HowherheartswelledwithjoyandgratitudeasshepassedthebarriersofPortsmouth,andhowSusan’sfaceworeitsbroadestsmiles,maybeeasilyconceived。
Sittingforwards,however,andscreenedbyherbonnet,thosesmileswereunseen。
Thejourneywaslikelytobeasilentone。Edmund’sdeepsighsoftenreachedFanny。Hadhebeenalonewithher,hisheartmusthaveopenedinspiteofeveryresolution;
butSusan’spresencedrovehimquiteintohimself,andhisattemptstotalkonindifferentsubjectscouldneverbelongsupported。
Fannywatchedhimwithnever-failingsolicitude,andsometimescatchinghiseye,revivedanaffectionatesmile,whichcomfortedher;butthefirstday’sjourneypassedwithoutherhearingawordfromhimonthesubjectsthatwereweighinghimdown。Thenextmorningproducedalittlemore。JustbeforetheirsettingoutfromOxford,whileSusanwasstationedatawindow,ineagerobservationofthedepartureofalargefamilyfromtheinn,theothertwowerestandingbythefire;andEdmund,particularlystruckbythealterationinFanny’slooks,andfromhisignoranceofthedailyevilsofherfather’shouse,attributinganundueshareofthechange,attributing_all_totherecentevent,tookherhand,andsaidinalow,butveryexpressivetone,“Nowonder——
youmustfeelit——youmustsuffer。Howamanwhohadonceloved,coulddesertyou!But_yours_——yourregardwasnewcomparedwith——Fanny,thinkof_me_!“
Thefirstdivisionoftheirjourneyoccupiedalongday,andbroughtthem,almostknockedup,toOxford;
butthesecondwasoveratamuchearlierhour。
TheywereintheenvironsofMansfieldlongbeforetheusualdinner-time,andastheyapproachedthebelovedplace,theheartsofbothsisterssankalittle。
FannybegantodreadthemeetingwithherauntsandTom,undersodreadfulahumiliation;andSusantofeelwithsomeanxiety,thatallherbestmanners,allherlatelyacquiredknowledgeofwhatwaspractisedhere,wasonthepointofbeingcalledintoaction。Visionsofgoodandillbreeding,ofoldvulgarismsandnewgentilities,werebeforeher;andshewasmeditatingmuchuponsilverforks,napkins,andfinger-glasses。FannyhadbeeneverywhereawaketothedifferenceofthecountrysinceFebruary;butwhentheyenteredtheParkherperceptionsandherpleasureswereofthekeenestsort。
Itwasthreemonths,fullthreemonths,sinceherquittingit,andthechangewasfromwintertosummer。
Hereyefelleverywhereonlawnsandplantationsofthefreshestgreen;andthetrees,thoughnotfullyclothed,wereinthatdelightfulstatewhenfartherbeautyisknowntobeathand,andwhen,whilemuchisactuallygiventothesight,moreyetremainsfortheimagination。
Herenjoyment,however,wasforherselfalone。Edmundcouldnotshareit。Shelookedathim,buthewasleaningback,sunkinadeepergloomthanever,andwitheyesclosed,asiftheviewofcheerfulnessoppressedhim,andthelovelyscenesofhomemustbeshutout。
Itmadehermelancholyagain;andtheknowledgeofwhatmustbeenduringthere,investedeventhehouse,modern,airy,andwellsituatedasitwas,withamelancholyaspect。
Byoneofthesufferingpartywithintheywereexpectedwithsuchimpatienceasshehadneverknownbefore。
Fannyhadscarcelypassedthesolemn-lookingservants,whenLadyBertramcamefromthedrawing-roomtomeether;
camewithnoindolentstep;andfallingonherneck,said,“DearFanny!nowIshallbecomfortable。
Ithadbeenamiserableparty,eachofthethreebelievingthemselvesmostmiserable。Mrs。Norris,however,asmostattachedtoMaria,wasreallythegreatestsufferer。
Mariawasherfirstfavourite,thedearestofall;
thematchhadbeenherowncontriving,asshehadbeenwontwithsuchprideofhearttofeelandsay,andthisconclusionofitalmostoverpoweredher。
Shewasanalteredcreature,quieted,stupefied,indifferenttoeverythingthatpassed。Thebeingleftwithhersisterandnephew,andallthehouseunderhercare,hadbeenanadvantageentirelythrownaway;shehadbeenunabletodirectordictate,orevenfancyherselfuseful。
Whenreallytouchedbyaffliction,heractivepowershadbeenallbenumbed;andneitherLadyBertramnorTomhadreceivedfromherthesmallestsupportorattemptatsupport。Shehaddonenomoreforthemthantheyhaddoneforeachother。Theyhadbeenallsolitary,helpless,andforlornalike;andnowthearrivaloftheothersonlyestablishedhersuperiorityinwretchedness。
Hercompanionswererelieved,buttherewasnogoodfor_her_。EdmundwasalmostaswelcometohisbrotherasFannytoheraunt;butMrs。Norris,insteadofhavingcomfortfromeither,wasbutthemoreirritatedbythesightofthepersonwhom,intheblindnessofheranger,shecouldhavechargedasthedaemonofthepiece。
