"You’lldothatanywaywhenyourtimecomes,Bickley,Imeandecease,ofcourse,"interruptedBastin。"Andwhoknows,perhapsallthisisanopportunitygivenbyProvidencetoopenyoureyes,which,Imustsay,aresingularlyblind。Youthinkyouknoweverythingthereistolearn,butthefactisthatliketherestofus,youknownothingatall,andgoodmanthoughyouare,obstinatelyrefusetoadmitthetruthandtoseeksupportelsewhere。FormypartIbelievethatyouareafraidoffallinginlovewiththatGlitteringLadyandofbeingconvincedbyherthatyouarewronginyourmostunsatisfactoryconclusions。"
"Iamout—votedanyway,"saidBickley,"andfortherest,Bastin,lookafteryourselfandleavemealone。IwilladdthatonthewholeIthinkyouarebothright,andthatitiswisestforustostopwhereweare,forafterallwecanonlydieonce。"
"Iamnotsosure,Bickley。Thereisathingcalledtheseconddeath,whichiswhatistroublingthatoldscoundrel,Oro。NowI
willgoandlookforthosebooks。"
Sotheideaofflightwasabandoned,althoughIadmitthateventomyselfithadattractions。ForIfeltthatIwasbeingwrappedinanetofmysteriesfromwhichIsawnoescape。Yes,andofmorethanmysteries;IwhohadswornthatIwouldneverlookuponanotherwoman,waslearningtolovethissweetandwondrousYva,andofthatwhatcouldbetheend?
Wecollectedallwehadcometoseek,andstartedhomewardsescortedbyMaramaandhispeople,includinganumberofyoungwomenwhodancedbeforeusinalightarrayofflowers。
Passingouroldhouse,wecametothegrovewheretheidolOrohadstoodandBastinwassonearlysacrificed。Therewasanotheridoltherenowwhichhewishedtoexamine,butintheenddidnotasthenativessoobviouslyobjected。IndeedMaramatoldmethatnotwithstandingthemysteriousdeathofthesorcerersontheRockofOfferings,therewasstillastrongpartyintheislandwhowouldbegladtodousamischiefifanyfurtheraffrontwereofferedtotheirhereditarygod。
Hequestionedusalsotentativelyabouttheapparition,forsuchheconceivedittobe,whichhadappearedupontherockandkilledthesorcerers,andIansweredhimasIthoughtwisest,tellinghimthataterriblePowerwasafootintheland,whichhewoulddowelltoobey。
"Yes,"hesaid;"theGodoftheMountainofwhomthetraditionhascomedowntousfromourforefathers。Heisawakeagain;hesees,hehearsandweareafraid。Pleadwithhimforus,O
Friend—from—the—Sea。"
Ashespokewewerepassingthroughalittlepatchofthickbush。Suddenlyfromoutofthisbush,Isawaladappear。Heworeamaskuponhisface,butfromhisshapecouldnothavebeenmorethanthirteenorfourteenyearsofage。Inhishandwasawoodenclub。Heranforward,stopped,andwithayellofhatehurledit,IthinkatBastin,butithitme。AtanyrateIfeltashockandrememberednomore。
