’No!’saidhe,shakinghishead。’Ijudgethembymyself。Iftherearecloudsinthesky,andIamgettinginthehayjustreadyforloading,andrainsuretocomeinthenight,IshouldlookilluponbrotherRobinsonifhecameintothefieldtospeakaboutseriousthings。’
’But,atanyrate,father,youdogoodtothewomen,andperhapstheyrepeatwhatyouhavesaidtothemtotheirhusbandsandchildren?’
’Itistobehopedtheydo,forIcannotreachthemendirectly;butthewomenareapttotarrybeforecomingtome,toputonribbonsandgauds;
asiftheycouldhearthemessageIbeartothembestintheirsmartclothes。
MrsDobsonto-day——Phillis,Iamthankfulthoudostnotcareforthevanitiesofdress!’
Phillisreddenedalittleasshesaid,inalowhumblevoice,——
’ButIdo,father,I’mafraid。IoftenwishIcouldwearpretty-colouredribbonsroundmythroatlikethesquire’sdaughters。’
’It’sbutnatural,minister!’saidhiswife;’I’mnotabovelikingasilkgownbetterthanacottononemyself!’
’Theloveofdressisatemptationandasnare,’saidhe,gravely。’Thetrueadornmentisameekandquietspirit。And,wife,’saidhe,asasuddenthoughtcrossedhismind,’inthatmatterI,too,havesinned。Iwantedtoaskyou,couldwenotsleepinthegreyroom,insteadofourown?’
’Sleepinthegreyroom?——changeourroomatthistimeo’day?’cousinHolmanasked,indismay。
’Yes,’saidhe。’Itwouldsavemefromadailytemptationtoanger。
Lookatmychin!’hecontinued;’Icutitthismorning——IcutitonWednesdaywhenIwasshaving;IdonotknowhowmanytimesIhavecutitoflate,andallfromimpatienceatseeingTimothyCooperathisworkintheyard。’
’He’sadownrightlazytyke!’saidcousinHolman。’He’snotworthhiswage。There’sbutlittlehecando,andwhathecando,hedoesbadly。’
’True,’saidtheminister。’Heisbut,sotospeak,ahalf-wit;andyethehasgotawifeandchildren。’
’Moreshameforhim!’
’Butthatispastchange。AndifIturnhimoff;nooneelsewilltakehimon。YetIcannothelpwatchinghimofamorningashegoessaunteringabouthisworkintheyard;andIwatch,andIwatch,tilltheoldAdamrisesstrongwithinmeathislazyways,andsomeday,Iamafraid,Ishallgodownandsendhimabouthisbusiness——letalonethewayinwhichhemakesmecutmyselfwhileIamshaving——andthenhiswifeandchildrenwillstarve。Iwishwecouldmovetothegreyroom。’
IdonotremembermuchmoreofmyfirstvisittotheHopeFarm。WewenttochapelinHeathbridge,slowlyanddecorouslywalkingalongthelanes,ruddyandtawnywiththecolouringofthecomingautumn。Theministerwalkedalittlebeforeus,hishandsbehindhisback,hisheadbentdown,thinkingaboutthediscoursetobedeliveredtohispeople,cousinHolmansaid;
andwespokelowandquietly,inordernottointerrupthisthoughts。ButIcouldnothelpnoticingtherespectfulgreetingswhichhereceivedfrombothrichandpooraswewentalong;greetingswhichheacknowledgedwithakindlywaveofhishand,butwithnowordsofreply。Aswedrewnearthetown,IcouldseesomeoftheyoungfellowswemetcastadmiringlooksonPhillis;andthatmademelooktoo。Shehadonawhitegown,andashortblacksilkcloak,accordingtothefashionoftheday。Astrawbonnetwithbrownribbonstrings;thatwasall。Butwhatherdresswantedincolour,hersweetbonnyfacehad。Thewalkmadehercheeksbloomliketherose;
theverywhitesofhereyeshadabluetingeinthem,andherdarkeyelashesbroughtoutthedepthoftheblueeyesthemselves。Heryellowhairwasputawayasstraightasitsnaturalcurlinesswouldallow。Ifshedidnotperceivetheadmirationsheexcited,IamsurecousinHolmandid;forshelookedasfierceandasproudaseverherquietfacecouldlook,guardinghertreasure,andyetgladtoperceivethatotherscouldseethatitwasatreasure。ThatafternoonIhadtoreturntoElthamtobereadyforthenextday’swork。Ifoundoutafterwardsthattheministerandhisfamilywereall’exercisedinspirit,’astowhethertheydidwellinaskingmetorepeatmyvisitsattheHopeFarm,seeingthatofnecessityImustreturntoElthamontheSabbath-day。However,theydidgoonaskingme,andI
wentonvisitingthem,whenevermyotherengagementspermittedme,MrHoldsworthbeinginthiscase,asinall,akindandindulgentfriend。Nordidmynewacquaintancesousthimfrommystrongregardandadmiration。Ihadroominmyheartforall,Iamhappytosay,andasfarasIcanremember,Ikeptpraisingeachtotheotherinamannerwhich,ifIhadbeenanolderman,livingmoreamongstpeopleoftheworld,Ishouldhavethoughtunwise,aswellasalittleridiculous。Itwasunwise,certainly,asitwasalmostsuretocausedisappointmentifevertheydidbecomeacquainted;andperhapsitwasridiculous,thoughIdonotthinkweanyofusthoughtitsoatthetime。TheministerusedtolistentomyaccountsofMrHoldsworth’smanyaccomplishmentsandvariousadventuresintravelwiththetruestinterest,andmostkindlygoodfaith;andMrHoldsworthinreturnlikedtohearaboutmyvisitstothefarm,anddescriptionofmycousin’slifethere——likedit,Imean,asmuchashelikedanythingthatwasmerelynarrative,withoutleadingtoaction。
SoIwenttothefarmcertainly,onanaverage,onceamonthduringthatautumn;thecourseoflifetherewassopeacefulandquiet,thatI
canonlyrememberonesmallevent,andthatwasonethatIthinkItookmorenoticeofthananyoneelse:Phillisleftoffwearingthepinaforesthathadalwaysbeensoobnoxioustome;Idonotknowwhytheywerebanished,butononeofmyvisitsIfoundthemreplacedbyprettylinenapronsinthemorning,andablacksilkoneintheafternoon。Andthebluecottongownbecameabrownstuffoneaswinterdrewon;thissoundslikesomebookIonceread,inwhichamigrationfromthebluebedtothebrownwasspokenofasagreatfamilyevent。
TowardsChristmasmydearfathercametoseeme,andtoconsultMrHoldsworthabouttheimprovementwhichhassincebeenknownas’Manning’sdrivingwheel’。MrHoldsworth,asIthinkIhavebeforesaid,hadaverygreatregardformyfather,whohadbeenemployedinthesamegreatmachine-shopinwhichMrHoldsworthhadservedhisapprenticeship;andheandmyfatherhadmanymutualjokesaboutoneofthesegentlemen-apprenticeswhousedtosetabouthissmith’sworkinwhitewash-leathergloves,forfearofspoilinghishands。MrHoldsworthoftenspoketomeaboutmyfatherashavingthesamekindofgeniusformechanicalinventionasthatofGeorgeStephenson,andmyfatherhadcomeovernowtoconsulthimaboutseveralimprovements,aswellasanofferofpartnership。Itwasagreatpleasuretometoseethemutualregardofthesetwomen。MrHoldsworth,young,handsome,keen,well-dressed,anobjectofadmirationtoalltheyouthofEltham;myfather,inhisdecentbutunfashionableSundayclothes,hisplain,sensiblefacefullofhardlines,themarksoftoilandthought,——hishands,blackenedbeyondthepowerofsoapandwaterbyyearsoflabourinthefoundry;speakingastrongNortherndialect,whileMrHoldsworthhadalongsoftdrawlinhisvoice,asmanyoftheSouthernershave,andwasreckonedinElthamtogivehimselfairs。
Althoughmostofmyfather’sleisuretimewasoccupiedwithconversationsaboutthebusinessIhavementioned,hefeltthatheoughtnottoleaveElthamwithoutgoingtopayhisrespectstotherelationswhohadbeensokindtohisson。SoheandIranuponanenginealongtheincompletelineasfarasHeathbridge,andwent,byinvitation,tospendadayatthefarm。
