Therulers,andthewiseandlearnedmenofthecommunity,werelongerinacknowledgingtheinfluenceofHester’sgoodqualitiesthanthepeople。Theprejudiceswhichtheysharedincommonwiththelatterwerefortifiedinthemselvesbyanironframeworkofreasoning,thatmadeitafartougherlabourtoexpelthem。Daybyday,nevertheless,theirsourandrigidwrinkleswererelaxingintosomethingwhich,intheduecourseofyears,mightgrowtobeanexpressionofalmostbenevolence。Thusitwaswiththemenofrank,onwhomtheireminentpositionimposedtheguardianshipofthepublicmorals。Individualsinprivatelife,meanwhile,hadquiteforgivenHesterPrynneforherfrailty;nay,more,theyhadbeguntolookuponthescarletletterasthetoken,notofthatonesin,forwhichshehadbornesolonganddrearyapenance,butofhermanygooddeedssince。"Doyouseethatwomanwiththeembroideredbadge?"theywouldsaytostrangers。"ItisourHester—thetown’sownHester—
whoissokindtothepoor,sohelpfultothesick,socomfortabletotheafflicted!"Then,itistrue,thepropensityofhumannaturetotelltheveryworstofitself,whenembodiedinthepersonofanother,wouldconstrainthemtowhispertheblackscandalofbygoneyears。
Itwasnonethelessafact,however,that,intheeyesoftheverymenwhospokethus,thescarletletterhadtheeffectofthecrossonanun’sbosom。Itimpartedtothewearerakindofsacredness,whichenabledhertowalksecurelyamidallperil。Hadshefallenamongthieves,itwouldhavekepthersafe。Itwasreported,andbelievedbymany,thatanIndianhaddrawnhisarrowagainstthebadge,andthatthemissilestruckit,butfellharmlesstotheground。
Theeffectofthesymbol—or,rather,ofthepositioninrespecttosocietythatwasindicatedbyit—onthemindofHesterPrynneherself,waspowerfulandpeculiar。Allthelightandgracefulfoliageofhercharacterhadbeenwitheredupbythisred—hotbrand,andhadlongagofallenaway,leavingabareandharshoutline,whichmighthavebeenrepulsive,hadshepossessedfriendsorcompanionstoberepelledbyit。Eventheattractivenessofherpersonhadundergoneasimilarchange。Itmightbepartlyowingtothestudiedausterityofherdress,andpartlytothelackofdemonstrationinhermanners。
Itwasasadtransformation,too,thatherrichandluxurianthairhadeitherbeencutoff,orwassocompletelyhiddenbyacap,thatnotashininglockofiteveroncegushedintothesunshine。Itwasdueinparttoallthesecauses,butstillmoretosomethingelse,thatthereseemedtobenolongeranythinginHester’sfaceforLovetodwellupon;nothinginHester’sform,thoughmajesticandstatue—like,thatPassionwouldeverdreamofclaspinginitsembrace;nothinginHester’sbosom,tomakeiteveragainthepillowofAffection。Someattributehaddepartedfromher,thepermanenceofwhichhadbeenessentialtokeepherawoman。Suchisfrequentlythefate,andsuchthesterndevelopment,ofthefemininecharacterandperson,whenthewomanhasencountered,andlivedthrough,anexperienceofpeculiarseverity。Ifshebealltenderness,shewilldie。Ifshesurvive,thetendernesswilleitherbecrushedoutofher,or—andtheoutwardsemblanceisthesame—crushedsodeeplyintoherheartthatitcannevershowitselfmore。Thelatterisperhapsthetruesttheory。Shewhohasoncebeenwoman,andceasedtobeso,mightatanymomentbecomeawomanagain,iftherewereonlythemagictouchtoeffectthetransfiguration。WeshallseewhetherHesterPrynnewereafterwardssotouched,andsotransfigured。
