TheywerenamedBastinandBickley。Bastin——BasilwashisChristianname——wasanuncouth,shock—headed,flat—footedpersonoflarge,ruggedframeandequallyruggedhonesty,withamindalmostincrediblysimple。Nothingsurprisedhimbecausehelackedthefacultyofsurprise。Hewaslikethatkindoffishwhichliesatthebottomoftheseaandtakeseverykindoffoodintoitsgreatmawwithoutdistinguishingitsflavour。Metaphoricallyspeaking,heavenlymannaanddecayedcabbagewerejustthesametoBastin。Hewasnotfastidiousandbothwerementalpabulum——ofasort——togetherwithwhateverlaybetweentheseextremes。Yethewasgood,sopainfullygoodthatonefeltthatwithoutexertiontohimselfhehadbookedafirst—classticketstraighttoHeaven;
  indeedthathisguardianangelhadtieditroundhisneckatbirthlestheshouldloseit,alreadynumberedanddatedlikeanidentificationdisc。
  IamboundtoaddthatBastinneverwentwrongbecauseheneverfelttheslightesttemptationtodoso。ThisIsupposeconstitutesrealvirtue,since,inviewofcertainBiblesayings,thepersonwhoistemptedandwouldliketoyieldtothetemptation,isequallyasinnerwiththepersonwhodoesyield。
  Tobetrulygoodoneshouldbetoogoodtobetempted,ortooweaktomaketheeffortworththetempter’swhile——inshortnotdeservingofhispowderandshot。
  IneedhardlyaddthatBastinwentintotheChurch;indeed,hecouldnothavegoneanywhereelse;itabsorbedhimnaturally,asdoubtlessHeavenwilldoinduecourse。OnlyIthinkitlikelythatuntiltheygettoknowhimhewillboretheangelssomuchthattheywillcontinuallymovehimuphigher。Alsoiftheyhaveanysusceptibilitiesleft,probablyhewilltreadupontheirtoes——anartinwhichIneverknewhisequal。However,IalwayslovedBastin,perhapsbecausenooneelsedid,afactofwhichheremainedtotallyunconscious,orperhapsbecauseofhisbrutalwayoftellingonewhatheconceivedtobethetruth,which,ashehadlessimaginationthanadormouse,generallyitwasnot。
  Forifthetruthisajewel,itisonecolouredandveiledbymanydifferentlightsandatmospheres。
  Itonlyremainstoaddthathewaslearnedinhistheologicalfashionandthatamonghisfurtherpeculiaritiesweretheslow,monotonousvoiceinwhichheutteredhisviewsinlongsentences,andhistotalindifferencetoadverseargumenthoweversoundandconvincing。
  Myotherfriend,Bickley,wasapersonofaquitedifferentcharacter。LikeBastin,hewaslearned,buthistendenciesfacedanotherway。IfBastin’somnivorousthroatcouldswallowacamel,especiallyatheologicalcamel,Bickley’swouldstrainatthesmallestgnat,especiallyatheologicalgnat。Theverybestandmostuprightofmen,yethebelievedinnothingthathecouldnottaste,seeorhandle。Hewasconvinced,forinstance,thatmanisabrute—descendedaccidentandnomore,thatwhatwecallthesoulorthemindisproducedbyacertainactionofthegreymatterofthebrain;thateverythingapparentlyinexplicablehasaperfectlymundaneexplanation,ifonlyonecouldfindit;thatmiraclescertainlyneverdidhappen,andneverwill;thatallreligionsarethefruitofhumanhopesandfearsandthemostconvincingproofofhumanweakness;thatnotwithstandingourinfinitevariationswearethesubjectsofNature’ssinglelawandthevictimsofblind,blackandbrutalchance。
  SuchwasBickleywithhisclever,well—cutfacethatalwaysremindedmeofacameo,andthoughtfulbrow;hisstrong,capablehandsandhisrathersteelymouth,themeresetofwhichsuggestedcontroversyofanuncompromisingkind。NaturallyastheChurchhadclaimedBastin,somedicineclaimedBickley。