Itwasoddandyetpleasanttometoperceivehowthesetwomen,eachhavingleduptothispointsuchtotallydissimilarlives,seemedtocometogetherbyinstinct,afteronequietstraightlookintoeachother’sfaces。
Myfatherwasathin,wirymanoffivefootseven;theministerwasabroad-shouldered,fresh-colouredmanofsixfootone;theywereneitherofthemgreattalkersingeneral——perhapstheministerthemostso——buttheyspokemuchtoeachother。Myfatherwentintothefieldswiththeminister;IthinkIseehimnow,withhishandsbehindhisback,listeningintentlytoallexplanationsoftillage,andthedifferentprocessesoffarming;occasionallytakingupanimplement,asifunconsciously,andexaminingitwithacriticaleye,andnowandthenaskingaquestion,whichIcouldseewasconsideredaspertinentbyhiscompanion。Thenwereturnedtolookatthecattle,housedandbeddedinexpectationofthesnow-stormhangingblackonthewesternhorizon,andmyfatherlearnedthepointsofacowwithasmuchattentionasifhemeanttoturnfarmer。Hehadhislittlebookthatheusedformechanicalmemorandaandmeasurementsinhispocket,andhetookitouttowritedown’straightback’,smallmuzzle’,’deepbarrel’,andIknownotwhatelse,underthehead’cow’。Hewasverycriticalonaturnip-cuttingmachine,theclumsinessofwhichfirstincitedhimtotalk;andwhenwewentintothehousehesatethinkingandquietforabit,whilePhillisandhermothermadethelastpreparationsfortea,withalittleunheededapologyfromcousinHolman,becausewewerenotsittinginthebestparlour,whichshethoughtmightbechillyonsocoldanight。Iwantednothingbetterthantheblazing,cracklingfirethatsentaglowoverallthehouse-place,andwarmedthesnowyflagsunderourfeettilltheyseemedtohavemoreheatthanthecrimsonrugrightinfrontofthefire。Aftertea,asPhillisandIweretalkingtogetherveryhappily,IheardanirrepressibleexclamationfromcousinHolman,——
’Whateveristhemanabout!’
Andonlookinground,Isawmyfathertakingastraightburningstickoutofthefire,and,afterwaitingforaminute,andexaminingthecharredendtoseeifitwasfittedforhispurpose,hewenttothehard-wooddresser,scouredtothelastpitchofwhitenessandcleanliness,andbegandrawingwiththestick;thebestsubstituteforchalkorcharcoalwithinhisreach,forhispocket-bookpencilwasnotstrongorboldenoughforhispurpose。
Whenhehaddone,hebegantoexplainhisnewmodelofaturnip-cuttingmachinetotheminister,whohadbeenwatchinghiminsilenceallthetime。
CousinHolmanhad,inthemeantime,takenadusteroutofadrawer,and,underpretenceofbeingasmuchinterestedasherhusbandinthedrawing,wassecretlytryingonanoutsidemarkhoweasilyitwouldcomeoff,andwhetheritwouldleaveherdresseraswhiteasbefore。ThenPhilliswassentforthebookondynamicsaboutwhichIhadbeenconsultedduringmyfirstvisit,andmyfatherhadtoexplainmanydifficulties,whichhedidinlanguageasclearashismind,makingdrawingswithhisstickwherevertheywereneededasillustrations,theministersittingwithhismassiveheadrestingonhishands,hiselbowsonthetable,almostunconsciousofPhillis,leaningoverandlisteninggreedily,withherhandonhisshoulder,suckingininformationlikeherfather’sowndaughter。IwasrathersorryforcousinHolman;Ihadbeensoonceortwicebefore;fordowhatshewould,shewascompletelyunableeventounderstandthepleasureherhusbandanddaughtertookinintellectualpursuits,muchlesstocareintheleastherselfforthepursuitsthemselves,andwasthusunavoidablythrownoutofsomeoftheirinterests。Ihadonceortwicethoughtshewasalittlejealousofherownchild,asafittercompanionforherhusbandthanshewasherself;andIfanciedtheministerhimselfwasawareofthisfeeling,forIhadnoticedanoccasionalsuddenchangeofsubject,andatendernessofappealinhisvoiceashespoketoher,whichalwaysmadeherlookcontentedandpeacefulagain。IdonotthinkthatPhilliseverperceivedtheselittleshadows;inthefirstplace,shehadsuchcompletereverenceforherparentsthatshelistenedtothembothasiftheyhadbeenStPeterandStPaul;
andbesides,shewasalwaystoomuchengrossedwithanymatterinhandtothinkaboutotherpeople’smannersandlooks。
ThisnightIcouldsee,thoughshedidnot,howmuchshewaswinningonmyfather。Sheaskedafewquestionswhichshowedthatshehadfollowedhisexplanationsuptothatpoint;possibly,too,herunusualbeautymighthavesomethingtodowithhisfavourableimpressionofher;buthemadenoscrupleofexpressinghisadmirationofhertoherfatherandmotherinherabsencefromtheroom;andfromthateveningIdateaprojectofhiswhichcameouttomeadayortwoafterwards,aswesateinmylittlethree-corneredroominEltham。
’Paul,’hebegan,’Ineverthoughttobearichman;butIthinkit’scominguponme。Somefolkaremakingadealofmynewmachine(callingitbyitstechnicalname),andEllison,oftheBoroughGreenWorks,hasgonesofarastoaskmetobehispartner。’
’MrEllisontheJustice!——wholivesinKingStreet?why,hedriveshiscarriage!’saidI,doubting,yetexultant。
’Aye,lad,JohnEllison。Butthat’snosignthatIshalldrivemycarriage。
ThoughIshouldliketosavethymotherwalking,forshe’snotsoyoungasshewas。Butthat’salongwayoff;anyhow。IreckonIshouldstartwithathirdprofit。Itmightbesevenhundred,oritmightbemore。I
shouldliketohavethepowertoworkoutsomefancieso’mine。Icareforthatmuchmorethanforth’brass。AndEllisonhasnolads;andbynaturethebusinesswouldcometotheeincourseo’time。Ellison’slassesarebutbitso’things,andarenotliketocomebyhusbandsjustyet;
andwhentheydo,maybethey’llnotbeinthemechanicalline。Itwillbeanopeningforthee,lad,ifthouartsteady。Thou’rtnotgreatshakes,Iknow,inth’inventingline;butmanyaonegetsonbetterwithouthavingfanciesforsomethinghedoesnotseeandneverhasseen。I’mrightdowngladtoseethatmother’scousinsaresuchuncommonfolkforsenseandgoodness。Ihavetakentheministertomyheartlikeabrother;andsheisawomanlyquietsortofabody。AndI’lltellyoufrank,Paul,itwillbeahappydayformeifeveryoucancomeandtellmethatPhillisHolmanisliketobemydaughter。Ithinkifthatlasshadnotapenny,shewouldbethemakingofaman;andshe’llhaveyonhouseandlands,andyoumaybehermatchyetinfortuneifallgoeswell。’
Iwasgrowingasredasfire;Ididnotknowwhattosay,andyetI
wantedtosaysomething;buttheideaofhavingawifeofmyownatsomefutureday,thoughithadoftenfloatedaboutinmyownhead,soundedsostrangewhenitwasthusfirstspokenaboutbymyfather。Hesawmyconfusion,andhalfsmilingsaid,——
’Well,lad,whatdostsaytotheoldfather’splans?Thouartbutyoung,tobesure;butwhenIwasthyage,Iwouldha’givenmyrighthandifImightha’thoughtofthechanceofweddingthelassIcaredfor——’
’Mymother?’askedI,alittlestruckbythechangeofhistoneofvoice。
’No!notthymother。Thymotherisaverygoodwoman——nonebetter。No!
