{330}
  ThenIsawinmydreamthathecommandedthemtoliedown;which,whentheydid,hechastisedthemsore,toteachthemthegoodwaywhereintheyshouldwalk[Deut。25:2];andashechastisedthemhesaid,"AsmanyasIlove,Irebukeandchasten;bezealous,therefore,andrepent。"[2Chron。6:26,27,Rev。3:19]Thisdone,hebidthemgoontheirway,andtakegoodheedtotheotherdirectionsoftheshepherds。Sotheythankedhimforallhiskindness,andwentsoftlyalongtherightway,singing——
  Comehither,youthatwalkalongtheway;
  Seehowthepilgrimsfarethatgoastray。
  Theycatchedareinanentanglingnet,’Causetheygoodcounsellightlydidforget:
  ’Tistruetheyrescuedwere,butyetyousee,They’rescourgedtoboot。Letthisyourcautionbe。
  {331}
  Now,afterawhile,theyperceived,afaroff,onecomingsoftlyandalone,allalongthehighwaytomeetthem。ThensaidChristiantohisfellow,YonderisamanwithhisbacktowardsZion,andheiscomingtomeetus。
  HOPE。Iseehim;letustakeheedtoourselvesnow,lestheshouldproveaflattereralso。Sohedrewnearerandnearer,andatlastcameupuntothem。HisnamewasAtheist,andheaskedthemwhithertheyweregoing。
  CHR。WearegoingtoMountZion。
  ThenAtheistfellintoaverygreatlaughter。
  CHR。Whatisthemeaningofyourlaughter?
  {332}
  ATHEIST。Ilaughtoseewhatignorantpersonsyouare,totakeuponyousotediousajourney,andyouareliketohavenothingbutyourtravelforyourpains。
  CHR。Why,man,doyouthinkweshallnotbereceived?
  ATHEIST。Received!Thereisnosuchplaceasyoudreamofinallthisworld。
  CHR。Butthereisintheworldtocome。
  {333}
  ATHEIST。WhenIwasathomeinmineowncountry,Iheardasyounowaffirm,andfromthathearingwentouttosee,andhavebeenseekingthiscitythistwentyyears;butfindnomoreofitthanIdidthefirstdayIsetout。[Jer。22:12,Eccl。10:15]
  CHR。Wehavebothheardandbelievethatthereissuchaplacetobefound。
  ATHEIST。HadnotI,whenathome,believed,Ihadnotcomethusfartoseek;butfindingnone,(andyetIshould,hadtherebeensuchaplacetobefound,forIhavegonetoseekitfurtherthanyou),Iamgoingbackagain,andwillseektorefreshmyselfwiththethingsthatIthencastaway,forhopesofthatwhich,Inowsee,isnot。
  {334}
  CHR。ThensaidChristiantoHopefulhisfellow,Isittruewhichthismanhathsaid?
  Hope。Takeheed,heisoneoftheflatterers;rememberwhatithathcostusoncealreadyforourhearkeningtosuchkindoffellows。
  What!noMountZion?Didwenotsee,fromtheDelectableMountainsthegateofthecity?Also,arewenotnowtowalkbyfaith?
  Letusgoon,saidHopeful,lestthemanwiththewhipovertakeusagain。[2Cor。5:7]Youshouldhavetaughtmethatlesson,whichIwillroundyouintheearswithal:"Cease,myson,toheartheinstructionthatcausethtoerrfromthewordsofknowledge。"[Prov。19:27]Isay,mybrother,ceasetohearhim,andletus"believetothesavingofthesoul"。[Heb。10:39]
  {335}
  CHR。Mybrother,IdidnotputthequestiontotheeforthatIdoubtedofthetruthofourbeliefmyself,buttoprovethee,andtofetchfromtheeafruitofthehonestyofthyheart。
  Asforthisman,Iknowthatheisblindedbythegodofthisworld。
  LettheeandIgoon,knowingthatwehavebeliefofthetruth,"andnolieisofthetruth"。[1John2:21]
  HOPE。NowdoIrejoiceinhopeofthegloryofGod。Sotheyturnedawayfromtheman;andhe,laughingatthem,wenthisway。
  {336}
  Isawtheninmydream,thattheywenttilltheycameintoacertaincountry,whoseairnaturallytendedtomakeonedrowsy,ifhecameastrangerintoit。
  AndhereHopefulbegantobeverydullandheavyofsleep;
  whereforehesaiduntoChristian,IdonowbegintogrowsodrowsythatIcanscarcelyholdupmineeyes,letusliedownhereandtakeonenap。
  CHR。Bynomeans,saidtheother,lestsleeping,weneverawakemore。
  HOPE。Why,mybrother?Sleepissweettothelabouringman;
  wemayberefreshedifwetakeanap。
  CHR。DoyounotrememberthatoneoftheShepherdsbidusbewareoftheEnchantedGround?Hemeantbythatthatweshouldbewareofsleeping;"Thereforeletusnotsleep,asdoothers,butletuswatchandbesober。"[1Thess。5:6]
  {337}
  HOPE。Iacknowledgemyselfinafault,andhadIbeenherealoneIhadbysleepingrunthedangerofdeath。Iseeitistruethatthewisemansaith,Twoarebetterthanone。Hithertohaththycompanybeenmymercy,andthoushalthaveagoodrewardforthylabour。[Eccl。9:9]
  CHR。Nowthen,saidChristian,topreventdrowsinessinthisplace,letusfallintogooddiscourse。
  HOPE。Withallmyheart,saidtheother。
  CHR。Whereshallwebegin?
