AllthroughthesemeditationsrantheundercurrentofanabsolutetrustinSophyViner。Shethoughtofthegirlwithaminglingofantipathyandconfidence。Itwashumiliatingtoherpridetorecognizekindredimpulsesinacharacterwhichshewouldhavelikedtofeelcompletelyalientoher。
Butwhatindeedwasthegirlreallylike?Sheseemedtohavenoscruplesandathousanddelicacies。ShehadgivenherselftoDarrow,andconcealedtheepisodefromOwenLeath,withnomoreapparentsenseofdebasementthanthevulgarestofadventuresses;yetshehadinstantlyobeyedthevoiceofherheartwhenitbadeherpartfromtheoneandservetheother。
Annatriedtopicturewhatthegirl’slifemusthavebeen:
whatexperiences,whatinitiations,hadformedher。Butherowntraininghadbeentoodifferent:therewereveilsshecouldnotlift。Shelookedbackathermarriedlife,anditscolourlessuniformitytookonanairofhighrestraintandorder。Wasitbecauseshehadbeensoincuriousthatithadwornthatlooktoher?Itstruckherwithamazementthatshehadnevergivenathoughttoherhusband’spast,orwonderedwhathedidandwherehewentwhenhewasawayfromher。Ifshehadbeenaskedwhatshesupposedhethoughtaboutwhentheywereapart,shewouldinstantlyhaveanswered:hissnuff—boxes。Ithadneveroccurredtoherthathemighthavepassions,interests,preoccupationsofwhichshewasabsolutelyignorant。YethewentuptoParisratherregularly:ostensiblytoattendsalesandexhibitions,ortoconferwithdealersandcollectors。Shetriedtopicturehim,straight,trim,beautifullybrushedandvarnished,walkingfurtivelydownaquietstreet,andlookingabouthimbeforeheslippedintoadoorway。Sheunderstoodnowthatshehadbeencoldtohim:whatmorelikelythanthathehadsoughtcompensations?Allmenwerelikethat,shesupposed——nodoubthersimplicityhadamusedhim。
IntheactoftransposingFraserLeathintoaDonJuanshewaspulledupbytheironicperceptionthatshewassimplytryingtojustifyDarrow。Shewantedtothinkthatallmenwere"likethat"becauseDarrowwas"likethat":shewantedtojustifyheracceptanceofthefactbypersuadingherselfthatonlythroughsuchconcessionscouldwomenlikeherselfhopetokeepwhattheycouldnotgiveup。Andsuddenlyshewasfilledwithangeratherblindness,andthenatherdisastrousattempttosee。WhyhadsheforcedthetruthoutofDarrow?Ifonlyshehadheldhertonguenothingneedeverhavebeenknown。SophyVinerwouldhavebrokenherengagement,Owenwouldhavebeensentaroundtheworld,andherowndreamwouldhavebeenunshattered。Butshehadprobed,insisted,cross—examined,notrestedtillshehaddraggedthesecrettothelight。Shewasoneofthelucklesswomenwhoalwayshavethewrongaudacities,andwhoalwaysknowit……
Wasitshe,AnnaLeath,whowaspicturingherselftoherselfinthatway?Sherecoiledfromherthoughtsasifwithasenseofdemoniacpossession,andthereflashedthroughherthelongingtoreturntoheroldstateoffearlessignorance。IfatthatmomentshecouldhavekeptDarrowfromfollowinghertoGivreshewouldhavedoneso……
Buthecame;andwiththesightofhimtheturmoilfellandshefeltherselfreassured,rehabilitated。Hearrivedtowarddusk,andshemotoredtoFrancheuiltomeethim。Shewantedtoseehimassoonaspossible,forshehaddivined,throughthenewinsightthatwasinher,thatonlyhispresencecouldrestorehertoanormalviewofthings。Inthemotor,astheyleftthetownandturnedintothehigh—