thelassIcaredforatnineteenne’erknewhowIlovedher,andayearortwoafterandshewasdead,andne’erknew。Ithinkshewouldha’beengladtoha’knownit,poorMolly;butIhadtoleavetheplacewherewelivedfortotrytoearnmybreadandImeanttocomebackbutbeforeeverIdid,shewasdeadandgone:Iha’nevergonetheresince。ButifyoufancyPhillisHolman,andcangethertofancyyou,mylad,itshallgodifferentwithyou,Paul,towhatitdidwithyourfather。’
Itookcounselwithmyselfveryrapidly,andIcametoaclearconclusion。
’Father,’saidI,’ifIfanciedPhilliseversomuch,shewouldneverfancyme。IlikeherasmuchasIcouldlikeasister;andshelikesmeasifIwereherbrother——heryoungerbrother。’
Icouldseemyfather’scountenancefallalittle。
’Youseeshe’ssoclevershe’smorelikeamanthanawoman——sheknowsLatinandGreek。’
’She’dforget’em,ifshe’dahousefulofchildren,’wasmyfather’scommentonthis。
’Butsheknowsmanyathingbesides,andiswiseaswellaslearned;
shehasbeensomuchwithherfather。Shewouldneverthinkmuchofme,andIshouldlikemywifetothinkadealofherhusband。’
’Itisnotjustbook-learningorthewantofitasmakesawifethinkmuchorlittleofherhusband,’repliedmyfather,evidentlyunwillingtogiveupaprojectwhichhadtakendeeprootinhismind。’It’sasomethingIdon’trightlyknowhowtocallit——ifhe’smanly,andsensible,andstraightforward;
andIreckonyou’rethat,myboy。’
’Idon’tthinkIshouldliketohaveawifetallerthanIam,father,’
saidI,smiling;hesmiledtoo,butnotheartily。
’Well,’saidhe,afterapause。’It’sbutafewdaysI’vebeenthinkingofit,butI’dgotasfondofmynotionasifithadbeenanewengineasI’dbeenplanningout。Here’sourPaul,thinksItomyself,agoodsensiblebreedo’lad,ashasnevervexedortroubledhismotherorme;withagoodbusinessopeningoutbeforehim,agenineteen,notsobad-looking,thoughperhapsnottocallhandsome,andhere’shiscousin,nottoonearcousin,butjustnice,asonemaysay;agedseventeen,goodandtrue,andwellbroughtuptoworkwithherhandsaswellasherhead;ascholar——butthatcan’tbehelped,andismorehermisfortunethanherfault,seeingsheistheonlychildofscholar——andasIsaidafore,onceshe’sawifeandashe’llforgetitall,I’llbebound——withagoodfortuneinlandandhousewhenitshallpleasetheLordtotakeherparentstohimself;witheyeslikepoorMolly’sforbeauty,acolourthatcomesandgoesonamilk-whiteskin,andasprettyamouth——,’Why,MrManning,whatfairladyareyoudescribing?’askedMrHoldsworth,whohadcomequicklyandsuddenlyuponourtête-à-tête,andhadcaughtmyfather’slastwordsasheenteredtheroom。BothmyfatherandIfeltratherabashed;itwassuchanoddsubjectforustobetalkingabout;butmyfather,likeastraightforwardsimplemanashewas,spokeoutthetruth。
’I’vebeentellingPaulofEllison’soffer,andsayinghowgoodanopeningitmadeforhim——’
’IwishI’dasgood,’saidMrHoldsworth。’Buthasthebusinessa"prettymouth"?
’You’realwayssofullofyourjoking,MrHoldsworth,’saidmyfather。
’IwasgoingtosaythatifheandhiscousinPhillisHolmanlikedtomakeitupbetweenthem,Iwouldputnospokeinthewheel。’
’PhillisHolman!’saidMrHoldsworth。’Isshethedaughteroftheminister-farmeroutatHeathbridge?HaveIbeenhelpingonthecourseoftruelovebylettingyougotheresooften?Iknewnothingofit。’
’Thereisnothingtoknow,’saidI,moreannoyedthanIchosetoshow。
’Thereisnomoretrueloveinthecasethanmaybebetweenthefirstbrotherandsisteryoumaychoosetomeet。Ihavebeentellingfathershewouldneverthinkofme;she’sagreatdealtallerandcleverer;andI’dratherbetallerandmorelearnedthanmywifewhenIhaveone。’
’Anditisshe,then,thathastheprettymouthyourfatherspokeabout?
Ishouldthinkthatwouldbeanantidotetotheclevernessandlearning。
ButIoughttoapologizeforbreakinginuponyourlastnight;Icameuponbusinesstoyourfather。’
Andthenheandmyfatherbegantotalkaboutmanythingsthathadnointerestformejustthen,andIbegantogooveragainmyconversationwithmyfather。ThemoreIthoughtaboutit,themoreIfeltthatIhadspokentrulyaboutmyfeelingstowardsPhillisHolman。Ilovedherdearlyasasister,butIcouldneverfancyherasmywife。StilllesscouldI
thinkofherever——yes,condescending,thatistheword——condescendingtomarryme。IwasrousedfromareverieonwhatIshouldlikemypossiblewifetobe,byhearingmyfather’swarmpraiseoftheminister,asamostunusualcharacter;howtheyhadgotbackfromthediameterofdriving-wheelstothesubjectoftheHolmansIcouldnevertell;butIsawthatmyfather’sweightypraiseswereexcitingsomecuriosityinMrHoldsworth’smind;indeed,hesaid,almostinavoiceofreproach,——
’Why,Paul,younevertoldmewhatkindofafellowthisminister-cousinofyourswas!’