  HOPE。WhereGodbeganwithus。Butdoyoubegin,ifyouplease。
  CHR。Iwillsingyoufirstthissong:——
  Whensaintsdosleepygrow,letthemcomehither,Andhearhowthesetwopilgrimstalktogether:
  Yea,letthemlearnofthem,inanywise,Thustokeepopetheirdrowsyslumb’ringeyes。
  Saints’fellowship,ifitbemanagedwell,Keepsthemawake,andthatinspiteofhell。
  {338}
  CHR。ThenChristianbeganandsaid,Iwillaskyouaquestion。
  Howcameyoutothinkatfirstofsodoingasyoudonow?
  HOPE。Doyoumean,howcameIatfirsttolookafterthegoodofmysoul?
  CHR。Yes,thatismymeaning。
  HOPE。Icontinuedagreatwhileinthedelightofthosethingswhichwereseenandsoldatourfair;thingswhich,Ibelievenow,wouldhave,hadIcontinuedinthem,stilldrownedmeinperditionanddestruction。
  CHR。Whatthingsarethey?
  HOPE。Allthetreasuresandrichesoftheworld。Also,Idelightedmuchinrioting,revelling,drinking,swearing,lying,uncleanness,Sabbath—breaking,andwhatnot,thattendedtodestroythesoul。ButIfoundatlast,byhearingandconsideringofthingsthataredivine,whichindeedIheardofyou,asalsoofbelovedFaithfulthatwasputtodeathforhisfaithandgoodlivinginVanityFair,that"theendofthesethingsisdeath"。
  [Rom。6:21—23]Andthatforthesethings’sake"comeththewrathofGoduponthechildrenofdisobedience"。[Eph。5:6]
  CHR。Anddidyoupresentlyfallunderthepowerofthisconviction?
  {339}
  HOPE。No,Iwasnotwillingpresentlytoknowtheevilofsin,northedamnationthatfollowsuponthecommissionofit;
  butendeavoured,whenmymindatfirstbegantobeshakenwiththeWord,toshutmineeyesagainstthelightthereof。
  CHR。ButwhatwasthecauseofyourcarryingofitthustothefirstworkingsofGod’sblessedSpirituponyou?
  {340}
  HOPE。Thecauseswere,1。IwasignorantthatthiswastheworkofGoduponme。Ineverthoughtthat,byawakeningsforsin,Godatfirstbeginstheconversionofasinner。2。Sinwasyetverysweettomyflesh,andIwasloathtoleaveit。3。
  Icouldnottellhowtopartwithmineoldcompanions,theirpresenceandactionsweresodesirableuntome。4。Thehoursinwhichconvictionswereuponmeweresuchtroublesomeandsuchheart—affrightinghoursthatIcouldnotbear,nonotsomuchastheremembranceofthem,uponmyheart。
  CHR。Then,asitseems,sometimesyougotridofyourtrouble。
  HOPE。Yes,verily,butitwouldcomeintomymindagain,andthenIshouldbeasbad,nay,worse,thanIwasbefore。
  CHR。Why,whatwasitthatbroughtyoursinstomindagain?
  {341}
  HOPE。Manythings;as,1。IfIdidbutmeetagoodmaninthestreets;or,2。IfIhaveheardanyreadintheBible;or,3。Ifmineheaddidbegintoache;or,4。IfIweretoldthatsomeofmyneighboursweresick;or,5。IfIheardthebelltollforsomethatweredead;or,6。IfIthoughtofdyingmyself;or,7。IfIheardthatsuddendeathhappenedtoothers;
  8。Butespecially,whenIthoughtofmyself,thatImustquicklycometojudgment。
  {342}
  CHR。Andcouldyouatanytime,withease,getofftheguiltofsin,whenbyanyofthesewaysitcameuponyou?
  HOPE。No,notI,forthentheygotfasterholdofmyconscience;
  andthen,ifIdidbutthinkofgoingbacktosin,(thoughmymindwasturnedagainstit),itwouldbedoubletormenttome。
  CHR。Andhowdidyoudothen?
  HOPE。IthoughtImustendeavourtomendmylife;forelse,thoughtI,Iamsuretobedamned。
  {343}
  CHR。Anddidyouendeavourtomend?
  HOPE。Yes;andfledfromnotonlymysins,butsinfulcompanytoo;
  andbetookmetoreligiousduties,asprayer,reading,weepingforsin,speakingtruthtomyneighbours,&c。ThesethingsdidI,withmanyothers,toomuchheretorelate。
  CHR。Anddidyouthinkyourselfwellthen?
  HOPE。Yes,forawhile;butatthelast,mytroublecametumblinguponmeagain,andthatovertheneckofallmyreformations。
  {344}
  CHR。Howcamethatabout,sinceyouwerenowreformed?