  NowasithappenedthemanwhosucceededmyfatherasvicarofFulcombewasgivenabetterlivingandwentawayshortlyafterI
  hadpurchasedtheplaceandwithittheadvowson。JustatthistimealsoIreceivedaletterwritteninthelarge,sprawlinghandofBastinfromwhomIhadnotheardforyears。Itwentstraighttothepoint,sayingthathe,Bastin,hadseeninaChurchpaperthatthelastincumbenthadresignedthelivingofFulcombewhichwasinmygift。HewouldthereforebeobligedifI
  wouldgiveittohimastheplacehewasatinYorkshiredidnotsuithiswife’shealth。
  HereImaystatethatafterwardsIlearnedthatwhatdidnotsuitMrs。Bastinwastheorganist,whowaspretty。ShewasbynatureawomanwithatemperamentsoinsanelyjealousthatactuallyshemanagedtobesuspiciousofBastin,whomshehadcapturedinanunguardedmomentwhenhewasthinkingofsomethingelseandwhowouldassoonhavethoughtofevenlookingatanywomanashewouldofworshippingBaal。Asamatteroffactittookhimmonthstoknowonefemalefromanother。ExceptaspossibleprovidersofsubscriptionsandpropsofMothers’
  Meetings,womenhadnointerestforhim。
  Toreturn——withthatengaginghonestywhichIhavementioned——
  Bastin’sletterwentontosetoutallhisowndisabilities,which,headded,wouldprobablyrenderhimunsuitablefortheplacehedesiredtofill。HewasaHighChurchman,afactwhichwouldcertainlyoffendmany;hehadnoclaimstobeingapreacheralthoughhewasextraordinarilywellacquaintedwiththewritingsoftheEarlyFathers。(Whatonearthhadthattodowiththequestion,Iwondered。)Ontheotherhandhehadgenerallybeenconsideredagoodvisitorandwasfondofwalking(hemeanttocallondistantparishioners,butdidnotsayso)。
  Thenfollowedapageandahalfontheevilsoftheexistingsystemofthepresentationtolivingsbyprivatepersons,endingwiththesuggestionthatIhadprobablycommittedasininbuyingthisparticularadvowsoninordertoincreasemylocalauthority,thatis,ifIhadboughtit,apointonwhichhewasignorant。
  Finallyheinformedmethatashehadtochristenasickbabyfivemilesawayonacertainmooranditwastoowetforhimtoridehisbicycle,hemuststop。Andhestopped。
  Therewas,however,aP。S。totheletter,whichranasfollows:
  "Someonetoldmethatyouweredeadafewyearsago,andofcourseitmaybeanothermanofthesamenamewhoownsFulcombe。
  Ifso,nodoubtthePostOfficewillsendbackthisletter。"
  Thatwashisonlyallusiontomyhumbleselfinallthosediffusepages。ItwasalongwhilesinceIhadreceivedanepistlewhichmademelaughsomuch,andofcourseIgavehimthelivingbyreturnofpost,andeveninformedhimthatIwouldincreaseitsstipendtoasumwhichIconsideredsuitabletotheposition。
  AbouttendayslaterIreceivedanotherletterfromBastinwhich,asascrawlontheflapoftheenvelopeinformedme,hehadcarriedforaweekinhispocketandforgottentopost。
  Exceptbyinferenceitreturnednothanksformyintendedbenefits。Whatitdidsay,however,wasthathethoughtitwrongofmetohavesettledamatterofsuchspiritualimportanceinsogreatahurry,thoughhehadobservedthatrichmenwerenearlyalwaysselfishwheretheirtimewasconcerned。Moreover,heconsideredthatIoughtfirsttohavemadeinquiriesastohispresentcharacterandattainments,etc。,etc。
  TothisepistleIrepliedbytelegraphtotheeffectthatI
  shouldassoonthinkofmakinginquiriesaboutthecharacterofanarchangel,orthatofoneofhisHighChurchsaints。Thistelegram,hetoldmeafterwards,heconsideredunseemlyandevenribald,especiallyasithadgivengreatoffencetothepostmaster,whowasoneofthesidesmeninhischurch。