’Idon’tknowthatIfoundout,sir,’saidI。’ButifIhad,Idon’tthinkyou’dhavelistenedtome,asyouhavedonetomyfather。’
’No!mostlikelynot,oldfellow,’repliedMrHoldsworth,laughing。
AndagainandafreshIsawwhatahandsomepleasantclearfacehiswas;
andthoughthiseveningIhadbeenabitputoutwithhim——throughhissuddencoming,andhishavingheardmyfather’sopen-heartedconfidence——myheroresumedallhisempireovermebyhisbrightmerrylaugh。
Andifhehadnotresumedhisoldplacethatnight,hewouldhavedonesothenextday,when,aftermyfather’sdeparture,MrHoldsworthspokeabouthimwithsuchjustrespectforhischaracter,suchungrudgingadmirationofhisgreatmechanicalgenius,thatIwascompelledtosay,almostunawares,——
’Thankyou,sir。Iamverymuchobligedtoyou。’
’Oh,you’renotatall。Iamonlyspeakingthetruth。Here’saBirminghamworkman,self-educated,onemaysay——havingneverassociatedwithstimulatingminds,orhadwhatadvantagestravelandcontactwiththeworldmaybesupposedtoafford——workingouthisownthoughtsintosteelandiron,makingascientificnameforhimself——afortune,ifitpleaseshimtoworkformoney——andkeepinghissinglenessofheart,hisperfectsimplicityofmanner;
itputsmeoutofpatiencetothinkofmyexpensiveschooling,mytravelshitherandthither,myheapsofscientificbooks,andIhavedonenothingtospeakof。Butit’sevidentlygoodblood;there’sthatMrHolman,thatcousinofyours,madeofthesamestuff’
’Buthe’sonlycousinbecausehemarriedmymother’ssecondcousin,’
saidI。
’Thatknocksaprettytheoryonthehead,andtwiceover,too。IshouldliketomakeHolman’sacquaintance。’
’IamsuretheywouldbesogladtoseeyouatHopeFarm,’saidI,eagerly。
’Infact,they’veaskedmetobringyouseveraltimes:onlyIthoughtyouwouldfinditdull。’
’Notatall。Ican’tgoyetthough,evenifyoudogetmeaninvitation;
forthe————Companywantmetogotothe————Valley,andlookoverthegroundabitforthem,toseeifitwoulddoforabranchline;it’sajobwhichmaytakemeawayforsometime;butIshallbebackwardsandforwards,andyou’requiteuptodoingwhatisneededinmyabsence;theonlyworkthatmaybebeyondyouiskeepingoldJevonsfromdrinking。’
Hewentongivingmedirectionsaboutthemanagementofthemenemployedontheline,andnomorewassaidthen,orforseveralmonths,abouthisgoingtoRopeFarm。Hewentoffinto————Valley,adarkovershadoweddale,wherethesunseemedtosetbehindthehillsbeforefouro’clockonmidsummerafternoon。
Perhapsitwasthisthatbroughtontheattackoflowfeverwhichhehadsoonafterthebeginningofthenewyear;hewasveryillformanyweeks,almostmanymonths;amarriedsister——hisonlyrelation,Ithink——camedownfromLondontonursehim,andIwentovertohimwhenIcould,toseehim,andgivehim’masculinenews,’ashecalledit;reportsoftheprogressoftheline,which,Iamgladtosay,Iwasabletocarryoninhisabsence,intheslowgradualwaywhichsuitedthecompanybest,whiletradewasinalanguidstate,andmoneydearinthemarket。Ofcourse,withthisoccupationformyscantyleisure,IdidnotoftengoovertoHopeFarm。WheneverIdidgo,Imetwithathoroughwelcome;andmanyinquiriesweremadeastoHoldsworth’sillness,andtheprogressofhisrecovery。
Atlength,inJuneIthinkitwas,hewassufficientlyrecoveredtocomebacktohislodgingsatEltham,andresumepartatleastofhiswork。
Hissister,MrsRobinson,hadbeenobligedtoleavehimsomeweeksbefore,owingtosomeepidemicamongstherownchildren。AslongasIhadseenMrHoldsworthintheroomsatthelittleinnatHensleydale,whereIhadbeenaccustomedtolookuponhimasaninvalid,Ihadnotbeenawareofthevisibleshakehisfeverhadgiventohishealth。But,oncebackintheoldlodgings,whereIhadalwaysseenhimsobuoyant,eloquent,decided,andvigorousinformerdays,myspiritssankatthechangeinonewhomIhadalwaysregardedwithastrongfeelingofadmiringaffection。Hesankintosilenceanddespondencyaftertheleastexertion;heseemedasifhecouldnotmakeuphismindtoanyaction,orelsethat,whenitwasmadeup,helackedstrengthtocarryouthispurpose。Ofcourse,itwasbutthenaturalstateofslowconvalescence,aftersosharpanillness;
but,atthetime,Ididnotknowthis,andperhapsIrepresentedhisstateasmoreseriousthanitwastomykindrelationsatHopeFarm;who,intheirgrave,simple,eagerway,immediatelythoughtoftheonlyhelptheycouldgive。
’Bringhimouthere,’saidtheminister。’Ourairhereisgoodtoaproverb;theJunedaysarefine;hemayloiterawayhistimeinthehay-field,andthesweetsmellswillbeabalminthemselves——betterthanphysic。’
’And,’saidcousinHolman,scarcelywaitingforherhusbandtofinishhissentence,’tellhimthereisnewmilkandfresheggstobehadfortheasking;it’sluckyDaisyhasjustcalved,forhermilkisalwaysasgoodasothercows’cream;andthereistheplaidroomwiththemorningsunallstreamingin。’
Phillissaidnothing,butlookedasmuchinterestedintheprojectasanyone。Itookituponmyself。Iwantedthemtoseehim;himtoknowthem。
IproposedittohimwhenIgothome。Hewastoolanguidaftertheday’sfatigue,tobewillingtomakethelittleexertionofgoingamongststrangers;
anddisappointedmebyalmostdecliningtoaccepttheinvitationIbrought。
Thenextmorningitwasdifferent;heapologizedforhisungraciousnessofthenightbefore;andtoldmethathewouldgetallthingsintrain,soastobereadytogooutwithmetoHopeFarmonthefollowingSaturday。
’Foryoumustgowithme,Manning,’saidhe;’Iusedtobeasimpudentafellowasneedbe,andratherlikedgoingamongststrangers,andmakingmyway;butsincemyillnessIamalmostlikeagirl,andturnhotandcoldwithshyness,astheydo,Ifancy。’
Soitwasfixed。WeweretogoouttoHopeFarmonSaturdayafternoon;
anditwasalsounderstoodthatiftheairandthelifesuitedMrHoldsworth,hewastoremainthereforaweekortendays,doingwhatworkhecouldatthatendoftheline,whileItookhisplaceatElthamtothebestofmyability。Igrewalittlenervous,asthetimedrewnear,andwonderedhowthebrilliantHoldsworthwouldagreewiththequietquaintfamilyoftheminister;howtheywouldlikehim,andmanyofhishalf-foreignways。
Itriedtopreparehim,bytellinghimfromtimetotimelittlethingsaboutthegoings-onatHopeFarm。
’Manning,’saidhe,’Iseeyoudon’tthinkIamhalfgoodenoughforyourfriends。Outwithit,man。’
’No,’Ireplied,boldly。’Ithinkyouaregood;butIdon’tknowifyouarequiteoftheirkindofgoodness。’
’Andyou’vefoundoutalreadythatthereisgreaterchanceofdisagreementbetweentwo"kindsofgoodness",eachhavingitsownideaofright,thanbetweenagivengoodnessandamoderatedegreeofnaughtiness——whichlastoftenarisesfromanindifferencetoright?’
’Idon’tknow。Ithinkyou’retalkingmetaphysics,andIamsurethatisbadforyou。’
’"Whenamantalkstoyouinawaythatyoudon’tunderstandaboutathingwhichhedoesnotunderstand,them’smetaphysics。"Youremembertheclown’sdefinition,don’tyou,Manning?’