  HOPE。Therewereseveralthingsbroughtituponme,especiallysuchsayingsasthese:"Allourrighteousnessesareasfilthyrags。"[Isa。64:6]"Bytheworksofthelawshallnofleshbejustified。"[Gal。2:16]"Whenyeshallhavedoneallthosethings,say,Weareunprofitable",[Luke17:10]withmanymoresuchlike。FromwhenceIbegantoreasonwithmyselfthus:
  IfALLmyrighteousnessesarefilthyrags;if,bythedeedsofthelaw,NOmancanbejustified;andif,whenwehavedoneALL,weareyetunprofitable,thenitisbutafollytothinkofheavenbythelaw。
  Ifurtherthoughtthus:Ifamanrunsahundredpoundsintotheshopkeeper’sdebt,andafterthatshallpayforallthatheshallfetch;yet,ifthisolddebtstandsstillinthebookuncrossed,forthattheshopkeepermaysuehim,andcasthimintoprisontillheshallpaythedebt。
  CHR。Well,andhowdidyouapplythistoyourself?
  HOPE。Why;Ithoughtthuswithmyself。Ihave,bymysins,runagreatwayintoGod’sbook,andthatmynowreformingwillnotpayoffthatscore;thereforeIshouldthinkstill,underallmypresentamendments,ButhowshallIbefreedfromthatdamnationthatIhavebroughtmyselfindangerofbymyformertransgressions?
  {345}
  CHR。Averygoodapplication:but,pray,goon。
  HOPE。Anotherthingthathathtroubledme,evensincemylateamendments,is,thatifIlooknarrowlyintothebestofwhatIdonow,Istillseesin,newsin,mixingitselfwiththebestofthatIdo;sothatnowIamforcedtoconclude,thatnotwithstandingmyformerfondconceitsofmyselfandduties,Ihavecommittedsinenoughinonedutytosendmetohell,thoughmyformerlifehadbeenfaultless。
  CHR。Andwhatdidyoudothen?
  {346}
  HOPE。Do!Icouldnottellwhattodo,untilIbrakemymindtoFaithful,forheandIwerewellacquainted。Andhetoldme,thatunlessIcouldobtaintherighteousnessofamanthatneverhadsinned,neithermineown,noralltherighteousnessoftheworldcouldsaveme。
  CHR。Anddidyouthinkhespaketrue?
  HOPE。HadhetoldmesowhenIwaspleasedandsatisfiedwithmineownamendment,Ihadcalledhimfoolforhispains;
  butnow,sinceIseemineowninfirmity,andthesinthatcleavestomybestperformance,Ihavebeenforcedtobeofhisopinion。
  {347}
  CHR。Butdidyouthink,whenatfirsthesuggestedittoyou,thattherewassuchamantobefound,ofwhomitmightjustlybesaidthathenevercommittedsin?
  HOPE。Imustconfessthewordsatfirstsoundedstrangely,butafteralittlemoretalkandcompanywithhim,Ihadfullconvictionaboutit。
  CHR。Anddidyouaskhimwhatmanthiswas,andhowyoumustbejustifiedbyhim?
  HOPE。Yes,andhetoldmeitwastheLordJesus,thatdwellethontherighthandoftheMostHigh。Andthus,saidhe,youmustbejustifiedbyhim,evenbytrustingtowhathehathdonebyhimself,inthedaysofhisflesh,andsufferedwhenhedidhangonthetree。
  Iaskedhimfurther,howthatman’srighteousnesscouldbeofthatefficacytojustifyanotherbeforeGod?AndhetoldmehewasthemightyGod,anddidwhathedid,anddiedthedeathalso,notforhimself,butforme;towhomhisdoings,andtheworthinessofthem,shouldbeimputed,ifIbelievedonhim。[Heb。10,Rom。
  6,Col。1,1Pet。1]
  {348}
  CHR。Andwhatdidyoudothen?
  HOPE。Imademyobjectionsagainstmybelieving,forthatIthoughthewasnotwillingtosaveme。
  CHR。AndwhatsaidFaithfultoyouthen?
  HOPE。Hebidmegotohimandsee。ThenIsaiditwaspresumption;
  buthesaid,No,forIwasinvitedtocome。[Matt。11:28]
  ThenhegavemeabookofJesus,hisinditing,toencouragemethemorefreelytocome;andhesaid,concerningthatbook,thateveryjotandtittlethereofstoodfirmerthanheavenandearth。
  [Matt。24:35]ThenIaskedhim,WhatImustdowhenIcame;andhetoldme,Imustentreatuponmyknees,withallmyheartandsoul,theFathertorevealhimtome。[Ps。95:6,Dan。6:10,Jer。29:12,13]
  ThenIaskedhimfurther,howImustmakemysupplicationtohim?
  Andhesaid,Go,andthoushaltfindhimuponamercy—seat,wherehesitsalltheyearlong,togivepardonandforgivenesstothemthatcome。ItoldhimthatIknewnotwhattosaywhenIcame。
  Andhebidmesaytothiseffect:
  Godbemercifultomeasinner,andmakemetoknowandbelieveinJesusChrist;forIsee,thatifhisrighteousnesshadnotbeen,orIhavenotfaithinthatrighteousness,Iamutterlycastaway。
  Lord,IhaveheardthatthouartamercifulGod,andhastordainedthatthySonJesusChristshouldbetheSaviouroftheworld;
  andmoreover,thatthouartwillingtobestowhimuponsuchapoorsinnerasIam,(andIamasinnerindeed);Lord,takethereforethisopportunityandmagnifythygraceinthesalvationofmysoul,throughthySonJesusChrist。Amen。
  [Exo。25:22,Lev。16:2,Num。7:89,Heb。4:16]
  {349}
  CHR。Anddidyoudoasyouwerebidden?