  ThusitcameaboutthatIappointedtheRev。BasilBastintothelivingofFulcombe,feelingsurethathewouldprovidemewithendlessamusementandactasamoraltonicanddiscipline。
  AlsoIappreciatedtheman’sbluntcandour。Induecoursehearrived,andIconfessthatafterafewSundaysofexperienceI
  begantohavedoubtsastothewisdomofmychoice,gladasIwastoseehimpersonally。Hissermonsatonceboredme,and,whentheydidnotsendmetosleep,excitedinmeadesirefordebate。
  Howcouldhebesoprofoundlyacquaintedwithmysteriesbeforewhichtheworldhadstoodamazedforages?Wastherenothingtoohotortooheavyinthespiritualwayforhimtodismissinafewblunderingandcasualwords,ashemightanyordinaryincidentofevery—daylife,Iwondered?AlsohisideaofHighChurchobservanceswasnotmine,or,Iimagine,thatofanybodyelse。
  ButIwillnotattempttosetitout。
  Hispeculiarities,however,wereeasytoexcuseandentirelyswallowedupbytheinnategoodnessofhisnaturewhichsoonmadehimbelovedofeveryoneintheplace,foralthoughhethoughtthatprobablymostthingsweresins,Ineverknewhimtodiscoverasinwhichheconsideredtobebeyondthereachofforgiveness。
  Bastinwasindeedamostcharitablemanandinhiswaywide—minded。
  ThepersonwhomIcouldnottolerate,however,washiswife,who,tomyfancy,moreresembledavessel,averyunattractivevessel,fullofvinegarthanawoman。HernamewasSarahandshewassmall,plain,flat,sandy—hairedandodious,quiteobsessed,moreover,withherjealousiesoftheRev。Basil,atwhomitpleasedhertosupposethateverywomaninthecountrysideunderfiftywasthrowingherself。
  HereIwillconfessthattothebestofmyabilityItookcarethattheydidinoutwardseeming,thatis,whenevershewaspresent,instructingthemtositasidewithhimindarkenedcorners,topresenthimwithflowers,andsoforth。Severalofthemeasilyfellintothehumourofthething,andIhaveseenhimdepartfromadinner—partyfollowedbythatgloweringSarah,withahandfulofrosebudsandviolets,tosaynothingofthetraditionalofferingsofslippers,embroideredmarkersandthelike。Well,itwasmyonlywayofcomingevenwithher,whichI
  thinksheknew,forshehatedmepoisonously。
  SomuchforBasilBastin。NowforBickley。HimIhadmetonseveraloccasionssinceourcollegedays,andafterIwassettledatthePrioryfromtimetotimeIaskedhimtostaywithme。Atlengthhecame,andIfoundoutthathewasnotatallcomfortableinhisLondonpracticewhichwasofanatureuncongenialtohim;further,thathedidnotgetonwithhispartners。Then,afterreflection,Imadeasuggestiontohim。I
  pointedoutthat,owingtoitspopularityamongstseasidevisitors,theneighbourhoodofFulcombewasarisingone,andthatalthoughthereweredoctorsinit,therewasnoreallyfirst—classsurgeonformiles。
  NowBickleywasafirst—classsurgeon,havingheldveryhighhospitalappointments,andindeedstillholdingthem。Why,I
  asked,shouldhenotcomeandsetuphereonhisown?IwouldappointhimdoctortotheestateandalsogivehimchargeofacottagehospitalwhichIwasendowing,withlibertytobuildandarrangeitasheliked。Further,asIconsideredthatitwouldbeofgreatadvantagetometohaveamanofrealabilitywithinreach,IwouldguaranteeforthreeyearswhateverincomehewasearninginLondon。
  Hethankedmewarmlyandintheendactedontheidea,withstartlingresultssofarashisprospectswereconcerned。Verysoonhisreallyremarkableskillbecameknownandhewasearningmoremoneythanasanunmarriedmanhecouldpossiblywant。
  Indeed,scarcelyabigoperationtookplaceatanytownwithintwentymiles,andevenmuchfartheraway,atwhichhewasnotcalledintoassist。