’No,Idon’t,’saidI。’ButwhatIdounderstandis,thatyoumustgotobed;andtellmeatwhattimewemuststarttomorrow,thatImaygotoHepworth,andgetthoseletterswrittenweweretalkingaboutthismorning。’
’Waittillto-morrow,andletusseewhatthedayislike,’heanswered,withsuchlanguidindecisionasshowedmehewasover-fatigued。SoIwentmyway。
Themorrowwasblueandsunny,andbeautiful;theveryperfectionofanearlysummer’sday。MrHoldsworthwasallImpatiencetobeoffintothecountry;morninghadbroughtbackhisfreshnessandstrength,andconsequenteagernesstobedoing。Iwasafraidweweregoingtomycousin’sfarmrathertooearly,beforetheywouldexpectus;butwhatcouldIdowithsucharestlessvehementmanasHoldsworthwasthatmorning?WecamedownupontheHopeFarmbeforethedewwasoffthegrassontheshadysideofthelane;thegreathouse-dogwasloose,baskinginthesun,neartheclosedsidedoor。Iwassurprisedatthisdoorbeingshut,forallsummerlongitwasopenfrommorningtonight;butitwasonlyonlatch。Iopenedit,Roverwatchingmewithhalf-suspicious,half-trustfuleyes。Theroomwasempty。
’Idon’tknowwheretheycanbe,’saidI。’ButcomeinandsitdownwhileIgoandlookforthem。Youmustbetired。’
’NotI。Thissweetbalmyairislikeathousandtonics。Besides,thisroomishot,andsmellsofthosepungentwood-ashes。Whatarewetodo?’
’Goroundtothekitchen。Bettywilltelluswheretheyare。’
Sowewentroundintothefarmyard,Roveraccompanyingusoutofagravesenseofduty。Bettywaswashingouthermilk-pansinthecoldbubblingspring-waterthatconstantlytrickledinandoutofastonetrough。Insuchweatherasthismostofherkitchen-workwasdoneoutofdoors。
’Eh,dear!’saidshe,’theministerandmissusisawayatHornby!Theyne’erthoughtofyourcomingsobetimes!Themissushadsomeerrandstodo,andshethoughtasshe’dwalkwiththeministerandbebackbydinner-time。’
’Didnottheyexpectustodinner?’saidI。
’Well,theydid,andtheydidnot,asImaysay。Missussaidtomethecoldlambwoulddowellenoughifyoudidnotcome;andifyoudidIwastoputonachickenandsomebacontoboil;andI’llgodoitnow,foritishardtoboilbaconenough。’
’AndisPhillisgone,too?’MrHoldsworthwasmakingfriendswithRover。
’No!She’sjustsomewhereabout。Ireckonyou’llfindherinthekitchen-garden,gettingpeas。
’Letusgothere,’saidHolsworth,suddenlyleavingoffhisplaywiththedog。
SoIledthewayintothekitchen-garden。Itwasinthefirstpromiseofasummerprofuseinvegetablesandfruits。Perhapsitwasnotsomuchcaredforasotherpartsoftheproperty;butitwasmoreattendedtothanmostkitchen-gardensbelongingtofarm-houses。Therewerebordersofflowersalongeachsideofthegravelwalks;andtherewasanoldshelteringwailonthenorthsidecoveredwithtolerablychoicefruit-trees;therewasaslopedowntothefish-pondattheend,wherethereweregreatstrawberry-beds;
andraspberry-bushesandrose-bushesgrewwherevertherewasaspace;itseemedachancewhichhadbeenplanted。Longrowsofpeasstretchedatrightanglesfromthemainwalk,andIsawPhillisstoopingdownamongthem,beforeshesawus。Assoonassheheardourcranchingstepsonthegravel,shestoodup,andshadinghereyesfromthesun,recognizedus。
Shewasquitestillforamoment,andthencameslowlytowardsus,blushingalittlefromevidentshyness。IhadneverseenPhillisshybefore。
’ThisisMrHoldsworth,Phillis,’saidI,assoonasIhadshakenhandswithher。Sheglancedupathim,andthenlookeddown,moreflushedthaneverathisgrandformalityoftakinghishatoffandbowing;suchmannershadneverbeenseenatHopeFarmbefore。
’Fatherandmotherareout。Theywillbesosorry;youdidnotwrite,Paul,asyousaidyouwould。’
’Itwasmyfault,’saidHoldsworth,understandingwhatshemeantaswellasifshehadputitmorefullyintowords。’Ihavenotyetgivenupalltheprivilegesofaninvalid;oneofwhichisindecision。Lastnight,whenyourcousinaskedmeatwhattimeweweretostart,Ireallycouldnotmakeupmymind。’
Phillisseemedasifshecouldnotmakeuphermindastowhattodowithus。Itriedtohelpher,——
’Haveyoufinishedgettingpeas?’takingholdofthehalf-filledbasketshewasunconsciouslyholdinginherhand;’ormaywestayandhelpyou?’
’Ifyouwould。Butperhapsitwilltireyou,sir?’addedshe,speakingnowtoHoldsworth。
’Notabit,’saidhe。’Itwillcarrymebacktwentyyearsinmylife,whenIusedtogatherpeasinmygrandfather’sgarden。IsupposeImayeatafewasIgoalong?’
’Certainly,sir。Butifyouwenttothestrawberry-bedsyouwouldfindsomestrawberriesripe,andPaulcanshowyouwheretheyare。’
’Iamafraidyoudistrustme。IcanassureyouIknowtheexactfulnessatwhichpeasshouldbegathered。Itakegreatcarenottopluckthemwhentheyareunripe。Iwillnotbeturnedoff,asunfitformywork。’
Thiswasastyleofhalf-jokingtalkthatPhilliswasnotaccustomedto。Shelookedforamomentasifshewouldhavelikedtodefendherselffromtheplayfulchargeofdistrustmadeagainsther,butsheendedbynotsayingaword。Weallpluckedourpeasinbusysilenceforthenextfiveminutes。ThenHoldsworthliftedhimselfupfrombetweentherows,andsaid,alittlewearily,’IamafraidImuststrikework。IamnotasstrongasIfanciedmyself。’
Philliswasfullofpenitenceimmediately。Hedid,indeed,lookpale;
andsheblamedherselfforhavingallowedhimtohelpher。
’Itwasverythoughtlessofme。Ididnotknow——Ithought,perhaps,youreallylikedit。Ioughttohaveofferedyousomethingtoeat,sir!
Oh,Paul,wehavegatheredquiteenough;howstupidIwastoforgetthatMrHoldsworthhadbeenill!’Andinablushinghurrysheledthewaytowardsthehouse。Wewentin,andshemovedaheavycushionedchairforwards,intowhichHoldsworthwasonlytoogladtosink。Thenwithdeftandquietspeedshebroughtinalittletray,wine,water,cake,home-madebread,andnewly-churnedbutter。Shestoodbyinsomeanxietytill,afterbiteandsup,thecolourreturnedtoMrHoldsworth’sface,andhewouldfainhavemadeussomelaughingapologiesforthefrighthehadgivenus。ButthenPhillisdrewbackfromherinnocentshowofcareandinterest,andrelapsedintothecoldshynesshabitualtoherwhenshewasfirstthrownintothecompanyofstrangers。Shebroughtoutthelastweek’scountypaper(whichMrHoldsworthhadreadfivedaysago),andthenquietlywithdrew;
andthenhesubsidedintolanguor,leaningbackandshuttinghiseyesasifhewouldgotosleep。IstoleintothekitchenafterPhillis;butshehadmadetheroundofthecornerofthehouseoutside,andIfoundhersittingonthehorse-mount,withherbasketofpeas,andabasinintowhichshewasshellingthem。Roverlayatherfeet,snappingnowandthenattheflies。Iwenttoher,andtriedtohelpher,butsomehowthesweetcrispyoungpeasfoundtheirwaymorefrequentlyintomymouththanintothebasket,whilewetalkedtogetherinalowtone,fearfulofbeingoverheardthroughtheopencasementsofthehouse-placeinwhichHoldsworthwasresting。
’Don’tyouthinkhimhandsome?’askedI。
’Perhaps——yes——Ihavehardlylookedathim,’shereplied’Butisnotheverylikeaforeigner?’
