Hewanderedaboutawhile,obtainedsomethingtoeat;andthen,havinganotherhalf-houronhishands,hisfeetinvoluntarilytookhimthroughthevenerablegraveyardofTrinityChurch,withitsavenuesoflimes,inthedirectionoftheschoolsagain。Theywereentirelyindarkness。
  ShehadsaidshelivedoverthewayatOld-GrovePlace,ahousewhichhesoondiscoveredfromherdescriptionofitsantiquity。
  Aglimmeringcandlelightshonefromafrontwindow,theshuttersbeingyetunclosed。Hecouldseetheinteriorclearly-thefloorsinkingacoupleofstepsbelowtheroadwithout,whichhadbecomeraisedduringthecenturiessincethehousewasbuilt。Sue,evidentlyjustcomein,asstandingwithherhatoninthisfrontparlourorsitting-room,whosewallswerelinedwithwainscotingofpanelledoakreachingfromfloortoceiling,thelatterbeingcrossedbyhugemouldedbeamsonlyalittlewayaboveherhead。Themantelpiecewasofthesameheavydescription,carvedwithJacobeanpilastersandscroll-work。Thecenturiesdid,indeed,ponderouslyoverhangayoungwifewhopassedhertimehere。
  Shehadopenedarosewoodwork-box,andwaslookingataphotograph。
  Havingcontemplateditalittlewhileshepresseditagainstherbosom,andputitagaininitsplace。
  Thenbecomingawarethatshehadnotobscuredthewindowsshecameforwardtodoso,candleinhand。ItwastoodarkforhertoseeJudewithout,buthecouldseeherfacedistinctly,andtherewasanunmistakabletearfulnessaboutthedark,long-lashedeyes。
  Sheclosedtheshutters,andJudeturnedawaytopursuehissolitaryjourneyhome。`Whosephotographwasshelookingat?’hesaid。Hehadoncegivenherhis;butshehadothers,heknew。Yetitwashis,surely?
  Heknewheshouldgotoseeheragain,accordingtoherinvitation。
  Thoseearnestmenhereadof,thesaints,whomSue,withgentleirreverence,calledhisdemi-gods,wouldhaveshunnedsuchencountersiftheydoubtedtheirownstrength。Buthecouldnot。Hemightfastandprayduringthewholeinterval,butthehumanwasmorepowerfulinhimthantheDivine。
  JudetheObscureChapter30IV-iiHowever,ifGoddisposednot,womandid。Thenextmorningbutonebroughthimthisnotefromher:
  Don’tcomenextweek。Onyourownaccountdon’t!Weweretoofree,undertheinfluenceofthatmorbidhymnandthetwilight。ThinknomorethanyoucanhelpofSusannaFlorenceMary。Thedisappointmentwaskeen。Heknewhermood,thelookofherface,whenshesubscribedherselfatlengththus。Butwhateverhermoodhecouldnotsayshewaswronginherview。Hereplied:
  Iacquiesce。Youareright。ItisalessoninrenunciationwhichIsupposeIoughttolearnatthisseason。JudeHedespatchedthenoteonEasterEve,andthereseemedafinalityintheirdecisions。Butotherforcesandlawsthantheirswereinoperation。OnEasterMondaymorninghereceivedamessagefromtheWidowEdlin,whomhehaddirectedtotelegraphifanythingserioushappened:
  Yourauntissinking。Comeatonce。Hethrewdownhistoolsandwent。ThreeandahalfhourslaterhewascrossingthedownsaboutMarygreen,andpresentlyplungedintotheconcavefieldacrosswhichtheshortcutwasmadetothevillage。Asheascendedontheothersidealabouringman,whohadbeenwatchinghisapproachfromagateacrossthepath,moveduneasily,andpreparedtospeak。`Icanseeinhisfacethatsheisdead,’saidJude。`PoorAuntDrusilla!’
