"Iwonderifmotherwillaskmewhatitmeans?"thoughtPearl。
Justthen,sheheardhermother’svoice,andflittingalongaslightlyasoneofthelittlesea—birds,appearedbeforeHesterPrynne,dancing,laughing,andpointingherfingertotheornamentuponherbosom。
"MylittlePearl,"saidHester,afteramoment’ssilence,"thegreenletter,andonthychildishbosom,hasnopurport。Butdostthouknow,mychild,whatthislettermeanswhichthymotherisdoomedtowear?"
"Yes,mother,"saidthechild。"ItisthegreatletterA。Thouhasttaughtmeinthehorn—book。"
Hesterlookedsteadilyintoherlittleface;but,thoughtherewasthatsingularexpressionwhichshehadsooftenremarkedinherblackeyes,shecouldnotsatisfyherselfwhetherPearlreallyattachedanymeaningtothesymbol。Shefeltamorbiddesiretoascertainthepoint。
"Dostthouknow,child,whereforethymotherwearsthisletter?"
"TrulydoI!"answeredPearl,lookingbrightlyintohermother’sface。"Itisforthesamereasonthattheministerkeepshishandoverhisheart!"
"Andwhatreasonisthat?"askedHester,halfsmilingattheabsurdincongruityofthechild’sobservation;but,onsecondthoughts,turningpale。"Whathasthelettertodowithanyheart,savemine?"
"Nay,mother,IhavetoldallIknow,"saidPearl,moreseriouslythanshewaswonttospeak。"Askyonderoldmanwhomthouhastbeentalkingwith!Itmaybehecantell。Butingoodearnestnow,motherdear,whatdoesthisscarletlettermean?—andwhydostthouwearitonthybosom?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"
Shetookhermother’shandinbothherown,andgazedintohereyeswithanearnestnessthatwasseldomseeninherwildandcapriciouscharacter。ThethoughtoccurredtoHester,thatthechildmightreallybeseekingtoapproachherwithchildlikeconfidence,anddoingwhatshecould,andasintelligentlyassheknewhow,toestablishameeting—pointofsympathy。ItshowedPearlinanunwontedaspect。Heretofore,themother,whilelovingherchildwiththeintensityofasoulaffection,hadschooledherselftohopeforlittleotherreturnthanthewaywardnessofanAprilbreeze;whichspendsitstimeinairysport,andhasitsgustsofinexplicablepassion,andispetulantinitsbestofmoods,andchillsoftenerthancaressesyou,whenyoutakeittoyourbosom;inrequitalofwhichmisdemeanours,itwillsometimes,ofitsownvaguepurpose,kissyourcheekwithakindofdoubtfultenderness,andplaygentlywithyourhair,andthenbegoneaboutitsotheridlebusiness,leavingadreamypleasureatyourheart。Andthis,moreover,wasamother’sestimateofthechild’sdisposition。Anyotherobservermighthaveseenfewbutunamiabletraits,andhavegiventhemafardarkercolouring。ButnowtheideacamestronglyintoHester’smind,thatPearl,withherremarkableprecocityandacuteness,mightalreadyhaveapproachedtheagewhenshecouldbemadeafriend,andentrustedwithasmuchofhermother’ssorrowsascouldbeimparted,withoutirreverenceeithertotheparentorthechild。InthelittlechaosofPearl’scharacter,theremightbeseenemerging—andcouldhavebeen,fromtheveryfirst—thesteadfastprinciplesofanunflinchingcourage—anuncontrollablewill—asturdypride,whichmightbedisciplinedintoself—respect—andabitterscornofmanythings,which,whenexamined,mightbefoundtohavethetaintoffalsehoodinthem。Shepossessedaffections,too,thoughhithertoacridanddisagreeable,asaretherichestflavoursofunripefruit。
Withallthesesterlingattributes,thoughtHester,theevilwhichsheinheritedfromhermothermustbegreatindeed,ifanoblewomandonotgrowoutofthiselfishchild。
Pearl’sinevitabletendencytohoverabouttheenigmaofthescarletletterseemedaninnatequalityofherbeing。Fromtheearliestepochofherconsciouslife,shehadentereduponthisasherappointedmission。HesterhadoftenfanciedthatProvidencehadadesignofjusticeandretribution,inendowingthechildwiththismarkedpropensity;butnever,untilnow,hadshebethoughtherselftoask,whether,linkedwiththatdesign,theremightnotlikewisebeapurposeofmercyandbeneficence。IflittlePearlwereentertainedwithfaithandtrust,asaspiritmessengernolessthananearthlychild,mightitnotbehererrandtosootheawaythesorrowthatlaycoldinhermother’sheart,andconverteditintoatomb?—
andtohelphertoovercomethepassion,oncesowild,andevenyetneitherdeadnorasleep,butonlyimprisonedwithinthesametomb—likeheart?
