"Why,havingsuchsecrets。"Shewasroundlyreadynow。"SacrificingpoorMay。"
  "ButYOU,dearlady,sacrificedpoorMay!Itdidn’tstrikeyouashorridTHEN。"
  "Well,thatwasonly,"shemaintained,"becauseyoutalkedmeover。"
  Iletherseethefullprocessofmytaking——ornottaking——thisin。
  "Andwhoisitthenthat——if,asyousay,you’vespokentonoone——has,asImaycallit,talkedyouunder?"
  Shecompleted,onthespot,herstatementofamomentbefore。"Notacreaturehasspokentome。"
  Ifeltsomehowthewishtomakehersayitinasmanywaysaspossible——I
  seemedsotoenjoyhersayingit。Thishelpedmetomakemytoneapproveandencourage。"You’vecommunicatedsolittlewithanyone!"Ididn’tevenmakeitaquestion。
  Itwasscarceyet,however,quitegoodenough。"Solittle?I’venotcommunicatedtheleastmite。"
  "Precisely。Butdon’tthinkmeimpertinentforhavingforamomentwondered。
  WhatIshouldsaytoyouifyouhad,youknow,wouldbethatyoujustaccusedme。"
  "Accusedyou?"
  "Oftalkingtoomuch。"
  Itcamebacktoherdim。"Areweaccusingeachother?"
  Hertoneseemedsuddenlytoputusnearertogetherthanwehadeverbeenatall。"Dearno,"Ilaughed——"noteachother;onlywitheachother’shelp,afewofourgoodfriends。"
  "Afew?"Shehandsomelydemurred。"Butoneortwoatthebest。"
  "Orattheworst!"——Icontinuedtolaugh。"Andnoteventhose,itafterallappears,verymuch!"
  Shedidn’tlikemylaughter,butshewasnowgrandlyindulgent。"Well,Iaccusenoone。"
  Iwassilentalittle;thenIconcurred。"It’sdoubtlessyourbestline;
  andIreallyquitefeel,atallevents,thatwhenyoumentionedawhilesincethatItalktoomuchyouonlymeanttoomuchtoYOU。"
  "Yes——Iwasn’timputingtoyouthesamedirectappeal。Ididn’tsuppose,"
  sheexplained,"that——tomatchyourownsuppositionofME——youhadresortedtoMayherself。"
  "Youdidn’tsupposeIhadaskedher?"Thepointwaspositivelythatshedidn’t;yetitmadeuslookateachotheralmostashardasifshedid。"No,ofcourseyoucouldn’thavesupposedanythingsocruel——allthemorethat,asyouknew,Ihadnotadmittedthepossibility。"
  Sheacceptedmyassent;but,oddlyenough,withasuddenqualificationthatshowedherasstillsharplydisposedtomakeuseofanyloosescrapofherembarrassedacuteness。"Ofcourse,atthesametime,youyourselfsawthatyournotadmittingthepossibilitywouldhavetakentheedgefromyourcruelty。It’snottheinnocent,"shesuggestivelyremarked,"thatwefeartofrighten。"
  "Oh,"Ireturned,"Ifear,mostly,Ithink,tofrightenANYone。I’mnotparticularlybrave。Ihaven’t,atallevents,inspiteofmycertitude,interrogatedMrs。Server,andIgiveyoumywordofhonourthatI’venothadanydenialfromhertopropupmydoubt。Itstillstandsonitsownfeet,anditwasitsownbattlethat,whenIcamehereatyoursummons,itwaspreparedtofight。Letmeaccordinglyremindyou,"Ipursued,"inconnectionwiththat,oftheonesenseinwhichyouwere,asyouamomentagosaid,talkedoverbyme。IpersuadedyouapparentlythatLong’smetamorphosiswasnottheworkofLadyJohn。Ipersuadedyouofnothingelse。"
  Shelookeddownalittle,asifagainatatrap。"Youpersuadedmethatitwastheworkofsomebody。"Thensheheldupherhead。"Itcametothesamething。"
  IfIhadcreditthenformytrapitatleastmightserve。"Thesamethingaswhat?"
  "Why,asclaimingthatitWASshe。"
  "PoorMay——’claiming’?WhenIinsisteditwasn’t!"
  Mrs。Brissendenflushed。"Youdidn’tinsistitwasn’tanybody!"