MuchofthemarblecoldnessofHester’simpressionwastobeattributedtothecircumstance,thatherlifehadturned,inagreatmeasure,frompassionandfeeling,tothought。Standingaloneintheworld—alone,astoanydependenceonsociety,andwithlittlePearltobeguidedandprotected—alone,andhopelessofretrievingherposition,evenhadshenotscornedtoconsideritdesirable—shecastawaythefragmentsofabrokenchain。Theworld’slawwasnolawforhermind。Itwasanageinwhichthehumanintellect,newlyemancipated,hadtakenamoreactiveandawiderrangethanformanycenturiesbefore。Menoftheswordhadoverthrownnoblesandkings。
Menbolderthanthesehadoverthrownandrearranged—notactually,butwithinthesphereoftheory,whichwastheirmostrealabode—thewholesystemofancientprejudice,wherewithwaslinkedmuchofancientprinciple。HesterPrynneimbibedthisspirit。Sheassumedafreedomofspeculation,thencommonenoughontheothersideoftheAtlantic,butwhichourforefathers,hadtheyknownit,wouldhaveheldtobeadeadliercrimethanthatstigmatisedbythescarletletter。Inherlonesomecottagebytheseashore,thoughtsvisitedher,suchasdaredtoenternootherdwellinginNewEngland;shadowyguests,thatwouldhavebeenasperilousasdemonstotheirentertainercouldtheyhavebeenseensomuchasknockingatherdoor。
Itisremarkable,thatpersonswhospeculatethemostboldlyoftenconformwiththemostperfectquietudetotheexternalregulationsofsociety。Thethoughtsufficesthem,withoutinvestingitselfinthefleshandbloodofaction。SoitseemedtobewithHester。Yet,hadlittlePearlnevercometoherfromthespiritualworld,itmighthavebeenfarotherwise。Then,shemighthavecomedowntousinhistory,handinhandwithAnnHutchinson,asthefoundressofareligioussect。Shemight,inoneofherphases,havebeenaprophetess。Shemight,andnotimprobablywould,havesuffereddeathfromthesterntribunalsoftheperiod,forattemptingtounderminethefoundationsofthePuritanestablishment。But,intheeducationofherchild,themother’senthusiasmofthoughthadsomethingtowreakitselfupon。
Providence,inthepersonofthislittlegirl,hadassignedtoHester’schargethegermandblossomofwomanhood,tobecherishedanddevelopedamidahostofdifficulties。Everythingwasagainsther。Theworldwashostile。Thechild’sownnaturehadsomethingwronginit,whichcontinuallybetokenedthatshehadbeenbornamiss—theeffluenceofhermother’slawlesspassion—andoftenimpelledHestertoask,inbitternessofheart,whetheritwereforillorgoodthatthepoorlittlecreaturehadbeenbornatall。
Indeed,thesamedarkquestionoftenroseintohermind,withreferencetothewholeraceofwomanhood。Wasexistenceworthaccepting,eventothehappiestamongthem?Asconcernedherownindividualexistence,shehadlongagodecidedinthenegative,anddismissedthepointassettled。Atendencytospeculation,thoughitmaykeepwomanquiet,asitdoesman,yetmakeshersad。Shediscerns,itmaybe,suchahopelesstaskbeforeher。Asafirststep,thewholesystemofsocietyistobetorndown,andbuiltupanew。Then,theverynatureoftheoppositesex,oritslonghereditaryhabit,whichhasbecomelikenature,istobeessentiallymodified,beforewomancanbeallowedtoassumewhatseemsafairandsuitableposition。