SuchweresomeofthethoughtsthatnowstirredinHester’smind,withasmuchvivacityofimpressionasiftheyhadactuallybeenwhisperedintoherear。AndtherewaslittlePearl,allthiswhile,holdinghermother’shandinbothherown,andturningherfaceupward,whilesheputthesesearchingquestions,once,andagain,andstillathirdtime。
"Whatdoesthelettermean,mother?—andwhydostthouwearit?—andwhydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"
"WhatshallIsay?"thoughtHestertoherself。"No!Ifthisbethepriceofthechild’ssympathy,Icannotpayit。"
Thenshespokealoud。
"SillyPearl,"saidshe,"whatquestionsarethese?Therearemanythingsinthisworldthatachildmustnotaskabout。WhatknowIoftheminister’sheart?Andasforthescarletletter,Iwearitforthesakeofitsgoldthread。"
Inallthesevenbygoneyears,HesterPrynnehadneverbeforebeenfalsetothesymbolonherbosom。Itmaybethatitwasthetalismanofasternandsevere,butyetaguardianspirit,whonowforsookher;
asrecognisingthat,inspiteofhisstrictwatchoverherheart,somenewevilhadcreptintoit,orsomeoldonehadneverbeenexpelled。
AsforlittlePearl,theearnestnesssoonpassedoutofherface。
Butthechilddidnotseefittoletthematterdrop。Twoorthreetimes,ashermotherandshewenthomeward,andasoftenatsuppertime,andwhileHesterwasputtinghertobed,andonceaftersheseemedtobefairlyasleep,Pearllookedup,withmischiefgleaminginherblackeyes。
"Mother,"saidshe,"whatdoesthescarletlettermean?"
Andthenextmorning,thefirstindicationthechildgaveofbeingawakewasbypoppingupherheadfromthepillow,andmakingthatotherinquiry,whichshehadsounaccountablyconnectedwithherinvestigationsaboutthescarletletter—
"Mother!—mother!—whydoestheministerkeephishandoverhisheart?"
"Holdthytongue,naughtychild!"answeredhermother,withanasperitythatshehadneverpermittedtoherselfbefore。"Donotteaseme;elseIshallshuttheeintothedarkcloset!"
