Mr。NicholasB。remainsformetheunfortunateandmiserable(butheroic)beingwhoonceuponatimehadeatenadog。
ItisagoodfortyyearssinceIheardthetale,andtheeffecthasnotwornoffyet。Ibelievethisistheveryfirst,say,realistic,storyIheardinmylife;butallthesameIdon’tknowwhyIshouldhavebeensofrightfullyimpressed。OfcourseIknowwhatourvillagedogslooklike——butstill……No!Atthisveryday,recallingthehorrorandcompassionofmychildhood,IaskmyselfwhetherIamrightindisclosingtoacoldandfastidiousworldthatawfulepisodeinthefamilyhistory。Iaskmyself——isitright?——especiallyastheB。familyhadalwaysbeenhonourablyknowninawidecountry-sideforthedelicacyoftheirtastesinthematterofeatinganddrinking。
Butuponthewhole,andconsideringthatthisgastronomicaldegradationovertakingagallantyoungofficerliesreallyatthedooroftheGreatNapoleon,Ithinkthattocoveritupbysilencewouldbeanexaggerationofliteraryrestraint。Letthetruthstandhere。TheresponsibilityrestswiththeManofSt。
HelenainviewofhisdeplorablelevityintheconductoftheRussiancampaign。ItwasduringthememorableretreatfromMoscowthatMr。NicholasB。,incompanyoftwobrotherofficers——
astowhosemoralityandnaturalrefinementIknownothing——
baggedadogontheoutskirtsofavillageandsubsequentlydevouredhim。AsfarasIcanremembertheweaponusedwasacavalrysabre,andtheissueofthesportingepisodewasrathermoreofamatteroflifeanddeaththanifithadbeenanencounterwithatiger。ApicketofCossackswassleepinginthatvillagelostinthedepthsofthegreatLithuanianforest。
Thethreesportsmenhadobservedthemfromahiding-placemakingthemselvesverymuchathomeamongstthehutsjustbeforetheearlywinterdarknesssetinatfouro’clock。Theyhadobservedthemwithdisgustandperhapswithdespair。Lateinthenighttherashcounselsofhungerovercamethedictatesofprudence。
CrawlingthroughthesnowtheycreptuptothefenceofdrybrancheswhichgenerallyenclosesavillageinthatpartofLithuania。Whattheyexpectedtogetandinwhatmanner,andwhetherthisexpectationwasworththerisk,goodnessonlyknows。
However,theseCossackparties,inmostcaseswanderingwithoutanofficer,wereknowntoguardthemselvesbadlyandoftennotatall。Inaddition,thevillagelyingatagreatdistancefromthelineofFrenchretreat,theycouldnotsuspectthepresenceofstragglersfromtheGrandArmy。Thethreeofficershadstrayedawayinablizzardfromthemaincolumnandhadbeenlostfordaysinthewoods,whichexplainssufficientlytheterriblestraitstowhichtheywerereduced。Theirplanwastotryandattracttheattentionofthepeasantsinthatoneofthehutswhichwasnearesttotheenclosure;butastheywerepreparingtoventureintotheveryjawsofthelion,sotospeak,adog(itismightystrangethattherewasbutone),acreaturequiteasformidableunderthecircumstancesasalion,begantobarkontheothersideofthefence……
Atthisstageofthenarrative,whichIheardmanytimes(byrequest)fromthelipsofCaptainNicholasB。’ssister-in-law,mygrandmother,Iusedtotremblewithexcitement。
Thedogbarked。AndifhehaddonenomorethanbarkthreeofficersoftheGreatNapoleon’sarmywouldhaveperishedhonourablyonthepointsofCossack’slances,orperchanceescapingthechasewouldhavedieddecentlyofstarvation。Butbeforetheyhadtimetothinkofrunningaway,thatfatalandrevoltingdog,beingcarriedawaybytheexcessofhiszeal,dashedoutthroughagapinthefence。Hedashedoutanddied。
Hishead,Iunderstand,wasseveredatoneblowfromhisbody。I
understandalsothatlateron,withinthegloomysolitudesofthesnow-ladenwoods,when,inashelteringhollow,afirehadbeenlitbytheparty,theconditionofthequarrywasdiscoveredtobedistinctlyunsatisfactory。Itwasnotthin——onthecontrary,itseemedunhealthilyobese;itsskinshowedbarepatchesofanunpleasantcharacter。However,theyhadnotkilledthatdogforthesakeofthepelt。Hewaslarge……Hewaseaten……Therestissilence……
Asilenceinwhichasmallboyshuddersandsaysfirmly:
"Icouldnothaveeatenthatdog。"
Andhisgrandmotherremarkswithasmile:
"Perhapsyoudon’tknowwhatitistobehungry。"
Ihavelearnedsomethingofitsince。NotthatIhavebeenreducedtoeatdog。Ihavefedontheemblematicalanimal,which,inthelanguageofthevolatileGauls,iscalledlavacheenragee;Ihavelivedonancientsaltjunk,Iknowthetasteofshark,oftrepang,ofsnake,ofnondescriptdishescontainingthingswithoutaname——butoftheLithuanianvillagedog——never!
IwishittobedistinctlyunderstoodthatitisnotIbutmygrand-uncleNicholas,ofthePolishlandedgentry,ChevalierdelaLegiond’Honneur,&c。&c。,who,inhisyoungdays,hadeatentheLithuaniandog。
Iwishhehadnot。Thechildishhorrorofthedeedclingsabsurdlytothegrizzledman。Iamperfectlyhelplessagainstit。Stillifhereallyhadto,letuscharitablyrememberthathehadeatenhimonactiveservice,whilebearingupbravelyagainstthegreatestmilitarydisasterofmodernhistory,and,inamanner,forthesakeofhiscountry。Hehadeatenhimtoappeasehishungernodoubt,butalsoforthesakeofanunappeasableandpatrioticdesire,intheglowofagreatfaiththatlivesstill,andinthepursuitofagreatillusionkindledlikeafalsebeaconbyagreatmantoleadastraytheeffortofabravenation。
Propatria!
Lookedatinthatlightitappearsasweetanddecorousmeal。
Andlookedatinthesamelightmyowndietoflavacheenrageeappearsafatuousandextravagantformofself-indulgence;forwhyshouldI,thesonofalandwhichsuchmenasthesehaveturnedupwiththeirploughsharesandbedewedwiththeirblood,undertakethepursuitoffantasticmealsofsaltjunkandhardtackuponthewideseas?Onthekindestviewitseemsanunanswerablequestion。Alas!Ihavetheconvictionthattherearemenofunstainedrectitudewhoarereadytomurmurscornfullytheworddesertion。Thusthetasteofinnocentadventuremaybemadebittertothepalate。Thepartoftheinexplicableshouldbeallowedforinappraisingtheconductofmeninaworldwherenoexplanationisfinal。Nochargeoffaithlessnessoughttobelightlyuttered。Theappearancesofthisperishablelifearedeceptivelikeeverythingthatfallsunderthejudgmentofourimperfectsenses。Theinnervoicemayremaintrueenoughinitssecretcounsel。Thefidelitytoaspecialtraditionmaylastthroughtheeventsofanunrelatedexistence,followingfaithfullytoothetracedwayofaninexplicableimpulse。
Itwouldtaketoolongtoexplaintheintimateallianceofcontradictionsinhumannaturewhichmakesloveitselfwearattimesthedesperateshapeofbetrayal。Andperhapsthereisnopossibleexplanation。Indulgence——assomebodysaid——isthemostintelligentofallthevirtues。Iventuretothinkthatitisoneoftheleastcommon,ifnotthemostuncommonofall。I
wouldnotimplybythisthatmenarefoolish——orevenmostmen。
Farfromit。Thebarberandthepriest,backedbythewholeopinionofthevillage,condemnedjustlytheconductoftheingenioushidalgowho,sallyingforthfromhisnativeplace,broketheheadofthemuleteer,puttodeathaflockofinoffensivesheep,andwentthroughverydolefulexperiencesinacertainstable。Godforbidthatanunworthychurlshouldescapemeritedcensurebyhangingontothestirrup-leatherofthesublimecaballero。Hiswasaverynoble,averyunselfishfantasy,fitfornothingexcepttoraisetheenvyofbasermortals。Butthereismorethanoneaspecttothecharmofthatexaltedanddangerousfigure。He,too,hadhisfrailties。Afterreadingsomanyromanceshedesirednaivelytoescapewithhisverybodyfromtheintolerablerealityofthings。HewishedtomeeteyetoeyethevalorousgiantBrandabarbaran,LordofArabia,whosearmourismadeoftheskinofadragon,andwhoseshield,strappedtohisarm,isthegateofafortifiedcity。O
amiableandnaturalweakness!Oblessedsimplicityofagentleheartwithoutguile!Whowouldnotsuccumbtosuchaconsolingtemptation?Neverthelessitwasaformofself-indulgence,andtheingenioushidalgoofLaManchawasnotagoodcitizen。Thepriestandthebarberwerenotunreasonableintheirstrictures。