Dreams。Dreams。Endlessdreams!Whatweretheyallabout?Idonotknow。ItseemedtomethatthroughthemcontinuallyIsawthestatelyfigureofoldOrocontemplatingmegravely,asthoughheweremakinguphismindaboutsomethinginwhichImustplayapart。Thentherewasanotherfigure,thatofthegraciousbutimperialYva,whofromtimetotime,asIthought,leantovermeandwhisperedinmyearwordsofrestandcomfort。Norwasthisall,sincehershapehadawayofchangingsuddenlyintothatofmylostwifewhowouldspeakwithhervoice。OrperhapsmywifewouldspeakwithYva’svoice。Tomydisorderedsenseitwasasthoughtheywereonepersonality,havingtwoshapes,eitherofwhichcouldbeassumedatwill。Itwasmoststrangeandyettomemostblessed,sinceinthelivingIseemedtohavefoundthedead,andinthedeadtheliving。More,Itookjourneys,orrathersomeunknownpartofmeseemedtodoso。OneoftheseI
remember,foritsmajesticcharacterstampeditselfuponmymindinsuchafashionthatallthewatersofdeliriumcouldnotwashitoutnorallitswindsblowawaythatmemory。
IwastravellingthroughspacewithYvaathousandtimesfasterthanlightcanflash。Wepassedsunaftersun。Theydrewnear,theygrewintoenormous,flamingGloriesroundwhichcircledworlduponworld。Theybecamesmall,dwindledtopointsoflightanddisappeared。
Wefoundfootinguponsomefarlandandpassedamarvelouswhitecitywhereinwerebuildingswithdomesofcrystalandalabaster,inthelatterofwhichweresetwindowsmadeofgreatjewels;sapphiresorrubiestheyseemedtome。Wewentonupalovelyvalley。Totheleftwerehills,downwhichtumbledwaterfalls;totherightwasariverbroadanddeepthatseemedtooverflowitsbanksasdoestheNile。Behindwerehighmountainsontheslopesofwhichgrewforestsofglorioustrees,someofthemaflamewithbloom,whilefarawayuptheircrestsstoodcolossalgoldenstatuessetwideapart。Theylookedlikeguardianangelswatchingthatcityandthatvale。Thelandwaslitwithalightsuchasthatofthemoon,onlyintensifiedandofmanycolours。Indeedlookingup,Isawthataboveusfloatedthreemoons,eachofthembiggerthanourownatthefull,andgatheredthathereitwasnight。
Wecametoahousesetamidscentedgardensandhavinginfrontofitterracesofflowers。Itseemednotunlikemyownhouseathome,butItooklittlenoteofit,becauseofawomanwhosatupontheverandah,ifImaycallitso。Shewascladingarmentsofwhitesilkfastenedabouthermiddlewithajewelledgirdle。
Onherneckalsowasacollarofjewels。Iforgetthecolour;
indeedthisseemedtochangecontinuallyasthelightfromthedifferentmoonsstruckwhenshemoved,butIthinkitsprevailingtingewasblue。Inherarmsthiswomannursedabeauteous,sleepingchild,singinghappilyassherockedittoandfro。Yvawenttowardsthewomanwholookedupatherstepandutteredalittlecry。ThenforthefirsttimeIsawthewoman’sface。Itwasthatofmydeadwife!
AsIfollowedinmydream,alittlecloudofmistseemedtocoverbothmywifeandYva,andwhenIreachedtheplaceYvawasgone。Onlymywiferemained,sheandthechild。Thereshestood,solemnandsweet。WhileIdrewnearshelaiddownthechilduponthecushionedseatfromwhichshehadrisen。Shestretchedoutherarmsandflungthemaboutme。SheembracedmeandIembracedherinaraptureofreunion。Thenturningsheliftedupthechild,itwasagirl,formetokiss。
"Seeyourdaughter,"shesaid,"andbeholdallthatIammakingreadyforyouwhereweshalldwellinadaytocome。"
Igrewconfused。
"Yva,"Isaid。"WhereisYvawhobroughtmehere?Didshegointothehouse?"
"Yes,"sheansweredhappily。"Yvawentintothehouse。Lookagain!"
