcheese;andseestheirwoodenbottlesfilled,andsendsthemofftotheirwork;——andbythistimeitishalf-pastsix,andwehaveourbreakfast。Thereisfather,’sheexclaimed,pointingouttomeamaninhisshirt-sleeves,tallerbytheheadthantheothertwowithwhomhewasworking。Weonlysawhimthroughtheleavesoftheash-treesgrowinginthehedge,andIthoughtImustbeconfusingthefigures,ormistaken:thatmanstilllookedlikeaverypowerfullabourer,andhadnoneoftheprecisedemurenessofappearancewhichIhadalwaysimaginedwasthecharacteristicofaminister。ItwastheReverendEbenezerHolman,however。Hegaveusanodasweenteredthestubble-field;andIthinkhewouldhavecometomeetusbutthathewasinthemiddleofgivingsomedirectionstohismen。IcouldseethatPhilliswasbuiltmoreafterhistypethanhermother’s。He,likehisdaughter,waslargelymade,andofafair,ruddycomplexion,whereasherswasbrilliantanddelicate。
Hishairhadbeenyelloworsandy,butnowwasgrizzled。Yethisgreyhairsbetokenednofailureinstrength。Ineversawamorepowerfulman——deepchest,leanflanks,well-plantedhead。Bythistimewewerenearlyuptohim;andheinterruptedhimselfandsteppedforwards;holdingouthishandtome,butaddressingPhillis。
’Well,mylass,thisiscousinManning,Isuppose。Waitaminute,youngman,andI’llputonmycoat,andgiveyouadecorousandformalwelcome。
But——NedHall,thereoughttobeawater-furrowacrossthisland:it’sanasty,stiff,clayey,daubybitofground,andthouandImustfallto,comenextMonday——Ibegyourpardon,cousinManning——andthere’soldJem’scottagewantsabitofthatch;youcandothatjobtomorrowwhileIambusy。’Then,suddenlychangingthetoneofhisdeepbassvoicetoanoddsuggestionofchapelsandpreachers,headded。’Now,Iwillgiveoutthepsalm,"Comeallharmonioustongues",tobesungto"MountEphraim"tune。’
Heliftedhisspadeinhishand,andbegantobeattimewithit;thetwolabourersseemedtoknowbothwordsandmusic,thoughIdidnot;andsodidPhillis:herrichvoicefollowedherfather’sashesetthetune;
andthemencameinwithmoreuncertainty,butstillharmoniously。Phillislookedatmeonceortwicewithalittlesurpriseatmysilence;butI
didnotknowthewords。Therewefivestood,bareheaded,exceptingPhillis,inthetawnystubble-field,fromwhichalltheshocksofcornhadnotyetbeencarried——adarkwoodononeside,wherethewoodpigeonswerecooing;
bluedistanceseenthroughtheash-treesontheother。Somehow,IthinkthatifIhadknownthewords,andcouldhavesung,mythroatwouldhavebeenchokedupbythefeelingoftheunaccustomedscene。
Thehymnwasended,andthemenhaddrawnoffbeforeIcouldstir。I
sawtheministerbeginningtoputonhiscoat,andlookingatmewithfriendlyinspectioninhisgaze,beforeIcouldrousemyself。
’Idaresayyourailwaygentlemendon’twindupthedaywithsingingapsalmtogether,’saidhe;’butitisnotabadpractice——notabadpractice。
Wehavehaditabitearlierto-dayforhospitality’ssake——that’sall。’
Ihadnothingparticulartosaytothis,thoughIwasthinkingagreatdeal。FromtimetotimeIstolealookatmycompanion。Hiscoatwasblack,andsowashiswaistcoat;neckclothhehadnone,hisstrongfullthroatbeingbareabovethesnow-whiteshirt。Heworedrab-colouredknee-breeches,greyworstedstockings(IthoughtIknewthemaker),andstrong-nailedshoes。Hecarriedhishatinhishand,asifhelikedtofeelthecomingbreezeliftinghishair。Afterawhile,Isawthatthefathertookholdofthedaughter’shand,andso,theyholdingeachother,wentalongtowardshome。Wehadtocrossalane。Initweretwolittlechildren,onelyingproneonthegrassinapassionofcrying,theotherstandingstockstill,withitsfingerinitsmouth,thelargetearsslowlyrollingdownitscheeksforsympathy。Thecauseoftheirdistresswasevident;therewasabrokenbrownpitcher,andalittlepoolofspiltmilkontheroad。
’Hollo!Hollo!What’sallthis?’saidtheminister。’why,whathaveyoubeenabout,Tommy,’liftingthelittlepetticoatedlad,whowaslyingsobbing,withonevigorousarm。Tommylookedathimwithsurpriseinhisroundeyes,butnoaffright——theywereevidentlyoldacquaintances。
’Mammy’sjug!’saidhe,atlast,beginningtocryafresh。
’Well!andwillcryingpiecemammy’sjug,orpickupspiltmilk?Howdidyoumanageit,Tommy?’