WithoutgoingsofarastheoldKingLouis-Philippe,whousedtosayinhisexile,"Thepeopleareneverinfault"——onemayadmitthattheremustbesomerighteousnessintheassentofawholevillage。Mad!Mad!Hewhokeptinpiousmeditationtheritualvigil-of-armsbythewellofaninnandkneltreverentlytobeknightedatdaybreakbythefat,slyrogueofalandlord,hascomeverynearperfection。Heridesforth,hisheadencircledbyahalo——thepatronsaintofalllivesspoiledorsavedbytheirresistiblegraceofimagination。Buthewasnotagoodcitizen。
Perhapsthatandnothingelsewasmeantbythewell-rememberedexclamationofmytutor。
Itwasinthejollyyear1873,theverylastyearinwhichIhavehadajollyholiday。Therehavebeenidleyearsafterwards,jollyenoughinawayandnotaltogetherwithouttheirlesson,butthisyearofwhichIspeakwastheyearofmylastschoolboyholiday。ThereareotherreasonswhyIshouldrememberthatyear,buttheyaretoolongtostateformallyinthisplace。
Moreovertheyhavenothingtodowiththatholiday。WhathastodowiththeholidayisthatbeforethedayonwhichtheremarkwasmadewehadseenVienna,theUpperDanube,Munich,theFallsoftheRhine,theLakeofConstance——infactitwasamemorableholidayoftravel。OflatewehadbeentrampingslowlyuptheValleyoftheReuss。Itwasadelightfultime。Itwasmuchmorelikeastrollthanatramp。LandingfromaLakeofLucernesteamerinFluellen,wefoundourselvesattheendofthesecondday,withtheduskovertakingourleisurelyfootsteps,alittlewaybeyondHospenthal。Thisisnotthedayonwhichtheremarkwasmade:intheshadowsofthedeepvalleyandwiththehabitationsofmenleftsomewaybehind,ourthoughtsrannotupontheethicsofconductbutuponthesimplerhumanproblemofshelterandfood。Theredidnotseemanythingofthekindinsight,andwewerethinkingofturningbackwhensuddenlyatabendoftheroadwecameuponabuilding,ghostlyinthetwilight。
AtthattimetheworkontheSt。GothardTunnelwasgoingon,andthatmagnificententerpriseofburrowingwasdirectlyresponsiblefortheunexpectedbuilding,standingallaloneupontheveryrootsofthemountains。Itwaslongthoughnotbigatall;itwaslow;itwasbuiltofboards,withoutornamentation,inbarrack-hutstyle,withthewhitewindow-framesquiteflushwiththeyellowfaceofitsplainfront。Andyetitwasanhotel;ithadevenanamewhichIhaveforgotten。Buttherewasnogold-
laceddoor-keeperatitshumbledoor。Aplainbutvigorousservant-girlansweredourinquiries,thenamanandwomanwhoownedtheplaceappeared。Itwasclearthatnotravellerswereexpected,orperhapsevendesired,inthisstrangehostelry,whichinitsseverestyleresembledthehousewhichsurmountstheunseaworthy-lookinghullsofthetoyNoah’sArks,theuniversalpossessionofEuropeanchildhood。However,itsroofwasnothingedanditwasnotfulltothebrimofslabsidedandpaintedanimalsofwood。Eventhelivetouristanimalwasnowhereinevidence。Wehadsomethingtoeatinalong,narrowroomatoneendofalong,narrowtable,which,tomytiredperceptionandtomysleepyeyes,seemedasifitwouldtiltuplikeasee-sawplank,sincetherewasnooneattheotherendtobalanceitagainstourtwodustyandtravel-stainedfigures。Thenwehastenedupstairstobedinaroomsmellingofpineplanks,andI
wasfastasleepbeforemyheadtouchedthepillow。
Inthemorningmytutor(hewasastudentoftheCracowUniversity)wokemeupearly,andasweweredressingremarked:
"Thereseemstobealotofpeoplestayinginthishotel。Ihaveheardanoiseoftalkinguptill11o’clock?"Thisstatementsurprisedme;Ihadheardnonoisewhatever,havingsleptlikeatop。
Wewentdownstairsintothelongandnarrowdining-roomwithitslongandnarrowtable。Thereweretworowsofplatesonit。Atoneofthemanyuncurtainedwindowsstoodatallbonymanwithabaldheadsetoffbyabunchofblackhairaboveeachearandwithalongblackbeard。Heglancedupfromthepaperhewasreadingandseemedgenuinelyastonishedatourintrusion。By-
and-bymoremencamein。Notoneofthemlookedlikeatourist。
Notasinglewomanappeared。Thesemenseemedtoknoweachotherwithsomeintimacy,butIcannotsaytheywereaverytalkativelot。Thebald-headedmansatdowngravelyattheheadofthetable。Itallhadtheairofafamilyparty。By-and-by,fromoneofthevigorousservant-girlsinnationalcostume,wediscoveredthattheplacewasreallyaboarding-houseforsomeEnglishengineersengagedattheworksoftheSt。GothardTunnel;
andIcouldlistenmyfilltothesoundsoftheEnglishlanguage,asfarasitisusedatabreakfast-tablebymenwhodonotbelieveinwastingmanywordsonthemereamenitiesoflife。
ThiswasmyfirstcontactwithBritishmankindapartfromthetouristkindseeninthehotelsofZurichandLucerne——thekindwhichhasnorealexistenceinaworkadayworld。Iknownowthatthebald-headedmanspokewithastrongScotchaccent。Ihavemetmanyofhiskindsince,bothashoreandafloat。Thesecondengineerofthesteamer"Mavis",forinstance,oughttohavebeenhistwinbrother。Icannothelpthinkingthathereallywas,thoughforsomereasonsofhisownheassuredmethatheneverhadatwinbrother。Anywaythedeliberatebald-headedScotwiththecoal-blackbeardappearedtomyboyisheyesaveryromanticandmysteriousperson。
Weslippedoutunnoticed。Ourmapped-outrouteledovertheFurcaPasstowardstheRhoneGlacier,withthefurtherintentionoffollowingdownthetrendoftheHasliValley。Thesunwasalreadydecliningwhenwefoundourselvesonthetopofthepass,andtheremarkalludedtowaspresentlyuttered。
Wesatdownbythesideoftheroadtocontinuetheargumentbegunhalfamileorsobefore。IamcertainitwasanargumentbecauseIrememberperfectlyhowmytutorarguedandhowwithoutthepowerofreplyIlistenedwithmyeyesfixedobstinatelyontheground。Astirontheroadmademelookup——andthenIsawmyunforgettableEnglishman。Thereareacquaintancesoflateryears,familiars,shipmates,whomIrememberlessclearly。Hemarchedrapidlytowardstheeast(attendedbyahang-dogSwissguide)withthemienofanardentandfearlesstraveller。Hewascladinaknickerbockersuit,butasatthesametimeheworeshortsocksunderhislacedboots,forreasonswhichwhetherhygienicorconscientiousweresurelyimaginative,hiscalvesexposedtothepublicgazeandtothetonicairofhighaltitudes,dazzledthebeholderbythesplendouroftheirmarble-
likeconditionandtheirrichtoneofyoungivory。Hewastheleaderofasmallcaravan。Thelightofaheadlong,exaltedsatisfactionwiththeworldofmenandthesceneryofmountainsilluminedhisclean-cut,veryredface,hisshort,silver-whitewhiskers,hisinnocentlyeagerandtriumphanteyes。Inpassinghecastaglanceofkindlycuriosityandafriendlygleamofbig,sound,shinyteethtowardsthemanandtheboysittinglikedustytrampsbytheroadside,withamodestknapsacklyingattheirfeet。Hiswhitecalvestwinkledsturdily,theuncouthSwissguidewithasurlymouthstalkedlikeanunwillingbearathiselbow;asmalltrainofthreemulesfollowedinsinglefiletheleadofthisinspiringenthusiast。Twoladiesrodepastonebehindtheother,butfromthewaytheysatIsawonlytheircalm,uniformbacks,andthelongendsofblueveilshangingbehindfardownovertheiridenticalhat-brims。Histwodaughterssurely。Anindustriousluggage-mule,withunstarchedearsandguardedbyaslouching,sallowdriver,broughtuptherear。Mytutor,afterpausingforalookandafaintsmile,resumedhisearnestargument。
Itellyouitwasamemorableyear!OnedoesnotmeetsuchanEnglishmantwiceinalifetime。Washeinthemysticorderingofcommoneventstheambassadorofmyfuture,sentouttoturnthescaleatacriticalmomentonthetopofanAlpinepass,withthepeaksoftheBerneseOberlandformuteandsolemnwitnesses?Hisglance,hissmile,theunextinguishableandcomicardourofhisstriving-forwardappearancehelpedmetopullmyselftogether。
ItmustbestatedthatonthatdayandintheexhilaratingatmosphereofthatelevatedspotIhadbeenfeelingutterlycrushed。ItwastheyearinwhichIhadfirstspokenaloudofmydesiretogotosea。Atfirstlikethosesoundsthat,rangingoutsidethescaletowhichmen’searsareattuned,remaininaudibletooursenseofhearing,thisdeclarationpassedunperceived。Itwasasifithadnotbeen。Lateron,bytryingvarioustonesImanagedtoarousehereandthereasurprisedmomentaryattention——the"Whatwasthatfunnynoise?"sortofinquiry。Lateronitwas——"Didyouhearwhatthatboysaid?
