ItsometimesbroughtbacktohimthathideousshakinessofnervewhichhadbeenafeatureofhisillnesswhenhehadbeenontheRivierawithTeresita。
OfallthisBettyonlyknewtheoutwardsignswhich,takenattheirexteriorsignificance,weredetestableenough,anddroveherhardasshementallydweltontheminconnectionwithotherthings。Howeasy,ifshestoodalone,todefyhisevilinsolencetodoitsworst,andleavingtheplaceatanhour’snotice,tosailawaytoprotection,or,ifshechosetoremaininEngland,tosurroundherselfwithabodyguardofthepeopleinwhoseeyeshisdisreputerelegatedamansuchasNigelAnstrutherstopowerlessnonentity。Alone,shecouldhavesmiledandturnedherbackuponhim。ButshewasheretotakecareofRosy。
Sheoccupiedapositionsomethinglikethatofawomanwhoremainswithamanandenduresoutragebecauseshecannotleaveherchild。Thatthought,initself,broughtUghtredtohermind。TherewasUghtredtobeconsideredaswellashismother。Ughtred’sloveforandfaithinherweredeepandpassionatethings。Hefedonhertendernessforhim,andhadgrownstrongerbecausehespenthoursofeachdaytalking,reading,anddrivingwithher。ThesimpletruthwasthatneithershenorRosaliecoulddesertUghtred,andsolongasNigelmanagedcleverlyenough,thelawwouldgivetheboytohisfather。
"Youareobligedtoprovethings,youknow,inacourtoflaw,"hehadsaid,asifwithcasualamiability,onacertainoccasion。"Provingthingsisthedevil。Peoplelosetheirtempersandrushintorowswhichendinlawsuits,andthenfindtheycanprovenothing。IfIwereavillain,"slightlyshowinghisteethinanagreeablesmile——"insteadofamanofblamelesslife,Ishouldgoinonlyforthatbranchofmyprofessionwhichcouldbeexercisedwithoutleavingstupidevidencebehind。"
SincehisreturntoStornhamtheoutwarddecorumofhisownconducthadentertainedhimandhehadkeptitupwithanincreasingappreciationofitsusefulnessinthepresentsituation。Whatsoeverhappenedintheend,itwasthepartofdiscretiontopresenttotheruralworldabouthimanappearanceofuprightbehaviour。Hehadevenfounditamusingtogotochurchandalsotooccasionallymakeamiablecallsatthevicarage。Itwasnotdifficult,atsuchtimes,toreferdelicatelytohisregretthatdomesticdiscomforthadledhimintotheerrorofremainingmuchawayfromStornham。Heknewthathehadbeenevenrathertouchinginhisexpressionofinterestinthefutureofhisson,andthenecessityoftheboy’sbeingprotectedfromuncontrolledhystericinfluences。
And,intheyearsofRosalie’sunprotectedwretchedness,hehadtakenexcellentcarethatno"stupidevidence"shouldbeexposedtoview。
OfallthisBettywasthinkingandsummingupdefinitely,pointafterpoint。Wherewasthewiseandpracticalcourseofdefence?Themostunthinkablethingwasthatonecouldfindone’sselfinapositioninwhichactionseemedinhibited。
Whatcouldonedo?Tosendforherfatherwouldsurelyendthematter——butatwhatcosttoRosy,toUghtred,toFfolliott,beforewhomthefairpathtodignifiedsecurityhadsonewlyopeneditself?Whatwouldbetheeffectofsuddenconfusion,anguish,andpublichumiliationuponRosalie’scarefullyrebuilthealthandstrength——uponhermother’snewhopeandhappiness?