’He’(jerkinghisheadattheother)’andmewasrunningraces。’
’Tommysaidhecouldbeatme,’putintheother。
’Now,Iwonderwhatwillmakeyoutwosillyladsmind,andnotrunracesagainwithapitcherofmilkbetweenyou,’saidtheminister,asifmusing。
’Imightflogyou,andsosavemammythetrouble;forIdaresayshe’lldoitifIdon’t。’Thefreshburstofwhimperingfrombothshowedtheprobabilityofthis。’OrImighttakeyoutotheHopeFarm,andgiveyousomemoremilk;butthenyou’dberunningracesagain,andmymilkwouldfollowthattotheground,andmakeanotherwhitepool。Ithinkthefloggingwouldbebest——don’tyou?’
’Wewouldneverrunracesnomore,’saidtheelderofthetwo。
’Thenyou’dnotbeboys;you’dbeangels。’
’No,weshouldn’t。’
’Whynot?’
Theylookedintoeachother’seyesforananswertothispuzzlingquestion。
Atlength,onesaid,’Angelsisdeadfolk。’
’Come;we’llnotgettoodeepintotheology。Whatdoyouthinkofmylendingyouatincanwithalidtocarrythemilkhomein?Thatwouldnotbreak,atanyrate;thoughIwouldnotanswerforthemilknotspillingifyouranraces。That’sit!’
Hehaddroppedhisdaughter’shand,andnowheldouteachofhistothelittlefellows。PhillisandIfollowed,andlistenedtotheprattlewhichtheminister’scompanionsnowpouredouttohim,andwhichhewasevidentlyenjoying。Atacertainpoint,therewasasuddenburstofthetawny,ruddy-eveninglandscape。TheministerturnedroundandquotedalineortwoofLatin。
’It’swonderful,’saidhe,’howexactlyVirgilhashittheenduringepithets,nearlytwothousandyearsago,andinItaly;andyethowitdescribestoaTwhatisnowlyingbeforeusintheparishofHeathbridge,county————,England。’
’Idaresayitdoes,’saidI,allaglowwithshame,forIhadforgottenthelittleLatinIeverknew。
TheministershiftedhiseyestoPhillis’sface;itmutelygavehimbackthesympatheticappreciationthatI,inmyignorance,couldnotbestow。
’Oh!thisisworsethanthecatechism,’thoughtI;’thatwasonlyrememberingwords。’
’Phillis,lass,thoumustgohomewiththeselads,andtelltheirmotherallabouttheraceandthemilk。Mammymustalwaysknowthetruth,’nowspeakingtothechildren。’Andtellher,too,frommethatIhavegotthebestbirchrodintheparish;andthatifsheeverthinksherchildrenwantafloggingshemustbringthemtome,and,ifIthinktheydeserveit,I’llgiveitthembetterthanshecan。’SoPhillisledthechildrentowardsthedairy,somewhereinthebackyard,andIfollowedtheministerinthroughthe’curate’intothehouse-place。
’Theirmother,’saidhe,’isabitofavixen,andapttopunishherchildrenwithoutrhymeorreason。Itrytokeeptheparishrodaswellastheparishbull。’
Hesatedowninthethree-corneredchairbythefire-side,andlookedaroundtheemptyroom。