XVI。
AFORESTWALK。
HESTERPRYNNEremainedconstantinherresolvetomakeknowntoMr。Dimmesdale,atwhateverriskofpresentpainorulteriorconsequences,thetruecharacterofthemanwhohadcreptintohisintimacy。Forseveraldays,however,shevainlysoughtanopportunityofaddressinghiminsomeofthemeditativewalkswhichsheknewhimtobeinthehabitoftaking,alongtheshoresofthepeninsula,oronthewoodedhillsoftheneighbouringcountry。Therewouldhavebeennoscandal,indeed,norperiltotheholywhitenessoftheclergyman’sgoodfame,hadshevisitedhiminhisownstudy;wheremanyapenitent,erenow,hadconfessedsinsofperhapsasdeepadyeastheonebetokenedbythescarletletter。But,partlythatshedreadedthesecretorundisguisedinterferenceofoldRogerChillingworth,andpartlythatherconsciousheartimputedsuspicionwherenonecouldhavebeenfelt,andpartlythatboththeministerandshewouldneedthewholewideworldtobreathein,whiletheytalkedtogether—forallthesereasons,Hesterneverthoughofmeetinghiminanynarrowerprivacythanbeneaththeopensky。
Atlast,whileattendinginasick—chamber,whithertheReverendMr。
Dimmesdalehadbeensummonedtomakeaprayer,shelearntthathehadgone,thedaybefore,tovisittheApostleEliot,amonghisIndianconverts。Hewouldprobablyreturn,byacertainhour,intheafternoonofthemorrow。Betimes,therefore,thenextday,HestertooklittlePearl—whowasnecessarilythecompanionofallhermother’sexpeditions,howeverinconvenientherpresence—andsetforth。
Theroad,afterthetwowayfarershadcrossedfromthepeninsulatothemainland,wasnootherthanafootpath。Itstraggledonwardintothemysteryoftheprimevalforest。Thishemmeditinsonarrowly,andstoodsoblackanddenseoneitherside,anddisclosedsuchimperfectglimpsesoftheskyabove,that,toHester’smind,itimagednotamissthemoralwildernessinwhichshehadsolongbeenwandering。Thedaywaschillandsombre。Overheadwasagreyexpanseofcloud,slightlystirred,however,byabreeze;sothatagleamofflickeringsunshinemightnowandthenbeseenatitssolitaryplayalongthepath。Thisflittingcheerfulnesswasalwaysatthefartherextremityofsomelongvistathroughtheforest。Thesportivesunlight—feeblysportive,atbest,inthepredominantpensivenessofthedayandscene—withdrewitselfastheycamenigh,andleftthespotswhereithaddancedthedrearier,becausetheyhadhopedtofindthembright。
"Mother,"saidlittlePearl,"thesunshinedoesnotloveyou。Itrunsawayandhidesitself,becauseitisafraidofsomethingonyourbosom。Now,see!Thereitis,playing,agoodwayoff。Standyouhere,andletmerunandcatchit。Iambutachild。Itwillnotfleefromme;forIwearnothingonmybosomyet!"
"Noreverwill,mychild,Ihope,"saidHester。
"Andwhynot,mother?"askedPearl,stoppingshortjustatthebeginningofherrace。"Willnotitcomeofitsownaccord,whenI
amawomangrown?"
"Runaway,child,"answeredhermother,"andcatchthesunshine!
Itwillsoonbegone。"
Pearlsetforth,atagreatpace,and,asHestersmiledtoperceive,didactuallycatchthesunshine,andstoodlaughinginthemidstofit,allbrightenedbyitssplendour,andscintillatingwiththevivacityexcitedbyrapidmotion。Thelightlingeredaboutthelonelychild,asifgladofsuchaplaymate,untilhermotherhaddrawnalmostnighenoughtostepintothemagiccircletoo。
"Itwillgonow,"saidPearl,shakingherhead。
"See!"answeredHester,smiling。"NowIcanstretchoutmyhand,andgraspsomeofit。"
Assheattemptedtodoso,thesunshinevanished;or,tojudgefromthebrightexpressionthatwasdancingonPearl’sfeatures,hermothercouldhavefanciedthatthechildhadabsorbeditintoherself,andwouldgiveitforthagain,withagleamaboutherpath,astheyshouldplungeintosomegloomiershade。TherewasnootherattributethatsomuchimpressedherwithasenseofnewanduntransmittedvigourinPearl’snature,asthisnever—failingvivacityofspirits;
shehadnotthediseaseofsadness,whichalmostallchildren,intheselatterdays,inherit,withthescrofula,fromthetroublesoftheirancestors。Perhapsthistoowasadisease,andbutthereflexofthewildenergywithwhichHesterhadfoughtagainsthersorrows,beforePearl’sbirth。Itwascertainlyadoubtfulcharm,impartingahard,metalliclustretothechild’scharacter。Shewanted—whatsomepeoplewantthroughoutlife—agriefthatshoulddeeplytouchher,andthushumaniseandmakehercapableofsympathy。ButtherewastimeenoughyetforlittlePearl。
"Come,mychild!"saidHester,lookingaboutherfromthespotwherePearlhadstoodstillinthesunshine。"Wewillsitdownalittlewaywithinthewood,andrestourselves。"
"Iamnotaweary,mother,"repliedthelittlegirl。"Butyoumaysitdown,ifyouwilltellmeastorymeanwhile。"
"Astory,child!"saidHester。"Andaboutwhat?"