Atmomentsitseemedasifalmostallthathadbeendonemightbeundone。Shewasbesetbysuchamomentnow,andfeltforthetime,atleast,likeacreaturetiedhandandfootwhileinfullstrength。
Certainlyshewasnotpreparedfortheeventwhichhappened。Rolandstiffenedhisears,and,beginningarumblinggrowl,endeditsuddenly,realisingitanunnecessaryprecaution。
Heknewthemanwalkinguptheinclineofthemoundfromthesidebehindthem。SodidBettyknowhim。ItwasSirNigellookingrathergloweringandpaleandwalkingslowly。Hehaddiscoveredwhereshehadmeanttotakerefuge,andhadprobablyriddentosomepointwherehecouldleavehishorseandfollowherattheexpenseoftakingashortcutwhichsavedwalking。
Asheclimbedthemoundtojoinher,Bettyrosetoherfeet。
"Mydeargirl,"hesaid,"don’tgetupasifyoumeanttogoaway。Ithascostmesomeexertiontofindyou。"
"Itwillnotcostyouanyexertiontoloseme,"washerlightanswer。"IAMgoingaway。"
Hehadreachedher,andstoodstillbeforeherwithscarcelyayard’sdistancebetweenthem。Hewasslightlyoutofbreathandevenatriflelivid。Heleanedonhisstickandhislookathercombinedleapingbadtemperwithsomethingdeeper。
"Lookhere!"hebrokeout,"whydoyoumakesuchapointoftreatingmelikethedevil?"
Bettyfeltherheartgiveahastenedbeat,notoffear,butofrepulsion。ThiswasthemoodandmannerwhichsubjugatedRosalie。Hehadsoraisedhisvoicethattwomeninthedistance,whomightbeeitherlabourersorsportsmen,hearingitshightone,glancedcuriouslytowardsthem。
"Whydoyouaskmeaquestionwhichistotallyabsurd?"
shesaid。
"Itisnotabsurd,"heanswered。"Iamspeakingoffacts,andIintendtocometosomeunderstandingaboutthem。"
Forreply,aftermeetinghislookafewseconds,shesimplyturnedherbackandbegantowalkaway。Hefollowedandovertookher。
"Ishallgowithyou,andIshallsaywhatIwanttosay,"
hepersisted。"IfyouhastenyourpaceIshallhastenmine。
Icannotexactlyseeyourunningawayfrommeacrossthemarsh,screaming。Youwouldn’tcaretoberescuedbythosemenovertherewhoarewatchingus。IshouldexplainmyselftothemintermsneitheryounorRosaliewouldenjoy。There!
IknewRosalie’snamewouldpullyouup。GoodGod!IwishIwereaweakfoolwithamagnificentcreatureprotectingmeatallrisks。"
Ifshehadnothadbloodandfireinherveins,shemighthavefounditeasytoanswercalmly。Butshehadboth,andbothleapedandbeatfuriouslyforafewseconds。Itwasonlyhumanthatitshouldbeso。Butshewasmorethanapassionategirlofhighandtrenchantspirit,andshehadlearned,eveninthedaysattheFrenchschool,whathehadneverbeenabletolearninhislife——self—control。Sheheldherselfinasshewouldhaveheldinahorseoftoogreatfireandaction。Shewasactuallyabletolook——asthefirstReubenVanderpoelwouldhavelooked——athercapitalofresource。Butitmeanttautholdingofthereins。
"Willyoutellme,"shesaid,stopping,"whatitisyouwant?"
"Iwanttotalktoyou。Iwanttotellyoutruthsyouwouldratherbetoldherethanonthehighroad,wherepeoplearepassing——oratStornham,wheretheservantswouldoverhearandRosaliebethrownintohysterics。YouwillNOTrunscreamingacrossthemarsh,becauseIshouldrunscreamingafteryou,andweshouldbothlooksilly。Hereisaratherscraggytree。Willyousitonthemoundnearit——forRosalie’ssake?"