  HOPE。Yes;over,andover,andover。
  CHR。AnddidtheFatherrevealhisSontoyou?
  HOPE。Notatthefirst,norsecond,northird,norfourth,norfifth;
  no,noratthesixthtimeneither。
  CHR。Whatdidyoudothen?
  HOPE。What!whyIcouldnottellwhattodo。
  CHR。Hadyounotthoughtsofleavingoffpraying?
  HOPE。Yes;anhundredtimestwicetold。
  CHR。Andwhatwasthereasonyoudidnot?
  HOPE。Ibelievedthatthatwastruewhichhadbeentoldme,towit,thatwithouttherighteousnessofthisChrist,alltheworldcouldnotsaveme;andtherefore,thoughtIwithmyself,ifIleaveoffIdie,andIcanbutdieatthethroneofgrace。
  Andwithal,thiscameintomymind,"Thoughittarry,waitforit;
  becauseitwillsurelycome,itwillnottarry。"[Heb。2:3]
  SoIcontinuedprayinguntiltheFathershowedmehisSon。
  {350}
  CHR。Andhowwasherevealeduntoyou?
  HOPE。Ididnotseehimwithmybodilyeyes,butwiththeeyesofmyunderstanding;[Eph。1:18,19]andthusitwas:
  OnedayIwasverysad,Ithinksadderthanatanyonetimeinmylife,andthissadnesswasthroughafreshsightofthegreatnessandvilenessofmysins。AndasIwasthenlookingfornothingbuthell,andtheeverlastingdamnationofmysoul,suddenly,asIthought,IsawtheLordJesusChristlookdownfromheavenuponme,andsaying,"BelieveontheLordJesusChrist,andthoushaltbesaved。"
  [Acts16:30,31]
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  {351}
  ButIreplied,Lord,Iamagreat,averygreatsinner。
  Andheanswered,"Mygraceissufficientforthee。"[2Cor。12:9]
  ThenIsaid,But,Lord,whatisbelieving?AndthenIsawfromthatsaying,"Hethatcomethtomeshallneverhunger,andhethatbelievethonmeshallneverthirst",thatbelievingandcomingwasallone;andthathethatcame,thatis,ranoutinhisheartandaffectionsaftersalvationbyChrist,heindeedbelievedinChrist。[John6:35]Thenthewaterstoodinmineeyes,andIaskedfurther。But,Lord,maysuchagreatsinnerasIambeindeedacceptedofthee,andbesavedbythee?AndIheardhimsay,"Andhimthatcomethtome,Iwillinnowisecastout。"[John6:37]ThenIsaid,Buthow,Lord,mustIconsideroftheeinmycomingtothee,thatmyfaithmaybeplacedarightuponthee?Thenhesaid,"ChristJesuscameintotheworldtosavesinners。"[1Tim。1:15]"Heistheendofthelawforrighteousnesstoeveryonethatbelieveth。"[Rom。
  10:4]
  "Hediedforoursins,androseagainforourjustification。"
  [Rom。4:25]"Helovedus,andwashedusfromoursinsinhisownblood。"[Rev。1:5]"HeismediatorbetwixtGodandus。"
  [1Tim。2:5]"Heeverlivethtomakeintercessionforus。"
  [Heb。7:24,25]FromallwhichIgathered,thatImustlookforrighteousnessinhisperson,andforsatisfactionformysinsbyhisblood;thatwhathedidinobediencetohisFather’slaw,andinsubmittingtothepenaltythereof,wasnotforhimself,butforhimthatwillacceptitforhissalvation,andbethankful。
  Andnowwasmyheartfullofjoy,mineeyesfulloftears,andmineaffectionsrunningoverwithlovetothename,people,andwaysofJesusChrist。
  {352}
  CHR。ThiswasarevelationofChristtoyoursoulindeed;
  buttellmeparticularlywhateffectthishaduponyourspirit。
  HOPE。Itmademeseethatalltheworld,notwithstandingalltherighteousnessthereof,isinastateofcondemnation。
  ItmademeseethatGodtheFather,thoughhebejust,canjustlyjustifythecomingsinner。Itmademegreatlyashamedofthevilenessofmyformerlife,andconfoundedmewiththesenseofmineownignorance;fortherenevercamethoughtintomyheartbeforenowthatshowedmesothebeautyofJesusChrist。
  Itmademeloveaholylife,andlongtodosomethingforthehonourandgloryofthenameoftheLordJesus;yea,IthoughtthathadInowathousandgallonsofbloodinmybody,IcouldspillitallforthesakeoftheLordJesus。
  {353}
  IsawtheninmydreamthatHopefullookedbackandsawIgnorance,whomtheyhadleftbehind,comingafter。Look,saidhetoChristian,howfaryonderyoungsterloiterethbehind。
  CHR。Ay,ay,Iseehim;hecarethnotforourcompany。
  HOPE。ButItrowitwouldnothavehurthimhadhekeptpacewithushitherto。
  CHR。Thatistrue;butIwarrantyouhethinkethotherwise。
  HOPE。That,Ithink,hedoth;but,however,letustarryforhim。
  Sotheydid。
  {354}
  ThenChristiansaidtohim,Comeaway,man,whydoyoustaysobehind?