"Oh,astoryabouttheBlackMan,"answeredPearl,takingholdofhermother’sgown,andlookingup,halfearnestly,halfmischievously,intoherface。"Howhehauntsthisforest,andcarriesabookwithhim—abig,heavybook,withironclasps;andhowthisuglyBlackManoffershisbookandanironpentoeverybodythatmeetshimhereamongthetrees;andtheyaretowritetheirnameswiththeirownblood。Andthenhesetshismarkontheirbosoms!DidstthouevermeettheBlackMan,mother?"
"Andwhotoldyouthisstory,Pearl?"askedhermother,recognisingacommonsuperstitionoftheperiod。
"Itwastheolddameinthechimney—corner,atthehousewhereyouwatchedlastnight,"saidthechild。"Butshefanciedmeasleepwhileshewastalkingofit。Shesaidthatathousandandathousandpeoplehadmethimhere,andhadwritteninhisbook,andhavehismarkonthem。Andthatugly—temperedlady,oldMistressHibbins,wasone。And,mother,theolddamesaidthatthisscarletletterwastheBlackMan’smarkonthee,andthatitglowslikearedflamewhenthoumeetesthimatmidnight,hereinthedarkwood。Isittrue,mother?
Anddostthougotomeethiminthenight—time?"
"Didstthoueverawake,andfindthymothergone?"askedHester。
"NotthatIremember,"saidthechild。"Ifthoufearesttoleavemeinourcottage,thoumightesttakemealongwiththee。Iwouldverygladlygo!But,mother,tellmenow!IstheresuchaBlackMan?Anddidstthouevermeethim?Andisthishismark?"
"WiltthouletmebeatpeaceifIoncetellthee?"askedhermother。
"Yes,ifthoutellestmeall,"answeredPearl。
"OnceinmylifeImettheBlackMan!"saidhermother。"Thisscarletletterishismark!"
Thusconversing,theyenteredsufficientlydeepintothewoodtosecurethemselvesfromtheobservationofanycasualpassengeralongtheforesttrack。Heretheysatdownonaluxuriantheapofmoss;
which,atsomeepochoftheprecedingcentury,hadbeenagiganticpine,withitsrootsandtrunkinthedarksomeshade,anditsheadaloftintheupperatmosphere。Itwasalittledellwheretheyhadseatedthemselves,withaleaf—strewnbankrisinggentlyoneitherside,andabrookflowingthroughthemidst,overabedoffallenanddrownedleaves。Thetreesimpendingoverithadflungdowngreatbranches,fromtimetotime,whichchokedupthecurrent,andcompelledittoformeddiesandblackdepthsatsomepoints;while,initsswifterandlivelierpassages,thereappearedachannel—wayofpebbles,andbrown,sparklingsand。Lettingtheeyesfollowalongthecourseofthestream,theycouldcatchthereflectedlightfromitswater,atsomeshortdistancewithintheforest,butsoonlostalltracesofitamidthebewildermentoftree—trunksandunderbrush,andhereandthereahugerockcoveredoverwithgreylichens。Allthesegianttreesandbouldersofgraniteseemedintentonmakingamysteryofthecourseofthissmallbrook;fearing,perhaps,that,withitsnever—ceasingloquacity,itshouldwhispertalesoutoftheheartoftheoldforestwhenceitflowed,ormirroritsrevelationsonthesmoothsurfaceofapool。Continually,indeed,asitstoleonward,thestreamletkeptupababble,kind,quiet,soothing,butmelancholy,likethevoiceofayoungchildthatwasspendingitsinfancywithoutplayfulness,andknewnothowtobemerryamongsadacquaintanceandeventsofsombrehue。
"Obrook!Ofoolishandtiresomelittlebrook!"criedPearl,afterlisteningawhiletoitstalk。"Whyartthousosad?Pluckupaspirit,anddonotbeallthetimesighingandmurmuring!"