"Iwillnotsitdown,"repliedBetty,"butIwilllisten,becauseitisnotabadideathatIshouldunderstandyou。Buttobeginwith,Iwilltellyousomething。"Shestoppedbeneaththetreeandstoodwithherbackagainstitstrunk。
"Ipickupthingsbynoticingpeopleclosely,andIhaverealisedthatallyourlifeyouhavecountedupongettingyourownwaybecauseyousawthatpeople——especiallywomen——haveahorrorofpublicscenes,andwillsubmittoalmostanythingtoavoidthem。Thatistrueveryoften,butnotalways。"
Hereyes,whichwerewellopened,werequitetheblueofsteel,andresteddirectlyuponhim。"I,forinstance,wouldletyoumakeascenewithmeanywhereyouchose——inBondStreet——
inPiccadilly——onthestepsofBuckinghamPalace,asIwasgettingoutofmycarriagetoattendadrawing—room——andyouwouldgainnothingyouwantedbyit——nothing。Youmayplaceentireconfidenceinthatstatement。"
Hestaredbackather,momentarilyhalf—magnetised,andthenbrokeforthintoaharshhalf—laugh。
"Youaresodamnedhandsomethatnothingelsematters。
I’mhangedifitdoes!"andthewordswereanexclamation。
Hedrewstillnearertoher,speakingwithasortofsavagery。
"Cannotyouseethatyoucoulddowhatyoupleasedwithme?Youaretoomagnificentathingforamantowithstand。
Ihavelostmyheadandgonetothedevilthroughyou。
ThatiswhatIcametosay。"
Inthefewsecondsofsilencethatfollowed,hisbreathcamequicklyagainandhewasevenpalerthanbefore。
"YoucametometosayTHAT?"askedBetty。
"Yes——tosayitbeforeyoudrovemetootherthings。"
Hergazewasforamomentevenslightlywondering。Hepresentedthecuriouspictureofacynicalmanoftheworld,forthetimebeingruledandimpelledonlybythemostprimitiveinstincts。Toaclear—headedmodernyoungwomanofthemostpowerfulclass,he——hersister’shusband——wasmakingthreateningloveasifhewereasavagechiefandsheasavagebeautyofhistribe。Allthatconcernedhimwasthatheshouldspeakandsheshouldhear——thatheshouldshowherhewasthestrongerofthetwo。
"AreyouQUITEmad?"shesaid。
"Notquite,"heanswered;"onlythreeparts——butIambeyondmyowncontrol。Thatisthebestproofofwhathashappenedtome。Youareanarrogantpieceandyouwoulddefymeifyoustoodalone,butyoudon’t,and,bytheLord!I
havereachedapointwhereIwillmakeuseofeveryleverI
canlaymyhandon——yourself,Rosalie,Ughtred,Ffolliott——
thewholelotofyou!"
Thethingwhichwashardestuponherwasherknowledgeofherownstrength——ofwhatshemighthaveallowedherselfofflamingwordsandinstantaction——butforthememoryofRosy’sghastlylittleface,asithadlookedwhenshecriedout,"Youmustnotthinkofme。Betty,gohome——gohome!"
Sheheldthewhitedesperationofitbeforehermentalvisionandansweredhimevenwithacertaininteresteddeliberateness。
"Doyouknow,"sheinquired,"thatyouaretalkingtomeasthoughyouwerethevillaininthemelodrama?"