Finally,allotherdifficultiesbeingobviated,womancannottakeadvantageofthesepreliminaryreforms,untilsheherselfshallhaveundergoneastillmightierchange;inwhich,perhaps,theetherealessence,whereinshehashertruestlife,willbefoundtohaveevaporated。Awomanneverovercomestheseproblemsbyanyexerciseofthought。Theyarenottobesolved,oronlyinoneway。Ifherheartchancetocomeuppermost,theyvanish。Thus,HesterPrynne,whosehearthadlostitsregularandhealthythrob,wanderedwithoutaclewinthedarklabyrinthofmind;nowturnedasidebyaninsurmountableprecipice;nowstartingbackfromadeepchasm。Therewaswildandghastlysceneryallaroundher,andahomeandcomfortnowhere。Attimes,afearfuldoubtstrovetopossesshersoul,whetheritwerenotbettertosendPearlatoncetoheaven,andgoherselftosuchfuturityasEternalJusticeshouldprovide。
Thescarletletterhadnotdoneitsoffice。
Now,however,herinterviewwiththeReverendMr。Dimmesdale,onthenightofhisvigil,hadgivenheranewthemeofreflection,andhelduptoheranobjectthatappearedworthyofanyexertionandsacrificeforitsattainment。Shehadwitnessedtheintensemiserybeneathwhichtheministerstruggled,or,tospeakmoreaccurately,hadceasedtostruggle。Shesawthathestoodonthevergeoflunacy,ifhehadnotalreadysteppedacrossit。Itwasimpossibletodoubt,that,whateverpainfulefficacytheremightbeinthesecretstingofremorse,adeadliervenomhadbeeninfusedintoitbythehandthatprofferedrelief。Asecretenemyhadbeencontinuallybyhisside,underthesemblanceofafriendandhelper,andhadavailedhimselfoftheopportunitiesthusaffordedfortamperingwiththedelicatespringsofMr。Dimmesdale’snature。Hestercouldnotbutaskherself,whethertherehadnotoriginallybeenadefectoftruth,courage,andloyalty,onherownpart,inallowingtheministertobethrownintoapositionwheresomuchevilwastobeforeboded,andnothingauspicioustobehoped。Heronlyjustificationlayinthefact,thatshehadbeenabletodiscernnomethodofrescuinghimfromablackerruinthanhadoverwhelmedherself,exceptbyacquiescinginRogerChillingworth’sschemeofdisguise。Underthatimpulse,shehadmadeherchoice,andhadchosen,asitnowappeared,themorewretchedalternativeofthetwo。Shedeterminedtoredeemhererror,sofarasitmightyetbepossible。
Strengthenedbyyearsofhardandsolemntrial,shefeltherselfnolongersoinadequatetocopewithRogerChillingworthasonthatnight,abasedbysin,andhalfmaddenedbytheignominythatwasstillnew,whentheyhadtalkedtogetherintheprison—chamber。Shehadclimbedherway,sincethen,toahigherpoint。Theoldman,ontheotherhand,hadbroughthimselfnearertoherlevel,orperhapsbelowit,bytherevengewhichhehadstoopedfor。
Infine,HesterPrynneresolvedtomeetherformerhusband,anddowhatmightbeinherpowerfortherescueofthevictimonwhomhehadsoevidentlysethisgripe。Theoccasionwasnotlongtoseek。Oneafternoon,walkingwithPearlinaretiredpartofthepeninsula,shebeheldtheoldphysician,withabasketononearm,andastaffintheotherhand,stoopingalongtheground,inquestofrootsandherbstoconcocthismedicineswithal。
XIV。
HESTERANDTHEPHYSICIAN。