IlookedanditwasYva’sfacethatwaspressedagainstmyown,andYva’seyesthatgazedintomine。Onlyshewasgarbedasmywifehadbeen,andonherbosomhungthechangefulnecklace。
"Youmaynotstay,"shewhispered,andlo!itwasmywifethatspoke,notYva。
"Tellmewhatitmeans?"Iimplored。
"Icannot,"sheanswered。"Therearemysteriesthatyoumaynotknowasyet。LoveYvaifyouwillandIshallnotbejealous,forinlovingYvayouloveme。Youcannotunderstand?Thenknowthis,thatthespirithasmanyshapes,andyetisthesamespirit——
sometimes。NowIwhoamfar,yetnear,bidyoufarewellawhile。"
Thenallpassedinaflashandthedreamended。
SuchwastheonlyoneofthosevisionswhichIcanrecall。
Iseemedtowakeupasfromalongandtumultuoussleep。ThefirstthingIsawwasthepalmroofofourhouseupontherock。I
knewitwasourhouse,forjustabovemewasapalmleafofwhichIhadmyselftiedthestalktotheframeworkwithabitofcolouredribbonihadIhadchancedtofindinmypocket。ItcameoriginallyfromtheprogrammecardofadancethatIhadattendedatHonoluluandIhadkeptitbecauseIthoughtitmightbeuseful。FinallyIusedittosecurethatlooseleaf。Istaredattheribbonwhichbroughtbackafloodofmemories,andasIwasthusengagedIheardvoicestalking,andlistened——Bickley’svoice,andtheLadyYva’s。
"Yes,"Bickleywassaying,"hewilldowellnow,buthewentnear,verynear。"
"Iknewhewouldnotdie,"sheanswered,"becausemyfathersaidso。"
"Therearetwosortsofdeaths,"repliedBickley,"thatofthebodyandthatofthemind。Iwasafraidthatevenifhelived,hisreasonwouldgo,butfromcertainindicationsIdonotthinkthatwillhappennow。Hewillgetquitewellagain——though——"andhestopped。
"Iamverygladtohearyousayso,"chimedinBastin。"ForweeksIthoughtthatIshouldhavetoreadtheBurialServiceoverpoorArbuthnot。IndeedIwasmuchpuzzledastothebestplacetoburyhim。FinallyIfoundaverysuitablespotroundthecornerthere,whereitisn’trock,inwhichonecan’tdigandthesoilisnotliabletobeflooded。InfactIwentsofarastoclearawaythebushandtomarkoutthegravewithitsfoottotheeast。Inthisclimateonecan’tdelay,youknow。"
WeakasIwas,Ismiled。ThispracticalproceedingwassoexactlylikeBastin。
"Well,youwastedyourlabour,"exclaimedBickley。
"Yes,IamgladtosayIdid。ButIdon’tthinkitwasyouroperationsandtherestthatcuredhim,Bickley,althoughyoutakeallthecredit。IbelieveitwastheLife—waterthattheLadyYvamadehimdrinkandthestuffthatOrosentwhichwegavehimwhenyouweren’tlooking。"
"ThenIhopethatinthefutureyouwillnotinterferewithmycases,"saidtheindignantBickley,andeitherthevoicespassedawayorIwenttosleep。
WhenIwokeupagainitwastofindtheLadyYvaseatedatmysidewatchingme。
"Forgiveme,Humphrey,becauseIhere;othersgoneoutwalking,"shesaidslowlyinEnglish。
"Whotaughtyoumylanguage?"Iasked,astonished。"BastinandBickley,whileyouill,theyteach;theyteachmemuch。Manjustsamenowashewashundredthousandyearsago,"sheaddedenigmatically。"Allthinkonewomanbeautifulwhennootherwomanthere。"
"Indeed,"Ireplied,wonderingtowhatproceedingsonthepartofBastinandBickleyshealluded。Couldthatself—centredpair——
oh!itwasimpossible。
"HowlonghaveIbeenill?"IaskedtoescapethesubjectwhichIfelttobeuncomfortable。
Sheliftedherbeautifuleyesinsearchofwordsandbegantocountuponherfingers。
"Twomoon,onehalfmoon,yes,tenweek,countingSabbath,"sheansweredtriumphantly。
"Tenweeks!"Iexclaimed。
"Yes,Humphrey,tenwholeweeksandthreedaysyoufirstbad,thenmad。Oh!"shewenton,breakingintotheOrofenantonguewhichshespokesoperfectly,althoughitwasnotherown。ThatlanguageofhersIneverlearned,butIknowshethoughtinitandonlytranslatedintoOrofenan,becauseofthegreatdifficultywhichshehadinrenderingherhighandrefinedideasintoitssimplermetaphor,andthestrangewordswhichoftensheintroduced。"Oh!youhavebeenveryill,friendofmyheart。AttimesIthoughtthatyouweregoingtodie,andweptandwept。
Bickleythinksthathesavedyouandheisveryclever。Buthecouldnothavesavedyou;thatwantedmoreknowledgethananyofyourpeoplehave;onlyIprayyou,donottellhimsobecauseitwouldhurthispride。"
"Whatwasthematterwithmethen,Yva?"