"Thereisanadvantageinthat,"heanswered,withanunholysmile。"IfyourepeatwhatIsay,peoplewillonlythinkthatyouareindulginginhystericalexaggeration。Theydon’tbelieveintheexistenceofmelodramainthesedays。"
Thecynical,absoluteknowledgeofthisrevealedsomuchthatnervewasrequiredtofaceitwithsteadiness。
"True,"shecommented。"NowIthinkIunderstand。"
"No,youdon’t,"heburstforth。"Youhavespentyourlifestandingonagoldenpedestal,beingkowtowedto,andyouimagineyourselfimmunefromdifficultiesbecauseyouthinkyoucanpayyourwayoutofanything。Butyouwillfindthatyoucannotpayyourwayoutofthis——orratheryoucannotpayRosalie’swayoutofit。"
"Ishallnottry。Goon,"saidthegirl。"WhatIdonotunderstand,youmustexplaintome。Don’tleaveanythingunsaid。"
"GoodGod,whatawomanyouare!"hecriedoutbitterly。Hehadneverseensuchbeautyinhislifeashesawinherasshestoodwithherstraightyoungbodyflatagainstthetree。Itwasnotamatterofdeepcolourofeye,orhighspiritofprofile——butofsomethingwhichburnedhim。Stillasshewas,shelookedlikeaflame。Shemadehimfeeloldandbody—
worn,andallthemoresenselesslyfurious。
"Ibelieveyouhateme,"heraged。"AndImaythankmywifeforthat。"Thenhelosthimselfentirely。"Whycannotyoubehavewelltome?Ifyouwillbehavewelltome,Rosalieshallgoherownway。Ifyouevenlookedatmeasyoulookatothermen——butyoudonot。ThereisalwayssomethingunderyourlasheswhichwatchesmeasifIwereawildbeastyouwerestudying。Don’tfancyyourselfadompteuse。Iamnotyourman。Isweartoyouthatyoudon’tknowwhatyouaredealingwith。IsweartoyouthatifyouplaythisgamewithmeIwilldragyoutwodownifIdragmyselfwithyou。I
havenothingmuchtolose。Youandyoursisterhaveeverything。"
"Goon,"Bettysaidbriefly。
"Goon!Yes,Iwillgoon。RosalieandFfolliottIholdinthehollowofmyhand。Asforyou——doyouknowthatpeoplearebeginningtodiscussyou?Gossipiseasilystirredinthecountry,wherepeoplearesoboredthattheychatterinself—defence。Ihavebeenconsideredabadlot。Ihavebecomecuriouslyattachedtomysister—in—law。Iamseenhangingabouther,hangingoverheraswerideorwalkalonetogether。AnAmericanyoungwomanisnotlikeanEnglishgirl——sheisusedtoseeingthemarriageceremonyjuggledwith。There’satrifleofprejudiceagainstsuchyoungwomenwhentheyaretoorichandtoohandsome。Don’tlookatmelikethat!"heburstforth,withmaddenedsharpness,"Iwon’thaveit!"
Thegirlwasregardinghimwiththeexpressionhemostresented——thereflectionofanormalpersonwatchinganabnormalone,andstudyinghisabnormality。
"Doyouknowthatyouareraving?"shesaid,withquietcuriosity——"raving?"
Suddenlyhesatdownonthelowmoundnearhim,andashetouchedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief,shesawthathishandactuallyshook。
"Yes,"heanswered,panting,"but’waremyravings!
Theymeanwhattheysay。"
"Youdoyourselfaninjurywhenyougivewaytothem"——
steadily,evenwithatouchofslowsignificance——"aphysicalinjury。Ihavenoticedthatmorethanonce。"
Hesprangtohisfeetagain。Everydropofbloodlefthisface。Forasecondhelookedasifhewouldstrikeher。Hisarmactuallyflungitselfout——andfell。
"Youdevil!"hegasped。"Youcountonthat?Youshe—devil!"