’Where’sthemissus?’saidhetohimself。Butshewastherehome——byalook,byatouch,nothingmore——assoonassheinaminute;itwasherregularplantogivehimhiswelcomecouldafterhisreturn,andhehadmissedhernow。Regardlessofmypresence,hewentovertheday’sdoingstoher;andthen,gettingup,hesaidhemustgoandmakehimself’reverend’,andthatthenwewouldhaveacupofteaintheparlour。Theparlourwasalargeroomwithtwocasementedwindowsontheothersideofthebroadflaggedpassageleadingfromtherector-doortothewidestaircase,withitsshallow,polishedoakensteps,onwhichnocarpetwaseverlaid。Theparlour-floorwascoveredinthemiddlebyahome-madecarpetingofneedleworkandlist。OneortwoquaintfamilypicturesoftheHolmanfamilyhungroundthewalls;thefire-grateandironsweremuchornamentedwithbrass;andonatableagainstthewallbetweenthewindows,agreatbeau-potofflowerswasplaceduponthefoliovolumesofMatthewHenry’sBible。Itwasacomplimenttometousethisroom,andItriedtobegratefulforit;butweneverhadourmealsthereafterthatfirstday,andIwasgladofit;forthelargehouse-place,livingroom,dining-room,whicheveryoumightliketocallit,wastwiceascomfortableandcheerful。Therewasaruginfrontofthegreatlargefire-place,andanovenbythegrate,andacrook,withthekettlehangingfromit,overthebrightwood-fire;everythingthatoughttobeblackandPolishedinthatroomwasblackandPolished;andtheflags,andwindow-curtains,andsuchthingsasweretobewhiteandclean,werejustspotlessintheirpurity。Oppositetothefire-place,extendingthewholelengthoftheroom,wasanoakenshovel-board,withtherightinclineforaskilfulplayertosendtheweightsintotheprescribedspace。Therewerebasketsofwhiteworkabout,andasmallshelfofbookshungagainstthewall,booksusedforreading,andnotforproppingupabeau-potofflowers。ItookdownoneortwoofthosebooksoncewhenIwasleftaloneinthehouse-placeonthefirstevening——Virgil,Caesar,aGreekgrammar——oh,dear!ah,me!andPhillisHolman’snameineachofthem!Ishutthemup,andputthembackintheirplaces,andwalkedasfarawayfromthebookshelfasIcould。Yes,andIgavemycousinPhillisawideberth,asthoughshewassittingatherworkquietlyenough,andherhairwaslookingmoregolden,herdarkeyelasheslonger,herroundpillarofathroatwhiterthanever。Wehaddonetea,andwehadreturnedintothehouse-placethattheministermightsmokehispipewithoutfearofcontaminatingthedrabdamaskwindow-curtainsoftheparlour。Hehadmadehimself’reverend’byputtingononeofthevoluminouswhitemuslinneckclothsthatIhadseencousinHolmanironingthatfirstvisitIhadpaidtotheHopeFarm,andbymakingoneortwootherunimportantchangesinhisdress。Hesatelookingsteadilyatme,butwhetherhesawmeornotIcannottell。AtthetimeIfanciedthathedid,andwasgaugingmeinsomeunknownfashioninhissecretmind。Everynowandthenhetookhispipeoutofhismouth,knockedouttheashes,andaskedmesomefreshquestion。Aslongastheserelatedtomyacquirementsormyreading,I
shuffleduneasilyanddidnotknowwhattoanswer。By-and-byhegotroundtothemorepracticalsubjectofrailroads,andonthisIwasmoreathome。