  "WhyshouldIwhenIdidn’tbelieveso?I’veleftyouinnodoubt,"
  Iindulgentlysmiled,"ofmybeliefs。Itwassomebody——anditstillis。"
  Shelookedaboutatthetopoftheroom。"Themistake’snowyours。"
  Iwatchedheraninstant。"Canyoutellmethenwhatonedoestorecoverfromsuchmistakes?"
  "Onethinksalittle。"
  "Ah,themoreI’vethoughtthedeeperI’vesunk!Andthatseemedtomethecasewithyouthismorning,"Iadded,"themoreYOUthought。"
  "Well,then,"shefranklydeclared,"Imusthavestoppedthinking!"
  Itwasaphenomenon,Isufficientlyshowed,thatthoughtonlycouldmeet。"Couldyoutellmethenatwhatpoint?"
  Shehadtothinkeventodothat。"Atwhatpoint?"
  "Whatinparticulardetermined,Imean,yourarrest?Yousurelydidn’t——launchedasyouwere——stopshortallofyourself。"
  Shefrontedme,afterall,stillsobravelythatIbelievedherforaninstantnottobe,onthisarticle,withoutananswershecouldproduce。
  Theunexpectedthereforebrokeformewhenshefairlyproducednone。"I
  confessIdon’tmakeout,"shesimplysaid,"whyyouseemsolittlepleasedthatIagreewithyou。"
  Ithrewback,indespair,bothheadandhands。"But,youpoor,dearthing,youdon’tintheLEASTagreewithme!Youflatlycontradictme。
  Youdenymymiracle。"
  "Idon’tbelieveinmiracles,"shepanted。
  "SoIexactly,atthislatehour,learn。ButIdon’tinsistonthename。
  Nothingis,Iadmit,amiraclefromthemomentone’sonthetrackofthecause,whichwasthescentwewerefollowing。Callthethingsimplymyfact。"
  Shegaveherhighheadatoss。"Ifit’syoursit’snobodyelse’s!"
  "Ah,there’sjustthequestion——ifwecouldknowall!Butmypointisprecisely,forthepresent,thatyoudodenyit。"
  "OfcourseIdenyit,"saidMrs。Briss。
  Itookamoment,butmysilenceheldher。"Your’ofcourse’wouldbewhatIwouldagaincontest,whatIwoulddenounceandbrandasthewordtoomuch——thewordthatspoils,wereitnotthatitseemsbest,thatitinanycaseseemsnecessary,toletallquestionofyourconsistencygo。"
  OnthatIhadpaused,and,asIfeltmyselfstillholdingher,Iwasnotsurprisedwhenmypausehadaneffect。"Youdoletitgo?"
  Shehadtried,Icouldsee,toputtheinquiryasallironic。Butitwasnotallironic;itwas,infact,littleenoughsotosuggestformesomeintensification——notquite,Itrust,wanton——ofhersuspense。Ishouldbeatalosstosayindeedhowmuchitsuggestedorhalfofwhatittold。
  Thesethingsagainalmostviolentlymovedme,andifI,afteraninstant,inmysilence,turnedaway,itwasnotonlytokeepherwaiting,buttomakemyelationmoreprivate。IturnedawaytothattunethatIliterally,forafewminutes,quittedher,availingmyselfthus,superficially,oftheairofweighingaconsequence。Iwanderedofftwentystepsand,whileIpassedmyhandovermytroubledhead,lookedvaguelyatobjectsontablesandsniffedabsentlyatflowersinbowls。Idon’tknowhowlongIsolostmyself,norquitewhy——asImustforsometimehavekeptitup——mycompaniondidn’tnowreallyembraceherpossiblealternativeofruptureandretreat。
  Orrather,astoheractioninthislastmatter,Iam,andwasonthespot,clear:IknewatthatmomenthowmuchSHEknewshemustnotleavemewithouthavinggotfromme。Itcamebackinwaves,inwiderglimpses,andproducedinsodoingtheexcitementIhadtocontrol。ItcouldNOTbutbeexcitingtotalk,aswetalked,onthebasisofthosesuppressedprocessesandunavowedreferenceswhichmadethemeaningofourmeetingsodifferentfromitsform。Weknewourselves——whatmovedme,thatis,wasthatsheknewme——tomean,ateverypoint,immenselymorethanIsaidorthansheanswered;
  justasshesawme,atthesamepoints,measurethespacebywhichheranswersfellshort。ThismademyconversationwithheratotallyotherandafarmoreinterestingthingthananycolloquyIhadeverenjoyed;