road,heliftedherhandandkissedit,andsheleanedagainsthim,andfeltthecurrentsflowbetweenthem。Shewasgratefultohimfornotsayinganything,andfornotexpectinghertospeak。Shesaidtoherself:"Henevermakesamistake——healwaysknowswhattodo";andthenshethoughtwithastartthatitwasdoubtlessbecausehehadsooftenbeeninsuchsituations。Theideathathistactwasakindofprofessionalexpertnessfilledherwithrepugnance,andinsensiblyshedrewawayfromhim。Hemadenomotiontobringhernearer,andsheinstantlythoughtthatthatwascalculatedtoo。Shesatbesidehiminfrozenmisery,wonderingwhether,henceforth,shewouldmeasureinthiswayhiseverylookandgesture。Neitherofthemspokeagaintillthemotorturnedunderthedarkarchoftheavenue,andtheysawthelightsofGivretwinklingatitsend。ThenDarrowlaidhishandonhersandsaid:"Iknow,dear——"andthehardnessinhermelted。"He’ssufferingasIam,"shethought;andforamomentthebalefulfactbetweenthemseemedtodrawthemcloserinsteadofwallingthemupintheirseparatewretchedness。
Itwaswonderfultobeoncemorere—enteringthedoorsofGivrewithhim,andastheoldhousereceivedthemintoitsmellowsilenceshehadagainthesenseofpassingoutofadreadfuldreamintothereassuranceofkindlyandfamiliarthings。Itdidnotseempossiblethatthesequietrooms,sofulloftheslowly—distilledaccumulationsofafastidioustaste,shouldhavebeenthesceneoftragicdissensions。
Thememoryofthemseemedtobeshutoutintothenightwiththeclosingandbarringofitsdoors。
Atthetea—tableintheoak—roomtheyfoundMadamedeChantelleandEffie。Thelittlegirl,catchingsightofDarrow,raceddownthedrawing—roomstomeethim,andreturnedintriumphonhisshoulder。Annalookedatthemwithasmile。Effie,forallhergraces,wascharyofsuchfavours,andhermotherknewthatinaccordingthemtoDarrowshehadadmittedhimtothecirclewhereOwenhadhithertoruled。
Overthetea—tableDarrowgaveMadamedeChantelletheexplanationofhissuddenreturnfromEngland。OnreachingLondon,hetoldher,hehadfoundthatthesecretaryhewastohavereplacedwasdetainedtherebytheillnessofhiswife。TheAmbassador,knowingDarrow’surgentreasonsforwishingtobeinFrance,hadimmediatelyproposedhisgoingback,andawaitingatGivrethesummonstorelievehiscolleague;andhehadjumpedintothefirsttrain,withoutevenwaitingtotelegraphthenewsofhisrelease。Hespokenaturally,easily,inhisusualquietvoice,takinghisteafromEffie,helpinghimselftothetoastshehanded,andstoopingnowandthentostrokethedozingterrier。Andsuddenly,asAnnalistenedtohisexplanation,sheaskedherselfifitweretrue。
Thequestion,ofcourse,wasabsurd。Therewasnopossiblereasonwhyheshouldinventafalseaccountofhisreturn,andeveryprobabilitythattheversionhegavewastherealone。ButhehadlookedandspokeninthesamewaywhenhehadansweredherprobingquestionsaboutSophyViner,andshereflectedwithachilloffearthatshewouldneveragainknowifhewerespeakingthetruthornot。Shewassurehelovedher,andshedidnotfearhisinsincerityasmuchasherowndistrustofhim。Foramomentitseemedtoherthatthismustcorrupttheverysourceoflove;thenshesaidtoherself:"Byandbye,whenIamaltogetherhis,weshallbesoneareachotherthattherewillbenoroomforanydoubtsbetweenus。"Butthedoubtsweretherenow,onemomentlulledtoquiescence,thenextmoretorturinglyalert。WhenthenurseappearedtosummonEffie,thelittlegirl,afterkissinghergrandmother,entrenchedherselfonDarrow’skneewiththeimperiousdemandtobecarrieduptobed;andAnna,whileshelaughinglyprotested,saidtoherselfwithapang:"CanIgiveherafatheraboutwhomI
thinksuchthings?"