Whatanextraordinaryoutbreak!"Presentlyawaveofscandalisedastonishment(itcouldnothavebeengreaterifIhadannouncedtheintentionofenteringaCarthusianmonastery)ebbingoutoftheeducationalandacademicaltownofCracowspreaditselfoverseveralprovinces。Itspreaditselfshallowbutfar-reaching。
Itstirredupamassofremonstrance,indignation,pityingwonder,bitterironyanddownrightchaff。Icouldhardlybreatheunderitsweight,andcertainlyhadnowordsforananswer。
PeoplewonderedwhatMr。T。B。woulddonowwithhisworryingnephewand,Idaresay,hopedkindlythathewouldmakeshortworkofmynonsense。
WhathedidwastocomedownallthewayfromUkrainetohaveitoutwithmeandtojudgebyhimself,unprejudiced,impartialandjust,takinghisstandonthegroundofwisdomandaffection。AsfarasispossibleforaboywhosepowerofexpressionisstillunformedIopenedthesecretofmythoughtstohimandheinreturnallowedmeaglimpseintohismindandheart;thefirstglimpseofaninexhaustibleandnobletreasureofclearthoughtandwarmfeeling,whichthroughlifewastobeminetodrawuponwithanever-deceivedloveandconfidence。Practically,afterseveralexhaustiveconversations,heconcludedthathewouldnothavemelateronreproachhimforhavingspoiledmylifebyanunconditionalopposition。ButImusttaketimeforseriousreflection。AndImustnotonlythinkofmyselfbutofothers;
weightheclaimsofaffectionandconscienceagainstmyownsincerityofpurpose。"Thinkwellwhatitallmeansinthelargerissues,myboy,"heexhortedmefinallywithspecialfriendliness。"Andmeantimetrytogetthebestplaceyoucanattheyearlyexaminations。"
Thescholasticyearcametoanend。Itookafairlygoodplaceattheexams。,whichforme(forcertainreasons)happenedtobeamoredifficulttaskthanforotherboys。InthatrespectI
couldenterwithagoodconscienceuponthatholidaywhichwaslikealongvisitpourprendrecongeofthemainlandofoldEuropeIwastoseesolittleofforthenextfourandtwentyyears。Such,however,wasnottheavowedpurposeofthattour。
Itwasrather,Isuspect,plannedinordertodistractandoccupymythoughtsinotherdirections。Nothinghadbeensaidformonthsofmygoingtosea。Butmyattachmenttomyyoungtutorandhisinfluenceovermeweresowellknownthathemusthavereceivedaconfidentialmissiontotalkmeoutofmyromanticfolly。Itwasanexcellentlyappropriatearrangement,asneitherhenorIhadeverhadasingleglimpseoftheseainourlives。
Thatwastocomeby-and-byforbothofusinVenice,fromtheoutershoreofLido。MeantimehehadtakenhismissiontoheartsowellthatIbegantofeelcrushedbeforewereachedZurich。
Hearguedinrailwaytrains,inlakesteamboats,hehadarguedawayformetheobligatorysunriseontheRighi,byJove!Ofhisdevotiontohisunworthypupiltherecanbenodoubt。Hehadproveditalreadybytwoyearsofunremittingandarduouscare。
Icouldnothatehim。Buthehadbeencrushingmeslowly,andwhenhestartedtoargueonthetopoftheFurcaPasshewasperhapsnearerasuccessthaneitherheorIimagined。I
listenedtohimindespairingsilence,feelingthatghostly,unrealisedanddesiredseaofmydreamsescapefromtheunnervedgripofmywill。
TheenthusiasticoldEnglishmanhadpassed——andtheargumentwenton。WhatrewardcouldIexpectfromsuchalifeattheendofmyyears,eitherinambition,honourorconscience?Anunanswerablequestion。ButIfeltnolongercrushed。Thenoureyesmetandagenuineemotionwasvisibleinhisaswellasinmine。Theendcameallatonce。Hepickeduptheknapsacksuddenlyandgotontohisfeet。
"Youareanincorrigible,hopelessDonQuixote。That’swhatyouare。"
Iwassurprised。Iwasonlyfifteenanddidnotknowwhathemeantexactly。ButIfeltvaguelyflatteredatthenameoftheimmortalknightturningupinconnectionwithmyownfolly,assomepeoplewouldcallittomyface。Alas!Idon’tthinktherewasanythingtobeproudof。Minewasnotthestufftheprotectorsofforlorndamsels,theredressersofthisworld’swrongsaremadeof;andmytutorwasthemantoknowthatbest。
Therein,inhisindignation,hewassuperiortothebarberandthepriestwhenheflungatmeanhonourednamelikeareproach。
Iwalkedbehindhimforfullfiveminutes;thenwithoutlookingbackhestopped。TheshadowsofdistantpeakswerelengtheningovertheFurcaPass。WhenIcameuptohimheturnedtomeandinfullviewoftheFinster-Aarhorn,withhisbandofgiantbrothersrearingtheirmonstrousheadsagainstabrilliantsky,puthishandonmyshoulderaffectionately。
"Well!That’senough。Wewillhavenomoreofit。"
Andindeedtherewasnomorequestionofmymysteriousvocationbetweenus。Therewastobenomorequestionofitatall,nowhereorwithanyone。WebeganthedescentoftheFurcaPassconversingmerrily。Elevenyearslater,monthformonth,IstoodonTowerHillonthestepsoftheSt。Katherine’sDockhouse,amasterintheBritishMerchantService。ButthemanwhoputhishandonmyshoulderatthetopoftheFurcaPasswasnolongerliving。
ThatveryyearofourtravelshetookhisdegreeofthePhilosophicalFaculty——andonlythenhistruevocationdeclareditself。Obedienttothecallheenteredatonceuponthefour-
yearcourseoftheMedicalSchools。Adaycamewhen,onthedeckofashipmooredinCalcutta,Iopenedalettertellingmeoftheendofanenviableexistence。HehadmadeforhimselfapracticeinsomeobscurelittletownofAustrianGalicia。Andtheletterwentontotellmehowallthebereavedpoorofthedistrict,ChristiansandJewsalike,hadmobbedthegooddoctor’scoffinwithsobsandlamentationsattheverygateofthecemetery。
Howshorthisyearsandhowclearhisvision!Whatgreaterrewardinambition,honourandconsciencecouldhehavehopedtowinforhimselfwhen,onthetopoftheFurcaPass,hebademelookwelltotheendofmyopeninglife。
ChapterIII。
ThedevouringinadismalforestofalucklessLithuaniandogbymygrand-uncleNicholasB。incompanyoftwoothermilitaryandfamishedscarecrows,symbolised,tomychildishimagination,thewholehorroroftheretreatfromMoscowandtheimmoralityofaconqueror’sambition。AnextremedistasteforthatobjectionableepisodehastingedtheviewsIholdastothecharacterandachievementsofNapoleontheGreat。Ineednotsaythattheseareunfavourable。Itwasmorallyreprehensibleforthatgreatcaptaintoinduceasimple-mindedPolishgentlemantoeatdogbyraisinginhisbreastafalsehopeofnationalindependence。Ithasbeenthefateofthatcredulousnationtostarveforupwardsofahundredyearsonadietoffalsehopesand——well——dog。Itis,whenonethinksofit,asingularlypoisonousregimen。Someprideinthenationalconstitutionwhichhassurvivedalongcourseofsuchdishesisreallyexcusable。Butenoughofgeneralising。Returningtoparticulars,Mr。NicholasB。confidedtohissister-in-law(mygrandmother)inhismisanthropicallylaconicmannerthatthissupperinthewoodshadbeennearly"thedeathofhim。"Thisisnotsurprising。Whatsurprisesmeisthatthestorywaseverheardof;forgrand-uncleNicholasdifferedinthisfromthegeneralityofmilitarymenofNapoleon’stime(andperhapsofalltime),thathedidnotliketotalkofhiscampaigns,whichbeganatFriedlandandendedsomewhereintheneighbourhoodofBar-le-Duc。HisadmirationofthegreatEmperorwasunreservedineverythingbutexpression。