  ithadevenasharpnessthathadnotbelonged,afewhoursbefore,tomyextraordinaryinterviewwithMrs。Server。Shecouldn’taffordtoquarrelwithmeforcatechisingher;shecouldn’taffordnottohavekept,inherway,faithwithme;shecouldn’tafford,afterinconceivablepassageswithLong,nottotreatmeasanobservertobesquared。Shehadcomedowntosquareme;shewashangingontosquareme;shewassufferingandstammeringandlying;shewasbothcarryingitgrandlyoffandlettingitdesperatelygo:all,alltosquareme。AndIcaughtmoreoverperfectlyhervisionofherway,andIfollowedherwayevenwhileIjudgedit,feelingthattheonlypersonalprivilegeIcould,afterall,savefromthewholebusinesswasthatofunderstanding。Icouldn’tsaveMrs。Server,andIcouldn’tsavepoorBriss;ICOULD,however,guard,tothelastgrainofgold,myprecioussenseoftheirloss,theirdisintegrationandtheirdoom;anditwasforthisIwasnowbargaining。
  ItwasofgivingherselfawayjustenoughnottospoilformemybargainovermytreasurethatMrs。Briss’sbribewouldconsist。ShewouldletmeseeasfarasIwouldifshecouldfeelsureIwouldDOnothing;anditwasexactlyinthisquestionofhowmuchImighthavescaredmycoupleintothesenseICOULD"do"thatthesavourofmysuspensemostdwelt。
  Icouldhavemadethemuneasy,ofcourse,onlybymakingthemfearmyintervention;
  andyettheideaoftheirbeinguneasywaslesswonderfulthantheideaofmyhaving,withallmyprecautions,communicatedtothemaconsciousness。
  ThiswassothelastthingIhadwantedtodothatIfelt,duringmyswiftexcursion,howmuchtimeIshouldneedinthefutureforrecoveryoftheprocess——allofthefinestwind—blownintimations,wovenofsilenceandsecrecyandair——bywhichtheirsuspicionwouldhavethrobbedintolife。
  Icouldonly,provisionallyandsketchily,figureitout,thissuspicion,ashaving,littlebylittle——notwithasuddenstart——feltitselfinthepresenceofmyown,justasmyownnowreturnedthecompliment。Whatcamebacktome,asIhavesaid,inwavesandwiderglimpses,wasthemarveloftheirexchangeofsignals,thephenomenon,scarcetoberepresented,oftheirbreakinggroundwitheachother。Theybothhadtheirtreasuretoguard,andtheyhadlookedtoeachotherwiththeinstinctofhelp。
  Theyhadfelt,oneitherside,thevictimpossiblyslip,andtheyhadconnectedthepossibilitywithaninterestdiscerniblyinspiredinmebythispersonage,andwitharelationdiscoverablyestablishedbythatinterest。Itwouldn’thavebeenadanger,perhaps,ifthetwovictimshadn’tslippedtogether;
  andmoreamazing,doubtless,thananythingelsewastherecognitionbymysacrificingcoupleoftheopportunitydrawnbymysacrificedfrombeingconjoinedinmycharity。Howcouldtheyknow,GilbertLongandMrs。Briss,thatactivelytocommunicateaconsciousnesstomyotherfriendshadnopartinmyplan?ThemostIhaddreamedof,Icouldhonourablyfeel,wastoassuremyselfoftheirindependentpossessionofone。Thesethingswerewithmewhile,asIhavenoted,ImadeGraceBrissendenwait,anditwasalsowithmethat,thoughIcondonedherdeviation,shemusttakeitfrommeasacharity。Ihadpresentlyachievedanotherofmyfullrevolutions,andIfacedheragainwithaviewofherovertureandmyanswertoherlastquestion。Thetermswerenotaltogetherwhatmypitycouldhavewished,butIsufficientlykepteverythingtogethertohavetoseethattherewerelimitstomychoice。"Yes,Iletitgo,yourchangeoffront,thoughitvexesmealittle——andI’llinamomenttellyouwhy——tohaveto。Butletusputitthatit’sonacondition。"
  "Changeoffront?"shemurmuredwhileshelookedatme。"Yourexpressionsarenotofthehappiest。"
  ButIsawitwasonlyagaintocoveradoubt。Mycondition,forher,wasquestionable,andIfeltitwouldbestillmoresoonherhearingwhatitwas。Meanwhile,however,inspiteofherqualificationofit,Ihadfallenback,onceandforall,onpurebenignity。"ItscarcemattersifI’mclumsywhenyou’repracticallysobland。Iwonderifyou’llunderstand,"
  Icontinued,"ifImakeyouanexplanation。"
  "Mostprobably,"sheanswered,ashandsomeasever,"not。"
  "Letmeatalleventstryyou。It’smoreovertheoneIjustpromised;
  whichwasnomoreindeedthanthedevelopmentofafeelingI’vealreadypermittedmyselftoshowyou。Ilose"——Ibroughtitout——"byyouragreeingwithme!"