"Allwasthematter。First,theweaponwhichthatyouththrew——
hewasthesonofthesorcererwhommyfatherdestroyed——crushedintheboneofyourhead。Heisdeadforhiscrimeandmayhebeaccursedforever,"sheaddedintheonlyoutbreakofrageandvindictivenessinwhichIeversawherindulge。
"Onemustmakeexcusesforhim;hisfatherhadbeenkilled,"I
said。
"Yes,thatiswhatBastintellsme,anditistrue。Still,forthatyoungmanIcanmakenoexcuse;itwascowardlyandwicked。
Well,Bickleyperformedwhathecallsoperation,andtheLordOro,hecameupfromhishouseandhelpedhim,becauseBastinisnogoodinsuchthings。Thenhecanonlyturnawayhisheadandpray。I,too,helped,holdinghotwaterandlinenandjarofthestuffthatmadeyoufeellikenothing,althoughthesightmademefeelmoresickthananythingsinceIsawoneIlovedkilled,oh,long,longago。"
"Wastheoperationsuccessful?"Iasked,forIdidnotdaretobegintothankher。
"Yes,thatcleverman,Bickley,liftedthebonewhichhadbeencrushedin。Onlythensomethingbrokeinyourheadandyoubegantobleedhere,"andshetouchedwhatIbelieveiscalledthetemporalartery。"Theveinhadbeencrushedbytheblow,andgaveway。Bickleyworkedandworked,andjustintimehetieditupbeforeyoudied。Oh!thenIfeltasthoughIlovedBickley,thoughafterwardsBastinsaidthatIoughttohavelovedhim,sinceitwasnotBickleywhostoppedthebleeding,buthisprayer。"
"Perhapsitwasboth,"Isuggested。
"Perhaps,Humphrey,atleastyouweresaved。Thencameanothertrouble。Youtookfever。Bickleysaidthatitwasbecauseacertaingnathadbittenyouwhenyouwentdowntotheship,andmyfather,theLordOro,toldmethatthiswasright。Attheleastyougrewveryweakandlostyourmind,anditseemedasthoughyoumustdie。Then,Humphrey,IwenttotheLordOroandkneeledbeforehimandprayedyoulife,forIknewthathecouldcureyouifhewould,thoughBickley’sskillwasatanend。
"’Daughter,’hesaidtome,’notoncebutagainandagainyouhavesetupyourwillagainstmineinthepast。WhythenshouldI
troublemyselftograntthisdesireofyoursinthepresent,andsaveamanwhoisnothingtome?’
"Irosetomyfeetandanswered,’Idonotknow,myFather,yetIamcertainthatforyourownsakeitwillbewelltodoso。I
amsurethatofeverythingevenyoumustgiveanaccountatlast,greatthoughyoube,andwhoknows,perhapsonelifewhichyouhavesavedmayturnthebalanceinyourfavour。’
"’SurelythepriestBastinhasbeentalkingtoyou,’hesaid。
"’Hehas,’Ianswered,’andnothealone。Manyvoiceshavebeentalkingtome。’"
"Whatdidyoumeanbythat?"Iasked。
"ItmattersnothingwhatImeant,Humphrey。Bestillandlistentomystory。Myfatherthoughtawhileandanswered:
"’Iamjealousofthisstranger。Whatishebutashort—livedhalf—barbariansuchasweknewintheolddays?Andyetalreadyyouthinkmoreofhimthanyoudoofme,yourfather,thedivineOrowhohaslivedathousandyears。AtfirstIhelpedthatphysiciantosavehim,butnowIthinkIwishhimdead。’
"’Ifyouletthismandie,myFather,’Ianswered,’thenwepart。RememberthatIalsohaveofthewisdomofourpeople,andcanuseitifIwill。’
"’Thensavehimyourself,’hesaid。
"’PerhapsIshall,myFather,’Ianswered,’butifsoitwillnotbehere。Isaythatifsowepartandyoushallbelefttoruleinyourmajestyalone。’
"NowthisfrightenedtheLordOro,forhehastheweaknessthathehatestobealone。
"’IfIdowhatyouwill,doyouswearnevertoleaveme,Yva?’