HESTERbadelittlePearlrundowntothemarginofthewater,andplaywiththeshellsandtangledseaweed,untilsheshouldhavetalkedawhilewithyondergathererofherbs。Sothechildflewawaylikeabird,and,makingbarehersmallwhitefeet,wentpatteringalongthemoistmarginofthesea。Hereandthereshecametoafullstop,andpeepedcuriouslyintoapool,leftbytheretiringtideasamirrorforPearltoseeherfacein。Forthpeepedather,outofthepool,withdark,glisteningcurlsaroundherhead,andanelf—smileinhereyes,theimageofalittlemaid,whomPearl,havingnootherplaymate,invitedtotakeherhand,andrunaracewithher。Butthevisionarylittlemaid,onherpart,beckonedlikewise,asiftosay,"Thisisabetterplace!Comethouintothepool!"AndPearl,steppingin,mid—legdeep,beheldherownwhitefeetatthebottom;while,outofastilllowerdepth,camethegleamofakindoffragmentarysmile,floatingtoandfrointheagitatedwater。
Meanwhile,hermotherhadaccostedthephysician。
"Iwouldspeakawordwithyou,"saidshe—"awordthatconcernsusmuch。"
"Aha!andisitMistressHesterthathasawordforoldRogerChillingworth?"answeredhe,raisinghimselffromhisstoopingposture。"Withallmyheart!Why,mistress,Iheargoodtidingsofyou,onallhands!Nolongeragothanyester—eve,amagistrate,awiseandgodlyman,wasdiscoursingofyouraffairs,MistressHester,andwhisperedmethattherehadbeenquestionconcerningyouinthecouncil。Itwasdebatedwhetherorno,withsafetytothecommonweal,yonderscarletlettermightbetakenoffyourbosom。Onmylife,Hester,Imademyentreatytotheworshipfulmagistratethatitmightbedoneforthwith!"
"Itliesnotinthepleasureofthemagistratestotakeoffthisbadge。"calmlyrepliedHester。"WereIworthytobequitofit,itwouldfallawayofitsownnature,orbetransformedintosomethingthatshouldspeakadifferentpurport。"
"Nay,then,wearit,ifitsuityoubetter,"rejoinedhe。"Awomanmustneedsfollowherownfancytouchingtheadornmentofherperson。Theletterisgailyembroidered,andshowsrightbravelyonyourbosom!"
Allthiswhile,Hesterhadbeenlookingsteadilyattheoldman,andwasshocked,aswellaswonder—smitten,todiscernwhatachangehadbeenwroughtuponhimwithinthepastsevenyears。Itwasnotsomuchthathehadgrownolder;forthoughthetracesofadvancinglifewerevisible,heborehisagewell,andseemedtoretainawiryvigourandalertness。Buttheformeraspectofanintellectualandstudiousman,calmandquiet,whichwaswhatshebestrememberedinhim,hadaltogethervanished,andbeensucceededbyaneager,searching,almostfierce,yetcarefullyguardedlook。Itseemedtobehiswishandpurposetomaskthisexpressionwithasmile;butthelatterplayedhimfalse,andflickeredoverhisvisagesoderisively,thatthespectatorcouldseehisblacknessallthebetterforit。Everandanon,too,therecameaglareofredlightoutofhiseyes;asiftheoldman’ssoulwereonfire,andkeptonsmoulderingduskilywithinhisbreast,until,bysomecasualpuffofpassion,itwasblownintoamomentaryflame。Thisherepressed,asspeedilyaspossible,andstrovetolookasifnothingofthekindhadhappened。
Inaword,oldRogerChillingworthwasastrikingevidenceofman’sfacultyoftransforminghimselfintoadevil,ifhewillonly,forareasonablespaceoftime,undertakeadevil’soffice。Thisunhappypersonhadeffectedsuchatransformation,bydevotinghimself,forsevenyears,totheconstantanalysisofaheartfulloftorture,andderivinghisenjoymentthence,andaddingfueltothosefierytortureswhichheanalysedandgloatedover。
ThescarletletterburnedonHesterPrynne’sbosom。Herewasanotherruin,theresponsibilityofwhichcamepartlyhometoher。
"Whatseeyouinmyface,"askedthephysician,"thatyoulookatitsoearnestly?"