ThethoughtofEffie,andofwhatsheowedtoEffie,hadbeenthefundamentalreasonforherdelaysandhesitationswhensheandDarrowhadcometogetheragaininEngland。Herownfeelingwassoclearthatbutforthatscrupleshewouldhaveputherhandinhisatonce。Buttillshehadseenhimagainshehadneverconsideredthepossibilityofre—
marriage,andwhenitsuddenlyconfrontedheritseemed,forthemoment,todisorganizethelifeshehadplannedforherselfandherchild。ShehadnotspokenofthistoDarrowbecauseitappearedtoherasubjecttobedebatedwithinherownconscience。Thequestion,then,wasnotastohisfitnesstobecometheguideandguardianofherchild;nordidshefearthatherloveforhimwoulddepriveEffieoftheleastfractionofhertenderness,sinceshedidnotthinkofloveassomethingmeasuredandexhaustiblebutasatreasureperpetuallyrenewed。WhatshequestionedwasherrighttointroduceintoherlifeanyinterestsanddutieswhichmightrobEffieofapartofhertime,orlessentheclosenessoftheirdailyintercourse。
Shehaddecidedthisquestionasitwasinevitablethatsheshould;butnowanotherwasbeforeher。Assuredly,atherage,therewasnopossiblereasonwhysheshouldcloisterherselftobringupherdaughter;buttherewaseveryreasonfornotmarryingamaninwhomherownfaithwasnotcomplete……
XXXIV
Whenshewokethenextmorningshefeltagreatlightnessofheart。SherecalledherlastawakeningatGivre,threedaysbefore,whenithadseemedasthoughallherlifehadgonedownindarkness。NowDarrowwasoncemoreunderthesameroofwithher,andoncemorehisnearnesssufficedtomaketheloominghorrordropaway。Shecouldalmosthavesmiledatherscruplesofthenightbefore:asshelookedbackonthemtheyseemedtobelongtotheoldignoranttimoroustimewhenshehadfearedtolooklifeintheface,andhadbeenblindtothemysteriesandcontradictionsofthehumanheartbecauseherownhadnotbeenrevealedtoher。Darrowhadsaid:"Youweremadetofeeleverything";andtofeelwassurelybetterthantojudge。
Whenshecamedownstairshewasalreadyintheoak—roomwithEffieandMadamedeChantelle,andthesenseofreassurancewhichhispresencegaveherwasmergedinthereliefofnotbeingabletospeakofwhatwasbetweenthem。Butthereitwas,inevitably,andwhenevertheylookedateachothertheysawit。Inherdreadofgivingitamoretangibleshapeshetriedtodevisemeansofkeepingthelittlegirlwithher,and,whenthelatterhadbeencalledawaybythenurse,foundanexcuseforfollowingMadamedeChantelleupstairstothepurplesitting—room。ButaconfidentialtalkwithMadamedeChantelleimpliedthedetaileddiscussionofplansofwhichAnnacouldhardlyyetbeartoconsiderthevaguestoutline:thedateofhermarriage,therelativeadvantagesofsailingfromLondonorLisbon,thepossibilityofhiringahabitablehouseattheirnewpost;and,whentheseproblemswereexhausted,theapplicationofthesamemethodtothesubjectofOwen’sfuture。
Hisgrandmother,havingnosuspicionoftherealreasonofSophyViner’sdeparture,hadthoughtit"extremelysuitable"
oftheyounggirltowithdrawtotheshelterofheroldfriends’roofinthehourofbridalpreparation。ThismaidenlyretreathadinfactimpressedMadamedeChantellesofavourablythatshewasdisposedforthefirsttimetotalkoverOwen’sprojects;andaseveryhumaneventtranslateditselfforherintotermsofsocialanddomesticdetail,Annahadperforcetotravelthesameroundagain。
ShefeltamomentaryreliefwhenDarrowpresentlyjoinedthem;buthiscomingservedonlytodrawtheconversationbacktothequestionoftheirownfuture,andAnnafeltanewpangassheheardhimcalmlyandlucidlydiscussingit。
Didsuchself—possessionimplyindifferenceorinsincerity?