  Needlesstosayhisadventwasagreatboontome,forashelivedinahouseIlethimquitenearby,wheneverhehadaspareeveninghewoulddropintodinner,andfromourabsolutelyoppositestandpointswediscussedallthingshumananddivine。
  ThusIwasenabledtosharpenmywitsuponthehardsteelofhisclearintellectwhichwasyet,inasense,solimited。
  ImustaddthatIneverconvertedhimtomywayofthinkingandheneverconvertedmetohis,anymorethanheconvertedBastin,forwhom,queerlyenough,hehadaliking。Theypoundedawayateachother,Bickleyfrequentlygettingthebestofitintheargument,andwhenatlastBastinrosetogo,hegenerallymadethesameremark。Itwas:
  "Itreallyissad,mydearBickley,tofindamanofyourintellectsoutterlywrongheadedandmisguided。Ihaveconvictedyouoferroratleasthalfadozentimes,andnottoconfessitismerepigheadedness。Goodnight。IamsurethatSarahwillbesittingupforme。"
  "Sillyoldidiot!"Bickleywouldsay,shakinghisfistafterhim。"Theonlywaytogethimtoseethetruthwouldbetosawhisheadopenandpouritin。"
  Thenwewouldbothlaugh。
  Suchweremytwomostintimatefriends,althoughIadmititwasratherliketheequatorcultivatingcloserelationshipswiththenorthandsouthpoles。CertainlyBastinwasasfarfromBickleyasthosepointsoftheearthareapart,whileI。asitwere,satequallydistantbetweenthetwo。However,wewereallveryhappytogether,sinceincertaincharacters,therearefewthingsthatbindmenmorecloselythanprofounddifferencesofopinion。
  NowImustturntomymorepersonalaffairs。Afterall,itisimpossibleforamantosatisfyhissoul,ifhehasanythingofthesortabouthimwhichintheremotestdegreeanswerstothatdescription,withthehusksofwealth,luxuryandindolence,supplementedbyoccasionaltheologicalandotherargumentsbetweenhisfriends;Becomingprofoundlyconvincedofthistruth,Isearchedroundforsomethingtodoand,likeNoah’sdoveonthewasteofwaters,foundnothing。ThenIaskedBickleyandBastinfortheiropinionsastomybestfuturecourse。Bickleyprovedabarrendraw。HerubbedhisnoseandfeeblysuggestedthatImightgoinfor"researchwork,"which,ofcourse,onlyrepresentedhisownambitions。IaskedhimindignantlyhowIcoulddosuchathingwithoutanyscientificqualificationswhatever。Headmittedthedifficulty,butrepliedthatImightendowotherswhohadthequalifications。
  "Inshort,becomeamuchcowforsuckingscientists,"I
  replied,andbrokeofftheconversation。
  Bastin’sideawas,first,thatIshouldteachinaSundaySchool;secondly,thatifthiscareerdidnotsatisfyallmyaspirations,Imightbeordainedandbecomeamissionary。
  Onmyrejectionofthisbrilliantadvice,heremarkedthattheonlyotherthinghecouldthinkofwasthatIshouldgetmarriedandhavealargefamily,whichmightpossiblyadvantagethenationandultimatelyenrichtheKingdomofHeaven,thoughofsuchthingsnoonecouldbequitesure。Atanyrate,hewascertainthatatpresentIwasinpracticeneglectingmyduty,whateveritmightbe,andinfactoneofthosecumberersoftheearthwho,heobservedinthenewspaperhetookinandreadwhenhehadtime,were"veryhappilynamed——theidlerich。"
  "Whichremindsme,"headded,"thattheclothing—clubfinancesareinaperfectlyscandalouscondition;infact,itis?5indebt,anamountthatasthesquireoftheparishIconsideritincumbentonyoutomakegood,notasacharitybutasanobligation。"
  "Lookhere,myfriend,"Isaid,ignoringalltherest,"willyouanswermeaplainquestion?Haveyoufoundmarriagesuchasuccessthatyouconsiderityourdutytorecommendittoothers?
  Andifyouhave,whyhaveyounotgotthelargefamilyofwhichyouspeak?"
