Thoseeyes!thoselarge,thoseshining,thosedivineorbs!theybecametometwinstarsofLeda,andItothemdevoutestofastrologers。
Thereisnopoint,amongthemanyincomprehensibleanomaliesofthescienceofmind,morethrillinglyexcitingthanthefactnever,I
believe,noticedintheschoolsthat,inourendeavorstorecalltomemorysomethinglongforgotten,weoftenfindourselvesupontheveryvergeofremembrance,withoutbeingable,intheend,toremember。Andthushowfrequently,inmyintensescrutinyofLigeia’seyes,haveIfeltapproachingthefullknowledgeoftheirexpressionfeltitapproachingyetnotquitebemineandsoatlengthentirelydepart!Andstrange,ohstrangestmysteryofall!Ifound,inthecommonestobjectsoftheuniverse,acircleofanalogiestotheatexpression。Imeantosaythat,subsequentlytotheperiodwhenLigeia’sbeautypassedintomyspirit,theredwellingasinashrine,Iderived,frommanyexistencesinthematerialworld,asentimentsuchasIfeltalwaysarousedwithinmebyherlargeandluminousorbs。YetnotthemorecouldIdefinethatsentiment,oranalyze,orevensteadilyviewit。Irecognizedit,letmerepeat,sometimesinthesurveyofarapidly-growingvineinthecontemplationofamoth,abutterfly,achrysalis,astreamofrunningwater。Ihavefeltitintheocean;inthefallingofameteor。Ihavefeltitintheglancesofunusuallyagedpeople。Andthereareoneortwostarsinheavenoneespecially,astarofthesixthmagnitude,doubleandchangeable,tobefoundnearthelargestarinLyrainatelescopicscrutinyofwhichIhavebeenmadeawareofthefeeling。I
havebeenfilledwithitbycertainsoundsfromstringedinstruments,andnotunfrequentlybypassagesfrombooks。Amonginnumerableotherinstances,IwellremembersomethinginavolumeofJosephGlanvill,whichperhapsmerelyfromitsquaintnesswhoshallsay?neverfailedtoinspiremewiththesentiment;“Andthewillthereinlieth,whichdiethnot。Whoknoweththemysteriesofthewill,withitsvigor?ForGodisbutagreatwillpervadingallthingsbynatureofitsintentness。Mandothnotyieldhimtotheangels,noruntodeathutterly,saveonlythroughtheweaknessofhisfeeblewill。”
Lengthofyears,andsubsequentreflection,haveenabledmetotrace,indeed,someremoteconnectionbetweenthispassageintheEnglishmoralistandaportionofthecharacterofLigeia。Anintensityinthought,action,orspeech,waspossibly,inher,aresult,oratleastanindex,ofthatgiganticvolitionwhich,duringourlongintercourse,failedtogiveotherandmoreimmediateevidenceofitsexistence。OfallthewomenwhomIhaveeverknown,she,theoutwardlycalm,theever-placidLigeia,wasthemostviolentlyapreytothetumultuousvulturesofsternpassion。AndofsuchpassionI
couldformnoestimate,savebythemiraculousexpansionofthoseeyeswhichatoncesodelightedandappalledmebythealmostmagicalmelody,modulation,distinctnessandplacidityofherverylowvoiceandbythefierceenergyrendereddoublyeffectivebycontrastwithhermannerofutteranceofthewildwordswhichshehabituallyuttered。
IhavespokenofthelearningofLigeia:itwasimmensesuchasI
haveneverknowninwoman。Intheclassicaltongueswasshedeeplyproficient,andasfarasmyownacquaintanceextendedinregardtothemoderndialectsofEurope,Ihaveneverknownheratfault。
Indeeduponanythemeofthemostadmired,becausesimplythemostabstruseoftheboastederuditionoftheacademy,haveIeverfoundLigeiaatfault?Howsingularlyhowthrillingly,thisonepointinthenatureofmywifehasforceditself,atthislateperiodonly,uponmyattention!IsaidherknowledgewassuchasIhaveneverknowninwomanbutwherebreathesthemanwhohastraversed,andsuccessfully,allthewideareasofmoral,physical,andmathematicalscience?IsawnotthenwhatInowclearlyperceive,thattheacquisitionsofLigeiaweregigantic,wereastounding;yetIwassufficientlyawareofherinfinitesupremacytoresignmyself,withachild-likeconfidence,toherguidancethroughthechaoticworldofmetaphysicalinvestigationatwhichIwasmostbusilyoccupiedduringtheearlieryearsofourmarriage。WithhowvastatriumphwithhowvividadelightwithhowmuchofallthatisetherealinhopedidIfeel,asshebentovermeinstudiesbutlittlesought
butlessknownthatdeliciousvistabyslowdegreesexpandingbeforeme,downwhoselong,gorgeous,andalluntroddenpath,Imightatlengthpassonwardtothegoalofawisdomtoodivinelypreciousnottobeforbidden!