  IGNOR。Itakemypleasureinwalkingalone,evenmoreagreatdealthanincompany,unlessIlikeitthebetter。
  ThensaidChristiantoHopeful,(butsoftly),DidInottellyouhecarednotforourcompany?But,however,saidhe,comeup,andletustalkawaythetimeinthissolitaryplace。
  ThendirectinghisspeechtoIgnorance,hesaid,Come,howdoyou?
  HowstandsitbetweenGodandyoursoulnow?
  {355}
  IGNOR。Ihopewell;forIamalwaysfullofgoodmotions,thatcomeintomymind,tocomfortmeasIwalk。
  CHR。Whatgoodmotions?pray,tellus。
  IGNOR。Why,IthinkofGodandheaven。
  CHR。Sodothedevilsanddamnedsouls。
  IGNOR。ButIthinkofthemanddesirethem。
  CHR。Sodomanythatareneverliketocomethere。
  "Thesoulofthesluggarddesireth,andhathnothing。"[Prov。
  13:4]
  IGNOR。ButIthinkofthem,andleaveallforthem。
  CHR。ThatIdoubt;forleavingallisahardmatter:yea,ahardermatterthanmanyareawareof。Butwhy,orbywhat,artthoupersuadedthatthouhastleftallforGodandheaven。
  {356}
  IGNOR。Myhearttellsmeso。
  CHR。Thewisemansays,"Hethattrustshisownheartisafool。"
  [Prov。28:26]
  IGNOR。Thisisspokenofanevilheart,butmineisagoodone。
  CHR。Buthowdostthouprovethat?
  IGNOR。Itcomfortsmeinhopesofheaven。
  CHR。Thatmaybethroughitsdeceitfulness;foraman’sheartmayministercomforttohiminthehopesofthatthingforwhichheyethasnogroundtohope。
  IGNOR。Butmyheartandlifeagreetogether,andthereforemyhopeiswellgrounded。
  CHR。Whotoldtheethatthyheartandlifeagreetogether?
  IGNOR。Myhearttellsmeso。
  CHR。AskmyfellowifIbeathief!Thyhearttellstheeso!
  ExcepttheWordofGodbearethwitnessinthismatter,othertestimonyisofnovalue。
  {357}
  IGNOR。Butisitnotagoodheartthathathgoodthoughts?
  andisnotthatagoodlifethatisaccordingtoGod’scommandments?
  CHR。Yes,thatisagoodheartthathathgoodthoughts,andthatisagoodlifethatisaccordingtoGod’scommandments;
  butitisonething,indeed,tohavethese,andanotherthingonlytothinkso。
  IGNOR。Pray,whatcountyougoodthoughts,andalifeaccordingtoGod’scommandments?
  CHR。Therearegoodthoughtsofdiverskinds;somerespectingourselves,someGod,someChrist,andsomeotherthings。
  IGNOR。Whatbegoodthoughtsrespectingourselves?
  CHR。SuchasagreewiththeWordofGod。
  {358}
  IGNOR。WhendoourthoughtsofourselvesagreewiththeWordofGod?
  CHR。WhenwepassthesamejudgmentuponourselveswhichtheWordpasses。Toexplainmyself——theWordofGodsaithofpersonsinanaturalcondition,"Thereisnonerighteous,thereisnonethatdoethgood。"[Rom。3]Itsaithalso,that"everyimaginationoftheheartofmanisonlyevil,andthatcontinually。"[Gen。6:5]Andagain,"Theimaginationofman’sheartisevilfromhisyouth。"[Rom。8:21]Nowthen,whenwethinkthusofourselves,havingsensethereof,thenareourthoughtsgoodones,becauseaccordingtotheWordofGod。
  IGNOR。Iwillneverbelievethatmyheartisthusbad。
  CHR。Thereforethouneverhadstonegoodthoughtconcerningthyselfinthylife。Butletmegoon。AstheWordpassethajudgmentuponourheart,soitpassethajudgmentuponourways;andwhenOURthoughtsofourheartsandwaysagreewiththejudgmentwhichtheWordgivethofboth,thenarebothgood,becauseagreeingthereto。
  {359}
  IGNOR。Makeoutyourmeaning。
  CHR。Why,theWordofGodsaiththatman’swaysarecrookedways;
  notgood,butperverse。[Ps。125:5,Prov。2:15]Itsaiththeyarenaturallyoutofthegoodway,thattheyhavenotknownit。
  [Rom。3]Now,whenamanthusthinkethofhisways,——Isay,whenhedothsensibly,andwithheart—humiliation,thusthink,thenhathhegoodthoughtsofhisownways,becausehisthoughtsnowagreewiththejudgmentoftheWordofGod。
  {360}
  IGNOR。WhataregoodthoughtsconcerningGod?