Butthebrook,inthecourseofitslittlelifetimeamongtheforest—trees,hadgonethroughsosolemnanexperiencethatitcouldnothelptalkingaboutit,andseemedtohavenothingelsetosay。
Pearlresembledthebrookinasmuchasthecurrentofherlifegushedfromawell—springasmysterious,andhadflowedthroughscenesshadowedasheavilywithgloom。But,unlikethelittlestream,shedancedandsparkled,andprattledairilyalonghercourse。
"Whatdoesthissadlittlebrooksay,mother?"inquiredshe。
"Ifthouhadstasorrowofthineown,thebrookmighttelltheeofit,"answeredhermother,"evenasitistellingmeofmine!Butnow,Pearl,Ihearafootstepalongthepath,andthenoiseofoneputtingasidethebranches。Iwouldhavetheebetakethyselftoplay,andleavemetospeakwithhimthatcomesyonder。"
"IsittheBlackMan?"askedPearl。
"Wiltthougoandplay,child?"repeatedhermother。"Butdonotstrayfarintothewood。Andtakeheedthatthoucomeatmyfirstcall。"
"Yes,mother,"answeredPearl。"ButifitbetheBlackMan,wiltthounotletmestayamoment,andlookathim,withhisbigbookunderhisarm?"
"Go,sillychild!"saidhermotherimpatiently。"ItisnoBlackMan!
Thoucanstseehimnow,throughthetrees。Itistheminister!"
"Andsoitis!"saidthechild。"And,mother,hehashishandoverhisheart!Isitbecause,whentheministerwrotehisnameinthebook,theBlackMansethismarkinthatplace?Butwhydoeshenotwearitoutsidehisbosom,asthoudost,mother?"
"Gonow,child,andthoushaltteasemeasthouwiltanothertime,"criedHesterPrynne。"Butdonotstrayfar。Keepwherethoucansthearthebabbleofthebrook。"
Thechildwentsingingaway,followingupthecurrentofthebrook,andstrivingtomingleamorelightsomecadencewithitsmelancholyvoice。Butthelittlestreamwouldnotbecomforted,andstillkepttellingitsunintelligiblesecretofsomeverymournfulmysterythathadhappened—ormakingapropheticlamentationaboutsomethingthatwasyettohappen—withinthevergeofthedismalforest。SoPearl,whohadenoughofshadowinherownlittlelife,chosetobreakoffallacquaintancewiththisrepiningbrook。Shesetherself,therefore,togatheringvioletsandwood—anemones,andsomescarletcolumbinesthatshefoundgrowinginthecrevicesofahighrock。
Whenherelf—childhaddeparted,HesterPrynnemadeasteportwotowardsthetrackthatledthroughtheforest,butstillremainedunderthedeepshadowofthetrees。Shebeheldtheministeradvancingalongthepath,entirelyalone,andleaningonastaffwhichhehadcutbythewayside。Helookedhaggardandfeeble,andbetrayedanervelessdespondencyinhisair,whichhadneversoremarkablycharacterisedhiminhiswalksaboutthesettlement,norinanyothersituationwherehedeemedhimselfliabletonotice。Hereitwaswoefullyvisible,inthisintenseseclusionoftheforest,whichofitselfwouldhavebeenaheavytrialtothespirits。Therewasalistlessnessinhisgait;asifhesawnoreasonfortakingonestepfarther,norfeltanydesiretodoso,butwouldhavebeenglad,couldhebegladofanything,toflinghimselfdownattherootofthenearesttree,andlietherepassive,forevermore。Theleavesmightbestrewhim,andthesoilgraduallyaccumulateandformalittlehillockoverhisframe,nomatterwhethertherewerelifeinitorno。Deathwastoodefiniteanobjecttobewishedfor,oravoided。
ToHester’seye,theReverendMr。Dimmesdaleexhibitednosymptomofpositiveandvivacioussuffering,exceptthat,aslittlePearlhadremarked,hekepthishandoverhisheart。
XVII。
THEPASTORANDHISPARISHIONER。
SLOWLYastheministerwalked,hehadalmostgoneby,beforeHesterPrynnecouldgathervoiceenoughtoattracthisobservation。Atlength,shesucceeded。
"ArthurDimmesdale!"shesaid,faintlyatfirst;thenlouder,buthoarsely:"ArthurDimmesdale!"
