"’Mysalvationisinwork,ifIshouldstopbutforonemomentyouwouldcreepdownuponme,’hereplied。Andtheyputouttheirlongnecksfurther。
  "’Lookdownintothecreviceatyourfeet,’theysaid。’Seewhatliethere——whitebones!Asbraveandstrongamanasyouclimbedtotheserocks。’Andhelookedup。Hesawtherewasnouseinstriving;hewouldneverholdTruth,neverseeher,neverfindher。Sohelaydownhere,forhewasverytired。Hewenttosleepforever。Heputhimselftosleep。
  Sleepisverytranquil。Youarenotlonelywhenyouareasleep,neitherdoyourhandsache,noryourheart。Andthehunterlaughedbetweenhisteeth。
  "’HaveItornfrommyheartallthatwasdearest;haveIwanderedaloneinthelandofnight;haveIresistedtemptation;haveIdweltwherethevoiceofmykindisneverheard,andlabouredalone,toliedownandbefoodforyou,yeharpies?’
  "Helaughedfiercely;andtheEchoesofDespairslunkaway,forthelaughofabrave,strongheartisasadeathblowtothem。
  "Neverthelesstheycreptoutagainandlookedathim。
  "’Doyouknowthatyourhairiswhite?’theysaid,’thatyourhandsbegintotremblelikeachild’s?Doyouseethatthepointofyourshuttleisgone?——itiscrackedalready。Ifyoushouldeverclimbthisstair,’theysaid,’itwillbeyourlast。Youwillneverclimbanother。’
  "Andheanswered,’Iknowit!’andworkedon。
  "Theold,thinhandscutthestonesillandjaggedly,forthefingerswerestiffandbent。Thebeautyandthestrengthofthemanwasgone。
  "Atlast,anold,wizened,shrunkenfacelookedoutabovetherocks。Itsawtheeternalmountainsrisewithwallstothewhiteclouds;butitsworkwasdone。
  "Theoldhunterfoldedhistiredhandsandlaydownbytheprecipicewherehehadworkedawayhislife。Itwasthesleepingtimeatlast。Belowhimoverthevalleysrolledthethickwhitemist。Onceitbroke;andthroughthegapthedyingeyeslookeddownonthetreesandfieldsoftheirchildhood。Fromafarseemedbornetohimthecryofhisownwildbirds,andheheardthenoiseofpeoplesingingastheydanced。Andhethoughtheheardamongthemthevoicesofhisoldcomrades;andhesawfaroffthesunlightshineonhisearlyhome。Andgreattearsgatheredinthehunter’seyes。
  "’Ah!Theywhodietheredonotdiealone,’hecried。
  "Thenthemistsrolledtogetheragain;andheturnedhiseyesaway。
  "’Ihavesought,’hesaid,’forlongyearsIhavelaboured;butIhavenotfoundher。Ihavenotrested,Ihavenotrepined,andIhavenotseenher;
  nowmystrengthisgone。WhereIliedownwornoutothermenwillstand,youngandfresh。BythestepsthatIhavecuttheywillclimb;bythestairsthatIhavebuilttheywillmount。Theywillneverknowthenameofthemanwhomadethem。Attheclumsyworktheywilllaugh;whenthestonesrolltheywillcurseme。Buttheywillmount,andonmywork;theywillclimb,andbymystair!Theywillfindher,andthroughme!Andnomanlivethtohimselfandnomandiethtohimself。’
  "Thetearsrolledfrombeneaththeshrivelledeyelids。IfTruthhadappearedabovehiminthecloudsnowhecouldnothaveseenher,themistofdeathwasinhiseyes。
  "’Mysoulhearstheirgladstepcoming,’hesaid;’andtheyshallmount!
  theyshallmount!’Heraisedhisshrivelledhandtohiseyes。
  "Thenslowlyfromthewhiteskyabove,throughthestillair,camesomethingfalling,falling,falling。Softlyitfluttereddown,anddroppedontothebreastofthedyingman。Hefeltitwithhishands。Itwasafeather。Hediedholdingit。"
  Theboyhadshadedhiseyeswithhishand。Onthewoodofthecarvinggreatdropsfell。Thestrangermusthavelaughedathim,orremainedsilent。Hedidso。
  "Howdidyouknowit?"theboywhisperedatlast。"Itisnotwrittenthere——notonthatwood。Howdidyouknowit?"