Shelefthertreeandstoodbeforehim。
"Listentome,"shesaid。"Youintimatethatyouhavebeenlayingmelodramaticplotsagainstmewhichwillinjuremygoodname。Thatisrubbish。Letusleaveitatthat。YouthreatenthatyouwillbreakRosy’sheartandtakeherchildfromher,yousayalsothatyouwillwoundandhurtmymothertoherdeathanddoyourworsttoruinanhonestman————"
"And,byGod,Iwill!"heraged。"Andyoucannotstopme,if————"
"IdonotknowwhetherIcanstopyouornot,thoughyoumaybesureIwilltry,"sheinterruptedhim,"butthatisnotwhatIwasgoingtosay。"Shedrewastepnearer,andtherewassomethingintheintensityofherlookwhichfascinatedandheldhimforamoment。Shewascuriouslygrave。"Nigel,I
believeincertainthingsyoudonotbelievein。Ibelieveblackthoughtsbreedblackillstothosewhothinkthem。Itisnotanewidea。ThereisanoldOrientalproverbwhichsays,`Curses,likechickens,comehometoroost。’Ibelievealsothattheworst——theveryworstCANNOTbedonetothosewhothinksteadily——steadily——onlyofthebest。Toyouthatismerelysuperstitiontobelaughedat。Thatisamatterofopinion。
But——don’tgoonwiththisthing——DON’TGOONWITHIT。Stopandthinkitover。"
Hestaredatherfuriously——triedtolaughoutright,andfailedbecausethelookinhereyeswassooddinitsstrengthandstillness。
"Youthinkyoucanlaysomeweirdspelluponme,"hejeeredsardonically。
"No,Idon’t,"sheanswered。"IcouldnotifIwould。Itisnoaffairofmine。Itisyouraffaironly——andthereisnothingweirdaboutit。Don’tgoon,Itellyou。Thinkbetterofit。"
Sheturnedaboutwithoutfurtherspeech,andwalkedawayfromhimwithlightswiftnessoverthemarsh。Oddlyenough,hedidnotevenattempttofollowher。Hefeltalittleweak——
perhapsbecauseacertainthingshehadsaidhadbroughtbacktohimafamiliartouchofthehorrors。Shehadtheeyesofafalconundertheodd,softshadeoftheextraordinarylashes。
Shehadseenwhathethoughtnoonebuthimselfhadrealised。
Havingwatchedherretreatingfigureforafewseconds,hesatdown——assuddenlyasbefore——onthemoundnearthetree。
"Oh,damnher!"hesaid,hisdampforeheadonhishands。
"Damnthewholeuniverse!"……
WhenBettyandRolandreachedStornham,thewicker—workponychaisefromthevicaragestoodbeforethestoneentrancesteps。Thedrawing—roomdoorwasopen,andMrs。BrentwasstandingnearitsayingsomelastwordstoLadyAnstruthersbeforeleavingthehouse,afteravisitevidentlymadewithanobject。ThisBettygatheredfromthesolemnityofhermanner。
"Betty,"saidLadyAnstruthers,catchingsightofher,"docomeinforamoment。"
WhenBettyentered,bothhersisterandMrs。Brentlookedatherquestioningly。
"Youlookalittlepaleandtired,MissVanderpoel,"Mrs。
Brentsaid,ratherasifinhastetobethefirsttospeak。"I
hopeyouarenotatallunwell。Weneedallourstrengthjustnow。Ihavebroughtthemostpainfulnews。MalignanttyphoidfeverhasbrokenoutamongthehoppickersontheMountDunstanestate。SomepoorcreaturewasevidentlysickeningforitwhenhecamefromLondon。Threepeoplediedlastnight。"
CHAPTERXLI
SHEWOULDDOSOMETHING
SirNigel’sfacewasnotagoodthingtoseewhenheappearedatthedinnertableintheevening。Ashetookhisseatthetwofootmenglancedquicklyateachother,andthebutleratthesideboardfurtivelythrustouthisunderlip。Notamanorwomaninthehouseholdbuthadlearnedthesignaldenotingthemomentwhennoservicewouldplease,nowordormovementbeunobjectionable。LadyAnstruthers’faceunconsciouslyassumeditspropitiatoryexpression,andsheglancedathersistermorethanoncewhenBettywasunawarethatshedidso。