Howpoignant,then,musthavebeenthegriefwithwhich,aftersomeyears,Ibeheldmywell-groundedexpectationstakewingstothemselvesandflyaway!WithoutLigeiaIwasbutasachildgropingbenighted。Herpresence,herreadingsalone,renderedvividlyluminousthemanymysteriesofthetranscendentalisminwhichwewereimmersed。Wantingtheradiantlustreofhereyes,letters,lambentandgolden,grewdullerthanSaturnianlead。AndnowthoseeyesshonelessandlessfrequentlyuponthepagesoverwhichIpored。Ligeiagrewill。Thewildeyesblazedwithatootoogloriouseffulgence;
thepalefingersbecameofthetransparentwaxenhueofthegrave,andtheblueveinsupontheloftyforeheadswelledandsankimpetuouslywiththetidesofthegentleemotion。IsawthatshemustdieandIstruggleddesperatelyinspiritwiththegrimAzrael。
Andthestrugglesofthepassionatewifewere,tomyastonishment,evenmoreenergeticthanmyown。Therehadbeenmuchinhersternnaturetoimpressmewiththebeliefthat,toher,deathwouldhavecomewithoutitsterrors;butnotso。WordsareimpotenttoconveyanyjustideaofthefiercenessofresistancewithwhichshewrestledwiththeShadow。Igroanedinanguishatthepitiablespectacle。
wouldhavesoothedIwouldhavereasoned;but,intheintensityofherwilddesireforlife,forlifebutforlifesolaceandreasonweretheuttermostfolly。Yetnotuntilthelastinstance,amidthemostconvulsivewrithingsofherfiercespirit,wasshakentheexternalplacidityofherdemeanor。Hervoicegrewmoregentle
grewmorelowyetIwouldnotwishtodwelluponthewildmeaningofthequietlyutteredwords。MybrainreeledasIhearkenedentranced,toamelodymorethanmortaltoassumptionsandaspirationswhichmortalityhadneverbeforeknown。
ThatshelovedmeIshouldnothavedoubted;andImighthavebeeneasilyawarethat,inabosomsuchashers,lovewouldhavereignednoordinarypassion。Butindeathonly,wasIfullyimpressedwiththestrengthofheraffection。Forlonghours,detainingmyhand,wouldshepouroutbeforemetheoverflowingofaheartwhosemorethanpassionatedevotionamountedtoidolatry。HowhadIdeservedtobesoblessedbysuchconfessions?howhadIdeservedtobesocursedwiththeremovalofmybelovedinthehourofhermakingthem,ButuponthissubjectIcannotbeartodilate。Letmesayonly,thatinLigeia’smorethanwomanlyabandonmenttoalove,alas!allunmerited,allunworthilybestowed,Iatlengthrecognizedtheprincipleofherlongingwithsowildlyearnestadesireforthelifewhichwasnowfleeingsorapidlyaway。ItisthiswildlongingitisthiseagervehemenceofdesireforlifebutforlifethatI
havenopowertoportraynoutterancecapableofexpressing。
Athighnoonofthenightinwhichshedeparted,beckoningme,peremptorily,toherside,shebademerepeatcertainversescomposedbyherselfnotmanydaysbefore。Iobeyedher。Theywerethese:
Lo!’tisagalanightWithinthelonesomelatteryears!
Anangelthrong,bewinged,bedightInveils,anddrownedintears,Sitinatheatre,toseeAplayofhopesandfears,WhiletheorchestrabreathesfitfullyThemusicofthespheres。
Mimes,intheformofGodonhigh,Mutterandmumblelow,Andhitherandthitherfly;
Merepuppetsthey,whocomeandgoAtbiddingofvastformlessthingsThatshiftthescenerytoandfro,FlappingfromouttheirCondorwingsInvisibleWo!