  "’Lose’?"
  "Yes;becausewhilewedisagreedyouwere,inspiteofthat,ontherightside。"
  "Andwhatdoyoucalltherightside?"
  "Well"——Ibroughtitoutagain——"onthesamesideasmyimagination。"
  Butitgaveheratleastachance。"Oh,yourimagination!"
  "Yes——Iknowwhatyouthinkofit;you’vesufficientlyhintedhowlittlethatis。Butit’spreciselybecauseyouregarditasrubbishthatInowappealtoyou。"
  Shecontinuedtoguardherselfbyhersurprises。"Appeal?Ithoughtyouwereontheground,rather,"shebeautifullysmiled,"ofdictation。"
  "Well,I’mthattoo。Idictatemyterms。Butmytermsareinthemselvestheappeal。"Iwasingeniousbutpatient。"See?"
  "HowintheworldcanIsee?"
  "Voyons,then。Lightordarkness,myimaginationridesme。Butofcourseifit’sallwrongIwanttogetridofit。Youcan’t,naturally,helpmetodestroythefacultyitself,butyoucanaidinthedefeatofitsapplicationtoaparticularcase。Itwasbecauseyousosmiled,before,onthatapplication,thatIvaluedevenmyminordifferencewithyou;andwhatIrefertoasmylossisthefactthatyourfrownleavesmestrugglingalone。Thebestthingforme,accordingly,asIfeel,istogetridaltogetheroftheobsession。
  Thewaytodothat,clearly,sinceYOU’VEdoneit,isjusttoquenchthefire。BythefireImeantheflameofthefancythatblazedsoforusthismorning。Whatthedeucehaveyou,foryourself,pouredonit?Tellme,"
  Ipleaded,"andteachme。"
  Equallywithhervoiceherfaceechoedmeagain。"Teachyou?"
  "Toabandonmyfalsegods。LeadmebacktopeacebythestepsYOU’VE
  trod。Bysomuchastheymusthaveremainedtraceabletoyou,shallIfindthemofinterestandprofit。Theymustinfactbemostremarkable:won’ttheyeven——forwhatimayfindinthem——bemoreremarkablethanthoseweshouldnowbetakingtogetherifwehadn’tseparated,ifwehadn’tpulledup?"ThatwasapropositionIcouldpresenttoherwithcandour,butbeforeherabsenceofprecipitationhadpermittedhermuchtoconsideritIhadalreadyfollowediton。"You’lljusttellme,however,thatsinceIdopullupandturnbackwithyouweshalljusthaveNOTseparated。Well,then,somuchthebetter——Iseeyou’reright。ButIwant,"Iearnestlydeclared,"nottoloseaninchofthejourney。"
  ShewatchedmenowasaRomanladyatthecircusmayhavewatchedanexemplaryChristian。"Thejourneyhasbeenaverysimpleone,"shesaidatlast。"Withmymindmadeuponasinglepoint,itwastakenatastride。"
  Iwasallinterest。"Onasinglepoint?"Then,as,almostexcessivelydeliberate,shestillkeptme:"YoumeanthestillcommonplacecharacterofLong’s——a——consciousness?"
  Shehadtakenatlastagainthetimesherequired。"DoyouknowwhatIthink?"
  "It’sexactlywhatI’mpressingyoutomakeintelligible。"
  "Well,"saidMrs。Briss,"Ithinkyou’recrazy。"
  Itnaturallystruckme。"Crazy?"
  "Crazy。"
  Iturneditover。"Butdoyoucallthatintelligible?"