HadFannyacceptedMr。Crawfordthiscouldnothavehappened。
Susantoowasagrievance。Shehadnotspiritstonoticeherinmorethanafewrepulsivelooks,butshefeltherasaspy,andanintruder,andanindigentniece,andeverythingmostodious。Byherotheraunt,Susanwasreceivedwithquietkindness。LadyBertramcouldnotgivehermuchtime,ormanywords,butshefelther,asFanny’ssister,tohaveaclaimatMansfield,andwasreadytokissandlikeher;andSusanwasmorethansatisfied,forshecameperfectlyawarethatnothingbutill-humourwastobeexpectedfromauntNorris;
andwassoprovidedwithhappiness,sostronginthatbestofblessings,anescapefrommanycertainevils,thatshecouldhavestoodagainstagreatdealmoreindifferencethanshemetwithfromtheothers。
Shewasnowleftagooddealtoherself,togetacquaintedwiththehouseandgroundsasshecould,andspentherdaysveryhappilyinsodoing,whilethosewhomightotherwisehaveattendedtoherwereshutup,orwhollyoccupiedeachwiththepersonquitedependentonthem,atthistime,foreverythinglikecomfort;Edmundtryingtoburyhisownfeelingsinexertionsforthereliefofhisbrother’s,andFannydevotedtoherauntBertram,returningtoeveryformerofficewithmorethanformerzeal,andthinkingshecouldneverdoenoughforonewhoseemedsomuchtowanther。
TotalkoverthedreadfulbusinesswithFanny,talkandlament,wasallLadyBertram’sconsolation。Tobelistenedtoandbornewith,andhearthevoiceofkindnessandsympathyinreturn,waseverythingthatcouldbedoneforher。
Tobeotherwisecomfortedwasoutofthequestion。
Thecaseadmittedofnocomfort。LadyBertramdidnotthinkdeeply,but,guidedbySirThomas,shethoughtjustlyonallimportantpoints;andshesaw,therefore,inallitsenormity,whathadhappened,andneitherendeavouredherself,norrequiredFannytoadviseher,tothinklittleofguiltandinfamy。
Heraffectionswerenotacute,norwashermindtenacious。
Afteratime,Fannyfounditnotimpossibletodirectherthoughtstoothersubjects,andrevivesomeinterestintheusualoccupations;butwheneverLadyBertram_was_
fixedontheevent,shecouldseeitonlyinonelight,ascomprehendingthelossofadaughter,andadisgracenevertobewipedoff。
Fannylearntfromheralltheparticularswhichhadyettranspired。Herauntwasnoverymethodicalnarrator,butwiththehelpofsomeletterstoandfromSirThomas,andwhatshealreadyknewherself,andcouldreasonablycombine,shewassoonabletounderstandquiteasmuchasshewishedofthecircumstancesattendingthestory。
Mrs。Rushworthhadgone,fortheEasterholidays,toTwickenham,withafamilywhomshehadjustgrownintimatewith:afamilyoflively,agreeablemanners,andprobablyofmoralsanddiscretiontosuit,forto_their_
houseMr。Crawfordhadconstantaccessatalltimes。
HishavingbeeninthesameneighbourhoodFannyalreadyknew。
Mr。RushworthhadbeengoneatthistimetoBath,topassafewdayswithhismother,andbringherbacktotown,andMariawaswiththesefriendswithoutanyrestraint,withoutevenJulia;forJuliahadremovedfromWimpoleStreettwoorthreeweeksbefore,onavisittosomerelationsofSirThomas;aremovalwhichherfatherandmotherwerenowdisposedtoattributetosomeviewofconvenienceonMr。Yates’saccount。VerysoonaftertheRushworths’
returntoWimpoleStreet,SirThomashadreceivedaletterfromanoldandmostparticularfriendinLondon,whohearingandwitnessingagooddealtoalarmhiminthatquarter,wrotetorecommendSirThomas’scomingtoLondonhimself,andusinghisinfluencewithhisdaughtertoputanendtotheintimacywhichwasalreadyexposinghertounpleasantremarks,andevidentlymakingMr。Rushworthuneasy。
SirThomaswaspreparingtoactuponthisletter,withoutcommunicatingitscontentstoanycreatureatMansfield,whenitwasfollowedbyanother,sentexpressfromthesamefriend,tobreaktohimthealmostdesperatesituationinwhichaffairsthenstoodwiththeyoungpeople。
Mrs。Rushworthhadleftherhusband’shouse:Mr。Rushworthhadbeeningreatangeranddistressto_him_Mr。Harding
forhisadvice;Mr。Hardingfearedtherehadbeen_at_
_least_veryflagrantindiscretion。ThemaidservantofMrs。Rushworth,senior,threatenedalarmingly。Hewasdoingallinhispowertoquieteverything,withthehopeofMrs。Rushworth’sreturn,butwassomuchcounteractedinWimpoleStreetbytheinfluenceofMr。Rushworth’smother,thattheworstconsequencesmightbeapprehended。