Likethereligionofearnestmen,itwastooprofoundasentimenttobedisplayedbeforeaworldoflittlefaith。Apartfromthatheseemedascompletelydevoidofmilitaryanecdotesasthoughhehadhardlyeverseenasoldierinhislife。Proudofhisdecorationsearnedbeforehewastwenty-five,herefusedtoweartheribbonsatthebuttonholeinthemannerpractisedtothisdayinEuropeandevenwasunwillingtodisplaytheinsigniaonfestiveoccasions,asthoughhewishedtoconcealtheminthefearofappearingboastful。"ItisenoughthatIhavethem,"heusedtomutter。Inthecourseofthirtyyearstheywereseenonhisbreastonlytwice——atanauspiciousmarriageinthefamilyandatthefuneralofanoldfriend。ThattheweddingwhichwasthushonouredwasnottheweddingofmymotherIlearnedonlylateinlife,toolatetobearagrudgeagainstMr。NicholasB。,whomadeamendsatmybirthbyalongletterofcongratulationcontainingthefollowingprophecy:"Hewillseebettertimes。"
Eveninhisembitteredhearttherelivedahope。Buthewasnotatrueprophet。
Hewasamanofstrangecontradictions。Livingformanyyearsinhisbrother’shouse,thehomeofmanychildren,ahousefulloflife,ofanimation,noisywithaconstantcomingandgoingofmanyguests,hekepthishabitsofsolitudeandsilence。
Consideredasobstinatelysecretiveinallhispurposes,hewasinrealitythevictimofamostpainfulirresolutioninallmattersofcivillife。Underhistaciturn,phlegmaticbehaviourwashiddenafacultyofshort-livedpassionateanger。Isuspecthehadnotalentfornarrative;butitseemedtoaffordhimsombresatisfactiontodeclarethathewasthelastmantorideoverthebridgeoftheriverElsterafterthebattleofLeipsic。
Lestsomeconstructionfavourabletohisvalourshouldbeputonthefacthecondescendedtoexplainhowitcametopass。ItseemsthatshortlyaftertheretreatbeganhewassentbacktothetownwheresomedivisionsoftheFrenchArmy(andamongstthemthePolishcorpsofPrinceJosephPoniatowski),jammedhopelesslyinthestreets,werebeingsimplyexterminatedbythetroopsoftheAlliedPowers。WhenaskedwhatitwaslikeinthereMr。NicholasB。mutteredtheonlyword"Shambles。"HavingdeliveredhismessagetothePrincehehastenedawayatoncetorenderanaccountofhismissiontothesuperiorwhohadsenthim。Bythattimetheadvanceoftheenemyhadenvelopedthetown,andhewasshotatfromhousesandchasedallthewaytotheriverbankbyadisorderlymobofAustrianDragoonsandPrussianHussars。Thebridgehadbeenminedearlyinthemorningandhisopinionwasthatthesightofthehorsemenconvergingfrommanysidesinthepursuitofhispersonalarmedtheofficerincommandofthesappersandcausedtheprematurefiringofthecharges。Hehadnotgonemorethan200yardsontheothersidewhenheheardthesoundofthefatalexplosions。Mr。NicholasB。
concludedhisbaldnarrativewiththeword"Imbecile"utteredwiththeutmostdeliberation。Ittestifiedtohisindignationatthelossofsomanythousandsoflives。Buthisphlegmaticphysiognomylightedupwhenhespokeofhisonlywound,withsomethingresemblingsatisfaction。Youwillseethattherewassomereasonforitwhenyoulearnthathewaswoundedintheheel。"LikehisMajestytheEmperorNapoleonhimself,"heremindedhishearerswithassumedindifference。Therecanbenodoubtthattheindifferencewasassumed,ifonethinkswhatverydistinguishedsortofwounditwas。Inallthehistoryofwarfarethereare,Ibelieve,onlythreewarriorspubliclyknowntohavebeenwoundedintheheel——AchillesandNapoleon——demi-
godsindeed——towhomthefamilialpietyofanunworthydescendantaddsthenameofthesimplemortal,NicholasB。
TheHundredDaysfoundMr。NicholasB。stayingwithadistantrelativeofours,ownerofasmallestateinGalicia。HowhegotthereacrossthebreadthofanarmedEuropeandafterwhatadventuresIamafraidwillneverbeknownnow。Allhispapersweredestroyedshortlybeforehisdeath;butiftherewasamongstthem,asheaffirmed,aconciserecordofhislife,thenIamprettysureitdidnottakeupmorethanahalf-sheetoffoolscaporso。ThisrelativeofourshappenedtobeanAustrianofficer,whohadlefttheserviceafterthebattleofAusterlitz。UnlikeMr。NicholasB。,whoconcealedhisdecorations,helikedtodisplayhishonourabledischargeinwhichhewasmentionedasunschreckbar(fearless)beforetheenemy。Noconjunctioncouldseemmoreunpromising,yetitstandsinthefamilytraditionthatthesetwogotonverywelltogetherintheirruralsolitude。
WhenaskedwhetherhehadnotbeensorelytemptedduringtheHundredDaystomakehiswayagaintoFranceandjointheserviceofhisbelovedEmperor,Mr。NicholasB。usedtomutter:"Nomoney。Nohorse。Toofartowalk。"
ThefallofNapoleonandtheruinofnationalhopesaffectedadverselythecharacterofMr。NicholasB。Heshrankfromreturningtohisprovince。Butforthattherewasalsoanotherreason。Mr。NicholasB。andhisbrother——mymaternalgrandfather——hadlosttheirfatherearly,whiletheywerequitechildren。Theirmother,youngstillandleftverywelloff,marriedagainamanofgreatcharmandofanamiabledispositionbutwithoutapenny。Heturnedoutanaffectionateandcarefulstepfather;itwasunfortunatethoughthatwhiledirectingtheboys’educationandformingtheircharacterbywisecounselhedidhisbesttogetholdofthefortunebybuyingandsellinglandinhisownnameandinvestingcapitalinsuchamannerastocoverupthetracesoftherealownership。Itseemsthatsuchpracticescanbesuccessfulifoneischarmingenoughtodazzleone’sownwifepermanentlyandbraveenoughtodefythevainterrorsofpublicopinion。Thecriticaltimecamewhentheelderoftheboysonattaininghismajorityintheyear1811askedfortheaccountsandsomepartatleastoftheinheritancetobeginlifeupon。Itwasthenthatthestepfatherdeclaredwithcalmfinalitythattherewerenoaccountstorenderandnopropertytoinherit。Thewholefortunewashisveryown。Hewasverygood-
naturedabouttheyoungman’smisapprehensionofthetruestateofaffairs,butofcoursefeltobligedtomaintainhispositionfirmly。Oldfriendscameandwentbusily,voluntarymediatorsappearedtravellingonmosthorribleroadsfromthemostdistantcornersofthethreeprovinces;andtheMarshaloftheNobility(ex-officioguardianofallwell-bornorphans)calledameetingoflandownersto"ascertaininafriendlywayhowthemisunderstandingbetweenXandhisstepsonshadarisenanddevisepropermeasurestoremovethesame。"AdeputationtothateffectvisitedX,whotreatedthemtoexcellentwines,butabsolutelyrefusedhiseartotheirremonstrances。Astotheproposalsforarbitrationhesimplylaughedatthem;yetthewholeprovincemusthavebeenawarethatfourteenyearsbefore,whenhemarriedthewidow,allhisvisiblefortuneconsisted(apartfromhissocialqualities)inasmartfour-horseturn-outwithtwoservants,withwhomhewentaboutvisitingfromhousetohouse;
andastoanyfundshemighthavepossessedatthattimetheirexistencecouldonlybeinferredfromthefactthathewasverypunctualinsettlinghismodestlossesatcards。Butbythemagicpowerofstubbornandconstantassertion,therewerefoundpresently,hereandthere,peoplewhomumbledthatsurely"theremustbesomethinginit。"However,onhisnextname-day(whichheusedtocelebratebyagreatthree-days’shooting-party),ofalltheinvitedcrowdonlytwogueststurnedup,distantneighboursofnoimportance;onenotoriouslyafool,andtheotheraverypiousandhonestpersonbutsuchapassionateloverofthegunthatonhisownconfessionhecouldnothaverefusedaninvitationtoashooting-partyfromthedevilhimself。Xmetthismanifestationofpublicopinionwiththeserenityofanunstainedconscience。Herefusedtobecrushed。Yethemusthavebeenamanofdeepfeeling,because,whenhiswifetookopenlythepartofherchildren,helosthisbeautifultranquillity,proclaimedhimselfheart-brokenanddroveheroutofthehouse,neglectinginhisgrieftogiveherenoughtimetopackhertrunks。