Ireallyhadtakenaninterestinmywork;norwouldMrHoldsworth,indeed,havekeptmeinhisemploymentifIhadnotgivenmymindaswellasmytimetoit;andIwas,besides,fullofthedifficultieswhichbesetusjustthen,owingtoournotbeingabletofindasteadybottomontheHeathbridgemoss,overwhichwewishedtocarryourline。Inthemidstofallmyeagernessinspeakingaboutthis,Icouldnothelpbeingstruckwiththeextremepertinenceofhisquestions。Idonotmeanthathedidnotshowignoranceofmanyofthedetailsofengineering:thatwastohavebeenexpected;
butonthepremiseshehadgotholdof;hethoughtclearlyandreasonedlogically。Phillis——solikehimasshewasbothinbodyandmind——keptstoppingatherworkandlookingatme,tryingtofullyunderstandallthatIsaid。Ifeltshedid;andperhapsitmademetakemorepainsinusingclearexpressions,andarrangingmywords,thanIotherwiseshould。
’SheshallseeIknowsomethingworthknowing,thoughitmayn’tbeherdead-and-gonelanguages,’thoughtI。
’Isee,’saidtheminister,atlength。’Iunderstanditall。You’veaclear,goodheadofyourown,mylad,——choosehowyoucamebyit。’
’Frommyfather,’saidI,proudly。’Haveyounotheardofhisdiscoveryofanewmethodofshunting?ItwasintheGazette。Itwaspatented。
IthoughteveryonehadheardofManning’spatentwinch。’
’Wedon’tknowwhoinventedthealphabet,’saidhe,halfsmiling,andtakinguphispipe。
’No,Idaresaynot,sir,’repliedI,halfoffended;’that’ssolongago。’
Puff——puff——puff。
’Butyourfathermustbeanotableman。Iheardofhimoncebefore;
anditisnotmanyaonefiftymilesawaywhosefamereachesHeathbridge。’
’Myfatherisanotableman,sir。Itisnotmethatsaysso;itisMrHoldsworth,and——andeverybody。’
’Heisrighttostandupforhisfather,’saidcousinHolman,asifshewerepleadingforme。
Ichafedinwardly,thinkingthatmyfatherneedednoonetostandupforhim。Hewasmansufficientforhimself。
’Yes——heisright,’saidtheminister,placidly。’Right,becauseitcomesfromhisheart——right,too,asIbelieve,inpointoffact。Elsethereismanyayoungcockerelthatwillstanduponadunghillandcrowabouthisfather,bywayofmakinghisownplumagetoshine。Ishouldliketoknowthyfather,’hewenton,turningstraighttome,withakindly,franklookinhiseyes。
ButIwasvexed,andwouldtakenonotice。Presently,havingfinishedhispipe,hegotupandlefttheroom。Phillisputherworkhastilydown,andwentafterhim。Inaminuteortwoshereturned,andsatedownagain。
Notlongafter,andbeforeIhadquiterecoveredmygoodtemper,heopenedthedooroutofwhichhehadpassed,andcalledtometocometohim。I
wentacrossanarrowstonepassageintoastrange,many-corneredroom,nottenfeetinarea,partstudy,partcountinghouse,lookingintothefarm-yard;withadesktositat,adesktostandat,aSpittoon,asetofshelveswitholddivinitybooksuponthem;another,smaller,filledwithbooksonfarriery,farming,manures,andsuchsubjects,withpiecesofpapercontainingmemorandastuckagainstthewhitewashedwallswithwafers,nails,pins,anythingthatcamereadiesttohand;aboxofcarpenter’stoolsonthefloor,andsomemanuscriptsinshort-handonthedesk。
Heturnedround,halflaughing。’ThatfoolishgirlofminethinksI
havevexedyou’——puttinghislarge,powerfulhandonmyshoulder。’"Nay,"
saysI,"kindlymeantiskidneytaken"——isitnotso?’