Inthatproblemhermindperpetuallyrevolved;andshedreadedtheoneanswerasmuchastheother。
Shewasresolvedtokeeponhercourseasthoughnothinghadhappened:tomarryDarrowandneverlettheconsciousnessofthepastintrudeitselfbetweenthem;butshewasbeginningtofeelthattheonlywayofattainingtothisstateofdetachmentfromtheirreparablewasonceforalltoturnbackwithhimtoitscontemplation。AssoonasthisdesirehadgerminateditbecamesostronginherthatsheregrettedhavingpromisedEffietotakeheroutfortheafternoon。
Butshecouldthinkofnopretextfordisappointingthelittlegirl,andsoonafterluncheonthethreesetforthinthemotortoshowDarrowachateaufamousintheannalsoftheregion。DuringtheirexcursionAnnafounditimpossibletoguessfromhisdemeanourifEffie’spresencebetweenthemwasasmuchofastraintohiscomposureastohers。Heremainedimperturbablygood—humouredandappreciativewhiletheywenttheroundofthemonument,andsheremarkedonlythatwhenhethoughthimselfunnoticedhisfacegrewgraveandhisanswerscamelesspromptly。
Onthewayback,twoorthreemilesfromGivre,shesuddenlyproposedthattheyshouldwalkhomethroughtheforestwhichskirtedthatsideofthepark。Darrowacquiesced,andtheygotoutandsentEffieoninthemotor。TheirwayledthroughabitofsoberFrenchwoodland,flatasafadedtapestry,butwithgleamsofliveemeraldlingeringhereandthereamongitsbrownsandochres。Theluminousgreyairgavevividnesstoitsdyingcolours,andveiledthedistantglimpsesofthelandscapeinsoftuncertainty。InsuchasolitudeAnnahadfancieditwouldbeeasiertospeak;butasshewalkedbesideDarrowoverthedeepsoundlessflooringofbrownmossthewordsonherlipstookflightagain。Itseemedimpossibletobreakthespellofquietjoywhichhispresencelaidonher,andwhenhebegantotalkoftheplacetheyhadjustvisitedsheansweredhisquestionsandthenwaitedforwhatheshouldsaynext……No,decidedlyshecouldnotspeak;shenolongerevenknewwhatshehadmeanttosay……
Thesameexperiencerepeateditselfseveraltimesthatdayandthenext。WhensheandDarrowwereapartsheexhaustedherselfinappealandinterrogation,sheformulatedwithaferventlucidityeverypointinherimaginaryargument。Butassoonasshewasalonewithhimsomethingdeeperthanreasonandsubtlerthanshynesslaiditsbenumbingtouchuponher,andthedesiretospeakbecamemerelyadimdisquietude,throughwhichhislooks,hiswords,histouch,reachedherasthroughamistofbodilypain。Yetthisinertiawastornbywildflashesofresistance,andwhentheywereapartshebegantoprepareagainwhatshemeanttosaytohim。
Sheknewhecouldnotbewithherwithoutbeingawareofthisinnerturmoil,andshehopedhewouldbreakthespellbysomereleasingword。Butshepresentlyunderstoodthatherecognizedthefutilityofwords,andwasresolutelybentonholdinghertoherownpurposeofbehavingasifnothinghadhappened。Oncemoresheinwardlyaccusedhimofinsensibility,andherimaginationwasbesetbytormentingvisionsofhispast……Hadsuchthingshappenedtohimbefore?Iftheepisodehadbeenanisolatedaccident——"amomentoffollyandmadness",ashehadcalledit——shecouldunderstand,oratleastbegintounderstand(foratacertainpointherimaginationalwaysturnedback);butifitwereamerelinkinachainofsimilarexperiments,thethoughtofitdishonouredherwholepast……
Effie,intheinterregnumbetweengovernesses,hadbeengivenleavetodinedownstairs;andAnna,ontheeveningofDarrow’sreturn,keptthelittlegirlwithhertilllongafterthenursehadsignalledfromthedrawing—roomdoor。
Whenatlengthshehadbeencarriedoff,Annaproposedagameofcards,andafterthisdiversionhaddrawntoitslanguidcloseshesaidgood—nighttoDarrowandfollowedMadamedeChantelleupstairs。ButMadamedeChantelleneversatuplate,andthesecondevening,withtheamiablyimpliedintentionofleavingAnnaandDarrowtothemselves,shetookanearlierleaveofthemthanusual。