Thiswasthebeginningofalawsuit,anabominablemarvelofchicane,whichbytheuseofeverylegalsubterfugewasmadetolastformanyyears。Itwasalsotheoccasionforadisplayofmuchkindnessandsympathy。Alltheneighbouringhousesflewopenforthereceptionofthehomeless。Neitherlegalaidnormaterialassistanceintheprosecutionofthesuitwaseverwanting。X,onhisside,wentaboutsheddingtearspubliclyoverhisstepchildren’singratitudeandhiswife’sblindinfatuation;
butasatthesametimehedisplayedgreatclevernessintheartofconcealingmaterialdocuments(hewasevensuspectedofhavingburntalotofhistoricallyinterestingfamilypapers),thisscandalouslitigationhadtobeendedbyacompromiselestworseshouldbefall。Itwassettledfinallybyasurrender,outofthedisputedestate,infullsatisfactionofallclaims,oftwovillageswiththenamesofwhichIdonotintendtotroublemyreaders。Afterthislameandimpotentconclusionneitherthewifenorthestepsonshadanythingtosaytothemanwhohadpresentedtheworldwithsuchasuccessfulexampleofself-helpbasedoncharacter,determinationandindustry;andmygreat-
grandmother,herhealthcompletelybrokendown,diedacoupleofyearslaterinCarlsbad。Legallysecuredbyadecreeinthepossessionofhisplunder,Xregainedhiswontedserenityandwentonlivingintheneighbourhoodinacomfortablestyleandinapparentpeaceofmind。Hisbigshootswerefairlywellattendedagain。Hewasnevertiredofassuringpeoplethatheborenogrudgeforwhatwaspast;heprotestedloudlyofhisconstantaffectionforhiswifeandstepchildren。ItwastruehesaidthattheyhadtriedtheirbesttostriphimasnakedasaTurkishsaintinthedeclineofhisdays;andbecausehehaddefendedhimselffromspoliation,asanybodyelseinhisplacewouldhavedone,theyhadabandonedhimnowtothehorrorsofasolitaryoldage。Nevertheless,hisloveforthemsurvivedthesecruelblows。
Andtheremighthavebeensometruthinhisprotestations。Verysoonhebegantomakeoverturesoffriendshiptohiseldeststepson,mymaternalgrandfather;andwhenthesewereperemptorilyrejectedhewentonrenewingthemagainandagainwithcharacteristicobstinacy。Foryearshepersistedinhiseffortsatreconciliation,promisingmygrandfathertoexecuteawillinhisfavourifheonlywouldbefriendsagaintotheextentofcallingnowandthen(itwasfairlycloseneighbourhoodfortheseparts,fortymilesorso),orevenofputtinginanappearanceforthegreatshootonthename-day。Mygrandfatherwasanardentloverofeverysport。Histemperamentwasasfreefromhardnessandanimosityascanbeimagined。Pupiloftheliberal-mindedBenedictineswhodirectedtheonlypublicschoolofsomestandingtheninthesouth,hehadalsoreaddeeplytheauthorsoftheeighteenthcentury。InhimChristiancharitywasjoinedtoaphilosophicalindulgenceforthefailingsofhumannature。Butthememoryofthesemiserablyanxiousearlyyears,hisyoungman’syearsrobbedofallgenerousillusionsbythecynicismofthesordidlawsuit,stoodinthewayofforgiveness。
Heneversuccumbedtothefascinationofthegreatshoot;andX,hisheartsettothelastonreconciliationwiththedraftofthewillreadyforsignaturekeptbyhisbedside,diedintestate。
Thefortunethusacquiredandaugmentedbyawiseandcarefulmanagementpassedtosomedistantrelativeswhomhehadneverseenandwhoevendidnotbearhisname。
MeantimetheblessingofgeneralpeacedescendeduponEurope。
Mr。NicholasB。,biddinggood-byetohishospitablerelative,the"fearless"Austrianofficer,departedfromGalicia,andwithoutgoingnearhisnativeplace,wheretheodiouslawsuitwasstillgoingon,proceededstraighttoWarsawandenteredthearmyofthenewlyconstitutedPolishkingdomunderthesceptreofAlexanderI。,AutocratofalltheRussias。
Thiskingdom,createdbytheViennaCongressasanacknowledgmenttoanationofitsformerindependentexistence,includedonlythecentralprovincesoftheoldPolishpatrimony。AbrotheroftheEmperor,theGrandDukeConstantine(Pavlovitch),itsViceroyandCommander-in-Chief,marriedmorganaticallytoaPolishladytowhomhewasfiercelyattached,extendedthisaffectiontowhathecalled"MyPoles"inacapriciousandsavagemanner。Sallowincomplexion,withaTartarphysiognomyandfiercelittleeyes,hewalkedwithhisfistsclenched,hisbodybentforward,dartingsuspiciousglancesfromunderanenormouscockedhat。Hisintelligencewaslimitedandhissanityitselfwasdoubtful。Thehereditarytaintexpresseditself,inhiscase,notbymysticleaningsasinhistwobrothers,AlexanderandNicholas(intheirvariousways,foronewasmysticallyliberalandtheothermysticallyautocratic),butbythefuryofanuncontrollabletemperwhichgenerallybrokeoutindisgustingabuseontheparadeground。Hewasapassionatemilitaristandanamazingdrill-master。HetreatedhisPolishArmyasaspoiledchildtreatsafavouritetoy,exceptthathedidnottakeittobedwithhimatnight。Itwasnotsmallenoughforthat。Butheplayedwithitalldayandeveryday,delightinginthevarietyofprettyuniformsandinthefunofincessantdrilling。Thischildishpassion,notforwarbutformeremilitarism,achievedadesirableresult。ThePolishArmy,initsequipment,initsarmamentandinitsbattlefieldefficiency,asthenunderstood,became,bytheendoftheyear1830,afirst-ratetacticalinstrument。Polishpeasantry(notserfs)servedintheranksbyenlistment,andtheofficersbelongedmainlytothesmallernobility。Mr。NicholasB。,withhisNapoleonicrecord,hadnodifficultyinobtainingalieutenancy,butthepromotioninthePolishArmywasslow,because,beingaseparateorganisation,ittooknopartinthewarsoftheRussianEmpireagainstPersiaorTurkey。Itsfirstcampaign,againstRussiaitself,wastobeitslast。In1831,ontheoutbreakoftheRevolution,Mr。NicholasB。wastheseniorcaptainofhisregiment。Sometimebeforehehadbeenmadeheadoftheremountestablishmentquarteredoutsidethekingdominoursouthernprovinces,whencealmostallthehorsesforthePolishcavalryweredrawn。ForthefirsttimesincehewentawayfromhomeattheageofeighteentobeginhismilitarylifebythebattleofFriedland,Mr。NicholasB。
breathedtheairofthe"Border,"hisnativeair。Unkindfatewaslyinginwaitforhimamongstthescenesofhisyouth。AtthefirstnewsoftherisinginWarsawalltheremountestablishment,officers,vets。,andtheverytroopers,wereputpromptlyunderarrestandhurriedoffinabodybeyondtheDniepertothenearesttowninRussiaproper。FromtheretheyweredispersedtothedistantpartsoftheEmpire。OnthisoccasionpoorMr。NicholasB。penetratedintoRussiamuchfartherthanheeverdidinthetimesofNapoleonicinvasion,ifmuchlesswillingly。Astrakhanwashisdestination。Heremainedtherethreeyears,allowedtoliveatlargeinthetownbuthavingtoreporthimselfeverydayatnoontothemilitarycommandant,whousedtodetainhimfrequentlyforapipeandachat。ItisdifficulttoformajustideaofwhatachatwithMr。NicholasB。couldhavebeenlike。Theremusthavebeenmuchcompressedrageunderhistaciturnity,forthecommandantcommunicatedtohimthenewsfromthetheatreofwarandthisnewswassuchasitcouldbe,thatis,verybadforthePoles。
Mr。NicholasB。receivedthesecommunicationswithoutwardphlegm,buttheRussianshowedawarmsympathyforhisprisoner。
"AsasoldiermyselfIunderstandyourfeelings。You,ofcourse,wouldliketobeinthethickofit。Byheavens!Iamfondofyou。IfitwerenotforthetermsofthemilitaryoathIwouldletyougoonmyownresponsibility。Whatdifferencecoulditmaketous,onemoreorlessofyou?"
Atothertimeshewonderedwithsimplicity。
"Tellme,NicholasStepanovitch"——(mygreat-grandfather’snamewasStephenandthecommandantusedtheRussianformofpoliteaddress)——"tellmewhyisitthatyouPolesarealwayslookingfortrouble?WhatelsecouldyouexpectfromrunningupagainstRussia?"