"Somethingthatwouldmakemeweep,iftherewereanytearsbitterenoughforit,"answeredshe。"Butletitpass!ItisofyondermiserablemanthatIwouldspeak。"
"Andwhatofhim?"criedRogerChillingwortheagerly,asifhelovedthetopic,andweregladofanopportunitytodiscussitwiththeonlypersonofwhomhecouldmakeaconfidant。"Nottohidethetruth,MistressHester,mythoughtshappenjustnowtobebusywiththegentleman。Sospeakfreely;andIwillmakeanswer。"
"Whenwelastspaketogether,"saidHester,"nowsevenyearsago,itwasyourpleasuretoextortapromiseofsecrecy,astouchingtheformerrelationbetwixtyourselfandme。Asthelifeandgoodfameofyondermanwereinyourhands,thereseemednochoicetome,savetobesilent,inaccordancewithyourbehest。YetitwasnotwithoutheavymisgivingsthatIthusboundmyself;for,havingcastoffalldutytowardsotherhumanbeings,thereremainedadutytowardshim;
andsomethingwhisperedmethatIwasbetrayingit,inpledgingmyselftokeepyourcounsel。Sincethatday,nomanissoneartohimasyou。
Youtreadbehindhiseveryfootstep。Youarebesidehim,sleepingandwaking。Yousearchhisthoughts。Youburrowandrankleinhisheart!Yourclutchisonhislife,andyoucausehimtodiedailyalivingdeath;andstillheknowsyounot。Inpermittingthis,Ihavesurelyactedafalsepartbytheonlymantowhomthepowerwasleftmetobetrue!"
"Whatchoicehadyou?"askedRogerChillingworth。"Myfinger,pointedatthisman,wouldhavehurledhimfromhispulpitintoadungeon—thence,peradventure,tothegallows!"
"Ithadbeenbetterso!"saidHesterPrynne。
"WhatevilhaveIdonetheman?"askedRogerChillingworthagain。"I
tellthee,HesterPrynne,therichestfeethateverphysicianearnedfrommonarchcouldnothaveboughtsuchcareasIhavewastedonthismiserablepriest!Butformyaid,hislifewouldhaveburnedawayintorments,withinthefirsttwoyearsaftertheperpetrationofhiscrimeandthine。For,Hester,hisspiritlackedthestrengththatcouldhaveborneup,asthinehas,beneathaburdenlikethyscarletletter。Oh,Icouldrevealagoodlysecret!Butenough!Whatartcando,Ihaveexhaustedonhim。Thathenowbreathes,andcreepsuponearth,isowingalltome!"
"Betterhehaddiedatonce!"saidHesterPrynne。
"Yea,woman,thousayesttruly!"criedoldRogerChillingworth,lettingtheluridfireofhisheartblazeoutbeforehereyes。"Betterhadhediedatonce!Neverdidmortalsufferwhatthismanhassuffered。Andall,all,inthesightofhisworstenemy!Hehasbeenconsciousofme。Hehasfeltaninfluencedwellingalwaysuponhimlikeacurse。Heknew,bysomespiritualsense—fortheCreatornevermadeanotherbeingsosensitiveasthis—heknewthatnofriendlyhandwaspullingathisheart—strings,andthataneyewaslookingcuriouslyintohim,whichsoughtonlyevil,andfoundit。Butheknewnotthattheeyeandhandweremine!Withthesuperstitioncommontohisbrotherhood,hefanciedhimselfgivenovertoafiend,tobetorturedwithfrightfuldreams,anddesperatethoughts,thestingofremorse,anddespairofpardon;asaforetasteofwhatawaitshimbeyondthegrave。Butitwastheconstantshadowofmypresence!—
theclosestpropinquityofthemanwhomhehadmostvilelywronged!—
andwhohadgrowntoexistonlybythisperpetualpoisonofthedirestrevenge!Yea,indeed!—hedidnoterr!—therewasafiendathiselbow!Amortalman,withonceahumanheart,hasbecomeafiendforhisespecialtorment!"