  "Ofcoursenot,"herepliedwithhisusualfrankness。"Indeed,itisinmanywayssodisagreeablethatIamconvinceditmustberightandforthegoodofallconcerned。AsregardsthefamilyI
  amsureIdonotknow,butSarahneverlikedbabies,whichperhapshassomethingtodowithit。"
  Thenhesighed,adding,"Yousee,Arbuthnot,wehavetotakethingsaswefindtheminthisworldandhopeforabetter。"
  "WhichisjustwhatIamtryingtodo,youunilluminatingolddonkey!"Iexclaimed,andlefthimthereshakinghisheadovermattersingeneral,butIthinkprincipallyoverSarah。
  Bytheway,Ithinkthatthevillagersrecognisedthisgoodlady’svinegarynature。Atleast,theyusedtocallher"SourSal。"
  ChapterIII
  NatalieNowwhatBastinhadsaidaboutmarriagestuckinmymindashisblunderingremarkshadawayofdoing,perhapsbecauseofthegrainofhonesttruthwithwhichtheywereoftenpermeated。
  Probablyinmypositionitwasmoreorlessmydutytomarry。Butherecametherub;Ihadneverexperiencedanyleaningsthatway。
  Iwasasmuchamanasothers,moresothanmanyare,perhaps,andIlikedwomen,butatthesametimetheyrepelledme。
  Myoldfastidiousnesscamein;tomytastetherewasalwayssomethingwrongaboutthem。Whiletheyattractedonepartofmynaturetheyrevoltedanotherpart,andonthewholeIpreferredtodowithouttheirintimatesociety,ratherthanworkviolencetothissecondandhigherpartofme。Moreover,quiteatthebeginningofmycareerIhadconcludedfromobservationthatamangetsonbetterinlifealone,ratherthanwithanothertodragathisside,orbywhomperhapshemustbedragged。Stilltruemarriage,suchasmostmenandsomewomenhavedreamedofintheiryouth,hadalwaysbeenoneofmyideals;indeeditwasonandaroundthisvisionthatIwrotethatfirstbookofminewhichwassosuccessful。SinceIknewthistobeunattainableinourimperfectconditions,however,notwithstandingBastin’sstrictures,againIdismissedthewholematterfrommymindasavainimagination。
  AsanalternativeIreflecteduponaparliamentarycareerwhichIwasnottoooldtobegin,andeventoyedwithoneortwoopportunitiesthatofferedthemselves,asthesedotomenofwealthandadvancedviews。Theynevercametoanything,forintheendIdecidedthatPartypoliticsweresohatefulandsodishonest,thatIcouldnotbringmyselftoputmyneckbeneaththeiryoke。IwassurethatifItriedtodoso,IshouldfailmorecompletelythanIhaddoneattheBarandinLiterature。
  Here,too,IamquitecertainthatIwasright。
  TheupshotofitallwasthatIsoughtrefugeinthatlastexpedientofwearyEnglishmen,travel,notasaglobe—trotter,butleisurelyandwithaninquiringmind,learningmuchbutagainfinding,liketheancientwriterwhomIhavequotedalready,thatthereisnonewthingunderthesun;thatwithcertainvariationsitisthesamethingoverandoveragain。
  No,Iwillmakeanexception,theEastdidinterestmeenormously。Thereitwas,atBenares,thatIcameintotouchwithcertainthinkerswhoopenedmyeyestoagreatdeal。Theyreleasedsomehiddenspringinmynaturewhichhithertohadalwaysbeenstrivingtobreakthroughthecrustofourconventionsandinheritedideas。IknownowthatwhatIwasseekingwasnothinglessthantheInfinite;thatIhad"immortallongingsinme。"Ilistenedtoalltheirsolemntalkofepochsandyearsmeasurelesstoman,andreflectedwithathrillthatafterallmanmighthavehispartineveryoneofthem。Yes,thatbirdofpassageasheseemedtobe,flyingoutofdarknessintodarkness,stillhemighthavespreadhiswingsinthelightofothersunsmillionsuponmillionsofyearsago,andmightstillspreadthem,grownradiantandglorious,millionsuponmillionsofyearshenceinatimeunborn。
  IfonlyIcouldknowthetruth。WasLife(accordingtoBickley)
  merelyashortactivityboundedbynothingnessbeforeandbehind;
  or(accordingtoBastin)aconventionalgolden—harpedandhaloedimmortality,awordofwhichhedidnotintheleastunderstandthemeaning?