Annasatsilent,listeningtohersmallstiffstepsastheyminceddownthehallanddiedoutinthedistance。MadamedeChantellehadbrokenherwoodenembroideryframe,andDarrow,havingofferedtorepairit,haddrawnhischairuptoatablethatheldalamp。Annawatchedhimashesatwithbentheadandknittedbrows,tryingtofittogetherthedisjoinedpieces。Thesightofhim,sotranquillyabsorbedinthistriflingbusiness,seemedtogivetothequietroomaperfumeofintimacy,tofillitwithasenseofsweetfamiliarhabit;anditcameoverheragainthatsheknewnothingoftheinnerthoughtsofthismanwhowassittingbyherasahusbandmight。Thelamplightfellonhiswhiteforehead,onthehealthybrownofhischeek,thebacksofhisthinsunburnthands。Asshewatchedthehandshersenseofthembecameasvividasatouch,andshesaidtoherself:
"ThatotherwomanhassatandwatchedhimasIamdoing。
ShehasknownhimasIhaveneverknownhim……Perhapsheisthinkingofthatnow。OrperhapshehasforgottenitallascompletelyasIhaveforgotteneverythingthathappenedtomebeforehecame……"
Helookedyoung,active,storedwithstrengthandenergy;
notthemanforvainrepiningsorlongmemories。Shewonderedwhatshehadtoholdorsatisfyhim。Helovedhernow;shehadnodoubtofthat;buthowcouldshehopetokeephim?Theyweresonearlyofanagethatalreadyshefeltherselfhissenior。Asyetthedifferencewasnotvisible;outwardlyatleasttheywerematched;butill—
healthorunhappinesswouldsoondoawaywiththisequality。
Shethoughtwithapangofbitterness:"Hewon’tgrowanyolderbecausehedoesn’tfeelthings;andbecausehedoesn’t,ISHALL……"
Andwhensheceasedtopleasehim,whatthen?Hadhethetraditionoffaithtothespokenvow,orthedeeperpietyoftheunspokendedication?Whatwashistheory,whathisinnerconvictioninsuchmatters?Butwhatdidshecareforhisconvictionsorhistheories?Nodoubthelovedhernow,andbelievedhewouldalwaysgoonlovingher,andwaspersuadedthat,ifheceasedto,hisloyaltywouldbeproofagainstthechange。Whatshewantedtoknowwasnotwhathethoughtaboutitinadvance,butwhatwouldimpelorrestrainhimatthecrucialhour。Sheputnofaithinherownarts:shewastoosureofhavingnone!Andifsomebeneficentenchanterhadbestowedthemonher,sheknewnowthatshewouldhaverejectedthegift。Shecouldhardlyconceiveofwantingthekindoflovethatwasastateonecouldbecozenedinto……
Darrow,puttingawaytheframe,walkedacrosstheroomandsatdownbesideher;andshefelthehadsomethingspecialtosay。
"They’resuretosendformeinadayortwonow,"hebegan。
Shemadenoanswer,andhecontinued:"You’lltellmebeforeIgowhatdayI’mtocomebackandgetyou?"
ItwasthefirsttimesincehisreturntoGivrethathehadmadeanydirectallusiontothedateoftheirmarriage;andinsteadofansweringhimshebrokeout:"There’ssomethingI’vebeenwantingyoutoknow。TheotherdayinParisIsawMissViner。"
Shesawhimflushwiththeintensityofhissurprise。
"Yousentforher?"
"No;sheheardfromAdelaidethatIwasinParisandshecame。Shecamebecauseshewantedtourgemetomarryyou。
Ithoughtyououghttoknowwhatshehaddone。"
Darrowstoodup。"I’mgladyou’vetoldme。"Hespokewithavisibleeffortatcomposure。Hereyesfollowedhimashemovedaway。
"Isthatall?"heaskedafteraninterval。
"Itseemstomeagreatdeal。"
"It’swhatshe’dalreadyaskedme。"Hisvoiceshowedherhowdeeplyhewasmoved,andathrobofjealousyshotthroughher。
"Oh,itwasforyoursake,Iknow!"Hemadenoanswer,andsheadded:"She’sbeenexceedinglygenerous……Whyshouldn’twespeakofit?"
Shehadloweredherhead,butthroughherdroppedlidssheseemedtobewatchingthecrowdedsceneofhisface。
"I’venotshrunkfromspeakingofit。"
"Speakingofher,then,Imean。ItseemstomethatifI
couldtalktoyouaboutherIshouldknowbetter————"
Shebrokeoff,confused,andhequestioned:"Whatisityouwanttoknowbetter?"