’Yes,hecutshishairforeignfashion,’saidI。
’IlikeanEnglishmantolooklikeanEnglishman。’
’Idon’tthinkhethinksaboutit。HesayshebeganthatwaywhenhewasinItaly,becauseeverybodyworeitso,anditisnaturaltokeepitoninEngland。’
’NotifhebeganitinItalybecauseeverybodythereworeitso。Everybodyherewearsitdifferently。’
IwasalittleoffendedwithPhillis’slogicalfault-findingwithmyfriend;andIdeterminedtochangethesubject。
’Whenisyourmothercominghome?’
’Ishouldthinkshemightcomeanytimenow;butshehadtogoandseeMrsMorton,whowasill,andshemightbekept,andnotbehometilldinner。
Don’tyouthinkyououghttogoandseehowMrHoldsworthisgoingon,Paul?Hemaybefaintagain。’
Iwentatherbidding;buttherewasnoneedforit。MrHoldsworthwasup,standingbythewindow,hishandsinhispockets;hehadevidentlybeenwatchingus。HeturnedawayasIentered。
’SothatisthegirlIfoundyourgoodfatherplanningforyourwife,Paul,thateveningwhenIinterruptedyou!Areyouofthesamecoymindstill?Itdidnotlooklikeitaminuteago。’
’PhillisandIunderstandeachother,’Ireplied,sturdily。’Wearelikebrotherandsister。Shewouldnothavemeasahusbandiftherewasnotanothermanintheworld;anditwouldtakeadealtomakemethinkofher——asmyfatherwishes’(somehowIdidnotliketosay’asawife’),’butweloveeachotherdearly。’
’Well,Iamrathersurprisedatit——notatyourlovingeachotherinabrother-and-sisterkindofway——butatyourfindingitsoimpossibletofallinlovewithsuchabeautifulwoman。’
Woman!beautifulwoman!IhadthoughtofPhillisasacomelybutawkwardgirl;andIcouldnotbanishthepinaforefrommymind’seyewhenItriedtopicturehertomyself。NowIturned,asMrHoldsworthhaddone,tolookatheragainoutofthewindow:shehadjustfinishedhertask,andwasstandingup,herbacktous,holdingthebasket,andthebasininit,highinair,outofRover’sreach,whowasgivingventtohisdelightattheprobabilityofachangeofplacebygladleapsandbarks,andsnatchesatwhatheimaginedtobeawithheldprize。Atlengthshegrewtiredoftheirmutualplay,andwithafeintofstrikinghim,anda’Down,Rover!
dohush!’shelookedtowardsthewindowwherewewerestanding,asiftoreassureherselfthatnoonehadbeendisturbedbythenoise,andseeingus,shecolouredallover,andhurriedaway,withRoverstillcurvinginsinuouslinesaboutherasshewalked。
’Ishouldliketohavesketchedher,’saidMrHoldsworth,asheturnedaway。Hewentbacktohischair,andrestedinsilenceforaminuteortwo。Thenhewasupagain。
’Iwouldgiveagooddealforabook,’hesaid。’Itwouldkeepmequiet。’
Hebegantolookround;therewereafewvolumesatoneendoftheshovel-board。
’FifthvolumeofMatthewHenry’sCommentary,’saidhe,readingtheirtitlesaloud。’Housewife’scompleteManual;BerridgeonPrayer;L’Inferno——Dante!’ingreatsurprise。’Why,whoreadsthis?’
’ItoldyouPhillisreadit。Don’tyouremember?SheknowsLatinandGreek,too。’
’Tobesure!Iremember!ButsomehowIneverputtwoandtwotogether。
Thatquietgirl,fullofhouseholdwork,isthewonderfulscholar,then,thatputyoutoroutwithherquestionswhenyoufirstbegantocomehere。
Tobesure,"CousinPhillis!"What’shere:apaperwiththehard,obsoletewordswrittenout。Iwonderwhatsortofadictionaryshehasgot。Barettiwon’ttellherallthesewords。Stay!Ihavegotapencilhere。I’llwritedownthemostacceptedmeanings,andsaveheralittletrouble。’
Sohetookherbookandthepaperbacktothelittleroundtable,andemployedhimselfinwritingexplanationsanddefinitionsofthewordswhichhadtroubledher。Iwasnotsureifhewasnottakingaliberty:itdidnotquitepleaseme,andyetIdidnotknowwhy。Hehadonlyjustdone,andreplacedthepaperinthebook,andputthelatterbackinitsplace,whenIheardthesoundofwheelsstoppinginthelane,andlookingout,IsawcousinHolmangettingoutofaneighbour’sgig,makingherlittlecurtseyofacknowledgment,andthencomingtowardsthehouse。Iwenttomeether。
’Oh,Paul!’saidshe,’IamsosorryIwaskept;andthenThomasDobsonsaidifIwouldwaitaquarterofanhourhewould——Butwhere’syourfriendMrHoldsworth?Ihopeheiscome?’
Justthenhecameout,andwithhispleasantcordialmannertookherhand,andthankedherforaskinghimtocomeoutheretogetstrong。
’I’msureIamverygladtoseeyou,sir。Itwastheminister’sthought。
Itookitintomyheadyouwouldbedullinourquiethouse,forPaulsaysyou’vebeensuchagreattraveller;buttheministersaidthatdulnesswouldperhapssuityouwhileyouwerebutailing,andthatIwastoaskPaultobehereasmuchashecould。Ihopeyou’llfindyourselfhappywithus,I’msure,sir。HasPhillisgivenyousomethingtoeatanddrink,Iwonder?there’sadealineatingalittleoften,ifonehastogetstrongafteranillness。’Andthenshebegantoquestionhimastothedetailsofhisindispositioninhersimple,motherlyway。Heseemedatoncetounderstandher,andtoenterintofriendlyrelationswithher。Itwasnotquitethesameintheeveningwhentheministercamehome。Menhavealwaysalittlenaturalantipathytogetoverwhentheyfirstmeetasstrangers。
Butinthiscaseeachwasdisposedtomakeanefforttoliketheother;
onlyeachwastoeachaspecimenofanunknownclass。IhadtoleavetheHopeFarmonSundayafternoon,asIhadMrHoldsworth’sworkaswellasmyowntolooktoinEltham;andIwasnotatallsurehowthingswouldgoonduringtheweekthatHoldsworthwastoremainonhisvisit;Ihadbeenonceortwiceinhotwateralreadyatthenearclashofopinionsbetweentheministerandmymuch-vauntedfriend。OntheWednesdayIreceivedashortnotefromHoldsworth;hewasgoingtostayon,andreturnwithmeonthefollowingSunday,andhewantedmetosendhimacertainlistofbooks,histheodolite,andothersurveyinginstruments,allofwhichcouldeasilybeconveyeddownthelinetoHeathbridge。Iwenttohislodgingsandpickedoutthebooks。Italian,Latin,trigonometry;aprettyconsiderableparceltheymade,besidestheimplements。IbegantobecuriousastothegeneralprogressofaffairsatHopeFarm,butIcouldnotgoovertilltheSaturday。AtHeathbridgeIfoundHoldsworth,cometomeetme。HewaslookingquiteadifferentmantowhatIhadlefthim;embrowned,sparklesinhiseyes,solanguidbefore。Itoldhimhowmuchstrongerhelooked。
’Yes!’saidhe。’Iamfidgingfaintobeatworkagain。LastweekI
dreadedthethoughtsofmyemployment:nowIamfullofdesiretobegin。
Thisweekinthecountryhasdonewondersforme。’
’Youhaveenjoyedyourself,then?’