"Whospeaks?"answeredtheminister。
Gatheringhimselfquicklyup,hestoodmoreerect,likeamantakenbysurpriseinamoodtowhichhewasreluctanttohavewitnesses。Throwinghiseyesanxiouslyinthedirectionofthevoice,heindistinctlybeheldaformunderthetrees,cladingarmentsso,sombre,andsolittlerelievedfromthegreytwilightintowhichthecloudedskyandtheheavyfoliagehaddarkenedthenoontide,thatheknewnotwhetheritwereawomanorashadow。Itmaybe,thathispathwaythroughlifewashauntedthus,byaspectrethathadstolenoutfromamonghisthoughts。
Hemadeastepnigher,anddiscoveredthescarletletter。
"Hester!HesterPrynne!"saidhe。"Isitthou?Artthouinlife?"
"Evenso!"sheanswered。"Insuchlifeashasbeenminethesesevenyearspast!Andthou,ArthurDimmesdale,dostthouyetlive?"
Itwasnowonderthattheythusquestionedoneanother’sactualandbodilyexistence,andevendoubtedoftheirown。Sostrangelydidtheymeet,inthedimwood,thatitwaslikethefirstencounter,intheworldbeyondthegrave,oftwospiritswhohadbeenintimatelyconnectedintheirformerlife,butnowstoodcoldlyshuddering,inmutualdread;asnotyetfamiliarwiththeirstate,norwontedtothecompanionshipofdisembodiedbeings。Eachaghost,andawe—strickenattheotherghost!Theywereawe—strickenlikewiseatthemselves;becausethecrisisflungbacktothemtheirconsciousness,andrevealedtoeachheartitshistoryandexperience,aslifeneverdoes,exceptatsuchbreathlessepochs。Thesoulbehelditsfeaturesinthemirrorofthepassingmoment。Itwaswithfear,andtremulously,and,asitwere,byaslow,reluctantnecessity,thatArthurDimmesdaleputforthhishand,chillasdeath,andtouchedthechillhandofHesterPrynne。Thegrasp,coldasitwas,tookawaywhatwasdreariestintheinterview。Theynowfeltthemselves,atleast,inhabitantsofthesamesphere。
Withoutawordmorespoken—neitherhenorsheassumingtheguidance,butwithanunexpressedconsent—theyglidedbackintotheshadowofthewoods,whenceHesterhademerged,andsatdownontheheapofmosswheresheandPearlhadbeforebeensitting。Whentheyfoundvoicetospeak,itwas,atfirst,onlytoutterremarksandinquiriessuchasanytwoacquaintancesmighthavemade,aboutthegloomysky,thethreateningstorm,and,next,thehealthofeach。Thustheywentonward,notboldly,butstepbystep,intothethemesthatwerebroodingdeepestintheirhearts。Solongestrangedbyfateandcircumstances,theyneededsomethingslightandcasualtorunbefore,andthrowopenthedoorsofintercourse,sothattheirrealthoughtsmightbeledacrossthethreshold。
Afterawhile,theministerfixedhiseyesonHesterPrynne’s。
"Hester,"saidhe,"hastthoufoundpeace?"