  "Certainly,"saidthestranger,"thewholeofthestoryisnotwrittenhere,butitissuggested。Andtheattributeofalltrueart,thehighestandthelowest,isthis——thatitraysmorethanitsays,andtakesyouawayfromitself。Itisalittledoorthatopensintoaninfinitehallwhereyoumayfindwhatyouplease。Men,thinkingtodetract,say:’Peoplereadmoreinthisorthatworkofgeniusthanwaseverwritteninit,’notperceivingthattheypaythehighestcompliment。Ifwepickupthefingerandnailofarealman,wecandecipherawholestory——couldalmostreconstructthecreatureagain,fromheadtofoot。ButhalfthebodyofaMumboo—jumbowidolleavesusutterlyinthedarkastowhattherestwaslike。Weseewhatwesee,butnothingmore。Thereisnothingsouniversallyintelligibleastruth。Ithasathousandmeanings,andsuggestsathousandmore。"
  Heturnedoverthewoodenthing。
  "Thoughamanshouldcarveitintomatterwiththeleastpossiblemanipulativeskill,itwillyetfindinterpreters。Itisthesoulthatlooksoutwithburningeyesthroughthemostgrossfleshlyfilament。
  Whosoevershouldportraytrulythelifeanddeathofalittleflower——itsbirth,suckinginofnourishment,reproductionofitskind,witheringandvanishing——wouldhaveshapedasymbolofallexistence。Alltruefactsofnatureorthemindarerelated。Yourlittlecarvingrepresentssomementalfactsastheyreallyare,thereforefiftydifferenttruestoriesmightbereadfromit。Whatyourworkwantsisnottruth,butbeautyofexternalform,theotherhalfofart。"Heleanedalmostgentlytowardtheboy。
  "Skillmaycomeintime,butyouwillhavetoworkhard。Theloveofbeautyandthedesireforitmustbeborninaman;theskilltoreproduceithemustmake。Hemustworkhard。"
  "AllmylifeIhavelongedtoseeyou,"theboysaid。
  Thestrangerbrokeofftheendofhiscigar,andlitit。Theboyliftedtheheavywoodfromthestranger’skneeanddrewyetnearerhim。Inthedog—likemannerofhisdrawingneartherewassomethingsuperblyridiculous,unlessonechancedtoviewitinanotherlight。Presentlythestrangersaid,whiffing,"Dosomethingforme。"
  Theboystartedup。
  "No;staywhereyouare。Idon’twantyoutogoanyowhere;Iwantyoutotalktome。Tellmewhatyouhavebeendoingallyourlife。"
  Theboyslunkdownagain。Wouldthatthemanhadaskedhimtorootupbusheswithhishandsforhishorsetofeedon;ortoruntothefarendoftheplainforthefossilsthatlaythere,ortogathertheflowersthatgrewonthehillsattheedgeoftheplain;hewouldhaverunandbeenbackquickly——butnow!
  "Ihaveneverdoneanything,"hesaid。
  "Thentellmeofthatnothing。IliketoknowwhatotherfolkshavebeendoingwhosewordIcanbelieve。Itisinteresting。Whatwasthefirstthingyoueverwantedverymuch?"