Untilthesouphadbeenremoved,SirNigelscarcelyspoke,merelymakingcurtrepliestoanycasualremark。Thiswasoneofhissimpleandmostengagingmethodsofatonceenjoyinganill—humourandmakinghiswifefeelthatshewasinsomewaytoblameforit。
"MountDunstanisinadeucedlyunpleasantposition,"hecondescendedatlast。"Ishouldnotcaretostandinhisshoes。"
HehadnotreturnedtotheCourtuntillateintheafternoon,buthavingheardinthevillagetherumouroftheoutbreakoffever,hehadmadeinquiriesandgathereddetail。
"Youarethinkingoftheoutbreakoftyphoidamongthehoppickers?"saidLadyAnstruthers。"Mrs。Brentthinksitthreatenstobeveryserious。"
"Anepidemic,withoutadoubt,"heanswered。"InawretchedunsanitaryplacelikeDunstanvillage,thewretcheswilldielikeflies。"
"Whatwillbedone?"inquiredBetty。
Hegaveheroneoftheunpleasantpersonalglancesandlaughedderisively。
"Done?Thecountyauthorities,whocallthemselves`guardians,’willbefrightenedtodeathandwillpotteraboutandfusslikeoldwomen,andprofesstoexamineandprotectandlayrestrictions,buteveryonewillmanagetokeepatadiscreetdistance,andthethingwillrunriotanddoitsworst。
Asfarasonecansee,thereseemsnoreasonwhythewholeplaceshouldnotbesweptaway。NodoubtMountDunstanhaswiselytakentohisheelsalready。"
"Ithinkthat,onthecontrary,therewouldbemuchdoubtofthat,"Bettysaid。"Hewouldstayanddowhathecould。"
SirNigelshruggedhisshoulders。
"Wouldhe?Ithinkyou’llfindhewouldnot。"
"Mrs。Brenttellsme,"Rosaliebrokeinsomewhathurriedly,"thatthehutsforthehoppersareintheworstpossiblecondition。Theyaresodilapidatedthattherainpoursintothem。Thereisnopropershelterforthepeoplewhoareill,andLordMountDunstancannotaffordtotakecareofthem。"
"ButheWILL——heWILL,"brokeforthBetty。Herheadlifteditselfandshespokealmostasifthroughhersmall,shutteeth。
Awaveofintensebelief——high,proud,andobstinate,sweptthroughher。ItwasafeelingsostrongandvibrantthatshefeltasifMountDunstanhimselfmustbereachedandupbornebyit——asifhehimselfmusthearher。
Rosalielookedatherhalf—startled,and,forthemomentheldfascinatedbythesuddenforcerisinginherandbythesplendidsparkoflightunderherlids。ShewasremindedofthefiercelittleBettyoflongago,withherdelicate,indomitablesmallfaceandthespiritwhichevenatnineyearsoldhadsomehowseemedsostrongandstraitlykeenofsightthatonehadknownitmightalwaysbetrusted。Actually,inoneway,shehadnotchanged。Shesawthetruthofthings。Thenextinstant,however,inadvertentlyglancingtowardsherhusband,shecaughtherbreathquickly。Acrosshisheavy—featuredfacehadshotthesuddengleamofanewexpression。Itwasasifhehadatthemomentrecognisedsomethingwhichfilledhimwitharushoffuryhehimselfwasnotpreparedfor。Thathedidnotwishittobeseensheknewbyhismanner。Therewasabriefsilenceinwhichitpassedaway。Hespokeafterit,withdisagreeableprecision。
"Hehashadanenormouseffectonyou——thatman,"hesaidtoBetty。
Hespokeclearlysothatshemighthavethepleasureofbeingcertainthatthemenservantsheard。Theywereclosetothetable,handingfruit——professingtobeautomatons,eyesdown,facesexpressingnothing,butasquickofhearingasitissaidthatblindmenare。Heknewthatifhehadbeeninherplaceandathingasinsultinglysignificanthadbeensaidtohim,heshouldpromptlyhavehurledthenearestobject——plate,wine—
glass,ordecanter——inthefaceofthespeaker。Heknew,too,thatwomencannothurlprojectileswithoutlookinglikeviragosandfools。Theweakly—femininemightburstintotearsorintoasillyrageandleavethetable。Therewasadistinctbreath’sspaceofpause,andBetty,cuttingaclusterfromabunchofhothousegrapespresentedbythefootmanatherside,answeredasclearlyashehadspokenhimself。