Thecolourrosetoherforehead。Howcouldshetellhimwhatshescarcelydaredowntoherself?Therewasnothingshedidnotwanttoknow,nofoldorcrannyofhissecretthatherawakenedimaginationdidnotstraintopenetrate;
butshecouldnotexposeSophyVinertothebasefingeringsofaretrospectivejealousy,norDarrowtothetemptationofbelittlingherintheefforttobetterhisowncase。Thegirlhadbeenmagnificent,andtheonlyworthyreturnthatAnnacouldmakewastotakeDarrowfromherwithoutaquestionifshetookhimatall……
Sheliftedhereyestohisface。"IthinkIonlywantedtospeakhername。It’snotrightthatweshouldseemsoafraidofit。IfIwerereallyafraidofitIshouldhavetogiveyouup,"shesaid。
Hebentoverherandcaughthertohim。"Ah,youcan’tgivemeupnow!"heexclaimed。
Shesufferedhimtoholdherfastwithoutspeaking;buttheolddreadwasbetweenthemagain,anditwasonherlipstocryout:"HowcanIhelpit,whenIAMsoafraid?"
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Thenextmorningthedreadwasstillthere,andsheunderstoodthatshemustsnatchherselfoutofthetorporofthewillintowhichshehadbeengraduallysinking,andtellDarrowthatshecouldnotbehiswife。
Theknowledgecametoherinthewatchesofasleeplessnight,when,throughthetearsofdisenchantedpassion,shestaredbackuponherpast。Thereitlaybeforeher,hersoleromance,inallitspaltrypoverty,thecheapestofcheapadventures,themostpitifulofsentimentalblunders。
Shelookedaboutherroom,theroomwhere,forsomanyyears,ifherhearthadbeenquiescentherthoughtshadbeenalive,andpicturedherselfhenceforthcoweringbeforeathrongofmeansuspicions,ofunavowedcompromisesandconcessions。Inthatmomentofself—searchingshesawthatSophyVinerhadchosenthebetterpart,andthatcertainrenunciationsmightenrichwherepossessionwouldhaveleftadesert。
Passionatereactionsofinstinctfoughtagainsttheseeffortsofherwill。Whyshouldpastorfuturecoerceher,whenthepresentwassosecurelyhers?Whyinsanelysurrenderwhattheotherwouldafterallneverhave?HersenseofironywhisperedthatifshesentawayDarrowitwouldnotbetoSophyViner,buttothefirstwomanwhocrossedhispath——as,inasimilarhour,SophyVinerherselfhadcrossedit……Butthemerefactthatshecouldthinksuchthingsofhimsenthershudderingbacktotheoppositepole。
Shepicturedherselfgraduallysubduedtosuchaconceptionoflifeandlove,shepicturedEffiegrowingupundertheinfluenceofthewomanshesawherselfbecoming——andshehidhereyesfromthehumiliationofthepicture……
TheywereatluncheonwhenthesummonsthatDarrowexpectedwasbroughttohim。HehandedthetelegramtoAnna,andshelearnedthathisAmbassador,onthewaytoaGermancure,wastobeinParisthenexteveningandwishedtoconferwithhimtherebeforehewentbacktoLondon。Theideathatthedecisivemomentwasathandwassoagitatingtoherthatwhenluncheonwasoversheslippedawaytotheterraceandthencewentdownalonetothegarden。Thedaywasgreybutmild,withtheheavinessofdecayintheair。Sherambledonaimlessly,followingunderthedenudedboughsthepathsheandDarrowhadtakenontheirfirstwalktotheriver。
Shewassurehewouldnottrytoovertakeher:surehewouldguesswhyshewishedtobealone。Thereweremomentswhenitseemedtodoubleherlonelinesstobesocertainofhisreadingherheartwhileshewassodesperatelyignorantofhis……
Shewanderedonformorethananhour,andwhenshereturnedtothehouseshesaw,assheenteredthehall,thatDarrowwasseatedatthedeskinOwen’sstudy。Heheardherstep,andlookingupturnedinhischairwithoutrising。Theireyesmet,andshesawthathiswereclearandsmiling。Hehadaheapofpapersathiselbowandwasevidentlyengagedinsomeofficialcorrespondence。Shewonderedthathecouldaddresshimselfsocomposedlytohistask,andthenironicallyreflectedthatsuchdetachmentwasasignofhissuperiority。Shecrossedthethresholdandwenttowardhim;
butassheadvancedshehadasuddenvisionofOwen,standingoutsideinthecoldautumnduskandwatchingDarrowandSophyVinerastheyfacedeachotheracrossthelamplitdesk……Theevocationwassovividthatitcaughtherbreathlikeablow,andshesankdownhelplesslyonthedivanamongthepiled—upbooks。Distinctly,atthemoment,sheunderstoodthattheendhadcome。"WhenhespeakstomeI
willtellhim!"shethought