’Oh!ithasbeenperfectinitsway。Suchathoroughcountrylife!andyetremovedfromthedulnesswhichIalwaysusedtofancyaccompaniedcountrylife,bytheextraordinaryintelligenceoftheminister。Ihavefallenintocallinghim"theminister’’,likeeveryoneelse。’
’Yougetonwithhim,then?’saidI。’Iwasalittleafraid。’
’Iwasonthevergeofdispleasinghimonceortwice,Ifear,withrandomassertionsandexaggeratedexpressions,suchasonealwaysuseswithotherpeople,andthinksnothingof;butItriedtocheckmyselfwhenIsawhowitshockedthegoodman;andreallyitisverywholesomeexercise,thistryingtomakeone’swordsrepresentone’sthoughts,insteadofmerelylookingtotheireffectonothers。’
’Thenyouarequitefriendsnow?’Iasked。
’Yes,thoroughly;atanyrateasfarasIgo。Inevermetwithamanwithsuchadesireforknowledge。Ininformation,asfarasitcanbegainedfrombooks,hefarexceedsmeonmostsubjects;butthenIhavetravelledandseen——WerenotyousurprisedatthelistofthingsIsentfor?’
’Yes;Ithoughtitdidnotpromisemuchrest。’
’Oh!someofthebookswerefortheminister,andsomeforhisdaughter。
(IcallherPhillistomyself,butIuseXXinspeakingabouthertoothers。
Idon’tliketoseemfamiliar,andyetMissHolmanisatermIhaveneverheardused。)’
’IthoughttheItalianbookswereforher。’
’Yes!FancyhertryingatDanteforherfirstbookinItalian!IhadacapitalnovelbyManzoni,IPromessiSposi,justthethingforabeginner;andifshemuststillpuzzleoutDante,mydictionaryisfarbetterthanhers。’
’Thenshefoundoutyouhadwrittenthosedefinitionsonherlistofwords?’
’Oh!yes’——withasmileofamusementandpleasure。Hewasgoingtotellmewhathadtakenplace,butcheckedhimself。
’ButIdon’tthinktheministerwilllikeyourhavinggivenheranoveltoread?’
’Pooh!Whatcanbemoreharmless?Whymakeabugbearofaword?Itisasprettyandinnocentataleascanbemetwith。Youdon’tsupposetheytakeVirgilforgospel?’
Bythistimewewereatthefarm。IthinkPhillisgavemeawarmerwelcomethanusual,andcousinHolmanwaskindnessitself。YetsomehowIfeltasifIhadlostmyplace,andthatHoldsworthhadtakenit。Heknewallthewaysofthehouse;hewasfulloflittlefilialattentionstocousinHolman;
hetreatedPhilliswiththeaffectionatecondescensionofanelderbrother;
notabitmore;notinanywaydifferent。HequestionedmeabouttheprogressofaffairsinElthamwitheagerinterest。
’Ah!’saidcousinHolman,’you’llbespendingadifferentkindoftimenextweektowhatyouhavedonethis!Icanseehowbusyyou’llmakeyourself!
Butifyoudon’ttakecareyou’llbeillagain,andhavetocomebacktoourquietwaysofgoingon。
’DoyousupposeIshallneedtobeilltowishtocomebackhere?’heanswered,warmly。’IamonlyafraidyouhavetreatedmesokindlythatIshallalwaysbeturninguponyourhands。’
’That’sright,’shereplied。’Onlydon’tgoandmakeyourselfillbyover-work。Ihopeyou’llgoonwithacupofnewmilkeverymorning,forIamsurethatisthebestmedicine;andputateaspoonfulofruminit,ifyoulike;manyaonespeakshighlyofthat,onlywehadnoruminthehouse。’
IbroughtwithmeanatmosphereofactivelifewhichIthinkhehadbeguntomiss;anditwasnaturalthatheshouldseekmycompany,afterhisweekofretirement。OnceIsawPhillislookingatusaswetalkedtogetherwithakindofwistfulcuriosity;butassoonasshecaughtmyeye,sheturnedaway,blushingdeeply。
ThateveningIhadalittletalkwiththeminister。IstrolledalongtheHornbyroadtomeethim;forHoldsworthwasgivingPhillisanItalianlesson,andcousinHolmanhadfallenasleepoverherwork。
Somehow,andnotunwillinglyonmypart,ourtalkfellonthefriendwhomIhadintroducedtotheHopeFarm。
’Yes!Ilikehim!’saidtheminister,weighinghiswordsalittleashespoke。’Ilikehim。IhopeIamjustifiedindoingit,buthetakesholdofme,asitwere;andIhavealmostbeenafraidlesthecarriesmeaway,inspiteofmyjudgment。’
’Heisagoodfellow;indeedheis,’saidI。’Myfatherthinkswellofhim;andIhaveseenadealofhim。IwouldnothavehadhimcomehereifIdidnotknowthatyouwouldapproveofhim。’
’Yes,’(oncemorehesitating,)’Ilikehim,andIthinkheisanuprightman;thereisawantofseriousnessinhistalkattimes,but,atthesametime,itiswonderfultolistentohim!HemakesHoraceandVirgilliving,insteadofdead,bythestorieshetellsmeofhissojournintheverycountrieswheretheylived,andwheretothisday,hesays——Butitislikedram-drinking。IlistentohimtillIforgetmyduties,andamcarriedoffmyfeet。LastSabbatheveningheledusawayintotalkonprofanesubjectsillbefittingtheday。’
Bythistimewewereatthehouse,andourconversationstopped。Butbeforethedaywasout,Isawtheunconsciousholdthatmyfriendhadgotoverallthefamily。Andnowonder:hehadseensomuchanddonesomuchascomparedtothem,andhetoldaboutitallsoeasilyandnaturally,andyetasIneverheardanyoneelsedo;andhisreadypencilwasoutinaninstanttodrawonscrapsofpaperallsortsofillustrations——modesofdrawingupwaterinNorthernItaly,wine-carts,buffaloes,stone-pines,Iknownotwhat。Afterwehadalllookedatthesedrawings,Phillisgatheredthemtogether,andtookthem。
ItismanyyearssinceIhaveseenthee,EdwardHoldsworth,butthouwastadelightfulfellow!Aye,andagoodonetoo;thoughmuchsorrowwascausedbythee!PARTIIIJustafterthisIwenthomeforaweek’sholiday。Everythingwasprosperingthere;myfather’snewpartnershipgaveevidentsatisfactiontobothparties。
Therewasnodisplayofincreasedwealthinourmodesthousehold;butmymotherhadafewextracomfortsprovidedforherbyherhusband。ImadeacquaintancewithMrandMrsEllison,andfirstsawprettyMargaretEllison,whoisnowmywife。WhenIreturnedtoEltham,Ifoundthatastepwasdecidedupon,whichhadbeenincontemplationforsometime;thatHoldsworthandIshouldremoveourquarterstoHornby;ourdailypresence,andasmuchofourtimeaspossible,beingrequiredforthecompletionofthelineatthatend。