heasked。’Knowthatifyouwillnotswear,themandies。’
"’Iswear,’Ianswered——foryoursake,Humphrey——thoughIdidnotlovetheoath。
"ThenhegavemeacertainmedicinetomixwiththeLife—water,andwhenyouwerealmostgonethatmedicinecuredyou,thoughBickleydoesnotknowit,asnothingelsecouldhavedone。NowI
havetoldyouthetruth,foryourownearonly,Humphrey。"
"Yva,"Iasked,"whydidyoudoallthisforme?"
"Humphrey,Idonotknow,"sheanswered,"butIthinkbecauseI
must。Nowsleepawhile。"
ChapterXIX
TheProposalsofBastinandBickleySofarasmybodywasconcernedIgrewwellwithgreatrapidity,thoughitwaslongbeforeIgotbackmystrength。ThusIcouldnotwalkfarorendureanysustainedexertion。Withmyminditwasotherwise。Icannotexplainwhathadhappenedtoit;
indeedIdonotknow,butinasenseitseemedtohavebecomedetachedandtohaveassumedakindofpersonalityofitsown。Attimesitfeltasthoughitwerenolongeraninhabitantofthebody,butratheritsmoreorlessindependentpartner。Iwasperfectlyclear—headedandofinsanityIexperiencednosymptoms。
Yetmymind,Iusethattermfromlackofabetter,wasnotentirelyundermycontrol。Foronething,atnightitappearedtowanderfaraway,thoughwhitheritwentandwhatitsawthereI
couldneverremember。
Irecordthisbecausepossiblyitexplainscertainmysteriousevents,iftheywereeventsandnotdreams,whichshortlyImustsetout。IspoketoBickleyaboutthematter。Heputitbylightly,sayingthatitwasonlyaresultofmylongandmostsevereillnessandthatIshouldsteadydownintime,especiallyifwecouldescapefromthatislandanditsunnaturalatmosphere。
Yetashespokeheglancedatmeshrewdlywithhisquickeyes,andwhenheturnedtogoawayIheardhimmuttersomethingtohimselfabout"unholyinfluences"and"thatconfoundedoldOro。"
Thewordswerespokentohimselfandquitebeneathhisbreath,andofcoursenotmeanttoreachme。Butoneofthecuriousconcomitantsofmystatewasthatallmysenses,andespeciallymyhearing,hadbecomemostabnormallyacute。Awhisperfarawaywasnowtomelikealoudremarkmadeinaroom。
Bickley’sreflection,forIcanscarcelycallitmore,setmethinking。YvahadsaidthatOrosentmemedicinewhichwasadministeredtomewithoutBickley’sknowledge,andasshebelieved,savedmylife,orcertainlymyreason。Whatwasinit?