Hewascapable,too,ofphilosophicalreflections。
"LookatyourNapoleonnow。Agreatman。ThereisnodenyingitthathewasagreatmanaslongashewascontenttothrashthoseGermansandAustriansandallthosenations。Butno!HemustgotoRussialookingfortrouble,andwhat’stheconsequence?Suchasyouseeme,IhaverattledthissabreofmineonthepavementsofParis。"
AfterhisreturntoPolandMr。NicholasB。describedhimasa"worthymanbutstupid,"wheneverhecouldbeinducedtospeakoftheconditionsofhisexile。DecliningtheoptionofferedhimtoentertheRussianArmyhewasretiredwithonlyhalfthepensionofhisrank。Hisnephew(myuncleandguardian)toldmethatthefirstlastingimpressiononhismemoryasachildoffourwasthegladexcitementreigninginhisparents’houseonthedaywhenMr。NicholasB。arrivedhomefromhisdetentioninRussia。
Everygenerationhasitsmemories。ThefirstmemoriesofMr。
NicholasB。mighthavebeenshapedbytheeventsofthelastpartitionofPoland,andhelivedlongenoughtosufferfromthelastarmedrisingin1863,aneventwhichaffectedthefutureofallmygenerationandhascolouredmyearliestimpressions。Hisbrother,inwhosehousehehadshelteredforsomeseventeenyearshismisanthropicaltimiditybeforethecommonestproblemsoflife,havingdiedintheearlyfifties,Mr。NicholasB。hadtoscrewhiscourageuptothesticking-pointandcometosomedecisionastothefuture。Afteralongandagonisinghesitationhewaspersuadedatlasttobecomethetenantofsomefifteenhundredacresoutoftheestateofafriendintheneighbourhood。
Thetermsoftheleasewereveryadvantageous,buttheretiredsituationofthevillageandaplaincomfortablehouseingoodrepairwere,Ifancy,thegreatestinducements。Helivedtherequietlyforabouttenyears,seeingveryfewpeopleandtakingnopartinthepubliclifeoftheprovince,suchasitcouldbeunderanarbitrarybureaucratictyranny。Hischaracterandhispatriotismwereabovesuspicion;buttheorganisersoftherisingintheirfrequentjourneysupanddowntheprovincescrupulouslyavoidedcomingnearhishouse。Itwasgenerallyfeltthatthereposeoftheoldman’slastyearsoughtnottobedisturbed。
Evensuchintimatesasmypaternalgrandfather,acomrade-in-armsduringNapoleon’sMoscowcampaignandlateronafellow-officerinthePolishArmy,refrainedfromvisitinghiscronyasthedateoftheoutbreakapproached。Mypaternalgrandfather’stwosonsandhisonlydaughterwerealldeeplyinvolvedintherevolutionarywork;hehimselfwasofthattypeofPolishsquirewhoseonlyidealofpatrioticactionwasto"getintothesaddleanddrivethemout。"Butevenheagreedthat"dearNicholasmustnotbeworried。"Allthisconsideratecautiononthepartoffriends,bothconspiratorsandothers,didnotpreventMr。
NicholasB。beingmadetofeelthemisfortunesofthatill-omenedyear。
Lessthanforty-eighthoursafterthebeginningoftherebellioninthatpartofthecountry,asquadronofscoutingCossackspassedthroughthevillageandinvadedthehomestead。Mostofthemremainedformedbetweenthehouseandthestables,whileseveral,dismounting,ransackedthevariousoutbuildings。Theofficerincommand,accompaniedbytwomen,walkeduptothefrontdoor。Alltheblindsonthatsideweredown。Theofficertoldtheservantwhoreceivedhimthathewantedtoseehismaster。Hewasansweredthatthemasterwasawayfromhome,whichwasperfectlytrue。
Ifollowherethetaleastoldafterwardsbytheservanttomygrand-uncle’sfriendsandrelatives,andasIhavehearditrepeated。
OnreceivingthisanswertheCossackofficer,whohadbeenstandingintheporch,steppedintothehouse。
"Whereisthemastergone,then?"
"OurmasterwenttoJ——"(thegovernmenttownsomefiftymilesoff),"thedaybeforeyesterday。"
"Thereareonlytwohorsesinthestables。Wherearetheothers?"
"Ourmasteralwaystravelswithhisownhorses"(meaning:notbypost)。"Hewillbeawayaweekormore。HewaspleasedtomentiontomethathehadtoattendtosomebusinessintheCivilCourt。"
Whiletheservantwasspeakingtheofficerlookedaboutthehall。
Therewasadoorfacinghim,adoortotherightandadoortotheleft。Theofficerchosetoentertheroomontheleftandorderedtheblindstobepulledup。ItwasMr。NicholasB。’sstudywithacoupleoftallbookcases,somepicturesonthewalls,andsoon。Besidesthebigcentretable,withbooksandpapers,therewasaquitesmallwriting-tablewithseveraldrawers,standingbetweenthedoorandthewindowinagoodlight;andatthistablemygrand-uncleusuallysateithertoreadorwrite。
Onpullinguptheblindtheservantwasstartledbythediscoverythatthewholemalepopulationofthevillagewasmassedinfront,tramplingdowntheflower-beds。Therewerealsoafewwomenamongstthem。Hewasgladtoobservethevillagepriest(oftheOrthodoxChurch)comingupthedrive。Thegoodmaninhishastehadtuckeduphiscassockashighasthetopofhisboots。
Theofficerhadbeenlookingatthebacksofthebooksinthebookcases。Thenheperchedhimselfontheedgeofthecentre-
tableandremarkedeasily:
"Yourmasterdidnottakeyoutotownwithhim,then。"
"Iamtheheadservantandheleavesmeinchargeofthehouse。
It’sastrong,youngchapthattravelswithourmaster。If——Godforbid——therewassomeaccidentontheroadhewouldbeofmuchmoreusethanI。"
Glancingthroughthewindowhesawthepriestarguingvehementlyinthethickofthecrowd,whichseemedsubduedbyhisinterference。Threeorfourmen,however,weretalkingwiththeCossacksatthedoor。
"Andyoudon’tthinkyourmasterhasgonetojointherebelsmaybe——eh?"askedtheofficer。
"Ourmasterwouldbetoooldforthatsurely。He’swelloverseventyandhe’sgettingfeebletoo。It’ssomeyearsnowsincehe’sbeenonhorsebackandhecan’twalkmucheithernow。"
Theofficersatthereswinginghisleg,veryquietandindifferent。BythattimethepeasantswhohadbeentalkingwiththeCossacktroopersatthedoorhadbeenpermittedtogetintothehall。Oneortwomoreleftthecrowdandfollowedthemin。
Theywereseveninallandamongstthemtheblacksmith,anex-
soldier。Theservantappealeddeferentiallytotheofficer。
"Won’tyourhonourbepleasedtotellthepeopletogobacktotheirhomes?Whatdotheywanttopushthemselvesintothehouselikethisfor?It’snotproperforthemtobehavelikethiswhileourmaster’sawayandIamresponsibleforeverythinghere。"
Theofficeronlylaughedalittle,andafterawhileinquired:
"Haveyouanyarmsinthehouse?"
"Yes。Wehave。Someoldthings。"
"Bringthemall,here,ontothistable。"
Theservantmadeanotherattempttoobtainprotection。
"Won’tyourhonourtellthesechaps……?"