’Itwasnotquite,sir,’repliedI,vanquishedbyhismanner;’butitshallbeinfuture。’
’Come,that’sright。YouandIshallbefriends。Indeed,it’snotmanyaoneIwouldbringinhere。ButIwasreadingabookthismorning,andIcouldnotmakeitout;itisabookthatwasleftherebymistakeoneday;IhadsubscribedtoBrotherRobinson’ssermons;andIwasgladtoseethisinsteadofthem,forsermonsthoughtheybe,they’re……well,nevermind!Itook’emboth,andmademyoldcoatdoabitlonger;butall’sfishthatcomestomynet。Ihavefewerbooksthanleisuretoreadthem,andIhaveaprodigiousbigappetite。Hereitis。’
Itwasavolumeofstiffmechanics,involvingmanytechnicalterms,andsomeratherdeepmathematics。Theselast,whichwouldhavepuzzledme,seemedeasyenoughtohim;allthathewantedwastheexplanationsofthetechnicalwords,whichIcouldeasilygive。
Whilehewaslookingthroughthebooktofindtheplaceswherehehadbeenpuzzled,mywanderingeyecaughtonsomeofthepapersonthewall,andIcouldnothelpreadingone,whichhasstuckbymeeversince。Atfirst,itseemedakindofweeklydiary;butthenIsawthatthesevendayswereportionedoutforspecialprayersandintercessions:Mondayforhisfamily,Tuesdayforenemies,WednesdayfortheIndependentchurches,Thursdayforallotherchurches,Fridayforpersonsafflicted,Saturdayforhisownsoul,Sundayforallwanderersandsinners,thattheymightbebroughthometothefold。
Wewerecalledbackintothehouse-placetohavesupper。Adooropeningintothekitchenwasopened;andallstoodupinbothrooms,whiletheminister,tall,large,onehandrestingonthespreadtable,theotherliftedup,said,inthedeepvoicethatwouldhavebeenloudhaditnotbeensofullandrich,butwithoutthepeculiaraccentortwangthatI
believeisconsidereddevoutbysomepeople,’Whetherweeatordrink,orwhatsoeverwedo,letusdoalltothegloryofGod。’
Thesupperwasanimmensemeat-pie。Weofthehouse-placewerehelpedfirst;thentheministerhitthehandleofhisbuck-horncarving-knifeonthetableonce,andsaid,——
’Nowornever,’whichmeant,didanyofuswantanymore;andwhenwehadalldeclined,eitherbysilenceorbywords,heknockedtwicewithhisknifeonthetable,andBettycameinthroughtheopendoor,andcarriedoffthegreatdishtothekitchen,whereanoldmanandayoungone,andahelp-girl,wereawaitingtheirmeal。
’Shutthedoor,ifyouwill,’saidtheministertoBetty。
’That’sinhonourofyou,’saidcousinHolman,inatoneofsatisfaction,asthedoorwasshut。’whenwe’venostrangerwithus,theministerissofondofkeepingthedoorOpen,andtalkingtothemenandmaids,justasmuchastoPhillisandme。
’Itbringsusalltogetherlikeahouseholdjustbeforewemeetasahouseholdinprayer,’saidhe,inexplanation。’Buttogobacktowhatweweretalkingabout——canyoutellmeofanysimplebookondynamicsthatIcouldputinmypocket,andstudyalittleatleisuretimesintheday?’