  Theboywaitedtoremember,thenbeganhesitatingly,butsoonthewordsflowed。Inthesmallestpastwefindaninexhaustibleminewhenoncewebegintodigatit。
  Aconfused,disorderedstory——thelittlemadelargeandthelargesmall,andnothingshowingitsinwardmeaning。Itisnottillthepasthasrecededmanystepsthatbeforetheclearesteyesitfallsintoco—ordinatepictures。ItisnottilltheIwetellofhasceasedtoexistthatittakesitsplaceamongotherobjectiverealities,andfindsitstruenicheinthepicture。Thepresentandthenearpastisaconfusion,whosemeaningflashesonusasitslinksawayintothedistance。
  Thestrangerlitonecigarfromtheendofanother,andpuffedandlistenedwithhalf—closedeyes。
  "Iwillremembermoretotellyouifyoulike,"saidtheboy。
  Hespokewiththatextremegravitycommontoallveryyoungthingswhofeeldeeply。Itisnottilltwentythatwelearntobeindeadlyearnestandtolaugh。Thestrangernodded,whilethefellowsoughtforsomethingmoretorelate。Hewouldtellalltothismanofhis——allthatheknew,allthathehadfelt,hisinmostsorestthought。Suddenlythestrangerturneduponhim。
  "Boy,"hesaid,"youarehappytobehere。"
  Waldolookedathim。Washisdelightfuloneridiculinghim?Here,withthisbrownearthandtheselowhills,whiletherarewonderfulworldlayallbeyond。Fortunatetobehere?
  Thestrangerreadhisglance。
  "Yes,"hesaid;"herewiththekaroo—bushesandredsand。DoyouwonderwhatImean?Toallwhohavebeenbornintheoldfaiththerecomesatimeofdanger,whentheoldslipsfromus,andwehavenotyetplantedourfeetonthenew。WehearthevoicefromSinaithunderingnomore,andthestillsmallvoiceofreasonisnotyetheard。Wehaveprovedthereligionourmothersfedusontobeadelusion;inourbewildermentweseenorulebywhichtoguideourstepsdaybyday;andyeteverydaywemuststepsomewhere。"
  Thestrangerleanedforwardandspokemorequickly。"Wehaveneveroncebeentaughtbywordoracttodistinguishbetweenreligionandthemorallawsonwhichithasartfullyfasteneditself,andfromwhichithassuckeditsvitality。Whenwehavedraggeddowntheweedsandcreepersthatcoveredthesolidwallandhavefoundthemtoberottenwood,weimaginethewallitselftoberottenwoodtoo。Wefinditissolidandstandingonlywhenwefallheadlongagainstit。Wehavebeentaughtthatallrightandwrongoriginateinthewillofanirresponsiblebeing。Itissometimebeforeweseehowtheinexorable’Thoushaltandshaltnot,’arecarvedintothenatureofthings。Thisisthetimeofdanger。"
  Hisdark,mistyeyeslookedintotheboy’s。
  "Intheendexperiencewillinevitablyteachusthatthelawsforawiseandnoblelifehaveafoundationinfinitelydeeperthanthefiatofanybeing,Godorman,eveninthegroundworkofhumannature。
  "Shewillteachusthatwhososheddethman’sblood,thoughbymanhisbloodbenotshed,thoughnomanavengeandnohellawait,yeteverydropshallblisteronhissoulandeatinthenameofthedead。Shewillteachthatwhosotakesalovenotlawfullyhisown,gathersaflowerwithapoisononitspetals;thatwhosorevenges,strikeswithaswordthathastwoedges——
