Iattemptedtocontinuetheconversation。Hewassoprovoked,thathesaid,’Giveusnomoreofthis;’andwasthrownintosuchastateofagitation,thatheexpressedhimselfinawaythatalarmedanddistressedme;shewedanimpatiencethatIshouldleavehim,andwhenIwasgoingaway,calledtomesternly,’Don’tletusmeettomorrow。’
Iwenthomeexceedinglyuneasy。AlltheharshobservationswhichI
hadeverheardmadeuponhischaracter,crowdedintomymind;andI
seemedtomyselflikethemanwhohadputhisheadintothelion’smouthagreatmanytimeswithperfectsafety,butatlasthaditbitoff。
NextmorningIsenthimanote,stating,thatImighthavebeeninthewrong,butitwasnotintentionally;hewastherefore,Icouldnothelpthinking,toosevereuponme。Thatnotwithstandingouragreementnottomeetthatday,Iwouldcallonhiminmywaytothecity,andstayfiveminutesbymywatch。’Youare,saidI,
inmymind,sincelastnight,surroundedwithcloudandstorm。Letmehaveaglimpseofsunshine,andgoaboutmyaffairsinserenityandchearfulness。’
Uponenteringhisstudy,Iwasgladthathewasnotalone,whichwouldhavemadeourmeetingmoreawkward。Therewerewithhim,Mr。
SteevensandMr。Tyers,bothofwhomInowsawforthefirsttime。
Mynotehad,onhisownreflection,softenedhim,forhereceivedmeverycomplacently;sothatIunexpectedlyfoundmyselfatease,andjoinedintheconversation。
Iwhisperedhim,’Well,Sir,youarenowingoodhumour。JOHNSON。
’Yes,Sir。’Iwasgoingtoleavehim,andhadgotasfarasthestaircase。Hestoppedme,andsmiling,said,’GetyougoneIN;’acuriousmodeofinvitingmetostay,whichIaccordinglydidforsometimelonger。
Thislittleincidentalquarrelandreconciliation,which,perhaps,Imaybethoughttohavedetailedtoominutely,mustbeesteemedasoneofmanyproofswhichhisfriendshad,thatthoughhemightbechargedwithbadhumourattimes,hewasalwaysagood-naturedman;
andIhaveheardSirJoshuaReynolds,aniceanddelicateobserverofmanners,particularlyremark,thatwhenuponanyoccasionJohnsonhadbeenroughtoanypersonincompany,hetookthefirstopportunityofreconciliation,bydrinkingtohim,oraddressinghisdiscoursetohim;butifhefoundhisdignifiedindirectoverturessullenlyneglected,hewasquiteindifferent,andconsideredhimselfashavingdoneallthatheoughttodo,andtheotherasnowinthewrong。
IwenttohimearlyonthemorningofthetenthofNovember。’Nowsaidhe,thatyouaregoingtomarry,donotexpectmorefromlife,thanlifewillafford。Youmayoftenfindyourselfoutofhumour,andyoumayoftenthinkyourwifenotstudiousenoughtopleaseyou;andyetyoumayhavereasontoconsideryourselfasuponthewholeveryhappilymarried。’
1770:AETAT。61。]——DuringthisyeartherewasatotalcessationofallcorrespondencebetweenDr。Johnsonandme,withoutanycoldnessoneitherside,butmerelyfromprocrastination,continuedfromdaytoday;andasIwasnotinLondon,Ihadnoopportunityofenjoyinghiscompanyandrecordinghisconversation。Tosupplythisblank,IshallpresentmyreaderswithsomeCollectanea,obliginglyfurnishedtomebytheRev。Dr。Maxwell,ofFalkland,inIreland,sometimeassistantpreacherattheTemple,andformanyyearsthesocialfriendofJohnson,whospokeofhimwithaverykindregard。
’Hisgeneralmodeoflife,duringmyacquaintance,seemedtobeprettyuniform。Abouttwelveo’clockIcommonlyvisitedhim,andfrequentlyfoundhiminbed,ordeclaimingoverhistea,whichhedrankveryplentifully。Hegenerallyhadaleveeofmorningvisitors,chieflymenofletters;Hawkesworth,Goldsmith,Murphy,Langton,Steevens,Beaucherk,&c。&c。,andsometimeslearnedladies,particularlyIrememberaFrenchladyofwitandfashiondoinghimthehonourofavisit。Heseemedtometobeconsideredasakindofpublickoracle,whomeverybodythoughttheyhadarighttovisitandconsult;anddoubtlesstheywerewellrewarded。
Inevercoulddiscoverhowhefoundtimeforhiscompositions。Hedeclaimedallthemorning,thenwenttodinneratatavern,wherehecommonlystaidlate,andthendrankhisteaatsomefriend’shouse,overwhichheloiteredagreatwhile,butseldomtooksupper。Ifancyhemusthavereadandwrotechieflyinthenight,forIcanscarcelyrecollectthatheeverrefusedgoingwithmetoatavern,andheoftenwenttoRanelagh,whichhedeemedaplaceofinnocentrecreation。
’Hefrequentlygaveallthesilverinhispockettothepoor,whowatchedhim,betweenhishouseandthetavernwherehedined。Hewalkedthestreetsatallhours,andsaidhewasneverrobbed,fortheroguesknewhehadlittlemoney,norhadtheappearanceofhavingmuch。
’Thoughthemostaccessibleandcommunicativemanalive;yetwhenhesuspectedhewasinvitedtobeexhibited,heconstantlyspurnedtheinvitation。
’TwoyoungwomenfromStaffordshirevisitedhimwhenIwaspresent,toconsulthimonthesubjectofMethodism,towhichtheywereinclined。“Come,saidhe,youprettyfools,dinewithMaxwellandmeattheMitre,andwewilltalkoverthatsubject;“whichtheydid,andafterdinnerhetookoneofthemuponhisknee,andfondledherforhalfanhourtogether。