  CHR。EvenasIhavesaidconcerningourselves,whenourthoughtsofGoddoagreewithwhattheWordsaithofhim;andthatis,whenwethinkofhisbeingandattributesastheWordhathtaught,ofwhichIcannotnowdiscourseatlarge;buttospeakofhimwithreferencetous:ThenwehaverightthoughtsofGod,whenwethinkthatheknowsusbetterthanweknowourselves,andcanseesininuswhenandwherewecanseenoneinourselves;
  whenwethinkheknowsourinmostthoughts,andthatourheart,withallitsdepths,isalwaysopenuntohiseyes;also,whenwethinkthatallourrighteousnessstinksinhisnostrils,andthat,therefore,hecannotabidetoseeusstandbeforehiminanyconfidence,eveninallourbestperformances。
  {361}
  IGNOR。DoyouthinkthatIamsuchafoolastothinkGodcanseenofurtherthanI?or,thatIwouldcometoGodinthebestofmyperformances?
  CHR。Why,howdostthouthinkinthismatter?
  IGNOR。Why,tobeshort,IthinkImustbelieveinChristforjustification。
  CHR。How!thinkthoumustbelieveinChrist,whenthouseestnotthyneedofhim!Thouneitherseestthyoriginalnoractualinfirmities;
  buthastsuchanopinionofthyself,andofwhatthoudost,asplainlyrenderstheetobeonethatdidneverseeanecessityofChrist’spersonalrighteousnesstojustifytheebeforeGod。
  How,then,dostthousay,IbelieveinChrist?
  {362}
  IGNOR。Ibelievewellenoughforallthat。
  CHR。Howdostthoubelieve?
  IGNOR。IbelievethatChristdiedforsinners,andthatIshallbejustifiedbeforeGodfromthecurse,throughhisgraciousacceptanceofmyobediencetohislaw。Orthus,Christmakesmyduties,thatarereligious,acceptabletohisFather,byvirtueofhismerits;
  andsoshallIbejustified。
  {363}
  CHR。Letmegiveananswertothisconfessionofthyfaith:——
  1。Thoubelievestwithafantasticalfaith;forthisfaithisnowheredescribedintheWord。
  2。Thoubelievestwithafalsefaith;becauseittakethjustificationfromthepersonalrighteousnessofChrist,andappliesittothyown。
  3。ThisfaithmakethnotChristajustifierofthyperson,butofthyactions;andofthypersonforthyactions’sake,whichisfalse。
  4。Therefore,thisfaithisdeceitful,evensuchaswillleavetheeunderwrath,inthedayofGodAlmighty;fortruejustifyingfaithputsthesoul,assensibleofitsconditionbythelaw,uponflyingforrefugeuntoChrist’srighteousness,whichrighteousnessofhisisnotanactofgrace,bywhichhemakethforjustification,thyobedienceacceptedwithGod;buthispersonalobediencetothelaw,indoingandsufferingforuswhatthatrequiredatourhands;
  thisrighteousness,Isay,truefaithaccepteth;undertheskirtofwhich,thesoulbeingshrouded,andbyitpresentedasspotlessbeforeGod,itisaccepted,andacquitfromcondemnation。
  {364}
  IGNOR。What!wouldyouhaveustrusttowhatChrist,inhisownperson,hasdonewithoutus?Thisconceitwouldloosenthereinsofourlust,andtolerateustoliveaswelist;forwhatmatterhowwelive,ifwemaybejustifiedbyChrist’spersonalrighteousnessfromall,whenwebelieveit?
  CHR。Ignoranceisthyname,andasthynameis,soartthou;
  eventhisthyanswerdemonstratethwhatIsay。Ignorantthouartofwhatjustifyingrighteousnessis,andasignoranthowtosecurethysoul,throughthefaithofit,fromtheheavywrathofGod。
  Yea,thoualsoartignorantofthetrueeffectsofsavingfaithinthisrighteousnessofChrist,whichis,tobowandwinoverthehearttoGodinChrist,tolovehisname,hisword,ways,andpeople,andnotasthouignorantlyimaginest。
  HOPE。AskhimifeverhehadChristrevealedtohimfromheaven。
  {365}
  IGNOR。What!youareamanforrevelations!Ibelievethatwhatbothyou,andalltherestofyou,sayaboutthatmatter,isbutthefruitofdistractedbrains。
  HOPE。Why,man!ChristissohidinGodfromthenaturalapprehensionsoftheflesh,thathecannotbyanymanbesavinglyknown,unlessGodtheFatherrevealshimtothem。
  {366}
  IGNOR。Thatisyourfaith,butnotmine;yetmine,Idoubtnot,isasgoodasyours,thoughIhavenotinmyheadsomanywhimsiesasyou。
  CHR。Givemeleavetoputinaword。Yououghtnotsoslightlytospeakofthismatter;forthisIwillboldlyaffirm,evenasmygoodcompanionhathdone,thatnomancanknowJesusChristbutbytherevelationoftheFather;[Matt。11:27]yea,andfaithtoo,bywhichthesoullayethholduponChrist,ifitberight,mustbewroughtbytheexceedinggreatnessofhismightypower;
  theworkingofwhichfaith,Iperceive,poorIgnorance,thouartignorantof。[1Cor。12:3,Eph。1:18,19]Beawakened,then,seethineownwretchedness,andflytotheLordJesus;
  andbyhisrighteousness,whichistherighteousnessofGod,forhehimselfisGod,thoushaltbedeliveredfromcondemnation。
  {367}
  IGNOR。Yougosofast,Icannotkeeppacewithyou。
  Doyougoonbefore;Imuststayawhilebehind。
  Thentheysaid——
  Well,Ignorance,wiltthouyetfoolishbe,Toslightgoodcounsel,tentimesgiventhee?