  Shediditjustice。"No:Idon’tsupposeitCANbesoforyouifyouAREinsane。"
  Iriskedthelonglaughwhichmighthaveseemedthatofmadness。"’IfIam’islovely!"Andwhetherornotitwasthespecialsound,inmyear,ofmyhilarity,IrememberjustwonderingifperhapsImightn’tbe。"Dearwoman,it’sthepointatissue!"
  Butitwasasifshetoohadbeenaffected。"It’snotatissueformenow。"
  Igaveherthenthebenefitofmystirredspeculation。"Italwayshappens,ofcourse,thatoneisone’sselfthelasttoknow。You’reperfectlyconvinced?"
  Shenotungracefully,foraninstant,faltered;butsinceIreallywouldhaveit——!"Oh,sofaraswhatwe’vetalkedofisconcerned,perfectly!"
  "Andit’sactuallywhatyou’vecomedownthentotellme?"
  "Justexactlywhat。Andifit’sasurprisetoyou,"sheadded,"thatISHOULDhavecomedown——why,IcanonlysayIwaspreparedforanything。"
  "Anything?"Ismiled。
  "Inthewayofasurprise。"
  Ithought;butherpreparationwasnatural,thoughinamomentIcouldmatchit。"Doyouknowthat’swhatIwastoo?"
  "Prepared——?"
  "Foranythinginthewayofasurprise。ButonlyFROMyou,"Iexplained。
  "Andofcourse——yes,"Imused,"I’vegotit。IfIAMcrazy,"Iwenton——"it’sindeedsimple。"
  Sheappeared,however,tofeel,fromtheinfluenceofmypresenttone,theimpulse,incourtesy,toattenuate。"Oh,Idon’tpretendit’ssimple!"
  "No?Ithoughtthatwasjustwhatyoudidpretend。"
  "Ididn’tsuppose,"saidMrs。Briss,"thatyou’dlikeit。Ididn’tsupposethatyou’dacceptitorevenlistentoit。ButIowedittoyou——"Shehesitated。
  "Youowedittometoletmeknowwhatyouthoughtofmeevenshoulditproveverydisagreeable?"
  Thatperhapswasmorethanshecouldadopt。"Iowedittomyself,"sherepliedwithatouchofausterity。
  "ToletmeknowI’mdemented?"
  "ToletyouknowI’mNOT。"Weeachlooked,Ithink,whenshehadsaidit,asifshehaddonewhatshesaid。"That’sall。"
  "All?"Iwailed。"Ah,don’tspeakasifitweresolittle。It’smuch。
  It’severything。"
  "It’sanythingyouwill!"saidMrs。Brissimpatiently。"Good—night。"
  "Good—night?"Iwasaghast。"Youleavemeonit?"
  Sheappearedtoprofessforaninstantallthefreshnessofherownthatshewaspledgedtoguard。"Imustleaveyouonsomething。Icouldn’tcometospendawholehour。"
  "Butdoyouthinkit’ssoquicklydonetopersuadeamanhe’scrazy?"
  "Ihaven’texpectedtopersuadeyou。"
  "Onlytothrowoutthehint?"
  "Well,"sheadmitted,"itwouldbegoodifitcouldworkinyou。ButI’vetoldyou,"sheaddedasiftowindupandhavedone,"whatdeterminedme。"
  "Ibegyourpardon"——oh,Iprotested!"That’sjustwhatyou’venottoldme。Thereasonofyourchange——"
  "I’mnotspeaking,"shebrokein,"ofmychange。"
  "Ah,butiam!"Ideclaredwithasharpnessthatthrewherbackforaminuteonherreserves。"It’syourchange,"Iagaininsisted,"that’stheinterestingthing。IfI’mcrazy,Imustoncemoreremindyou,youweresimplycrazyWITHme;andhowcanIthereforebeindifferenttoyourrecoveryofyourwitorletyougowithouthavingwonfromyouthesecretofyourremedy?"Ishookmyheadwithkindness,butwithdecision。"Youmustn’tleavemetillyou’veplaceditinmyhand。"
  ThereservesIhadspokenofwerenot,however,tofailher。"Ithoughtyoujustsaidthatyouletmyinconsistencygo。"
  "Yourmoralresponsibilityforit——perfectly。ButhowcanIshowagreaterindulgencethanbypositivelydesiringtoenterintoitshistory?It’sinthatsensethat,asIsay,"Ideveloped,"Idospeakofyourchange。
  Theremusthavebeenagivenmomentwhentheneedofit——orwhen,inotherwords,thetruthofmypersonalstate——dawneduponyou。Thatmomentisthekeytoyourwholeposition——themomentforustofix。"
  "Fixit,"saidpoorMrs。Briss,"whenyoulike!"