’JohnsonwasmuchattachedtoLondon:heobserved,thatamanstoredhismindbetterthere,thananywhereelse;andthatinremotesituationsaman’sbodymightbefeasted,buthismindwasstarved,andhisfacultiesapttodegenerate,fromwantofexerciseandcompetition。Noplace,hesaid,curedaman’svanityorarrogancesowellasLondon;forasnomanwaseithergreatorgoodperse,butascomparedwithothersnotsogoodorgreat,hewassuretofindinthemetropolismanyhisequals,andsomehissuperiours。Heobserved,thatamaninLondonwasinlessdangeroffallinginloveindiscreetly,thananywhereelse;fortherethedifficultyofdecidingbetweentheconflictingpretensionsofavastvarietyofobjects,kepthimsafe。Hetoldme,thathehadfrequentlybeenofferedcountrypreferment,ifhewouldconsenttotakeorders;buthecouldnotleavetheimprovedsocietyofthecapital,orconsenttoexchangetheexhilaratingjoysandsplendiddecorationsofpublicklife,fortheobscurity,insipidity,anduniformityofremotesituations。
’Burton’sAnatomyofMelancholy,hesaid,wastheonlybookthatevertookhimoutofbedtwohourssoonerthanhewishedtorise。
’Whenexasperatedbycontradiction,hewasapttotreathisopponentswithtoomuchacrimony:as,“Sir,youdon’tseeyourwaythroughthatquestion:“——“Sir,youtalkthelanguageofignorance。“
Onmyobservingtohimthatacertaingentlemanhadremainedsilentthewholeevening,inthemidstofaverybrilliantandlearnedsociety,“Sir,saidhe,theconversationoverflowed,anddrownedhim。“
’Heobserved,thattheestablishedclergyingeneraldidnotpreachplainenough;andthatpolishedperiodsandglitteringsentencesflewovertheheadsofthecommonpeople,withoutanyimpressionupontheirhearts。Somethingmightbenecessary,heobserved,toexcitetheaffectionsofthecommonpeople,whoweresunkinlanguorandlethargy,andthereforehesupposedthatthenewconcomitantsofmethodismmightprobablyproducesodesirableaneffect。Themind,likethebody,heobserved,delightedinchangeandnovelty,andeveninreligionitself,courtednewappearancesandmodifications。Whatevermightbethoughtofsomemethodistteachers,hesaid,hecouldscarcelydoubtthesincerityofthatman,whotravelledninehundredmilesinamonth,andpreachedtwelvetimesaweek;fornoadequatereward,merelytemporal,couldbegivenforsuchindefatigablelabour。
’InaLatinconversationwiththePereBoscovitch,atthehouseofMrs。Cholmondeley,IheardhimmaintainthesuperiorityofSirIsaacNewtonoverallforeignphilosophers,withadignityandeloquencethatsurprizedthatlearnedforeigner。Itbeingobservedtohim,thatarageforeverythingEnglishprevailedmuchinFranceafterLordChatham’sgloriouswar,hesaid,hedidnotwonderatit,forthatwehaddrubbedthosefellowsintoaproperreverenceforus,andthattheirnationalpetulancerequiredperiodicalchastisement。
’Speakingofadulltiresomefellow,whomhechancedtomeet,hesaid,“Thatfellowseemstometopossessbutoneidea,andthatisawrongone。“
’Muchenquiryhavingbeenmadeconcerningagentleman,whohadquittedacompanywhereJohnsonwas,andnoinformationbeingobtained;atlastJohnsonobserved,that“hedidnotcaretospeakillofanymanbehindhisback,buthebelievedthegentlemanwasanATTORNEY。“
’Agentlemanwhohadbeenveryunhappyinmarriage,marriedimmediatelyafterhiswifedied:Johnsonsaid,itwasthetriumphofhopeoverexperience。
’Heobserved,thatamanofsenseandeducationshouldmeetasuitablecompanioninawife。Itwasamiserablethingwhentheconversationcouldonlybesuchas,whetherthemuttonshouldbeboiledorroasted,andprobablyadisputeaboutthat。
’Hedidnotapproveoflatemarriages,observingthatmorewaslostinpointoftime,thancompensatedforbyanypossibleadvantages。
Evenillassortedmarriageswerepreferabletocheerlesscelibacy。
’Hesaid,fopperywasnevercured;itwasthebadstaminaofthemind,which,likethoseofthebody,wereneverrectified:onceacoxcomb,andalwaysacoxcomb。
’BeingtoldthatGilbertCowpercalledhimtheCalibanofliterature;“Well,saidhe,ImustdubhimthePunchinello。“
’Hesaidfewpeoplehadintellectualresourcessufficienttoforegothepleasuresofwine。Theycouldnototherwisecontrivehowtofilltheintervalbetweendinnerandsupper。
’OneeveningatMrs。Montagu’s,whereasplendidcompanywasassembled,consistingofthemosteminentliterarycharacters,I
thoughtheseemedhighlypleasedwiththerespectandattentionthatwereshewnhim,andaskedhimonourreturnhomeifhewasnothighlygratifiedbyhisvisit:
“No,Sir,saidhe,nothighlygratified;yetIdonotrecollecttohavepassedmanyeveningswithfewerobjections。“
’Thoughofnohighextractionhimself,hehadmuchrespectforbirthandfamily,especiallyamongladies。Hesaid,“adventitiousaccomplishmentsmaybepossessedbyallranks;butonemayeasilydistinguishtheborngentlewoman。“