Buttheofficerlookedathiminsilenceinsuchawaythathegaveitupatonceandhurriedofftocallthepantry-boytohelphimcollectthearms。Meantimetheofficerwalkedslowlythroughalltheroomsinthehouse,examiningthemattentivelybuttouchingnothing。Thepeasantsinthehallfellbackandtookofftheircapswhenhepassedthrough。Hesaidnothingwhatevertothem。Whenhecamebacktothestudyallthearmstobefoundinthehousewerelyingonthetable。Therewasapairofbigflint-lockholsterpistolsfromNapoleonictimes,twocavalryswords,oneoftheFrenchtheotherofthePolishArmypattern,withafowling-pieceortwo。
Theofficer,openingthewindow,flungoutpistols,swordsandguns,oneafteranother,andhistroopersrantopickthemup。
Thepeasantsinthehall,encouragedbyhismanner,hadstolenafterhimintothestudy。Hegavenottheslightestsignofbeingconsciousoftheirexistenceand,hisbusinessbeingapparentlyconcluded,strodeoutofthehousewithoutaword。
Directlyheleft,thepeasantsinthestudyputontheircapsandbegantosmileateachother。
TheCossacksrodeaway,passingthroughtheyardsofthehomefarmstraightintothefields。Thepriest,stillarguingwiththepeasants,movedgraduallydownthedriveandhisearnesteloquencewasdrawingthesilentmobafterhim,awayfromthehouse。ThisjusticemustberenderedtotheparishpriestsoftheGreekChurchthat,strangerstothecountryastheywere(beingalldrawnfromtheinteriorofRussia),themajorityofthemusedsuchinfluenceastheyhadovertheirflocksinthecauseofpeaceandhumanity。Truetothespiritoftheircalling,theytriedtosoothethepassionsoftheexcitedpeasantryandopposedrapineandviolencewhenevertheycould,withalltheirmight。Andthisconducttheypursuedagainsttheexpresswishesoftheauthorities。LateronsomeofthemweremadetosufferforthisdisobediencebybeingremovedabruptlytothefarnorthorsentawaytoSiberianparishes。
Theservantwasanxioustogetridofthefewpeasantswhohadgotintothehouse。Whatsortofconductwasthat,heaskedthem,towardsamanwhowasonlyatenant,hadbeeninvariablygoodandconsideratetothevillagersforyears;andonlytheotherdayhadagreedtogiveuptwomeadowsfortheuseofthevillageherd?Heremindedthem,too,ofMr。NicholasB。’sdevotiontothesickinthetimeofcholera。Everywordofthiswastrueandsofareffectivethatthefellowsbegantoscratchtheirheadsandlookirresolute。Thespeakerthenpointedatthewindow,exclaiming:"Look!there’sallyourcrowdgoingawayquietlyandyousillychapshadbettergoafterthemandprayGodtoforgiveyouyourevilthoughts。"
Thisappealwasanunluckyinspiration。Incrowdingclumsilytothewindowtoseewhetherhewasspeakingthetruth,thefellowsoverturnedthelittlewriting-table。Asitfelloverachinkofloosecoinwasheard。"There’smoneyinthatthing,"criedtheblacksmith。Inamomentthetopofthedelicatepieceoffurniturewassmashedandtherelayexposedinadrawereightyhalf-imperials。GoldcoinwasararesightinRussiaevenatthattime;itputthepeasantsbesidethemselves。"Theremustbemoreofthatinthehouseandweshallhaveit,"yelledtheex-
soldierblacksmith。"Thisiswartime。"Theotherswerealreadyshoutingoutofthewindowurgingthecrowdtocomebackandhelp。Thepriest,abandonedsuddenlyatthegate,flunghisarmsupandhurriedawaysoasnottoseewhatwasgoingtohappen。
Intheirsearchformoneythatbucolicmobsmashedeverythinginthehouse,rippingwithknives,splittingwithhatchets,sothat,astheservantsaid,therewerenotwopiecesofwoodholdingtogetherleftinthewholehouse。Theybrokesomeveryfinemirrors,allthewindowsandeverypieceofglassandchina。
Theythrewthebooksandpapersoutonthelawnandsetfiretotheheapforthemerefunofthethingapparently。Absolutelytheonlyonesolitarythingwhichtheyleftwholewasasmallivorycrucifix,whichremainedhangingonthewallinthewreckedbedroomaboveawildheapofrags,brokenmahoganyandsplinteredboardswhichhadbeenMr。NicholasB。’sbedstead。Detectingtheservantintheactofstealingawaywithajapannedtinbox,theytoreitfromhim,andbecauseheresistedtheythrewhimoutofthedining-roomwindow。Thehousewasononefloorbutraisedwellabovetheground,andthefallwassoseriousthatthemanremainedlyingstunnedtillthecookandastable-boyventuredforthatduskfromtheirhiding-placesandpickedhimup。Bythattimethemobhaddepartedcarryingoffthetinbox,whichtheysupposedtobefullofpapermoney。Somedistancefromthehouseinthemiddleofafieldtheybrokeitopen。TheyfoundinsidedocumentsengrossedonparchmentandthetwocrossesoftheLegionofHonourandForValour。Atthesightoftheseobjects,which,theblacksmithexplained,weremarksofhonourgivenonlybytheTsar,theybecameextremelyfrightenedatwhattheyhaddone。Theythrewthewholelotawayintoaditchanddispersedhastily。
OnlearningofthisparticularlossMr。NicholasB。brokedowncompletely。Themeresackingofhishousedidnotseemtoaffecthimmuch。Whilehewasstillinbedfromtheshockthetwocrosseswerefoundandreturnedtohim。Ithelpedsomewhathisslowconvalescence,butthetinboxandtheparchments,thoughsearchedforinalltheditchesaround,neverturnedupagain。
HecouldnotgetoverthelossofhisLegionofHonourPatent,whosepreamble,settingforthhisservices,heknewbyhearttotheveryletter,andafterthisblowvolunteeredsometimestorecite,tearsstandinginhiseyesthewhile。Itstermshauntedhimapparentlyduringthelasttwoyearsofhislifetosuchanextentthatheusedtorepeatthemtohimself。Thisisconfirmedbytheremarkmademorethanoncebyhisoldservanttothemoreintimatefriends。"WhatmakesmyheartheavyistohearourmasterinhisroomatnightwalkingupanddownandprayingaloudintheFrenchlanguage。"
ItmusthavebeensomewhatoverayearafterwardsthatIsawMr。
NicholasB。,or,morecorrectly,thathesawme,forthelasttime。Itwas,asIhavealreadysaid,atthetimewhenmymotherhadathreemonths’leavefromexile,whichshewasspendinginthehouseofherbrother,andfriendsandrelationswerecomingfromfarandneartodoherhonour。ItisinconceivablethatMr。
NicholasB。shouldnothavebeenofthenumber。Thelittlechildafewmonthsoldhehadtakenupinhisarmsonthedayofhishome-comingafteryearsofwarandexilewasconfessingherfaithinnationalsalvationbysufferingexileinherturn。Idonotknowwhetherhewaspresentontheverydayofourdeparture。I
havealreadyadmittedthatformeheismoreespeciallythemanwhoinhisyouthhadeatenroastdoginthedepthsofagloomyforestofsnow-loadedpines。Mymemorycannotplacehiminanyrememberedscene。Ahookednose,somesleekwhitehair,anunrelatedevanescentimpressionofameagre,slight,rigidfiguremilitarilybuttoneduptothethroat,isallthatnowexistsonearthofMr。NicholasB。;onlythisvagueshadowpursuedbythememoryofhisgrand-nephew,thelastsurvivinghumanbeing,I
suppose,ofallthosehehadseeninthecourseofhistaciturnlife。
ButIrememberwellthedayofourdeparturebacktoexile。Theelongated,bizarre,shabbytravelling-carriagewithfourpost-
horses,standingbeforethelongfrontofthehousewithitseightcolumns,fouroneachsideofthebroadflightofstairs。
Onthesteps,groupsofservants,afewrelations,oneortwofriendsfromthenearestneighbourhood,aperfectsilence,onallthefacesanairofsoberconcentration;mygrandmotherallinblackgazingstoically,myunclegivinghisarmtomymotherdowntothecarriageinwhichIhadbeenplacedalready;atthetopoftheflightmylittlecousininashortskirtofatartanpatternwithadealofredinit,andlikeasmallprincessattendedbythewomenofherownhousehold:theheadgourvernante,ourdear,corpulentFrancesca(whohadbeenforthirtyyearsintheserviceoftheB。family),theformernurse,nowoutdoorattendant,ahandsomepeasantfacewearingacompassionateexpression,andthegood,uglyMlle。Durand,thegoverness,withherblackeyebrowsmeetingoverashortthicknoseandacomplexionlikepalebrownpaper。Ofalltheeyesturnedtowardsthecarriage,hergood-
naturedeyesonlyweredroppingtears,anditwashersobbingvoicealonethatbrokethesilencewithanappealtome:
"N’oubliepastonfrancais,moncheri。"Inthreemonths,simplybyplayingwithus,shehadtaughtmenotonlytospeakFrenchbuttoreaditaswell。Shewasindeedanexcellentplaymate。
Inthedistance,halfwaydowntothegreatgates,alight,opentrap,harnessedwiththreehorsesinRussianfashion,stooddrawnupononesidewiththepolice-captainofthedistrictsittinginit,thevizorofhisflatcapwitharedbandpulleddownoverhiseyes。