  "Ihadmuchrather,"Iprotested,"fixitwhenYOUlike。Iwant——yousurelymustunderstandifIwantanythingofitatall——togetitabsolutelyright。"Thenasthispleaseemedstillnottomoveher,Ioncemorecompressedmypalms。"YouWON’Thelpme?"
  Shebridledatlastwithahighertoss。"Itwasn’twithsuchviewsI
  came。Idon’tbelieve,"shewentonashademorepatiently,"Idon’tbelieveifyouwanttoknowthereason——thatyou’rereallysincere。"
  Hereindeedwasanaffair。"Notsincere——i?"
  "Notproperlyhonest。Imeaningivingup。"
  "Givingupwhat?"
  "Why,everything。"
  "Everything?Isitaquestion"——Istared——"ofTHAT?"
  "YouwouldifyouWEREhonest。"
  "Everything?"Irepeated。
  Againshestoodtoit。"Everything。"
  "ButisthatquitethereadinessI’veprofessed?"
  "Ifitisn’tthen,whatis?"
  Ithoughtalittle。"Why,isn’titsimplyamatterratheroftherenunciationofaconfidence?"
  "Inyoursenseandyourtruth?"This,sheindicated,wasallsheasked。
  "Well,whatisthatbuteverything?"
  "Perhaps,"Ireflected,"perhaps。"Infact,itnodoubtwas。"We’lltakeitthenforeverything,andit’sassotakingitthatIrenounce。
  Ikeepnothingatall。NowdoyoubelieveI’mhonest?"
  Shehesitated。"Well——yes,ifyousayso。"
  "Ah,"Isighed,"Iseeyoudon’t!WhatcanIdo,"Iasked,"toproveit?"
  "Youcaneasilyproveit。Youcanletmego。"
  "Doesitstrikeyou,"Iconsidered,"thatIshouldtakeyourgoingasasignofyourbelief?"
  "Ofwhatelse,then?"
  "Why,surely,"Ipromptlyreplied,"myassenttoyourleavingourdiscussionwhereitstandswouldconstituteaverydifferentsymptom。Wouldn’titmuchratherrepresent,"Iinquired,"afailureofbeliefonmyownpartinYOURhonesty?Ifyoucanjudgeme,inshort,asonlypretending——"
  "Whyshouldn’tyou,"sheputinforme,"alsojudgeME?WhathaveI
  togainbypretending?"
  "I’lltellyou,"Ireturned,laughing,"ifyou’lltellmewhatihave。"
  Sheappearedtoaskherselfifshecould,andthentodecideinthenegative。"IfIdon’tunderstandyouinanyway,ofcourseIdon’tinthat。
  Putit,atanyrate,"shenowratherwearilyquavered,"thatoneofushasaslittletogainastheother。Ibelieveyou,"sherepeated。"There!"
  "Thanks,"Ismiled,"forthewayyousayit。Ifyoudon’t,asyousay,understandme,"Iinsisted,"it’sbecauseyouthinkmecrazy。AndifyouthinkmecrazyIdon’tseehowyouCANleaveme。"
  Shepresentlymetthis。"IfIbelieveyou’resincereinsayingyougiveupIbelieveyou’verecovered。AndifIbelieveyou’verecoveredIdon’tthinkyoucrazy。It’ssimpleenough。"
  "Thenwhyisn’titsimpletounderstandme?"
  Sheturnedabout,andthereweremomentsinherembarrassment,now,fromwhichshefairlydrewbeauty。Herawkwardnesswassomehownoble;hersenseofherpredicamentwasinitselfyoung。"IsitEVER?"shecharminglythrewout。
  IfeltshemustseeatthisjuncturehowwonderfulIfoundher,andeventhatthatimpression——one’swholeconsciousnessofherpersonalvictory——wasaforcethat,inthelastresort,wasallonherside。"Itwasquiteworthyourwhile,thissittinguptothishour,toshowafellowhowyoubloomwhenotherwomenarefagged。Ifthatwasreally,withthetruththatwe’resopullingaboutlaidbare,whatyoudidmostwanttoshow,why,then,you’vesplendidlytriumphed,andIcongratulateandthankyou。No,"Iquicklywenton,"Idaresay,todoyoujustice,theinterpretationofmytropesandfiguresISN’T’ever’perfectlysimple。YoudoubtlessHAVEdrivenmeintoacornerwithmydangerousexplosive,andmyonlyfaircoursemustbethereforetositonittillyougetoutoftheroom。I’msittingonitnow;andIthinkyou’llfindyoucangetoutassoonasyou’vetoldmeTHIS。Wasthemomentyourchangeofviewdawneduponyouthemomentofourexchangingawhileago,inthedrawing—room,ourfewwords?"