  oneforhisadversary,oneforhimself;thatwholivestohimselfisdead,thoughthegroundisnotyetonhim;thatwhowrongsanothercloudshisownsun;andthatwhosinsinsecretstandsaccursedandcondemnedbeforetheoneJudgewhodealseternaljustice——hisownall—knowingself。
  "Experiencewillteachusthis,andreasonwillshowuswhyitmustbeso;
  butatfirsttheworldswingsbeforeoureyes,andnovoicecriesout,’Thisistheway,walkyeinit!’Youarehappytobehere,boy!Whenthesuspensefillsyouwithpainyoubuildstonewallsanddigearthforrelief。Othershavestoodwhereyoustandtoday,andhavefeltasyoufeel;andanotherreliefhasbeenofferedthem,andtheyhavetakenit。
  "Whenthedayhascomewhentheyhaveseenthepathinwhichtheymightwalk,theyhavenotthestrengthtofollowit。Habitshavefastenedonthemfromwhichnothingbutdeathcanfreethem;whichclingcloserthanhissacerdotalsanctimonytoapriest;whichfeedontheintellectlikeaworm,sappingenergy,hope,creativepower,allthatmakesamanhigherthanabeast——leavingonlythepowertoyearn,toregret,andtosinklowerintheabyss。
  "Boy,"hesaid,andthelistenerwasnotmoreunsmilingnowthanthespeaker,"youarehappytobehere!Staywhereyouare。Ifyoueverpray,letitbeonlytheoneoldprayer——’Leadusnotintotemptation。’Liveonherequietly。Thetimemayyetcomewhenyouwillbethatwhichothermenhavehopedtobeandneverwillbenow。"
  Thestrangerrose,shookthedustfromhissleeve,andashamedathisownearnestness,lookedacrossthebushesforhishorse。
  "Weshouldhavebeenonourwayalready,"hesaid。"Weshallhavealongrideinthedarktonight。"
  Waldohastenedtofetchtheanimal;buthereturnedleadingitslowly。Thesooneritcamethesoonerwoulditsriderbegone。
  Thestrangerwasopeninghissaddlebag,inwhichwereabrightFrenchnovelandanoldbrownvolume。Hetookthelastandhelditouttotheboy。
  "Itmaybeofsomehelptoyou,"hesaid,carelessly。"ItwasagospeltomewhenIfirstfellonit。Youmustnotexpecttoomuch;butitmaygiveyouacentreroundwhichtohangyourideas,insteadoflettingthemlieaboutinaconfusionthatmakestheheadache。Weofthisgenerationarenotdestinedtoeatandbesatisfiedasourfatherswere;wemustbecontenttogohungry。"
  Hesmiledhisautomatonsmile,andrebuttonedthebag。Waldothrustthebookintohisbreast,andwhilehesaddledthehorsethestrangermadeinquiriesastothenatureoftheroadandthedistancetothenextfarm。
  Whenthebagswerefixed,Waldotookuphiswoodenpostandbegantofastenitontothesaddle,tyingitwiththelittlebluecottonhandkerchieffromhisneck。Thestrangerlookedoninsilence。Whenitwasdonetheboyheldthestirrupforhimtomount。
  "Whatisyourname?"heinquired,unglovinghisrighthandwhenhewasinthesaddle。
  Theboyreplied:
  "Well,Itrustweshallmeetagainsomeday,soonerorlater。"
  Heshookhandswiththeunglovedhand;thendrewontheglove,andtouchedhishorse,androdeslowlyaway。Theboystoodtowatchhim。
  Oncewhenthestrangerhadgonehalfacrosstheplainhelookedback。
  "Poordevil,"hesaid,smilingandstrokinghismoustache。Thenhelookedtoseeifthelittlebluehandkerchiefwerestillsafelyknotted。"Poordevil!"