Itseemsstrangethatheshouldhavebeentheretowatchourgoingsocarefully。WithoutwishingtotreatwithlevitythejusttimiditiesofImperialistsalltheworldover,Imayallowmyselfthereflectionthatawoman,practicallycondemnedbythedoctors,andasmallboynotquitesixyearsoldcouldnotberegardedasseriouslydangerousevenforthelargestofconceivableempiressaddledwiththemostsacredofresponsibilities。Andthisgoodman,Ibelieve,didnotthinksoeither。
Ilearnedafterwardswhyhewaspresentonthatday。Idon’trememberanyoutwardsigns,butitseemsthat,aboutamonthbefore,mymotherbecamesounwellthattherewasadoubtwhethershecouldbemadefittotravelinthetime。InthisuncertaintytheGovernor-GeneralinKievwaspetitionedtograntherafortnight’sextensionofstayinherbrother’shouse。Noanswerwhateverwasreturnedtothisprayer,butonedayatduskthepolice-captainofthedistrictdroveuptothehouseandtoldmyuncle’svalet,whoranouttomeethim,thathewantedtospeakwiththemasterinprivate,atonce。Verymuchimpressed(hethoughtitwasgoingtobeanarrest)theservant,"moredeadthanalivewithfright,"asherelatedafterwards,smuggledhimthroughthebigdrawing-room,whichwasdark(thatroomwasnotlightedeveryevening),ontiptoe,soasnottoattracttheattentionoftheladiesinthehouse,andledhimbywayoftheorangerytomyuncle’sprivateapartments。
Thepoliceman,withoutanypreliminaries,thrustapaperintomyuncle’shands。
"There。Prayreadthis。Ihavenobusinesstoshowthispapertoyou。Itiswrongofme。ButIcan’teithereatorsleepwithsuchajobhangingoverme。"
Thatpolice-captain,anativeofGreatRussia,hadbeenformanyyearsservinginthedistrict。
Myuncleunfoldedandreadthedocument。ItwasaserviceorderissuedfromtheGovernor-General’ssecretariat,dealingwiththematterofthepetitionanddirectingthepolice-captaintodisregardallremonstrancesandexplanationsinregardtothatillnesseitherfrommedicalmenorothers,"andifshehasnotleftherbrother’shouse"——itwentontosay——"onthemorningofthedayspecifiedonherpermit,youaretodespatchheratonceunderescort,direct"(underlined)"totheprison-hospitalinKiev,whereshewillbetreatedashercasedemands。"
"ForGod’ssake,Mr。B。,seethatyoursistergoesawaypunctuallyonthatday。Don’tgivemethisworktodowithawoman——andwithoneofyourfamilytoo。Isimplycannotbeartothinkofit。"
Hewasabsolutelywringinghishands。Myunclelookedathiminsilence。
"Thankyouforthiswarning。Iassureyouthatevenifsheweredyingshewouldbecarriedouttothecarriage。"
"Yes——indeed——andwhatdifferencewoulditmake——traveltoKievorbacktoherhusband。Forshewouldhavetogo——deathornodeath。Andmind,Mr。B。,Iwillbehereontheday,notthatI
doubtyourpromise,butbecauseImust。Ihavegotto。Duty。
AllthesamemytradeisnotfitforadogsincesomeofyouPoleswillpersistinrebelling,andallofyouhavegottosufferforit。"
Thisisthereasonwhyhewasthereinanopenthree-horsetrappulledupbetweenthehouseandthegreatgates。Iregretnotbeingabletogiveuphisnametothescornofallbelieversintherightsofconquest,asareprehensiblysensitiveguardianofImperialgreatness。Ontheotherhand,IaminapositiontostatethenameoftheGovernor-Generalwhosignedtheorderwiththemarginalnote"tobecarriedouttotheletter"inhisownhandwriting。Thegentleman’snamewasBezak。Ahighdignitary,anenergeticofficial,theidolforatimeoftheRussianPatrioticPress。
Eachgenerationhasitsmemories。
ChapterIV。
Itmustnotbesupposedthatinsettingforththememoriesofthishalf-hourbetweenthemomentmyuncleleftmyroomtillwemetagainatdinner,Iamlosingsightof"Almayer’sFolly。"
Havingconfessedthatmyfirstnovelwasbeguninidleness——aholidaytask——IthinkIhavealsogiventheimpressionthatitwasamuch-delayedbook。Itwasneverdismissedfrommymind,evenwhenthehopeofeverfinishingitwasveryfaint。Manythingscameinitsway:dailyduties,newimpressions,oldmemories。Itwasnottheoutcomeofaneed——thefamousneedofself-expressionwhichartistsfindintheirsearchformotives。
Thenecessitywhichimpelledmewasahidden,obscurenecessity,acompletelymaskedandunaccountablephenomenon。Orperhapssomeidleandfrivolousmagician(theremustbemagiciansinLondon)hadcastaspellovermethroughhisparlourwindowasI
exploredthemazeofstreetseastandwestinsolitaryleisurelywalkswithoutchartandcompass。TillIbegantowritethatnovelIhadwrittennothingbutlettersandnotverymanythese。
Inevermadeanoteofafact,ofanimpressionorofananecdoteinmylife。TheconceptionofaplannedbookwasentirelyoutsidemymentalrangewhenIsatdowntowrite;theambitionofbeinganauthorhadneverturnedupamongstthesegraciousimaginaryexistencesonecreatesfondlyforoneselfattimesinthestillnessandimmobilityofaday-dream:yetitstandsclearasthesunatnoondaythatfromthemomentIhaddoneblackeningoverthefirstmanuscriptpageof"Almayer’sFolly"(itcontainedabouttwohundredwordsandthisproportionofwordstoapagehasremainedwithmethroughthefifteenyearsofmywritinglife),fromthemomentIhad,inthesimplicityofmyheartandtheamazingignoranceofmymind,writtenthatpagethediewascast。NeverhadRubiconbeenmoreblindlyforded,withoutinvocationtothegods,withoutfearofmen。
ThatmorningIgotupfrommybreakfast,pushingthechairback,andrangthebellviolently,orperhapsIshouldsayresolutely,orperhapsIshouldsayeagerly,Idonotknow。Butmanifestlyitmusthavebeenaspecialringofthebell,acommonsoundmadeimpressive,liketheringingofabellfortheraisingofthecurtainuponanewscene。Itwasanunusualthingformetodo。
Generally,IdawdledovermybreakfastandIsolemntookthetroubletoringthebellforthetabletobeclearedaway;butonthatmorningforsomereasonhiddeninthegeneralmysteriousnessoftheeventIdidnotdawdle。AndyetIwasnotinahurry。I
pulledthecordcasuallyandwhilethefainttinklingsomewheredowninthebasementwenton,IchargedmypipeintheusualwayandIlookedforthematchboxwithglancesdistraughtindeedbutexhibiting,Iamreadytoswear,nosignsofafinefrenzy。I
wascomposedenoughtoperceiveaftersomeconsiderabletimethematchboxlyingthereonthemantelpiecerightundermynose。Andallthiswasbeautifullyandsafelyusual。BeforeIhadthrowndownthematchmylandlady’sdaughterappearedwithhercalm,palefaceandaninquisitivelook,inthedoorway。Oflateitwasthelandlady’sdaughterwhoansweredmybell。Imentionthislittlefactwithpride,becauseitprovesthatduringthethirtyorfortydaysofmytenancyIhadproducedafavourableimpression。ForafortnightpastIhadbeensparedtheunattractivesightofthedomesticslave。ThegirlsinthatBessboroughGardenshousewereoftenchanged,butwhethershortorlong,fairordark,theywerealwaysuntidyandparticularlybedraggledasifinasordidversionofthefairytaletheashbincathadbeenchangedintoamaid。Iwasinfinitelysensibleoftheprivilegeofbeingwaitedonbymylandlady’sdaughter。Shewasneatifanaemic。
"Willyoupleaseclearawayallthisatonce?"Iaddressedherinconvulsiveaccents,beingatthesametimeengagedingettingmypipetodraw。This,Iadmit,wasanunusualrequest。GenerallyongettingupfrombreakfastIwouldsitdowninthewindowwithabookandletthemclearthetablewhentheyliked;butifyouthinkthatonthatmorningIwasintheleastimpatient,youaremistaken。IrememberthatIwasperfectlycalm。AsamatteroffactIwasnotatallcertainthatIwantedtowrite,orthatI
meanttowrite,orthatIhadanythingtowriteabout。No,Iwasnotimpatient。Iloungedbetweenthemantelpieceandthewindow,notevenconsciouslywaitingforthetabletobecleared。Itwastentoonethatbeforemylandlady’sdaughterwasdoneIwouldpickupabookandsitdownwithitallthemorninginaspiritofenjoyableindolence。Iaffirmitwithassurance,andIdon’tevenknownowwhatwerethebooksthenlyingabouttheroom。
Whatevertheyweretheywerenottheworksofgreatmasters,wherethesecretofclearthoughtandexactexpressioncanbefound。SincetheageoffiveIhavebeenagreatreader,asisnotperhapswonderfulinachildwhowasneverawareoflearningtoread。AttenyearsofageIhadreadmuchofVictorHugoandotherromantics。IhadreadinPolishandinFrench,history,voyages,novels;Iknew"GilBlas"and"DonQuixote"inabridgededitions;IhadreadinearlyboyhoodPolishpoetsandsomeFrenchpoets,butIcannotsaywhatIreadontheeveningbeforeIbegantowritemyself。IbelieveitwasanovelanditisquitepossiblethatitwasoneofAnthonyTrollope’snovels。Itisverylikely。Myacquaintancewithhimwasthenveryrecent。