’Leisuretimes,father?’saidPhillis,withanearerapproachtoasmilethanIhadyetseenonherface。
’Yes;leisuretimes,daughter。Thereismanyanoddminutelostinwaitingforotherfolk;andnowthatrailroadsarecomingsonearus,itbehovesustoknowsomethingaboutthem。’
Ithoughtofhisowndescriptionofhis’prodigiousbigappetite’forlearning。Andhehadagoodappetiteofhisownforthemorematerialvictualbeforehim。ButIsaw,orfanciedIsaw,thathehadsomeruleforhimselfinthematterbothoffoodanddrink。
Assoonassupperwasdonethehouseholdassembledforprayer。Itwasalongimpromptueveningprayer;anditwouldhaveseemeddesultoryenoughhadInothadaglimpseofthekindofdaythatprecededit,andsobeenabletofindacluetothethoughtsthatprecededthedisjointedutterances;
forhekepttherekneelingdowninthecentreofacircle,hiseyesshut,hisoutstretchedhandspressedpalmtopalm——sometimeswithalongpauseofsilencewasanythingelsehewishedto’laybeforetheLord!(tousehisownexpression)——beforeheconcludedwiththeblessing。Heprayedforthecattleandlivecreatures,rathertomysurprise;formyattentionhadbeguntowander,tillitwasrecalledbythefamiliarwords。
AndhereImustnotforgettonameanoddincidentattheconclusionoftheprayer,andbeforewehadrisenfromourknees(indeedbeforeBettywaswellawake,forshemadeapracticeofhavingasoundnap,herwearyheadlyingonherstalwartarms);theminister,stillkneelinginourmidst,butwithhiseyeswideopen,andhisarmsdroppedbyhisside,spoketotheelderman,whoturnedroundonhiskneestoattend。’John,didstseethatDaisyhadherwarmmashto-night;forwemustnotneglectthemeans,John——twoquartsofgruel,aspoonfulofginger,andagillofbeer——thepoorbeastneedsit,andIfearitslippedOutofmymindtotellthee;
andherewasIaskingablessingandneglectingthemeans,whichisamockery,’
saidhe,droppinghisvoice。
Beforewewenttobedhetoldmeheshouldseelittleornothingmoreofmeduringmyvisit,whichwastoendonSundayevening,ashealwaysgaveupbothSaturdayandSabbathtohisworkintheministry。IrememberedthatthelandlordattheinnhadtoldmethisonthedaywhenIfirstInquiredaboutthesenewrelationsofmine;andIdidnotdisliketheopportunitywhichIsawwouldbeaffordedmeofbecomingmoreacquaintedwithcousinHolmanandPhillis,thoughIearnestlyhopedthatthelatterwouldnotattackmeonthesubjectofthedeadlanguages。
Iwenttobed,anddreamedthatIwasastallascousinPhillis,andhadasuddenandmiraculousgrowthofwhisker,andastillmoremiraculousacquaintancewithLatinandGreek。Alas!Iwakenedupstillashort,beardlesslad,with’tempusfugit’formysoleremembranceofthelittleLatinIhadoncelearnt。WhileIwasdressing,abrightthoughtcameoverme:
IcouldquestioncousinPhillis,insteadofherquestioningme,andsomanagetokeepthechoiceofthesubjectsofconversationinmyownpower。
Earlyasitwas,everyonehadbreakfasted,andmybasinofbreadandmilkwasputontheoven-toptoawaitmycomingdown。Everyonewasgoneabouttheirwork。Thefirsttocomeintothehouse-placewasPhilliswithabasketofeggs。Faithfultomyresolution,Iasked,——
’Whatarethose?’
Shelookedatmeforamoment,andthensaidgravely,——
’Potatoes!’
’No!theyarenot,’saidI。’Theyareeggs。Whatdoyoumeanbysayingtheyarepotatoes?’
’Whatdoyoumeanbyaskingmewhattheywere,whentheywereplaintobeseen?’retortedshe。
Wewerebothgettingalittleangrywitheachother。
’Idon’tknow。Iwantedtobegintotalktoyou;andIwasafraidyouwouldtalktomeaboutbooksasyoudidyesterday。Ihavenotreadmuch;
andyouandtheministerhavereadsomuch。’
’Ihavenot,’saidshe。’Butyouareourguest;andmothersaysImustmakeitpleasanttoyou。Wewon’ttalkofbooks。Whatmustwetalkabout?’
’Idon’tknow。Howoldareyou?’
’SeventeenlastMay。Howoldareyou?’