  Thelightthat,undermylastassurances,hadsoconsiderablyrevivedfadedinheralittleasshesawmeagaintacklethethemeofherinconstancy;
  buttheprospectofgettingridofmeonthesetermsmademyinquiry,nonetheless,worthtryingtoface。"Thatmoment?"Sheshowedtheefforttothinkback。
  Igavehereveryassistance。"Itwaswhen,afterthemusic,IhadbeentalkingtoLadyJohn。Youwereonasofa,notfarfromus,withGilbertLong;andwhen,onLadyJohn’sdroppingme,Imadeaslightmovementtowardyou,youmostgraciouslymetitbyrisingandgivingmeachancewhileMr。Longwalkedaway。"
  ItwasasifIhadhungthepicturebeforeher,sothatshehadfairlytolookatit。Butthepointthatshefirst,inhereffort,tookupwasnot,superficially,themostsalient。"Mr。Longwalkedaway?"
  "Oh,Idon’tmeantosaythatthathadanythingtodowithit。"
  Shecontinuedtothink。"Todowithwhat?"
  "Withthewaythesituationcomesbacktomenowaspossiblymarkingyourcrisis。"
  Shewondered。"Wasita’situation’?"
  "That’sjustwhatI’maskingyou。WASit?WasitTHEsituation?"
  Butshehadquitefallenawayagain。"Irememberthemomentyoumean——itwaswhenIsaidIwouldcometoyouhere。Butwhyshouldithavestruckyouasacrisis?"
  "Itdidn’tintheleastatthetime,forIdidn’tthenknowyouwerenolonger’with’me。ButinthelightofwhatI’vesincelearnedfromyouIseemtorecoveranimpressionwhich,onthespot,wasonlyvague。Theimpression,"Iexplained,"ofyourtakingadecisionthatpresentedsomedifficulty,butthatwasdeterminedbysomethingthathadthen——andevenperhapsalittlesuddenly——comeupforyou。That’sthepoint"——Icontinuedtounfoldmycase——"onwhichmyquestionbears。WASthis’something’yourconclusion,thenandthere,thatthere’snothinginanything?"
  Shekeptherdistance。"’Inanything’?"
  "AndthatIcouldonlybe,accordingly,outofmymind?Come,"Ipatientlypursued;"suchaperceptionasthathad,atsomeinstantorother,toBEGIN;
  andI’monlytryingtoaidyoutorecollectwhenthedevilitdid!"
  "Doesitparticularlymatter?"Mrs。Brissinquired。
  Ifeltmychin。"Thatdependsalittle——doesn’tit?——onwhatyoumeanby’matter’!Itmattersforyourmeetingmycuriosity,andthatmatters,initsturn,aswejustarranged,formyreleasingyou。Youmayaskofcourseifmycuriosityitselfmatters;buttothat,fortunately,myreplycanonlybeoftheclearest。Thesatisfactionofmycuriosityisthepacificationofmymind。We’vegranted,we’veaccepted,Iagainpressuponyou,inrespecttothatprecariousquantity,itstopsy—turvystate。Onlygivemealead;
  Idon’taskyouformore。Letmeforaninstantseeplaybeforemeanyfeeblereflectionwhateveroftheflashofnewtruththatunsettledyou。"
  Ithoughtforamomentthat,inherdespair,shewouldfindsomethingthatwoulddo。Butsheonlyfound:"Itdidn’tcomeinaflash。"
  Iremainedallpatience。"Itcamelittlebylittle?ItbeganthenperhapsearlierinthedaythanthemomenttowhichIallude?Andyet,"Icontinued,"wewereprettywellonintheday,Imustkeepinmind,whenIhadyourlastnewsofyourcredulity。"
  "Mycredulity?"