Thatmotleydrama!oh,besureItshallnotbeforgot!
WithitsPhantomchasedforevermore,Byacrowdthatseizeitnot,ThroughacirclethateverreturnethinTotheself-samespot,AndmuchofMadnessandmoreofSinAndHorrorthesouloftheplot。
Butsee,amidthemimicrout,Acrawlingshapeintrude!
Ablood-redthingthatwrithesfromoutThescenicsolitude!
Itwrithes!itwrithes!withmortalpangsThemimesbecomeitsfood,AndtheseraphssobatverminfangsInhumangoreimbued。
Outoutarethelightsoutall!
Andovereachquiveringform,Thecurtain,afuneralpall,Comesdownwiththerushofastorm,Andtheangels,allpallidandwan,Uprising,unveiling,affirmThattheplayisthetragedy,“Man。”
AnditsherotheConquerorWorm。
“OGod!”halfshriekedLigeia,leapingtoherfeetandextendingherarmsaloftwithaspasmodicmovement,asImadeanendoftheselines“OGod!ODivineFather!shallthesethingsbeundeviatinglyso?shallthisConquerorbenotonceconquered?ArewenotpartandparcelinThee?Whowhoknoweththemysteriesofthewillwithitsvigor?Mandothnotyieldhimtotheangels,noruntodeathutterly,saveonlythroughtheweaknessofhisfeeblewill。”
Andnow,asifexhaustedwithemotion,shesufferedherwhitearmstofall,andreturnedsolemnlytoherbedofdeath。Andasshebreathedherlastsighs,therecamemingledwiththemalowmurmurfromherlips。Ibenttothemmyearanddistinguished,again,theconcludingwordsofthepassageinGlanvill“Mandothnotyieldhimtotheangels,noruntodeathutterly,saveonlythroughtheweaknessofhisfeeblewill。”
Shedied;andI,crushedintotheverydustwithsorrow,couldnolongerendurethelonelydesolationofmydwellinginthedimanddecayingcitybytheRhine。Ihadnolackofwhattheworldcallswealth。Ligeiahadbroughtmefarmore,veryfarmorethanordinarilyfallstothelotofmortals。Afterafewmonths,therefore,ofwearyandaimlesswandering,Ipurchased,andputinsomerepair,anabbey,whichIshallnotname,inoneofthewildestandleastfrequentedportionsoffairEngland。Thegloomyanddrearygrandeurofthebuilding,thealmostsavageaspectofthedomain,themanymelancholyandtime-honoredmemoriesconnectedwithboth,hadmuchinunisonwiththefeelingsofutterabandonmentwhichhaddrivenmeintothatremoteandunsocialregionofthecountry。Yetalthoughtheexternalabbey,withitsverdantdecayhangingaboutit,sufferedbutlittlealteration,Igaveway,withachild-likeperversity,andperchancewithafainthopeofalleviatingmysorrows,toadisplayofmorethanregalmagnificencewithin。Forsuchfollies,eveninchildhood,Ihadimbibedatasteandnowtheycamebacktomeasifinthedotageofgrief。Alas,Ifeelhowmuchevenofincipientmadnessmighthavebeendiscoveredinthegorgeousandfantasticdraperies,inthesolemncarvingsofEgypt,inthewildcornicesandfurniture,intheBedlampatternsofthecarpetsoftuftedgold!I
hadbecomeaboundenslaveinthetrammelsofopium,andmylaborsandmyordershadtakenacoloringfrommydreams。Buttheseabsurditiesmustnotpausetodetail。Letmespeakonlyofthatonechamber,everaccursed,whitherinamomentofmentalalienation,I
ledfromthealtarasmybrideasthesuccessoroftheunforgottenLigeiathefair-hairedandblue-eyedLadyRowenaTrevanion,ofTremaine。
Thereisnoindividualportionofthearchitectureanddecorationofthatbridalchamberwhichisnotnowvisiblybeforeme。Wherewerethesoulsofthehaughtyfamilyofthebride,when,throughthirstofgold,theypermittedtopassthethresholdofanapartmentsobedecked,amaidenandadaughtersobeloved?IhavesaidthatI