  Andifthouyetrefuseit,thoushaltknow,Erelong,theevilofthydoingso。
  Remember,man,intime,stoop,donotfear;
  Goodcounseltakenwell,saves:thereforehear。
  Butifthouyetshaltslightit,thouwiltbeTheloser,(Ignorance),I’llwarrantthee。
  ThenChristianaddressedthushimselftohisfellow:——
  CHR。Well,come,mygoodHopeful,IperceivethatthouandI
  mustwalkbyourselvesagain。
  {368}
  SoIsawinmydreamthattheywentonapacebefore,andIgnorancehecamehobblingafter。ThensaidChristiantohiscompanion,Itpitiesmemuchforthispoorman,itwillcertainlygoillwithhimatlast。
  HOPE。Alas!thereareabundanceinourtowninhiscondition,wholefamilies,yea,wholestreets,andthatofpilgrimstoo;
  andiftherebesomanyinourparts,howmany,thinkyou,musttherebeintheplacewherehewasborn?
  CHR。IndeedtheWordsaith,"Hehathblindedtheireyes,lesttheyshouldsee",&c。Butnowwearebyourselves,whatdoyouthinkofsuchmen?Havetheyatnotime,thinkyou,convictionsofsin,andsoconsequentlyfearsthattheirstateisdangerous?
  HOPE。Nay,doyouanswerthatquestionyourself,foryouaretheelderman。
  CHR。ThenIsay,sometimes(asIthink)theymay;buttheybeingnaturallyignorant,understandnotthatsuchconvictionstendtotheirgood;andthereforetheydodesperatelyseektostiflethem,andpresumptuouslycontinuetoflatterthemselvesinthewayoftheirownhearts。
  {369}
  HOPE。Idobelieve,asyousay,thatfeartendsmuchtomen’sgood,andtomakethemright,attheirbeginningtogoonpilgrimage。
  CHR。Withoutalldoubtitdoth,ifitberight;forsosaystheWord,"ThefearoftheLordisthebeginningofwisdom。"
  [Prov。1:7,9:10,Job28:28,Ps。111:10]
  {370}
  HOPE。Howwillyoudescriberightfear?
  CHR。Trueorrightfearisdiscoveredbythreethings:——
  1。Byitsrise;itiscausedbysavingconvictionsforsin。
  2。ItdriveththesoultolayfastholdofChristforsalvation。
  3。ItbegettethandcontinuethinthesoulagreatreverenceofGod,hisWord,andways,keepingittender,andmakingitafraidtoturnfromthem,totherighthandortotheleft,toanythingthatmaydishonourGod,breakitspeace,grievetheSpirit,orcausetheenemytospeakreproachfully。
  HOPE。Wellsaid;Ibelieveyouhavesaidthetruth。
  ArewenowalmostgotpasttheEnchantedGround?
  CHR。Why,artthouwearyofthisdiscourse?
  HOPE。No,verily,butthatIwouldknowwhereweare。
  {371}
  CHR。Wehavenotnowabovetwomilesfurthertogothereon。
  Butletusreturntoourmatter。Nowtheignorantknownotthatsuchconvictionsastendtoputtheminfeararefortheirgood,andthereforetheyseektostiflethem。
  HOPE。Howdotheyseektostiflethem?
  {372}
  CHR。1。Theythinkthatthosefearsarewroughtbythedevil,(thoughindeedtheyarewroughtofGod);and,thinkingso,theyresistthemasthingsthatdirectlytendtotheiroverthrow。
  2。Theyalsothinkthatthesefearstendtothespoilingoftheirfaith,when,alas,forthem,poormenthattheyare,theyhavenoneatall!andthereforetheyhardentheirheartsagainstthem。
  3。Theypresumetheyoughtnottofear;and,therefore,indespiteofthem,waxpresumptuouslyconfident。
  4。Theyseethatthosefearstendtotakeawayfromthemtheirpitifuloldself—holiness,andthereforetheyresistthemwithalltheirmight。
  {373}
  HOPE。Iknowsomethingofthismyself;for,beforeIknewmyself,itwassowithme。
  CHR。Well,wewillleave,atthistime,ourneighbourIgnorancebyhimself,andfalluponanotherprofitablequestion。
  HOPE。Withallmyheart,butyoushallstillbegin。
  CHR。Wellthen,didyounotknow,abouttenyearsago,oneTemporaryinyourparts,whowasaforwardmaninreligionthen?