  Orwasitsomethingquitedifferentfromeitherofthese,somethingvastandsplendidbeyondthereachofvision,somethingGod—sent,beginningandendingintheEternalAbsoluteandatlastpartakingofHisattributesandnatureandfromaeontoaeonshotthroughwithHislight?Andhowwasthetruthtobelearned?IaskedmyEasternfriends,andtheytalkedvaguelyoflongasceticpreparation,ofyearsuponyearsoflearning,fromwhomIcouldnotquitediscover。Iwassureitcouldnotbefromthem,becauseclearlytheydidnotknow;theyonlypassedonwhattheyhadheardelsewhere,whenorhowtheyeithercouldnotorwouldnotexplain。SoatlengthIgaveitup,havingsatisfiedmyselfthatallthiswasbutaneffortofOrientalimaginationcalledintolifebythesweetinfluencesoftheEasternstars。
  Igaveitupandwentaway,thinkingthatIshouldforget。ButIdidnotforget。Iwasquickwithanewhope,oratanyratewithanewaspiration,andthatsecretchildofholydesiregrewandgrewwithinmysoul,tillatlengthitflasheduponmethatthissoulofminewasitselfthehiddenMasterfromwhichImustlearnmylesson。NowonderthatthoseEasternfriendscouldnotgivehisname,seeingthatwhatevertheyreallyknew,asdistinguishedfromwhattheyhadheard,anditwaslittleenough,eachofthemhadlearnedfromtheteachingofhisownsoul。
  Thus,then,Itoobecameadreamerwithonlyonelonging,thelongingforwisdom,forthatspirittouchwhichshouldopenmyeyesandenablemetosee。
  YetnowithappenedstrangelyenoughthatwhenIseemedwithinmyselftohavelittlefurtherinterestinthethingsoftheworld,andleastofallinwomen,I,whohadtakenanotherguesttodwellwithme,thosethingsoftheworldcamebacktomeandintheshapeofWomantheInevitable。Probablyitwassodecreedsinceisitnotwrittenthatnomancanlivetohimselfalone,orlosehimselfinwatchingandnurturingthegrowthofhisownsoul?
  Ithappenedthus。IwenttoRomeonmywayhomefromIndia,andstayedthereawhile。OnthedayaftermyarrivalIwrotemynameinthebookofourMinistertoItalyatthattime,SirAlfredUpton,notbecauseIwishedhimtoaskmetodinner,butforthereasonthatIhadheardofhimasamanofarcheologicaltastesandthoughtthathemightenablemetoseethingswhichotherwiseIshouldnotsee。
  AsitchancedheknewaboutmethroughsomeofmyDevonshireneighbourswhowerefriendsofhis,anddidaskmetodinneronthefollowingnight。Iacceptedandfoundmyselfoneofaconsiderableparty,someofthemdistinguishedEnglishpeoplewhoworeOrders,asiscustomarywhenonedineswiththerepresentativeofourSovereign。Seeingthese,andthisshowsthatinthebestofusvanityisonlylatent,forthefirsttimeinmylifeIwassorrythatIhadnoneandwasonlyplainMr。
  Arbuthnotwho,asSirAlfredexplainedtomepolitely,mustgointodinnerlast,becausealltheresthadtitles,andwithoutevenaladyastherewasnotonetospare。
  NorwasmylotbetteredwhenIgotthere,asIfoundmyselfseatedbetweenanItaliancountessandaRussianprince,neitherofwhomcouldtalkEnglish,while,alas,Iknewnoforeignlanguage,notevenFrenchinwhichtheyaddressedme,seemingsurprisedthatIdidnotunderstandthem。Iwashumiliatedatmyownignorance,althoughinfactIwasnotignorant,onlymyeducationhadbeenclassical。IndeedIwasagoodclassicandhadkeptupmyknowledgemoreorless,especiallysinceIbecameanidleman。InmyconfusionitoccurredtomethattheItaliancountessmightknowLatinfromwhichherownlanguagewasderived,andaddressedherinthattongue。Shestared,andSirAlfred,whowasnotfaroffandoverheardme(healsoknewLatin),burstintolaughterandproceededtoexplainthejokeinaloudvoice,firstinFrenchandtheninEnglish,totheassembledcompany,whoallbecameinfectedwithmerrimentandalsostaredatmeasacuriosity。