"Heisstrongenoughtoproduceaneffectonanyone,"shesaid。
"Ithinkyoufeelthatyourself。Heisamanwhowillnotbebeatenintheend。Fortunewillgivehimsomegoodthing。"
"Heisafellowwhoknowswellenoughonwhichhandofhimgoodthingslie,"hesaid。"Hewilltakeallthatoffersitself。"
"Whynot?"Bettysaidimpartially。
"Theremustbenoridingordrivingintheneighbourhoodoftheplace,"hesaidnext。"Iwillhavenorisksrun。"Heturnedandaddressedthebutler。"Jennings,telltheservantsthatthosearemyorders。"
Hesatoverhiswinebutashorttimethatevening,andwhenhejoinedhiswifeandsister—in—lawinthedrawing—roomhewentatoncetoBetty。Infact,hewasintheconditionwhenamancannotkeepawayfromawoman,butmustinventsomereasonforreachingherwhetheritisfatuousorplausible。
"WhatIsaidtoJenningswasanordertoyouaswellastothepeoplebelowstairs。IknowyouareparticularlyfondofridinginthedirectionofMountDunstan。Youareinmycaresolongasyouareinmyhouse。"
"Ordersarenotnecessary,"Bettyreplied。"Thedayispastwhenonerushedtosmoothpillowsandgivethewrongmedicinewhenone’sfriendswereill。Ifoneisnotaproperly—
trainednurse,itiswisernottoriskbeingverymuchintheway。"
Hespokeoverhershoulder,droppinghisvoice,thoughLadyAnstrutherssatapart,appearingtoread。
"Don’tthinkIamfoolenoughnottounderstand。Youhaveyourselfundermagnificentcontrol,butawomanpassionatelyinlovecannotkeepacertainlookoutofhereyes。"
Hewasstandingonthehearth。Bettyswungherselflightlyround,facinghimsquarely。Herfulllookwassplendid。
"Ifitisthere——letitstay,"shesaid。"IwouldnotkeepitoutofmyeyesifIcould,and,youareright,IcouldnotifI
would——ifitisthere。Ifitis——letitstay。"
Thedaring,throbbing,humantruthofhermadehisbrainwhirl。Toamanyoungandcleanandfittocountasinthelists,tohaveheardhersaythethingofarivalwouldhavebeenhardenough,butbase,degenerate,andoftheworldbehindherday,tohearitwhilefrenziedforher,wasintolerable。AnditwasMountDunstansheboreherselfsohighlyfor。Whethermelodramaisoutofdateornotthereare,occasionally,somefinemelodramatictouchesintheenmitiesofto—day。
"Youthinkyouwillreachhim,"hepersisted。"Youthinkyouwillhelphiminsomeway。Youwillnotletthethingalone。"
"ExcusemymentioningthatwhatsoeverItakethelibertyofdoingwillencroachonnorightofyours,"shesaid。
But,aloneinherroom,aftershewentupstairs,thefacereflectingitselfinthemirrorwaspaleanditsblackbrowsweredrawntogether。
Shesatdownatthedressing—table,and,seeingthepaledface,drewtheblackbrowscloser,confrontingacomplicatingtruth。
"IfIwerefreetotakeRosalieandUghtredhometo—morrow,"shethought,"Icouldnotbeartogo。Ishouldsuffertoomuch。"
Shewassufferingnow。Thestronglonginginherheartwaslikeaphysicalpain。Nowordorlookofthisonemanhadgivenherproofthathisthoughtsturnedtoher,andyetitwasintolerable——intolerable——thatinhishourofstressandneedtheywereaswhollyapartasifworldsrolledbetweenthem。
Atanydiremomentitwasmerenaturethatsheshouldgiveherselfinhelpandsupport。If,onthenightatsea,whentheyhadfirstspokentoeachother,theshiphadgonedown,sheknewthattheytwo,strangersthoughtheywere,wouldhaveworkedsidebysideamongthefranticpeople,andhavebeenamongthelasttotaketotheboats。Howdidsheknow?Onlybecause,hebeinghe,andshebeingshe,itmusthavebeensoinaccordancewiththelawsrulingentities。Andnowhestoodfacingacalamityalmostasterrible——andshewithfullhandssatstill。