  Hesmiled,andthenhesighedwearily,verywearily。
  AndWaldowaitedtillthemovingspeckhaddisappearedonthehorizon;thenhestoopedandkissedpassionatelyahoof—markinthesand。Thenhecalledhisyoungbirdstogether,andputhisbookunderhisarm,andwalkedhomealongthestonewall。Therewasararebeautytohiminthesunshinethatevening。
  Chapter2。III。GregoryRoseFindsHisAffinity。
  Thenewman,GregoryRose,satatthedoorofhisdwelling,hisarmsfolded,hislegscrossed,andaprofoundmelancholyseemingtorestoverhissoul。Hishousewasalittlesquaredaub—and—wattlebuilding,faroutinthekaroo,twomilesfromthehomestead。Itwascoveredoutsidewithasombrecoatingofbrownmud,twolittlepanesbeingletintothewallsforwindows。Behinditwerethesheep—kraals,andtotherightalargedam,nowprincipallycontainingbakedmud。Faroffthelittlekopjeconcealedthehomestead,andwasnotitselfanobjectconspicuousenoughtorelievethedrearymonotonyofthelandscape。
  BeforethedoorsatGregoryRoseinhisshirt—sleeves,onacamp—stool,andeverandanonhesigheddeeply。Therewasthatinhiscountenanceforwhichevenhisdepressingcircumstancesfailedtoaccount。Againandagainhelookedatthelittlekopje,atthemilk—pailathisside,andatthebrownpony,whoashortwayoffcroppedthedrybushes——andsighed。
  Presentlyheroseandwentintohishouse。Itwasonetinyroom,thewhitewashedwallsprofuselycoveredwithprintscutfromthe"IllustratedLondonNews",andinwhichtherewasanoticeablepreponderanceoffemalefacesandfigures。Astretcherfilledoneendofthehut,andarackforagunandalittlehanginglooking—glassdiversifiedthegableopposite,whileinthecentrestoodachairandtable。Allwasscrupulouslyneatandclean,forGregorykeptalittledusterfoldedinthecornerofhistable—
  drawer,justashehadseenhismotherdo,andeverymorningbeforehewentouthesaidhisprayers,andmadehisbed,anddustedthetableandthelegsofthechairs,andeventhepicturesonthewallandthegun—rack。
  Onthishotafternoonhetookfrombeneathhispillowawatch—bagmadebyhissisterJemima,andtookoutthewatch。Onlyhalfpastfour!Withasuppressedgroanhedroppeditbackandsatdownbesidethetable。Half—
  pastfour!Presentlyherousedhimself。HewouldwritetohissisterJemima。Healwayswrotetoherwhenhewasmiserable。Shewashissafety—
  valve。Heforgotherwhenhewashappy;butheusedherwhenhewaswretched。
  Hetookoutinkandpaper。Therewasafamilycrestandmottoonthelatter,fortheRosessincecomingtothecolonyhaddiscoveredthattheywereofdistinguishedlineage。OldRosehimself,anhonestEnglishfarmer,knewnothingofhisnobledescent;buthiswifeanddaughterknew——
  especiallyhisdaughter。TherewereRosesinEnglandwhokeptaparkanddatedfromtheConquest。Sothecolonial"RoseFarm"became"RoseManor"
  inremembranceoftheancestraldomain,andtheclaimoftheRosestonoblebloodwasestablished——intheirownmindsatleast。
  Gregorytookuponeofthewhite,crestedsheets;butondeeperreflectionhedeterminedtotakeapinkone,asmoresuitabletothestateofhisfeelings。Hebegan:
  "KopjeAlone,"Mondayafternoon。
  "MyDearJemima——"
  Thenhelookedupintothelittleglassopposite。Itwasayouthfulfacereflectedthere,withcurlingbrownbeardandhair;butinthedarkblueeyestherewasalookoflanguidlongingthattouchedhim。Here—dippedhispenandwrote:
  "WhenIlookupintothelittleglassthathangsoppositeme,Iwonderifthatchangedandsadface——"
  Herehesatstillandreflected。Itsoundedalmostasifhemightbeconceitedorunmanlytobelookingathisownfaceintheglass。No,thatwouldnotdo。Sohelookedforanotherpinksheetandbeganagain。
  "KopjeAlone,"Mondayafternoon。
  "DearSister,——ItishardlysixmonthssinceIleftyoutocometothisspot,yetcouldyounowseemeIknowwhatyouwouldsay,Iknowwhatmotherwouldsay——’CanthatbeourGreg——thatthingwiththestrangelookinhiseyes?’