  Itwasashehadsupposed,andMrs。Edlinhadsentoutthemantobreakthenewstohim。
  `Shewouldn’thaveknowed’ee。Shelaylikeadollwi’glasseyes;
  soitdidn’tmatterthatyouwasn’there,’saidhe。
  Judewentontothehouse,andintheafternoon,wheneverythingwasdone,andthelayers-outhadfinishedtheirbeer,andgone,hesatdownaloneinthesilentplace。ItwasabsolutelynecessarytocommunicatewithSue,thoughtwoorthreedaysearliertheyhadagreedtomutualseverance。
  Hewroteinthebriefestterms:
  AuntDrusillaisdead,havingbeentakenalmostsuddenly。ThefuneralisonFridayafternoon。HeremainedinandaboutMarygreenthroughtheinterveningdays,wentoutonFridaymorningtoseethatthegravewasfinished,andwonderedifSuewouldcome。Shehadnotwritten,andthatseemedtosignifyratherthatshewouldcomethanthatshewouldnot。Havingtimedherbyheronlypossibletrain,helockedthedooraboutmid-day,andcrossedthehollowfieldtothevergeoftheuplandbytheBrownHouse,wherehestoodandlookedoverthevastprospectnorthwards,andoverthenearerlandscapeinwhichAlfredstonstood。Twomilesbehinditajetofwhitesteamwastravellingfromthelefttotherightofthepicture。
  Therewasalongtimetowait,evennow,tillhewouldknowifshehadarrived。Hedidwait,however,andatlastasmallhiredvehiclepulledupatthebottomofthehill,andapersonalighted,theconveyancegoingback,whilethepassengerbeganascendingthehill。Heknewher;
  andshelookedsoslenderto-daythatitseemedasifshemightbecrushedintheintensityofatoopassionateembrace-suchasitwasnotforhimtogive。Two-thirdsofthewayupherheadsuddenlytookasolicitouspoise,andheknewthatshehadatthatmomentrecognizedhim。Herfacesoonbeganapensivesmile,whichlastedtill,havingdescendedalittleway,hemether。
  `Ithought,’shebeganwithnervousquickness,`thatitwouldbesosadtoletyouattendthefuneralalone!Andso-atthelastmoment-Icame。’
  `DearfaithfulSue!’murmuredJude。
  Withtheelusivenessofhercuriousdoublenature,however,Suedidnotstandstillforanyfurthergreeting,thoughitwantedsometimetotheburial。Apathossounusuallycompoundedasthatwhichattachedtothishourwasunlikelytorepeatitselfforyears,ifever,andJudewouldhavepaused,andmeditated,andconversed。ButSueeithersawitnotatall,or,seeingitmorethanhe,wouldnotallowherselftofeelit。
  Thesadandsimpleceremonywassoonover,theirprogresstothechurchbeingalmostatatrot,thebustlingundertakerhavingamoreimportantfuneralanhourlater,threemilesoff。Drusillawasputintothenewground,quiteawayfromherancestors。SueandJudehadgonesidebysidetothegrave,andnowsatdowntoteainthefamiliarhouse;theirlivesunitedatleastinthislastattentiontothedead。
  `Shewasopposedtomarriage,fromfirsttolast,yousay?’murmuredSue。
  `Yes。Particularlyformembersofourfamily。’
  Hereyesmethis,andremainedonhimawhile。
  `Weareratherasadfamily,don’tyouthink,Jude?’
  `Shesaidwemadebadhusbandsandwives。Certainlywemakeunhappyones。Atallevents,Ido,forone!’
  Suewassilent。`Isitwrong,Jude,’shesaidwithatentativetremor,`forahusbandorwifetotellathirdpersonthattheyareunhappyintheirmarriage?Ifamarriageceremonyisareligiousthing,itispossiblywrong;butifitisonlyasordidcontract,basedonmaterialconvenienceinhouseholding,rating,andtaxing,andtheinheritanceoflandandmoneybychildren,makingitnecessarythatthemaleparentshouldbeknown-
  whichitseemstobe-whysurelyapersonmaysay,evenproclaimuponthehousetops,thatithurtsandgrieveshimorher?’
  `Ihavesaidso,anyhow,toyou。’
  Presentlyshewenton:`Aretheremanycouples,doyouthink,whereonedislikestheotherfornodefinitefault?’
  `Yes,Isuppose。Ifeithercaresforanotherperson,forinstance。’
  `Butevenapartfromthat?Wouldn’tthewoman,forexample,beverybad-naturedifshedidn’tliketolivewithherhusband;merely’-
  hervoiceundulated,andheguessedthings-`merelybecauseshehadapersonalfeelingagainstit-aphysicalobjection-afastidiousness,orwhateveritmaybecalled-althoughshemightrespectandbegratefultohim?Iammerelyputtingacase。Oughtshetotrytoovercomeherpruderies?’
  Judethrewatroubledlookather。Hesaid,lookingaway:`Itwouldbejustoneofthosecasesinwhichmyexperiencesgocontrarytomydogmas。Speakingasanorder-lovingman-whichIhopeIam,thoughIfearIamnot-Ishouldsay,yes。Speakingfromexperienceandunbiasednature,Ishouldsay,no……Sue,Ibelieveyouarenothappy!’