  HOPE。Knowhim!yes,hedweltinGraceless,atownabouttwomilesoffofHonesty,andhedweltnextdoortooneTurnback。
  {374}
  CHR。Right,hedweltunderthesameroofwithhim。Well,thatmanwasmuchawakenedonce;Ibelievethatthenhehadsomesightofhissins,andofthewagesthatwereduethereto。
  HOPE。Iamofyourmind,for,myhousenotbeingabovethreemilesfromhim,hewouldofttimescometome,andthatwithmanytears。
  TrulyIpitiedtheman,andwasnotaltogetherwithouthopeofhim;
  butonemaysee,itisnoteveryonethatcries,Lord,Lord。
  CHR。Hetoldmeoncethathewasresolvedtogoonpilgrimage,aswedonow;butallofasuddenhegrewacquaintedwithoneSave—self,andthenhebecameastrangertome。
  {375}
  HOPE。Now,sincewearetalkingabouthim,letusalittleinquireintothereasonofthesuddenbackslidingofhimandsuchothers。
  CHR。Itmaybeveryprofitable,butdoyoubegin。
  HOPE。Well,then,thereareinmyjudgmentfourreasonsforit:——
  {376}
  1。Thoughtheconsciencesofsuchmenareawakened,yettheirmindsarenotchanged;therefore,whenthepowerofguiltwearethaway,thatwhichprovokedthemtobereligiousceaseth,whereforetheynaturallyturntotheirowncourseagain,evenasweseethedogthatissickofwhathehaseaten,solongashissicknessprevailshevomitsandcastsupall;notthathedoththisofafreemind(ifwemaysayadoghasamind),butbecauseittroublethhisstomach;
  butnow,whenhissicknessisover,andsohisstomacheased,hisdesirebeingnotatallalienatefromhisvomit,heturnshimaboutandlicksupall,andsoitistruewhichiswritten,"Thedogisturnedtohisownvomitagain。"[2Pet。2:22]ThusIsay,beinghotforheaven,byvirtueonlyofthesenseandfearofthetormentsofhell,astheirsenseofhellandthefearsofdamnationchillsandcools,sotheirdesiresforheavenandsalvationcoolalso。Sothenitcomestopass,thatwhentheirguiltandfearisgone,theirdesiresforheavenandhappinessdie,andtheyreturntotheircourseagain。
  {377}
  2。Anotherreasonis,theyhaveslavishfearsthatdoovermasterthem;
  Ispeaknowofthefearsthattheyhaveofmen,for"thefearofmanbringethasnare"。[Prov。29:25]Sothen,thoughtheyseemtobehotforheaven,solongastheflamesofhellareabouttheirears,yetwhenthatterrorisalittleover,theybetakethemselvestosecondthoughts;namely,thatitisgoodtobewise,andnottorun(fortheyknownotwhat)thehazardoflosingall,or,atleast,ofbringingthemselvesintounavoidableandunnecessarytroubles,andsotheyfallinwiththeworldagain。
  {378}
  3。Theshamethatattendsreligionliesalsoasablockintheirway;
  theyareproudandhaughty;andreligionintheireyeislowandcontemptible,therefore,whentheyhavelosttheirsenseofhellandwrathtocome,theyreturnagaintotheirformercourse。
  {379}
  4。Guilt,andtomeditateterror,aregrievoustothem。
  Theylikenottoseetheirmiserybeforetheycomeintoit;
  thoughperhapsthesightofitfirst,iftheylovedthatsight,mightmakethemflywhithertherighteousflyandaresafe。
  Butbecausetheydo,asIhintedbefore,evenshunthethoughtsofguiltandterror,therefore,whenoncetheyareridoftheirawakeningsabouttheterrorsandwrathofGod,theyhardentheirheartsgladly,andchoosesuchwaysaswillhardenthemmoreandmore。
  {380}
  CHR。Youareprettynearthebusiness,forthebottomofallisforwantofachangeintheirmindandwill。Andthereforetheyarebutlikethefelonthatstandethbeforethejudge,hequakesandtrembles,andseemstorepentmostheartily,butthebottomofallisthefearofthehalter;notthathehathanydetestationoftheoffence,asisevident,because,letbutthismanhavehisliberty,andhewillbeathief,andsoaroguestill,whereas,ifhismindwaschanged,hewouldbeotherwise。
  {381}
  HOPE。NowIhaveshowedyouthereasonsoftheirgoingback,doyoushowmethemannerthereof。
  CHR。SoIwillwillingly。
  1。Theydrawofftheirthoughts,allthattheymay,fromtheremembranceofGod,death,andjudgmenttocome。
  2。Thentheycastoffbydegreesprivateduties,asclosetprayer,curbingtheirlusts,watching,sorrowforsin,andthelike。
  3。ThentheyshunthecompanyoflivelyandwarmChristians。
  4。Afterthattheygrowcoldtopublicduty,ashearing,reading,godlyconference,andthelike。
  5。Thentheybegintopickholes,aswesay,inthecoatsofsomeofthegodly;andthatdevilishly,thattheymayhaveaseemingcolourtothrowreligion(forthesakeofsomeinfirmitytheyhaveespiedinthem)behindtheirbacks。
  6。Thentheybegintoadhereto,andassociatethemselveswith,carnal,loose,andwantonmen。
  7。Thentheygivewaytocarnalandwantondiscoursesinsecret;
  andgladaretheyiftheycanseesuchthingsinanythatarecountedhonest,thattheymaythemoreboldlydoitthroughtheirexample。
  8。Afterthistheybegintoplaywithlittlesinsopenly。
  9。Andthen,beinghardened,theyshowthemselvesastheyare。
  Thus,beinglaunchedagainintothegulfofmisery,unlessamiracleofgracepreventit,theyeverlastinglyperishintheirowndeceivings。
  {382}
  NowIsawinmydream,thatbythistimethePilgrimsweregotovertheEnchantedGround,andenteringintothecountryofBeulah,whoseairwasverysweetandpleasant,thewaylyingdirectlythroughit,theysolacedthemselvesthereforaseason。Yea,heretheyheardcontinuallythesingingofbirds,andsaweverydaytheflowersappearontheearth,andheardthevoiceoftheturtleintheland。