Theunfortunatephysician,whileutteringthesewords,liftedhishandswithalookofhorror,asifhehadbeheldsomefrightfulshape,whichhecouldnotrecognise,usurpingtheplaceofhisownimageinaglass。Itwasoneofthosemoments—whichsometimesoccuronlyattheintervalofyears—whenaman’smoralaspectisfaithfullyrevealedtohismind’seye。Notimprobably,hehadneverbeforeviewedhimselfashedidnow。
"Hastthounottorturedhimenough?"saidHester,noticingtheoldman’slook。"Hashenotpaidtheeall?"
"No!—no!—hehasbutincreasedthedebt!"answeredthephysician;
andasheproceeded,hismannerlostitsfiercercharacteristics,andsubsidedintogloom。"Dostthourememberme,Hester,asIwasnineyearsagone?Eventhen,Iwasintheautumnofmydays,norwasittheearlyautumn。Butallmylifehadbeenmadeupofearnest,studious,thoughtful,quietyears,bestowedfaithfullyfortheincreaseofmineownknowledge,andfaithfully,too,thoughthislatterobjectwasbutcasualtotheother—faithfullyfortheadvancementofhumanwelfare。Nolifehadbeenmorepeacefulandinnocentthanmine;fewlivessorichwithbenefitsconferred。Dostthourememberme?WasI
not,thoughyoumightdeemmecold,neverthelessamanthoughtfulforothers,cravinglittleforhimself—kind,true,just,andofconstant,ifnotwarmaffections?WasInotallthis?"
"Allthis,andmore,"saidHester。
"AndwhatamInow?"demandedhe,lookingintoherface,andpermittingthewholeevilwithinhimtobewrittenonhisfeatures。"I
havealreadytoldtheewhatIam!Afiend!Whomademeso?"
"Itwasmyself!"criedHester,shuddering。"ItwasI,notlessthanhe。Whyhastthounotavengedthyselfonme?"
"Ihavelefttheetothescarletletter,"repliedRogerChillingworth。"Ifthathavenotavengedme,Icandonomore!"
Helaidhisfingeronit,withasmile。
"Ithasavengedthee!"answeredHesterPrynne。
"Ijudgednoless,"saidthephysician。"Andnow,whatwouldstthouwithmetouchingthisman?"
"Imustrevealthesecret,"answeredHesterfirmly。"Hemustdiscerntheeinthytruecharacter。Whatmaybetheresult,Iknownot。Butthislongdebtofconfidence,duefrommetohim,whosebaneandruinIhavebeen,shallatlengthbepaid。Sofarasconcernstheoverthroworpreservationofhisfairfameandhisearthlystate,andperchancehislife,heisinthyhands。NordoI—whomthescarletletterhasdisciplinedtotruth,thoughitbethetruthofred—hotiron,enteringintothesoul—nordoIperceivesuchadvantageinhislivinganylongeralifeofghastlyemptiness,thatIshallstooptoimplorethymercy。Dowithhimasthouwilt!Thereisnogoodforhim—nogoodforme—nogoodforthee!ThereisnogoodforlittlePearl!Thereisnopathtoguideusoutofthisdismalmaze。"
"Woman,Icouldwell—nighpitythee!"saidRogerChillingworth,unabletorestrainathrillofadmirationtoo;fortherewasaqualityalmostmajesticinthedespairwhichsheexpressed。"Thouhadstgreatelements。Peradventure,hadstthoumetearlierwithabetterlovethanmine,thisevilhadnotbeen。Ipitythee,forthegoodthathasbeenwastedinthynature!"
"AndIthee,"answeredHesterPrynne,"forthehatredthathastransformedawiseandjustmantoafiend!Wiltthouyetpurgeitoutofthee,andbeoncemorehuman?Ifnotforhissake,thendoublyforthineown!Forgive,andleavehisfurtherretributiontothePowerthatclaimsit!Isaid,butnow,thattherecouldbenogoodeventforhim,orthee,orme,whoareherewanderingtogetherinthisgloomymazeofevil,andstumbling,ateverystep,overtheguiltwherewithwehavestrewnourpath。Itisnotso!Theremightbegoodforthee,andtheealone,sincethouhastbeendeeplywronged,andhastitatthywilltopardon。Wiltthougiveupthatonlyprivilege?Wiltthourejectthatpricelessbenefit?"