OfcoursethisledtogreaterfacilityofintercoursewiththeHopeFarmpeople。Wecouldeasilywalkoutthereafterourday’sworkwasdone,andspendabalmyeveninghourortwo,andyetreturnbeforethesummer’stwilighthadquitefadedaway。Manyatime,indeed,wewouldfainhavestayedlonger——theopenair,thefreshandpleasantcountry,madesoagreeableacontrasttotheclose,hottownlodgingswhichIsharedwithMrHoldsworth;
butearlyhours,bothateveandmorn,wereanimperativenecessitywiththeminister,andhemadenoscrupleatturningeitherorbothofusoutofthehousedirectlyaftereveningprayer,or’exercise’,ashecalledit。Theremembranceofmanyahappyday,andofseverallittlescenes,comesbackuponmeasIthinkofthatsummer。Theyriselikepicturestomymemory,andinthiswayIcandatetheirsuccession;forIknowthatcornharvestmusthavecomeafterhay-making,apple-gatheringaftercorn-harvest。
TheremovaltoHornbytookupsometime,duringwhichwehadneitherofusanyleisuretogoouttotheHopeFarm。MrHoldsworthhadbeenoutthereonceduringmyabsenceathome。Onesultryevening,whenworkwasdone,heproposedourwalkingoutandpayingtheHolmansavisit。ItsohappenedthatIhadomittedtowritemyusualweeklyletterhomeinourpressofbusiness,andIwishedtofinishthatbeforegoingout。Thenhesaidthathewouldgo,andthatIcouldfollowhimifIliked。ThisIdidinaboutanhour;theweatherwassooppressive,Iremember,thatItookoffmycoatasIwalked,andhungitovermyarm。AllthedoorsandwindowsatthefarmwereopenwhenIarrivedthere,andeverytinyleafonthetreeswasstill。Thesilenceoftheplacewasprofound;atfirstIthoughtthatitwasentirelydeserted;butjustasIdrewnearthedoorIheardaweaksweetvoicebegintosing;itwascousinHolman,allbyherselfinthehouse-place,pipingupahymn,assheknittedawayinthecloudedlight。Shegavemeakindlywelcome,andpouredoutallthesmalldomesticnewsofthefortnightpastuponme,and,inreturn,Itoldheraboutmyownpeopleandmyvisitathome。
’Whereweretherest?’atlengthIasked。
Bettyandthemenwereinthefieldhelpingwiththelastloadofhay,fortheministersaidtherewouldberainbeforethemorning。Yes,andtheministerhimself,andPhillis,andMrHoldsworth,werealltherehelping。
Shethoughtthatsheherselfcouldhavedonesomething;butperhapsshewastheleastfitforhay-makingofanyone;andsomebodymuststayathomeandtakecareofthehouse,thereweresomanytrampsabout;ifI
hadnothadsomethingtodowiththerailroadshewouldhavecalledthemnavvies。Iaskedherifshemindedbeingleftalone,asIshouldliketogoaridhelp;andhavingherfullandgladpermissiontoleaveheralone,Iwentoff,followingherdirections:throughthefarmyard,pastthecattle-pond,intotheashfield,beyondintothehigherfieldwithtwoholly-bushesinthemiddle。Iarrivedthere:therewasBettywithallthefarmingmen,andaclearedfield,andaheavilyladencart;onemanatthetopofthegreatpilereadytocatchthefragranthaywhichtheothersthrewuptohimwiththeirpitchforks;alittleheapofcast-offclothesinacornerofthefield(fortheheat,evenatseveno’clock,wasinsufferable),afewcansandbaskets,andRoverlyingbythempanting,andkeepingwatch。
Plentyofloud,hearty,cheerfultalking;butnominister,noPhillis,noMrHoldsworth。Bettysawmefirst,andunderstandingwhoitwasthatIwasinsearchof,shecametowardsme。
’They’reoutyonder——agaitwi’themthingso’MeasterHoldsworth’s。’
So’outyonder’Iwent;outontoabroaduplandcommon,fullofredsand-banks,andsweepsandhollows;borderedbydarkfirs,purpleinthecomingshadows,butnearathandallablazewithfloweringgorse,or,aswecallitinthesouth,furze-bushes,which,seenagainstthebeltofdistanttrees,appearedbrilliantlygolden。Onthisheath,alittlewayfromthefield-gate,Isawthethree。Icountedtheirheads,joinedtogetherinaneagergroupoverHoldsworth’stheodolite。Hewasteachingtheministerthepracticalartofsurveyingandtakingalevel。Iwaswantedtoassist,andwasquicklysettoworktoholdthechain。Philliswasasintentasherfather;shehadhardlytimetogreetme,sodesirouswasshetohearsomeanswertoherfather’squestion。
Sowewenton,thedarkcloudsstillgathering,forperhapsfiveminutesaftermyarrival。Thencametheblinding1ightningandtherumbleandquick-followingrattlingpealofthunderrightoverourheads。ItcamesoonerthanIexpected,soonerthantheyhadlookedfor:theraindelayednot;itcamepouringdown;andwhatwerewetodoforshelter?Philiishadnothingonbutherindoorthings——nobonnet,noshawl。Quickasthedartinglightningaroundus,Holdsworthtookoffhiscoatandwrappeditroundherneckandshoulders,and,almostwithoutaword,hurriedusallintosuchpoorshelterasoneoftheoverhangingsand-bankscouldgive。Therewewere,cowereddown,closetogether,Phillisinnermost,almosttootightlypackedtofreeherarmsenoughtodivestherselfofthecoat,whichshe,inherturn,triedtoputlightlyoverHoldsworth’sshoulders。Indoingsoshetouchedhisshirt。
’Oh,howwetyouare!’shecried,inpityingdismay;’andyou’vehardlygotoveryourfever!Oh,MrHoldsworth,Iamsosorry!’Heturnedhisheadalittle,smilingather。
’IfIdocatchcold,itisallmyfaultforhavingdeludedyouintostayingouthere!’butsheonlymurmuredagain,’Iamsosorry。’
Theministerspokenow。’Itisaregulardownpour。PleaseGodthatthehayissaved!Butthereisnolikelihoodofitsceasing,andIhadbettergohomeatonce,andsendyouallsomewraps;umbrellaswillnotbesafewithyonderthunderandlightning。’
BothHoldsworthandIofferedtogoinsteadofhim;buthewasresolved,althoughperhapsitwouldhavebeenwiserifHoldsworth,wetashealreadywas,hadkepthimselfinexercise。Ashemovedoff,Philliscreptout,andcouldseeontothestorm-sweptheath。PartofHoldsworth’sapparatusstillremainedexposedtoalltherain。Beforewecouldhaveanywarning,shehadrushedoutoftheshelterandcollectedthevariousthings,andbroughtthembackintriumphtowherewecrouched。Holdsworthhadstoodup,uncertainwhethertogotoherassistanceornot。Shecamerunningback,herlonglovelyhairfloatinganddripping,hereyesgladandbright,andhercolourfreshenedtoaglowofhealthbytheexerciseandtherain。