  "Yes,Jemima,itisyourGreg,andthechangehasbeencomingovermeeversinceIcamehere;butitisgreatestsinceyesterday。YouknowwhatsorrowsIhavepassedthrough,Jemima;howunjustlyIwasalwaystreatedatschool,themasterskeepingmebackandcallingmeablockhead,though,astheythemselvesallowed,Ihadthebestmemoryofanyboyintheschool,andcouldrepeatwholebooksfrombeginningtoend。Youknowhowcruellyfatheralwaysusedme,callingmeanoodleandamilksop,justbecausehecouldn’tunderstandmyfinenature。Youknowhowhehasmadeafarmerofmeinsteadofaminister,asIoughttohavebeen;youknowitall,Jemima;
  andhowIhaveborneitall,notasawoman,whowhinesforeverytouch,butasamanshould——insilence。
  "Buttherearethings,thereisathing,whichthesoullongstopourforthintoakindredear。
  "Dearsister,haveyoueverknownwhatitistokeepwantingandwantingandwantingtokisssomeone’smouth,andyoumaynot;totouchsomeone’shand,andyoucannot?Iaminlove,Jemima。
  "TheoldDutchwomanfromwhomIhirethisplacehasalittlestepdaughter,andhernamebeginswith’E’。
  "SheisEnglish。IdonotknowhowherfathercametomarryaBoer—woman。
  Itmakesmefeelsostrangetoputdownthatletter,thatIcanhardlygoonwriting’E’。I’velovedhereversinceIcamehere。ForweeksIhavenotbeenabletoeatordrink;myverytobaccowhenIsmokehasnotaste;
  andIcanremainfornomorethanfiveminutesinoneplace,andsometimesfeelasthoughIwerereallygoingmad。
  "EveryeveningIgotheretofetchmymilk。Yesterdayshegavemesomecoffee。Thespoonfellontheground。Shepickeditup;whenshegaveitmeherfingertouchedmine。Jemima,IdonotknowifIfanciedit——I
  shiveredhot,andsheshiveredtoo!Ithought,’Itisallright;shewillbemine;shelovesme!’Justthen,Jemima,incameafellow,agreat,coarsefellow,aGerman——aridiculousfellow,withcurlsrightdowntohisshoulders;itmakesonesicktolookathim。He’sonlyaservantoftheBoer—woman’s,andalow,vulgar,uneducatedthing;that’sneverbeentoboarding—schoolinhislife。Hehadbeentothenextfarmseekingsheep。
  Whenhecameinshesaid,’Goodevening,Waldo。Havesomecoffee!’ANDSHE
  KISSEDHIM。
  "AlllastnightIheardnothingelsebut’Havesomecoffee;havesomecoffee。’IfIwenttosleepforamomentIdreamedthatherfingerwaspressingmine;butwhenIwokewithastartIheardhersay,’Goodevening,Waldo。Havesomecoffee!’
  "Isthismadness?
  "Ihavenoteatenamouthfultoday。ThiseveningIgoandproposetoher。
  IfsherefusesmeIshallgoandkillmyselftomorrow。Thereisadamofwatercloseby。Thesheephavedrunkmostofitup,butthereisstillenoughifItieastonetomyneck。
  "Itisachoicebetweendeathandmadness。Icanendurenomore。Ifthisshouldbethelastletteryouevergetfromme,thinkofmetenderly,andforgiveme。Withouther,lifewouldbeahowlingwilderness,alongtribulation。Sheismyaffinity;theoneloveofmylife,ofmyyouth,ofmymanhood;mysunshine;myGod—givenblossom。
  "’Theyneverlovedwhodreamedthattheylovedonce,Andwhosaith,’Ilovedonce’?——
  Notangels,whosedeepeyeslookdownthroughrealmsoflight!’