"Peace,Hester,peace!"repliedtheoldman,withgloomysternness。"Itisnotgrantedmetopardon。Ihavenosuchpowerasthoutellestmeof。Myoldfaith,longforgotten,comesbacktome,andexplainsallthatwedo,andallwesuffer。Bythyfirststepawry,thoudidstplantthegermofevil;butsincethatmoment,ithasallbeenadarknecessity。Yethathavewrongedmearenotsinful,saveinakindoftypicalillusion;neitheramIfiend—like,whohavesnatchedafiend’sofficefromhishands。Itisourfate。Lettheblackflowerblossomasitmay!Nowgothyways,anddealasthouwiltwithyonderman。"
Hewavedhishandandbetookhimselfagaintohisemploymentofgatheringherbs。
XV。
HESTERANDPEARL。
SORogerChillingworth—adeformedoldfigure,withafacethathauntedmen’smemorieslongerthantheyliked—tookleaveofHesterPrynne,andwentstoopingawayalongtheearth。Hegatheredhereandthereanherb,orgrubbeduparoot,andputitintothebasketonhisarm。Hisgreybeardalmosttouchedtheground,ashecreptonward。
Hestergazedafterhimalittlewhile,lookingwithahalffantasticcuriositytoseewhetherthetendergrassofearlyspringwouldnotbeblightedbeneathhim,andshowthewaveringtrackofhisfootsteps,sereandbrown,acrossitscheerfulverdure。Shewonderedwhatsortofherbstheywere,whichtheoldmanwassoseduloustogather。Wouldnottheearth,quickenedtoanevilpurposebythesympathyofhiseye,greethimwithpoisonousshrubs,ofspecieshithertounknown,thatwouldstartupunderhisfingers?Ormightitsufficehim,thateverywholesomegrowthshouldbeconvertedintosomethingdeleteriousandmalignantathistouch?Didthesun,whichshonesobrightlyeverywhereelse,reallyfalluponhim?Orwasthere,asitratherseemed,acircleofominousshadowmovingalongwithhisdeformity,whicheverwayheturnedhimself?Andwhitherwashenowgoing?Wouldhenotsuddenlysinkintotheearth,leavingabarrenandblastedspot,where,induecourseoftime,wouldbeseendeadlynightshade,dogwood,henbane,andwhateverelseofvegetablewickednesstheclimatecouldproduce,allflourishingwithhideousluxuriance?Orwouldhespreadbat’swingsandfleeaway,lookingsomuchtheuglier,thehigherherosetowardsheaven?
"Beitsinorno,"saidHesterPrynnebitterly,asshestillgazedafterhim,"Ihatetheman!"
Sheupbraidedherselfforthesentiment,butcouldnotovercomeorlessenit。Attemptingtodoso,shethoughtofthoselong—pastdays,inadistantland,whenheusedtoemergeateventidefromtheseclusionofhisstudy,andsitdowninthefirelightoftheirhome,andinthelightofhernuptialsmile。Heneededtobaskhimselfinthatsmile,hesaid,inorderthatthechillofsomanylonelyhoursamonghisbooksmightbetakenoffthescholar’sheart。Suchsceneshadonceappearednototherwisethanhappy,butnow,asviewedthroughthedismalmediumofhersubsequentlife,theyclassedthemselvesamongherugliestremembrances。Shemarvelledhowsuchscenescouldhavebeen!Shemarvelledhowshecouldeverhavebeenwroughtupontomarryhim!Shedeemedithercrimemosttoberepentedof,thatshehadeverendured,andreciprocated,thelukewarmgraspofhishand,andhadsufferedthesmileofherlipsandeyestomingleandmeltintohisown。AnditseemedafouleroffencecommittedbyRogerChillingworth,thananywhichhadsincebeendonehim,that,inthetimewhenherheartknewnobetter,hehadpersuadedhertofancyherselfhappybyhisside。
"Yes,Ihatehim!"repeatedHester,morebitterlythanbefore。"Hebetrayedme!HehasdonemeworsewrongthanIdidhim!"