’Iamnineteen。Olderthanyoubynearlytwoyears,’saidI,drawingmyselfuptomyfullheight。
’Ishouldnothavethoughtyouwereabovesixteen,’shereplied,asquietlyasifshewerenotsayingthemostprovokingthingshepossiblycould。Thencameapause。
’Whatareyougoingtodonow?’askedI。
’Ishouldbedustingthebed-chambers;butmothersaidIhadbetterstayandmakeitpleasanttoyou,’saidshe,alittleplaintively,asifdustingroomswasfartheeasiesttask。
’Willyoutakemetoseethelive-stock?Ilikeanimals,thoughIdon’tknowmuchaboutthem。’
’Oh,doyou?Iamsoglad!Iwasafraidyouwouldnotlikeanimals,asyoudidnotlikebooks。’
Iwonderedwhyshesaidthis。Ithinkitwasbecauseshehadbeguntofancyallourtastesmustbedissimilar。Wewenttogetherallthroughthefarm-yard;wefedthepoultry,shekneelingdownwithherpinaforefullofcornandmeal,andtemptingthelittletimid,downychickensuponit,muchtotheanxietyofthefussyruffledhen,theirmother。Shecalledtothepigeons,whofluttereddownatthesoundofhervoice。SheandI
examinedthegreatsleekcart-horses;sympathizedinourdislikeofpigs;
fedthecalves;coaxedthesickcow,Daisy;andadmiredtheothersoutatpasture;andcamebacktiredandhungryanddirtyatdinner-time,havingquiteforgottenthatthereweresuchthingsasdeadlanguages,andconsequentlycapitalfriends。PARTIICousinHolmangavemetheweeklycountynewspapertoreadaloudtoher,whileshemendedstockingsoutofahighpiled-upbasket,Phillishelpinghermother。Ireadandread,unregardfulofthewordsIwasuttering,thinkingofallmannerofotherthings;ofthebrightcolourofPhillis’shair,astheafternoonsunfellonherbendinghead;ofthesilenceofthehouse,whichenabledmetohearthedoubletickoftheoldclockwhichstoodhalf-wayupthestairs;ofthevarietyofinarticulatenoiseswhichcousinHolmanmadewhileIread,toshowhersympathy,wonder,orhorroratthenewspaperintelligence。ThetranquilmonotonyofthathourmademefeelasifIhadlivedforever,andshouldliveforeverdroningoutparagraphsinthatwarmsunnyroom)withmytwoquiethearers,andthecurled-uppussycatsleepingonthehearth-rug,andtheclockonthehouse-stairsperpetuallyclickingoutthepassageofthemoments。By-and-byBettytheservantcametothedoorintothekitchen,andmadeasigntoPhillis,whoputherhalf-mendedstockingdown,andwentawaytothekitchenwithoutaword。LookingatcousinHolmanaminuteortwoafterwards,Isawthatshehaddroppedherchinuponherbreast,andhadfallenfastasleep。Iputthenewspaperdown,andwasnearlyfollowingherexample,whenawaftofairfromsomeunseensource,slightlyopenedthedoorofcommunicationwiththekitchen,thatPhillismusthaveleftunfastened;andIsawpartofherfigureasshesatebythedresser,peelingappleswithquickdexterityoffinger,butwithrepeatedturningsofherheadtowardssomebooklyingonthedresserbyher。Isoftlyrose,andassoftlywentintothekitchen,andlookedoverhershoulder;beforeshewasawareofmyneighbourhood,Ihadseenthatthebookwasinalanguageunknowntome,andtherunningtitlewasL’Inferno。JustasIwasmakingouttherelationshipofthiswordto’infernal’,shestartedandturnedround,and,asifcontinuingherthoughtasshespoke,shesighedout,——
’Oh!itissodifficult!Canyouhelpme?’puttingherfingerbelowaline。
’Me!I!Idon’tevenknowwhatlanguageitisin!’