Iwondered。ThentherewasthatLife—waterwhichYvabroughtandinsisteduponmydrinkingeveryday。Undoubtedlyitwasamarveloustonicanddidmegood。Butithadothereffectsalso。
Thus,asshesaidwouldbethecase,afteracourseofitI
conceivedthegreatestdislike,whichImayaddhasneverentirelyleftme,ofanyformofmeat,alsoofalcohol。AllI
seemedtowantwasthiswaterwithfruit,orsuchnativevegetablesastherewere。Bickleydisapprovedandmademeeatfishoccasionally,buteventhisrevoltedme,andsinceIgainedsteadilyinweight,aswefoundoutbyasimplecontrivance,andremainedhealthyineveryotherway,soonheallowedmetochoosemyowndiet。
AboutthistimeOrobegantopaymefrequentvisits。Healwayscameatnight,andwhatismoreIknewwhenhewascoming,althoughhenevergavemewarning。HereIshouldexplainthatduringmyillnessBastin,whowassoingeniousinsuchmatters,hadbuiltanotherhutinwhichheandBickleyslept,ofcoursewhentheywerenotwatchingme,leavingouroldbed—chambertomyself。
Well,IwouldwakeupandbeawarethatOrowascoming。Thenheappearedinasilentandmysteriousway,asthoughhehadmaterialisedintheroom,forIneversawhimpassthedoorway。
Inthemoonlight,orthestarlight,whichflowedthroughtheentranceandthesideofthehutthatwasonlyenclosedwithlatticework,Iperceivedhimseathimselfuponacertainstool,lookinglikeamostmajesticghostwithhisflowingrobes,longwhitebeard,hookednoseandhawkeyes。Intheday—timehemuchresembledthelateGeneralBoothwhomIhadoftenseen,exceptforcertainaddedqualitiesofheightandclassicbeautyofcountenance。Atnight,however,heresemblednoonebuthimself,indeedtherewassomethingmightyandgodlikeinhisappearance,somethingthatmadeonefeelthathewasnotasareothermen。
Forawhilehewouldsitandlookatme。Thenhebegantospeakinalow,vibrantvoice。Whatdidhespeakof?Well,manymatters。Itwasasthoughhewereunburdeningthathoarysoulofhisbecauseitcouldnolongerendurethegrandeurofitsownloneliness。Amongstsundrysecretthings,hetoldmeofthepasthistoryofthisworldofours,andofthemightycivilisationswhichforuncountedagesheandhisforefathershadruledbythestrengthoftheirwillandknowledge,ofthedwindlingoftheirraceandofthefinaldestructionofitsenemies,althoughI
noticedthatnowhenolongersaidthatthiswashisworkalone。
OnenightIaskedhimifhedidnotmissallsuchpompandpower。
Thensuddenlyhebrokeout,andforthefirsttimeIreallylearnedwhatambitioncanbewhenitutterlypossessesthesoulofman。
"Areyoumad,"heasked,"thatyousupposethatI,Oro,theKingofkings,canbecontenttodwellsolitaryinagreatcavewithnonebuttheshadowsofthedeadtoserveme?Nay,Imustruleagainandbeevengreaterthanbefore,orelseItoowilldie。Bettertofacethefuture,evenifitmeansoblivion,thantoremainthusarelicofagloriouspast,stilllivingandyetdead,likethatstatueofthegreatgodFatewhichyousawinthetempleofmyworship。"
"Bastindoesnotthinkthatthefuturemeansoblivion,"I
remarked。
"Iknowit。Ihavestudiedhisfaithandfindittoohumbleformytaste,alsotoonew。ShallI,Oro,creepasuppliantbeforeanyPower,andconfesswhatBastinispleasedtocallmysins?
Nay,Iwhoamgreatwillbetheequalofallgreatness,ornothing。"
Hepausedawhile,thenwenton:
"Bastinspeaksof’eternity。’Whereandwhatthenisthiseternitywhichifithasnoendcanhavehadnobeginning?Iknowthesecretofthesunsandtheirattendantworlds,andtheyarenomoreeternalthantheinsectwhichglittersforanhour。Outofshapeless,rushinggasestheygatheredtolivetheirday,andintogasesatlasttheydissolveagainwithalltheybore。"
"Yes,"Ianswered,"buttheyreformintonewworlds。"
"Thathavenopartwiththeold。Thisworld,too,willmelt,departingtowhenceitcame,asyoursacredwritingssay,andwhatthenofthosewhodweltanddwellthereon?No,Manoftoday,givemeTimeinwhichIruleandkeepyourdreamsofanEternitythatisnot,andinwhichyoumuststillcrawlandserve,evenifitwere。Yet,ifImight,Iconfessit,Iwouldliveonforever,butasMasternotasSlave。"