  "Yourdisconsolatebrother,onwhatis,inallprobability,thelastanddistractednightofhislife。
  "GregoryNazianzenRose。
  "P。S。——Tellmothertotakecareofmypearlstuds。Ilefttheminthewash—hand—standdrawer。Don’tletthechildrengetholdofthem。
  "P。P。S。——Ishalltakethisletterwithmetothefarm。IfIturndownonecorneryoumayknowIhavebeenaccepted;ifnot,youmayknowitisallupwithyourheartbrokenbrother,G。N。R。"
  Gregoryhavingfinishedthisletter,readitoverwithmuchapproval,putitinanenvelope,addressedit,andsatcontemplatingtheinkpot,somewhatrelievedinmind。
  Theeveningturnedoutchillyandverywindyaftertheday’sheat。Fromafaroff,asGregorynearedthehomesteadonthebrownpony,hecoulddistinguishalittlefigureinalittleredcloakatthedoorofthecow—
  kraal。Emleanedoverthepolesthatbarredthegate,andwatchedthefrothingmilkrunthroughtheblackfingersoftheherdsman,whiletheunwillingcowsstoodwithtetheredheadsbythemilkingpoles。Shehadthrowntheredcloakoverherownhead,andhelditunderherchinwithalittlehand,tokeepfromherearsthewind,thatplayfullyshookit,andtossedthelittlefringeofyellowhairintohereyes。
  "Isitnottoocoldforyoutobestandinghere?"saidGregory,comingsoftlyclosetoher。
  "Oh,no;itissonice。Ialwayscometowatchthemilking。Thatredcowwiththeshorthornsisbringingupthecalfofthewhitecowthatdied。
  Shelovesitso——justasifitwereherown。Itissonicetoseeherlickitslittleears。Justlook!"
  "Thecloudsareblack。Ithinkitisgoingtoraintonight,"saidGregory。
  "Yes,"answeredEm,lookingupaswellasshecouldforthelittleyellowfringe。
  "ButI’msureyoumustbecold,"saidGregory,andputhishandunderthecloak,andfoundthereasmallfistdoubledup,soft,andverywarm。Hehelditfastinhishand。
  "Oh,Em,Iloveyoubetterthanalltheworldbesides!Tellme,doyoulovemealittle?"
  "Yes,Ido,"saidEm,hesitating,andtryingsoftlytofreeherhand。
  "Betterthaneverything;betterthanalltheworld,darling?"heasked,bendingdownsolowthattheyellowhairwasblownintohiseyes。
  "Idon’tknow,"saidEm,gravely。"Idoloveyouverymuch;butIlovemycousinwhoisatschool,andWaldo,verymuch。YouseeIhaveknownthemsolong!"
  "Oh,Em,donottalktomesocoldly!"Gregorycried,seizingthelittlearmthatrestedonthegate,andpressingittillshewashalfafraid。Theherdsmanhadmovedawaytotheotherendofthekraalnow,andthecows,busywiththeircalves,tooknonoticeofthelittlehumanfarce。"Em,ifyoutalksotomeIwillgomad!Youmustloveme,lovemebetterthanall!Youmustgiveyourselftome。IhavelovedyousincethatfirstmomentwhenIsawyouwalkingbythestonewallwiththejuginyourhands。
  Youweremadeforme,createdforme!IwillloveyoutillIdie!Oh,Em,donotbesocold,socrueltome!"
  Heheldherarmsotightlythatherfingersrelaxedtheirhold,andthecloakfluttereddownontotheground,andthewindplayedmoreroughlythaneverwiththelittleyellowhead。
  "Idoloveyouverymuch,"shesaid;"butIdonotknowifIwanttomarryyou。IloveyoubetterthanWaldo,butIcan’ttellifIloveyoubetterthanLyndall。IfyouwouldletmewaitforaweekIthinkperhapsIcouldtellyou。"
  Gregorypickedupthecloakandwrappeditroundher。
  "IfyoucouldbutlovemeasIloveyou,"hesaid;"butnowomancanloveasamancan。IwillwaittillSaturday。Iwillnotoncecomenearyoutillthen。Good—bye!Oh,Em,"hesaid,turningagain,andtwininghisarmabouther,andkissinghersurprisedlittlemouth,"ifyouarenotmywifeIcannotlive。Ihaveneverlovedanotherwoman,andInevershall!——
  never,never!"