Shesmileddrearily,lookingdownuponherbosom。
"Hastthou?"sheasked。
"None!—nothingbutdespair!"heanswered。"WhatelsecouldIlookfor,beingwhatIam,andleadingsuchalifeasmine?WereIanatheist—amandevoidofconscience—awretchwithcoarseandbrutalinstincts—Imighthavefoundpeace,longerenow。Nay,Inevershouldhavelostit!But,asmattersstandwithmysoul,whateverofgoodcapacitythereoriginallywasinme,allofGod’sgiftsthatwerethechoicesthavebecometheministersofspiritualtorment。Hester,I
ammostmiserable。"
"Thepeoplereverencethee,"saidHester。"Andsurelythouworkestgoodamongthem!Doththisbringtheenocomfort?"
"Moremisery,Hester!—onlythemoremisery!"answeredtheclergyman,withabittersmile。"AsconcernsthegoodwhichImayappeartodo,Ihavenofaithinit。Itmustneedsbeadelusion。Whatcanaruinedsoul,likemine,effecttowardstheredemptionofothersouls?—orapollutedsoul,towardstheirpurification?Andasforthepeople’sreverence,wouldthatitwereturnedtoscornandhatred!
Canstthoudeemit,Hester,aconsolation,thatImuststandupinmypulpit,andmeetsomanyeyesturnedupwardtomyface,asifthelightofheavenwerebeamingfromit!—mustseemyflockhungryforthetruth,andlisteningtomywordsasifatongueofPentecostwerespeaking!—andthenlookinward,anddiscerntheblackrealityofwhattheyidolise?Ihavelaughed,inbitternessandagonyofheart,atthecontrastbetweenwhatIseemandwhatIam!AndSatanlaughsatit!"
"Youwrongyourselfinthis,"saidHestergently。"Youhavedeeplyandsorelyrepented。Yoursinisleftbehindyou,inthedayslongpast。Yourpresentlifeisnotlessholy,inverytruth,thanitseemsinpeople’seyes。Istherenorealityinthepenitencethussealedandwitnessedbygoodworks?Andwhereforeshoulditnotbringyoupeace?"
"No,Hester,no!"repliedtheclergyman。"Thereisnosubstanceinit!Itiscoldanddead,andcandonothingforme!Ofpenance,Ihavehadenough!Ofpenitence,therehasbeennone!Else,Ishouldlongagohavethrownoffthesegarmentsofmockholiness,andhaveshownmyselftomankindastheywillseemeatthejudgment—seat。Happyareyou,Hester,thatwearthescarletletteropenlyuponyourbosom!Mineburnsinsecret!Thoulittleknowestwhatareliefitis,afterthetormentofasevenyears’cheat,tolookintoaneyethatrecognisesmeforwhatIam!HadIonefriend—orwereitmyworstenemy!—towhom,whensickenedwiththepraisesofallothermen,Icoulddailybetakemyself,andbeknownasthevilestofallsinners,methinksmysoulmightkeepitselfalivethereby。Eventhusmuchoftruthwouldsaveme!But,now,itisallfalsehood!—allemptiness!—alldeath!"
HesterPrynnelookedintohisface,buthesitatedtospeak。Yet,utteringhislong—restrainedemotionssovehementlyashedid,hiswordshereofferedhertheverypointofcircumstancesinwhichtointerposewhatshecametosay。Sheconqueredherfears,andspoke。
"Suchafriendasthouhastevennowwishedfor,"saidshe,"withwhomtoweepoverthysin,thouhasinme,thepartnerofit!"Againshehesitated,butbroughtoutthewordswithaneffort,"Thouhastlonghadsuchanenemy,anddwellestwithhim,underthesameroof!"
Theministerstartedtohisfeet,gaspingforbreath,andclutchingathisheart,asifhewouldhavetornitoutofhisbosom。
"Ha!Whatsayestthou!"criedhe。"Anenemy!Andundermineownroof!Whatmeanyou?"