  `OfcourseIam!’shecontradicted。`Howcanawomanbeunhappywhohasonlybeenmarriedeightweekstoamanshechosefreely?’
  `’Chosefreely!’’
  `Whydoyourepeatit?……ButIhavetogobackbythesixo’clocktrain。Youwillbestayingonhere,Isuppose?’
  `ForafewdaystowindupAunt’saffairs。Thishouseisgonenow。ShallIgotothetrainwithyou?’
  AlittlelaughofobjectioncamefromSue。`Ithinknot。Youmaycomepartoftheway。’
  `Butstop-youcan’tgoto-night!Thattrainwon’ttakeyoutoShaston。Youmuststayandgobackto-morrow。Mrs。Edlinhasplentyofroom,ifyoudon’tliketostayhere?’
  `Verywell,’shesaiddubiously。`Ididn’ttellhimIwouldcomeforcertain。’
  Judewenttothewidow’shouseadjoining,toletherknow;andreturninginafewminutessatdownagain。
  `Itishorriblehowwearecircumstanced,Sue-horrible!’hesaidabruptly,withhiseyesbenttothefloor。
  `No!Why?’
  `Ican’ttellyouallmypartofthegloom。Yourpartisthatyououghtnottohavemarriedhim。Isawitbeforeyouhaddoneit,butIthoughtImustn’tinterfere。Iwaswrong。Ioughttohave!’
  `Butwhatmakesyouassumeallthis,dear?’
  `Because-Icanseeyouthroughyourfeathers,mypoorlittlebird!’
  Herhandlayonthetable,andJudeputhisuponit。Suedrewhersaway。
  `That’sabsurd,Sue,’criedhe,`afterwhatwe’vebeentalkingabout!Iammorestrictandformalthanyou,ifitcomestothat;andthatyoushouldobjecttosuchaninnocentactionshowsthatyouareridiculouslyinconsistent!’
  `Perhapsitwastooprudish,’shesaidrepentantly。`OnlyIhavefancieditwasasortoftrickofours-toofrequentperhaps。There,youmayholditasmuchasyoulike。Isthatgoodofme?’
  `Yes;very。’
  `ButImusttellhim。’
  `Who?’
  `Richard。’
  `Oh-ofcourse,ifyouthinkitnecessary。Butasitmeansnothingitmaybebotheringhimneedlessly。’
  `Well-areyousureyoumeanitonlyasmycousin?’
  `Absolutelysure。Ihavenofeelingsofloveleftinme。’
  `That’snews。Howhasitcometobe?’
  `I’veseenArabella。’
  Shewincedatthehit;thensaidcuriously,`Whendidyouseeher?’
  `WhenIwasatChristminster。’
  `Soshe’scomeback;andyounevertoldme!Isupposeyouwilllivewithhernow?’
  `Ofcourse-justasyoulivewithyourhusband。’
  Shelookedatthewindowpotswiththegeraniumsandcactuses,witheredforwantofattention,andthroughthemattheouterdistance,tillhereyesbegantogrowmoist。`Whatisit?’saidJude,inasoftenedtone。
  `Whyshouldyoubesogladtogobacktoherif-ifwhatyouusedtosaytomeisstilltrue-Imeanifitweretruethen!Ofcourseitisnotnow!HowcouldyourheartgobacktoArabellasosoon?’
  `AspecialProvidence,Isuppose,helpeditonitsway。’
  `Ah-itisn’ttrue!’shesaidwithgentleresentment。`Youareteasingme-that’sall-becauseyouthinkIamnothappy!’
  `Idon’tknow。Idon’twishtoknow。’
  `IfIwereunhappyitwouldbemyfault,mywickedness;notthatIshouldhavearighttodislikehim!Heisconsideratetomeineverything;
  andheisveryinteresting,fromtheamountofgeneralknowledgehehasacquiredbyreadingeverythingthatcomesinhisway……Doyouthink,Jude,thatamanoughttomarryawomanhisownage,oroneyoungerthanhimself-eighteenyears-asIamthanhe?’
  `Itdependsuponwhattheyfeelforeachother。’
  Hegavehernoopportunityofself-satisfaction,andshehadtogoonunaided,whichshedidinavanquishedtone,vergingontears:
  `I-IthinkImustbeequallyhonestwithyouasyouhavebeenwithme。PerhapsyouhaveseenwhatitisIwanttosay?-thatthoughIlikeMr。Phillotsonasafriend,Idon’tlikehim-itisatorturetometo-livewithhimasahusband!-There,nowIhaveletitout-I