  ThenitwasthatforthefirsttimeIsawNatalie,forowingtoamistakeofmydriverIhadarrivedratherlateandhadnotbeenintroducedtoher。Asherfather’sonlydaughter,hermotherbeingdead,shewasseatedattheendofthetablebehindafan—likearrangementofwhiteMadonnalilies,andshehadbentforwardand,liketheothers,waslookingatme,butinsuchafashionthatherheadfromthatdistanceseemedasthoughitweresurroundedandcrownedwithlilies。Indeedthegreatestartcouldnothaveproducedamorebeautifuleffectwhichwas,however,reallyoneofnakedaccident。
  AnangellookingdownuponearththroughtheliliesofHeaven——thatwastheratherabsurdthoughtwhichflashedintomymind。Ididnotquiterealiseherfaceatfirstexceptthatitseemedtobebothdarkandfair;asafactherwavinghairwhichgrewratherlowuponherforehead,wasdark,andherlarge,softeyesweregrey。Ididnotknow,andtothismomentIdonotknowifshewasreallybeautiful,butcertainlythelightthatshonethroughthoseeyesofhersandseemedtobereflecteduponherdelicatefeatures,wasbeautyitself。Itwaslikethatglowingthroughathinvaseofthepurestalabasterwithinwhichalampisplaced,andIfeltthiseffecttoarisefromnochance,likethatofthelily—setting,but,asitwere,fromthelampofthespiritwithin。
  Oureyesmet,andIsupposethatshesawthewonderandadmirationinmine。Atanyrateheramusedsmilefaded,leavingthefaceratherserious,thoughstillsweetlyserious,andatingeofcolourcreptoveritasthefirsthueofdawncreepsintoapearlysky。ThenshewithdrewherselfbehindthescreenofliliesandfortherestofthatdinnerwhichIthoughtwasnevercomingtoanend,practicallyIsawhernomore。OnlyInotedasshepassedoutthatalthoughnottall,shewasroundedandgracefulinshapeandthatherhandswerepeculiarlydelicate。
  Afterwardsinthedrawing—roomherfather,withwhomIhadtalkedatthetable,introducedmetoher,saying:
  "Mydaughteristherealarchaeologist,Mr。Arbuthnot,andI
  thinkifyouaskher,shemaybeabletohelpyou。"
  Thenhebustledawaytospeaktosomeofhisimportantguests,fromwhomIthinkhewasseekingpoliticalinformation。
  "Myfatherexaggerates,"shesaidinasoftandverysympatheticvoice,"butperhaps"——andshemotionedmetoaseatatherside。
  ThenwetalkedoftheplacesandthingsthatImoreparticularlydesiredtoseeand,well,theendofitwasthatI
  wentbacktomyhotelinlovewithNatalie;andassheafterwardsconfessed,shewenttobedinlovewithme。
  Itwasacuriousbusiness,morelikemeetingaveryoldfriendfromwhomonehadbeenseparatedbycircumstancesforascoreofyearsorsothananythingelse。Wewere,sotospeak,intimatefromthefirst;weknewallabouteachother,althoughhereandtherewassomethingnew,somethingdifferentwhichwecouldnotremember,linesofthought,veinsofmemorywhichwedidnotpossessincommon。OnonepointIamabsolutelyclear:itwasnotsolelytheeverydayandancientappealofwomantomanandmantowomanwhichdrewustogether,thoughdoubtlessthishaditspartinourattachmentasunderourhumanconditionsitmustdo,seeingthatitisNature’sbaittoensurethecontinuanceoftherace。Itwassomethingmore,somethingquitebeyondthatelementaryimpulse。