’Don’tyouseeitisDante?’shereplied,almostpetulantly;shedidsowanthelp。
’Italian,then?’saidI,dubiously;forIwasnotquitesure。
’Yes。AndIdosowanttomakeitout。Fathercanhelpmealittle,forheknowsLatin;butthenhehassolittletime。’
’Youhavenotmuch,Ishouldthink,ifyouhaveoftentotryanddotwothingsatonce,asyouaredoingnow。
’Oh!that’snothing!Fatherboughtaheapofoldbookscheap。AndI
knewsomethingaboutDantebefore;andIhavealwayslikedVirgilsomuch。
Paringapplesisnothing,ifIcouldonlymakeoutthisoldItalian。I
wishyouknewit。’
’IwishIdid,’saidI,movedbyherimpetuosityoftone。’If,now,onlyMrHoldsworthwerehere;hecanspeakItalianlikeanything,Ibelieve。’
’WhoisMrHoldsworth?’saidPhillis,lookingup。
’Oh,he’sourheadengineer。He’saregularfirst-ratefellow!Hecandoanything;’myhero-worshipandmyprideinmychiefallcomingintoplay。Besides,ifIwasnotcleverandbook-learnedmyself,itwassomethingtobelongtosomeonewhowas。
’HowisitthathespeaksItalian?’askedPhillis。
’HehadtomakearailwaythroughPiedmont,whichisinItaly,Ibelieve;
andhehadtotalktoalltheworkmeninItalian;andIhaveheardhimsaythatfornearlytwoyearshehadonlyItalianbookstoreadinthequeeroutlandishplaceshewasin。’
’Oh,dear!’saidPhillis;’Iwish——’andthenshestopped。Iwasnotquitesurewhethertosaythenextthingthatcameintomymind;butI
saidit。
’CouldIaskhimanythingaboutyourbook,oryourdifficulties?’
Shewassilentforaminuteorso,andthenshemadereply,——
’No!Ithinknot。Thankyouverymuch,though。Icangenerallypuzzleathingoutintime。Andthen,perhaps,Irememberitbetterthanifsomeonehadhelpedme。I’llputitawaynow,andyoumustmoveoff,forI’vegottomakethepasteforthepies;wealwayshaveacolddinneronSabbaths。’
’ButImaystayandhelpyou,mayn’tI?’
’Oh,yes;notthatyoucanhelpatall,butIliketohaveyouwithme。’
Iwasbothflatteredandannoyedatthisstraightforwardavowal。Iwaspleasedthatshelikedme;butIwasyoungcoxcombenoughtohavewishedtoplaythelover,andIwasquitewiseenoughtoperceivethatifshehadanyideaofthekindinherheadshewouldneverhavespokenoutsofrankly。Icomfortedmyselfimmediately,however,byfindingoutthatthegrapesweresour。Agreattallgirlinapinafore,halfaheadtallerthanIwas,readingbooksthatIhadneverheardof,andtalkingaboutthemtoo,asoffarmoreinterestthananymerepersonalsubjects;thatwasthelastdayonwhichIeverthoughtofmydearcousinPhillisasthepossiblemistressofmyheartandlife。Butwewereallthegreaterfriendsforthisideabeingutterlyputawayandburiedoutofsight。
LateintheeveningtheministercamehomefromHornby。Hehadbeencallingonthedifferentmembersofhisflock;andunsatisfactoryworkithadprovedtohim,itseemedfromthefragmentsthatdroppedoutofhisthoughtsintohistalk。
’Idon’tseethemen;theyareallattheirbusiness,theirshops,ortheirwarehouses;theyoughttobethere。Ihavenofaulttofindwiththem;onlyifapastor’steachingorwordsofadmonitionaregoodforanything,theyareneededbythemenasmuchasbythewomen。’
’Cannotyougoandseethemintheirplacesofbusiness,andremindthemoftheirChristianprivilegesandduties,minister?’askedcousinHolman,whoevidentlythoughtthatherhusband’swordscouldneverbeoutofplace。