Letmentrembletowinthehandofwoman,unlesstheywinalongwithittheutmostpassionofherheart!Elseitmaybetheirmiserablefortune,asitwasRogerChillingworth’s,whensomemightiertouchthantheirownmayhaveawakenedallhersensibilities,tobereproachedevenforthecalmcontent,themarbleimageofhappiness,whichtheywillhaveimposeduponherasthewarmreality。ButHesteroughtlongagotohavedonewiththisinjustice。Whatdiditbetoken?Hadsevenlongyears,underthetortureofthescarletletter,inflictedsomuchofmisery,andwroughtoutnorepentance?
Theemotionsofthatbriefspace,whileshestoodgazingafterthecrookedfigureofoldRogerChillingworth,threwadarklightonHester’sstateofmind,revealingmuchthatshemightnototherwisehaveacknowledgedtoherself。
Hebeinggone,shesummonedbackherchild。
"Pearl!LittlePearl!Whereareyou?"
Pearl,whoseactivityofspiritneverflagged,hadbeenatnolossforamusementwhilehermothertalkedwiththeoldgathererofherbs。Atfirst,asalreadytold,shehadflirtedfancifullywithherownimageinapoolofwater,beckoningthephantomforth,and—asitdeclinedtoventure—seekingapassageforherselfintoitssphereofimpalpableearthandunattainablesky。Soonfinding,however,thateithersheortheimagewasunreal,sheturnedelsewhereforbetterpastime。Shemadelittleboatsoutofbirch—bark,andfreightedthemwithsnail—shells,andsentoutmoreventuresonthemightydeepthananymerchantinNewEngland;butthelargerpartofthemfounderedneartheshore。Sheseizedalivehorse—shoebythetail,andmadeprizeofseveralfive—fingers,andlaidoutajelly—fishtomeltinthewarmsun。Thenshetookupthewhitefoam,thatstreakedthelineoftheadvancingtide,andthrewituponthebreeze,scamperingafterit,withwingedfootsteps,tocatchthegreatsnowflakeseretheyfell。Perceivingaflockofbeach—birds,thatfedandflutteredalongtheshore,thenaughtychildpickedupherapronfullofpebbles,and,creepingfromrocktorockafterthesesmallsea—fowl,displayedremarkabledexterityinpeltingthem。Onelittlegreybird,withawhitebreast,Pearlwasalmostsure,hadbeenhitbyapebble,andflutteredawaywithabrokenwing。Butthentheelf—childsighed,andgaveuphersport;becauseitgrievedhertohavedoneharmtoalittlebeingthatwasaswildasthesea—breeze,oraswildasPearlherself。
Herfinalemploymentwastogathersea—weed,ofvariouskinds,andmakeherselfascarf,ormantle,andahead—dress,andthusassumetheaspectofalittlemermaid。Sheinheritedhermother’sgiftfordevisingdraperyandcostume。Asthelasttouchtohermermaidgarb,Pearltooksomeeel—grass,andimitated,asbestshecould,onherownbosom,thedecorationwithwhichshewassofamiliaronhermother’s。Aletter—theletterA—butfreshlygreen,insteadofscarlet!Thechildbentherchinuponherbreast,andcontemplatedthisdevicewithstrangeinterest;evenasiftheoneonlythingforwhichshehadbeensentintotheworldwastomakeoutitshiddenimport。